As night fell, the bottom of the flyover became my last home for the rest of my life. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

The late autumn night was extremely cold. Disheartened, I was even more isolated and helpless, curled up in a ball, leaning against the corner of the pier at the bottom of the bridge, waiting for God's judgment.

It's cold......

Mr. Andersen, is this how your little match girl endures the cold?

It's cold like this in late autumn, isn't it even colder for little girls in the cold winter?

Oh...... Little girl has matches to keep warm......

I shuddered, a stiff sneer on my frozen face.

I'm cold in late autumn, and the leaves are falling;

The little girl is cold in the cold winter, and matches keep warm.

……

Little girl, my brother's fate is as bitter as yours, right? Let's be friends in the next life, haha!

Confused, cranky, listening to the faint sound of the river and falling leaves, I fell asleep.

One day, it passed.

I lay on my side like a dead body, unwilling to even move my hands and feet, without eating or drinking, lying on my side, during the day looking at the muddy river and the fallen leaves that flew to the bottom of the bridge, the fallen leaves had almost half covered my body, you see, haha, I didn't even notice me when the wanderers who picked up the rags passed by, and a sense of achievement of hide and seek triumph welled up from the bottom of my heart.

Day after day, I don't know how long it took, but I was finally going to move.

Because, my craving for cigarettes has flinched......

I can skip food, I can skip water, I can even skip sleep, but I just can't live without smoke!

A smoke demon can't live without smoke. That's why I got cancer, and I didn't touch it for so many days because I was desperate, my heart ached, and I wanted to die soon!

It doesn't matter if you die of cold, starvation, or thirst.

So I endured.

But God seems to be joking, or God is busy with national affairs and has no time to pay attention to me, so he didn't come to pick me up!

I'm a cockroach, it's really troublesome!

On this day, I finally couldn't help it! The body has been turned into rotten copper and rotten iron, but the will to take a sip is very amazing, I was dizzy and dizzy like a walking corpse walked out of the bottom of the bridge, touched a small convenience store, and bought a box of cheap cigarettes for four yuan, ten boxes of one, this time I can smoke until I die, right?

After a hundred yuan and fifty yuan, he simply bought another stick of water and some bread, and returned to the bottom of the bridge with difficulty, enjoying the last extremely "rich" dinner......

At this time, there were no fallen leaves at the bottom of the bridge that had just stepped into winter, and the cold wind wantonly swept the temperature of my body, and I was even colder because I had wasted heat by walking.

I cursed the damn weather secretly, put the water and bread on the floor, opened another pack of cigarettes, and a smell stimulated my nerves that had been dormant for a long time, and I quickly lit one with a shudder, and took a deep breath......

Well......

What a god, what a ghost is a fart in my eyes! Now I think of the thin, short cigarette in my mouth as a god, as a ghost.

This feeling is the ******** in the world of drug addicts!

It's more than that couple looking for love!

Cool!

O biting cold wind, come on, come on, blow and blow, let me indulge at will!

The sound of the river is like the music of the fairies of the heavenly realm; The rotten fallen leaves, quietly melt your body into the soil, and next year's flowers and plants will become more beautiful!

Fellow, go to work, there's business here!

I dried the water in one go, and the bottle was given to pick up the rags, do you want bread?

……

The wanderer blinked with the tattered and disappeared......

I was stunned and held up the fresh bread, not understanding why he didn't want my bread.

Was it because he was afraid that lung cancer would infect him or was I scared him?

I laughed at the starry night, and it seemed that my sanity had reached the point where snakes and rats were afraid......

I was addicted, I finished eating the bread and lay down to sleep satisfied.

A new day is coming, and I'm one step closer to death......

I don't know how long it has been, but I feel that my body is weaker.

When I smoked, my lungs seemed to explode, and with each puff, I started to feel nauseous and vomited.

It's even more uncomfortable when sleeping. As soon as I lay down, I coughed, coughed constantly, coughed desperately, coughed until my lungs wanted to explode, coughed until I spit out black thick phlegm one by one, and coughed until I fainted directly......

Every time I wake up the next day, Lao Tzu raises a middle finger at the sky!

Your uncle, Lao Tzu is not dead, but living is worse than death!

You have a kind, torture me alive, and when Lao Tzu returns to the West, he will not provoke the Eastern and Western world wars, and Lao Tzu's surname is yes!

I got up tremblingly, walked to the river and looked at the slow flow, and I wondered if I should jump down or not.

I lit a cigarette and smoked it hard, but I couldn't take a few puffs of a cigarette, and I coughed it out, looking at the bloody cigarette butts, I gritted my teeth and walked to the river......

Just as I was about to plunge into the river, all of a sudden, a heavenly voice sounded behind me.

"Hey, what are you doing? You calm down and don't do stupid things, okay? ”

I turned my head to see that an electric current struck my heart......

It was a girl in her twenties, wearing a ponytail, a white dress, and a mobile phone in her hand, looking at me nervously.

"Can't you think of dying?"

I was so amazed by her beauty that I couldn't say a word, so I could only nod my head blankly.

I swear that if this girl could be my wife, I would be willing to reduce my life by ten years!

Well, it looks like I have less than half a month left to live......

I thought there was a fairy, and when I looked at her lovely face, I was falling into infinite imagination, and the fairy suddenly turned into a devil!

I saw that she was not surprised when she saw me nodding, jumped up to a meter high from the cold ground, and held the mobile phone in her hand to me, and then she yelled at the mobile phone, and said to herself: "Wow, finally let me run into the big news, fans, you see, it's this beggar, he just confirmed that he was going to jump into the river to die, and then it happened that I came to stop him in time, friends, this wave of six is not six?" Is it good to subscribe to go a wave? ”

I almost didn't have a mouthful of blood spurting out of my "poof"! I'll go to your uncle's job for a long time, and it turns out to be a beautiful anchor!

I looked up to the sky and smiled bitterly, this world is very changing, I can meet the live broadcast when I jump into a river, what do you say I should do now?

"Hey, that, uncle, can you face the camera a little bit? My fans can't see it clearly......"

I gritted my teeth, and finally yelled at the beauty, "Get out!"

The beautiful woman was startled by my sudden shouting, and her phone almost fell to the ground unsteadily. She said a little dumbfounded, "You...... Why are you yelling? ”

I twisted my crooked body, stood up like a zombie, and danced at the beautiful anchor: "Are you rolling?" Don't you anymore, old children! ”

I was really upset by her coming to such a play, so I intimidated her, I didn't expect that she was so timid, and the beauty was so frightened by me that she didn't even want her mobile phone, she was frightened, crying and crying and choosing a way to escape......

After scaring away the beautiful anchor, I inadvertently caught a glimpse of the phone screen full of messages:

"Wow, where did the anchor go?"

"Be careful upstairs, the anchor has been robbed, call the police quickly!"

"On the first floor, the anchor almost got wet to a monster uncle."

"Really? What happened? I just came in and didn't see it. ”

"Visually, Uncle is a snake spirit disease."

"It's wrong, it's too much."

"Upstairs is right."

“666666666”

……

I squirted a mouthful of blood directly on the screen of my phone......

That's it, since the sky is going to kill me, and there is no inch of land for me, then bury yourself in the belly of the fish and no longer be an eyesore in this world!

Disheartened, I walked back to the river......

Stop, look out and salute the rushing river!

Although Lao Tzu's body is rotten, his indomitable spirit is still there, and it will be spread in the hearts of tens of millions of fans through the live broadcast room of beautiful women!

Come on, let the storm come harder!

Goodbye, my compatriots!

I closed my eyes and plunged into the river......

A minute later I swam ashore, my lips blue and my eyes white in the cold wind.

This ...... of Nima This water is too cold, it has frozen me for half a century, held my breath for a long time, and I can't die for a while, but his brother-in-law's biting cold is torment!

I finally understood what it means to "die is not terrible, what is terrible is to wait for death." "Hands-on experience!

I don't want to commit suicide by jumping into the river anymore, Lao Tzu thinks this way of dying is too uncomfortable, and I want to find someone to die happily.

So I thought, why don't I cut my wrists and commit suicide, I don't have to hold my breath so desolately.

As soon as I said I, I began to look along the grass of the river dam to see if there was anything sharp, something that could cut meat.

Search, search, search, but it makes me extremely depressed, what is this?

Milk cartons, beverage bottles, plastic bags...... Nima's even has a woman's aunt towel, wipe it! What a bad luck!

You human beings are really high-quality, and you specially throw garbage into the grass, which not only adds chemical elements to the flowers and plants to supplement the "nutrition", but also saves the sanitation workers a lot of workload, killing two birds with one stone, amazing, 66 ta!

But the problem is, I haven't found my stuff yet. I continued to look and seek, and in order to find something to commit suicide, I was stunned to find Henan from Hebei, cough cough, it was the north side of the river that found the south side of the river.

Finally, the emperor paid off and let me find a rusty and usable knife in a garbage heap!

Haha, I cried with joy as if I had found an ancient artifact, and ran back frantically with both hands tightly holding my heart and liver baby.

Hey? No, why do I need to run back to the bottom of the bridge if I cut my wrist and commit suicide? Isn't it all over here with a knife?

It dawned on me that I immediately stopped and found a clean place to sit cross-legged. I reached over to the grass and rubbed the rust off it, and when I was almost done, I was ready to start.

But here comes a tangled question - is it better for me to cut my left wrist or my right wrist?

I'm sorry, I'm just a grinder and chirping person, my nature is hard to change, even suicide can't change my principles.

Brother is a girl, how about you like to grind and chirp? I don't accept you to beat me!

I began to think: rural people are used to wearing rings when they get married, so they should cut off their left wrists!

So I went under the knife. Holding the knife in his right hand, he gritted his teeth and dragged the knife on his left wrist and hand vein......

Wouldn't it, such a blunt knife? I've already used eight points of force, and I only scratched a hint of reddish skin!

I dragged back and forth a few more times, and I used up ten percent of my strength!

It didn't cut the flesh, but the layers of skin were scraped out.

Spicy spicy pain!

I want to cry without tears, is Nima committing suicide or self-harm?

Have you ever eaten lychee? Now my left wrist is like a lychee that has been peeled off, and there is no flesh and blood, only thin skin, and the fire burns with a faint pain.

God, your old man will torture me, okay let me get a knife!

I grinned in pain and handed the knife to my left hand......

Since the right-hand brother doesn't give you strength, then well, I'll cut you!

I'm a left-hander, and I believe that even if the knife is blunt, the strength of the left hand is greater than that of the right hand, so I should be able to cut the flesh this time, right?

I held the knife in my left hand, pressed the edge of the knife on my right wrist, and dragged it hard with all my strength......

Thank God and God! I finally dragged out a deep gap, and finally saw a red liquid spray out, staining the grass red......

I was ecstatic that I finally made it! The already weak body became dizzy at this time due to excessive blood loss.

I lay straight on the ground, the sun released by the winter sun was very warm, shining on my body that was slowly becoming cold, my consciousness began to blur, and it became more and more difficult to breathe, hey, it seemed that my hands and feet were not feeling anymore, why are I so sleepy? It's a lack of oxygen to the brain due to excessive blood loss, well, good, God, I'm here......

When I woke up, I didn't see God shining all over his body in holy clothes, but when I opened my eyes, I saw an old beggar, smoking my cheap cigarette, leaning against the edge of the bridge, staring blankly at the tall buildings across the riverbank......

No, it's not that the eyes are blank, he's ...... No eyeballs!

He's blind, an old beggar without eyeballs!

Moreover, it was he who saved me, because the old beggar's trousers were gone and wrapped around my right wrist......

Your uncle's!

I angrily wanted to go up and ask the old beggar why he wanted to save me, and finally I was almost freed, this dead old donkey is nosy, who wants you to be a good person? Don't you know if this is hurting me?

I walked more swayingly, and I guess the blood, though stopped by the old beggar, had lost a few buckets. The dead old man didn't have disinfectant water, and he wrapped his dirty pants around my hands, not knowing if it would be infected with viruses and bacteria!

The thought of Lao Tzu's wound may become inflamed and become more painful makes me feel a chill in my heart, but more of it is anger!

"You dead old man, did you save me? Who told you to meddle in your business, do you know......" I scolded and limped close to the old beggar, but when I saw the old beggar's lower body clearly, my throat seemed to be choked with pliers, and I couldn't speak.

The old beggar's legs were empty......

It turned out that he was not only blind, but also a disabled person with high paraplegia!

So, how did he save me?

My eyes caught a glimpse of the old beggar's hands, covered in dust and blood......

He's crawling and dragging me back here!

My anger seemed to disappear in an instant, my throat choked, and I sat quietly next to the old beggar.

The old beggar remained motionless, still looking into the distance.

The benefactor didn't speak, and I naturally kept silent.

In this way, the old and the young stared into the distance like statues, and the bridge was wide and wide, and the cold wind was bitter, and the night gradually fell, and layers of frost and snow drifted down on the withered yellow grass.

On the opposite side of the riverbank, high-rise buildings are brightly lit and full of people; On this side of the riverbank, the small corner of the bridge pier, the black light is blind, and there is no trace.

At this time, the old beggar beside me suddenly spoke, no, not to speak, but to recite poetry!

Under the vicissitudes of life, the dry and cracked lips opened slightly: "When the small door and the small family were young, the building was big and the garden was in charge. Open the sky and spill blood, and stand alone in the banner to establish a dynasty. Attract the rats to pry the inner door, burn the outer door, and destroy the elders. Two roads and one point, 100,000 dry bones were once coquettish......"

"Zhumen's wine and meat stink, and there are frozen bones on the road!"

The old beggar said slowly, and two lines of tears overflowed from his empty eyes......

I knew that the old beggar had come to this point, and there must be a bitter story behind him, so I listened quietly without saying a word.

After a long while, the old beggar slowly withdrew his emotions, turned his head slightly, and asked if I wanted to hear the story.

I said that I thought about it, and he began to talk about it, saying that a long time ago, there was a child in the mountains who came out to work because his family was poor and he didn't study for a few years.

The child's age is not enough to be a worker, so he can only work in a secret illegal factory in the city, the boss squeezes wages and continues to extend working hours, such a long time of oppression finally makes the employees rebel, the child is ambitious, matured a lot, fanned the wind and took the lead to lead the brother to take down the factory in one go, signed a contract with the boss, and used the huge funds provided by the boss to quickly form a gang and soon became famous in the rivers and lakes, and the yellow robe sat on the shoulders of the boss. Since then, it has been even more brilliant and more vigorous, and has almost unified the underground world.

However, the boy in the mountains is fed by the mountains and rivers after all, and even if he becomes fierce, there is still a trace of kindness in his heart.

It is this trace of kindness that buried the brothers and elders who silently accompanied him to build the "country", as well as the fall of their times......

At that time, the boy was already a man, and he saved a woman, a woman with a gentle appearance and no power to restrain the chicken, in a knife and stick fight. And from the moment he comes into contact with a woman, the man falls in love with her......

Even if he knew that this woman did not love him.

Women pretend to be men every day, little by little they divide and disintegrate men's brothers, the shrewd man sees everything in his eyes, he has no courage to drive away women, let alone hurt women, he only loves her, not hate.

So he had to do his best to maintain the righteousness and trust between his brothers, but unfortunately the means behind the woman seemed to be superior, and finally, this underground dynasty was separated, and the brothers who used to fight side by side became wolves fighting for hegemony, all kinds of ferocious fights, and the man witnessed a brother cut off his brother's head, and that head went out and died without looking away.

And the brother rushed into the fight without even blinking an eye......

There were few brothers left of his dynasty, and the woman was in charge of his underground dynasty, and he was ordered to be hunted down......

In the process of escaping for his life, his eyeballs were gouged out, and he also lost his legs, but he is still alive!

Because the woman gave him a hunt and kill order of "as long as the parts don't want to live"!

A part is 1 million, and the pursuer who loses his life will be ordered to hunt and kill.

No one dared to take his life, only his eyes and legs.

He survived, even if life was difficult.

He needs a reason to figure out why women hate him so much!

He couldn't ask the woman personally, because the woman refused to see him, and he naturally couldn't get close to the woman when he lost his vision and action.

So, he wandered around the city and became the old beggar he is now......

Another infatuation. I shook my head secretly, in the TV series, infatuation is always a dead seed, and there is no good end.

Isn't this society like this? The more you value something in life, the easier it is to lose.

"Young man, can you tell me why you are so short-sighted?" Just as I was thinking about it, the old beggar suddenly asked.

I was stunned, looked gloomily at the sky, and said helplessly: "Lung cancer, terminal disease, hopeless!"

The old beggar was silent.

I patted the old beggar on the shoulder, said haha, and said, "Don't worry, old man, at least I still have you, a big man who gallops through the storm, to collect the body, hehe."

The old beggar seemed to be infected by my broadness, and his face was now smiling.

We old and young laughed loudly by the river, talking about the past and the present, not very free and happy.

It's a pity that the weather temperature has become colder in the cold winter months.

At night, the old beggar and I almost froze at the bottom of the bridge, and a biting cold wind with frost wantonly invaded our hungry and cold bodies, and the old beggar was old, and the hungry and cold two people huddled together to resist the cold, and the next day, I woke up to find that the old beggar's body had stiffened......

Life is so fragile, so fragile that you leave this world without even having time to say hello.

I did not grieve, because I knew that the old beggar was not lonely on the Yellow Springs Road, and I soon caught up with him and walked with him......

It's just a pity that he left with regret, and he never had the opportunity to ask why women resented him.

However, when I was cleaning up the body of the old beggar, I found a crumpled photo, which was taken by the old beggar when he was young, the old beggar and a good-looking woman stood together and smiled and photographed, the background was a cloud of white clouds, and two people leaned back to back on a large stone with the words "Deep Vibration First Peak" written on it.

I was stunned when I saw the words on the big rock, and a strong desire surged in my heart!

The first peak!

I want to conquer it!

I kicked the picture into my trouser pocket, bowed deeply three times to the old beggar's body, lit three cheap cigarettes and put them on the ground to see the old beggar off, took the remaining packs of cigarettes, and turned to walk out......

I decided that I wanted to leave my body at the top of the first peak......

After going to the convenience store and asking the owner to help dispose of the old beggar's body, I set off along the road.

I'm not afraid that the boss doesn't care, after all, his store is closest to the bottom of the bridge, not to mention that it may scare customers, in case the corpse stinks, it is also the convenience store here near the water to get the "smell", and he just called the police and let the police deal with it......

The old beggar who has no relatives must not have a shrine to place his ashes in this city, and his final destination is just to spill into the sea.

Death is like a lamp going out, and ashes are just a pile of remnants, and there is no need to enjoy such noble storage. The old beggar was entangled by knots for most of his life when he was alive, and perhaps, the boundless sea made him more free......

I asked people all the way, and slowly approached my destination with the geography knowledge I had learned before. By moving forward, I knew that the first peak was in the tourist area of Wutong Mountain, which was 60 kilometers away.

My body was starting to get out of control, it was getting harder and harder to take a step, I could only see within five meters, and my breathing was getting more and more painful, but I didn't want to give up.

Climbing to the first peak was my only dream in the end!

I desperately want to stand on top of the big rock, stand on it and take a closer look at the world, see this world that I love and hate, and I can't let go!

I guess I've walked half the way, and I checked with passers-by again, but it seems that my appearance has scared many people, not to mention the smelly and dirty, but my twisted and shrunken face and bony body, as well as the blood clots condensed on my chin, neck and chest, scared passers-by, and finally met a sweeping old uncle who told me all the routes in detail.

Hehe, I don't want to scare you, but along the way, my lung cancer cells have been following, and now it should have expanded to the whole body, I am now vomiting blood before I finished smoking a cigarette, and the blood that was spit out was frozen by the cold wind, condensing on my chin, neck, and chest......

I couldn't wipe off the clot, because my hands were no longer strong, and it was all a will that pushed me forward, mechanically, and I couldn't drink the water by the ditch, and I didn't search the trash can for dinner, and I picked up a stick and used it as a crutch, and struggled forward in the cold wind......

I don't know how many years have passed, but it's been a long, long time anyway, and I've arrived.

I struggled to open my eyes covered with and dust, and saw the words "Wutong Mountain" at the entrance, and my dying heart beat a few more times.

I'm finally here! I wanted to cry with joy, I wanted to cry out loud, but my body didn't allow me to do that anymore, my mouth could only make a "ho-ho-ho" sound, because I could feel my throat full of phlegm and blood, and now, I couldn't even smoke......

But I still want to express how happy I am now. My brain controlled the ten frozen fingers to pluck and wiggle gently, singing silently in my heart......

You're my little apple, I can't love you enough.

I'm going to fly higher, fly higher!

……

I silently celebrated myself for a while, and then, climbed the mountain.

The old man who swept the floor told me that the altitude of the first peak was 943.7 meters, and I just replied: "Wow, it's so high......"

It's so high!

Is it high? I've come 60 kilometers and I'm still afraid of you more than 900 meters?

Wutong Mountain is a tourist scenic spot, the famous kind. But now in the cold winter of Layue, it is cold and windy, who has a hot head and comes here to climb the mountain? It's dangerous and deserted, and if something happens in the mountains, no one calls an ambulance...... So, when I walked into the entrance of the mountain step by step, I really didn't find a single figure.

It doesn't matter if he has someone or not, no one is better, so that there are fewer people in the way of climbing, and he can climb faster!

Dimly, I could only see a light gray staircase stretching from the foot of the mountain into the mist, a long, long staircase......

In fact, I don't know if it extends into the clouds or where, because I can only see a blurry shadow in the distance within a meter of vision, so I can't know exactly how long the stairs to the summit are.

It's long anyway.

I trembled and stretched out my feet and stepped on the steps, only to find that things were not so simple.

This damn cold wind is really strong, and the strength to go up the stairs is much greater than walking on the flat road to support the body up.

The most damned thing is freezing, frozen heads, frozen hands and feet, frozen respiratory tracts......

As soon as I took a step, I fell and fell back to where I was.

The head froze, the brain failed to give instructions to the hands and feet in time, and as soon as the wind blew, it collapsed; His hands and feet froze, he failed to find his body's balance, and when the wind blew, he collapsed; The most serious thing is that the respiratory tract is frozen, breathless, and the brain is not oxygenated, and he directly falls back to the same place in the dark......

Another gust of wind blew, and I was blown to the ground again, and half an hour passed, and I still couldn't take a step, still in place. Looking at the long staircase, my heart longed even stronger, because I knew that at the end of the staircase, at the top, there, stood a big stone, a very beautiful big stone......

I was unwilling, and my heart was in a hurry, as if a lump of liquid was pouring out of my stomach, and I spat out a mouthful of thick blood.

My brain immediately felt dizzy, and I lay on the hard ground, feeling the ground spinning rapidly......

It took a long time for the dizziness in my brain to fade, and at this time, I was pleasantly surprised to find that the cold wind seemed to have become smaller!

What made me even more crazy was that I vomited blood, my lungs seemed to be much more relaxed, and the oxygen supply to my brain seemed to be a little more, both my thinking and my vision were a little clearer than before.

I finally stopped cursing at God, and walked up with a "determined" face as if I had regained my freedom......

One-step......

Two-step ......

Three-step ......

……

At this moment, I am a mountaineering warrior, climbing mountains in harsh environments, and as long as I reach the top of the mountain, I am the one who breaks the Guinness World Record!

The only climber of the first peak of the advanced winter of lung cancer!

The first person in the world so far!

An hour later, I had reached an altitude of at least 100 meters......

Because this 100-meter elevation is not so steep steps, the further back you go, the steeper and more winding the road.

I underestimated this first peak, there are many at the foot of the mountain, but to think of the highest point of the mountain, you have to walk through at least two sub-mountains!

What is Sub-Mountain? It is a mountain that is shorter than the first peak, and the construction of the stairs is also slowly paved from the sub-mountain to the summit of the first peak, which means that I can not climb directly to the top of the mountain from the stairs I am climbing now......

I climbed to the top of Zishan and followed the stairs to go around, and then to the foot of another Zishan, and then went up again...... Finally, you can reach the foot of the main body of the first peak, and when you reach the peak, you will find the location of the big rock.

The road is winding up, and the distance of the road is almost sixty or seventy kilometers......

And it's also a steep slope......

Now, I'm on the mountainside of the First Son, but here is the fruit of my blood.

I sat down on the stairs, breathing hard, my lungs already hot and my brain feeling dizzy again.

My mouth was so dry that I didn't feel hunger. If I continue like this, I will not be able to reach the top of the mountain due to severe dehydration. So I tried to find some water, fortunately God was more kind to me, I found a mineral water bottle with half the water in a tuft of grass, and I didn't care if it was clean or not, I opened it and drank two small sips, and the water slid into my stomach, and I instantly became much more energetic.

The quiet mountains gave me an incomparably intimate warmth and a sense of familiarity. Don't forget that I grew up in the mountains, and I have an inseparable affection for nature.

At this moment, it is close to dusk, the sun is setting, although there are no birds in the cold winter, the flowers and plants are withering, and they are all yellow, but the sunshine in the mountains in the cold is so warm, so mild......

Many years ago, wasn't my grandfather, who was in the advanced stage of esophageal cancer, on the top of the mountain, quietly watching the sunset, smiling and smiling?

Mountaintop! Yes, at the top of the mountain!

I was suddenly full of fighting spirit again, stopped resting, and continued to climb to the top of Zishan Mountain......

I don't know how long I climbed again, but the night was slowly falling, and the stairs became darker and darker, and finally I could only climb by relying on the little moonlight reflected off the marble stairs.

During this time, I went into shock once, vomited blood twice, and finally reached the top of the mountain in the middle of the night without a trace of moonlight......

The summit of the first sub-mountain!

I stood on the top of the mountain, inhaling the air, gesturing excitedly with a stick to the starry sky, like the music conductor, sharing my joy with heaven and fate.

At this moment, I seemed to tell everyone that I did it, and look, I am a big step closer to the first peak of Shenzhen!

After the excitement of being alone with my friends hibernating in the dark night and in the mountains, I decided to rest for two hours first, otherwise I don't know if this shell will make it to the end......

Although the temperature is not the lowest tonight, the fog and frost in the mountains are still quite large, and you can't just lie down on the stairs to sleep, the human body can't bear it.

I spent at least half an hour fumbling in the darkness of the night, and found some hay and discarded clothes from travelers, probably left over in summer and autumn, and the rot of the clothes had reached seventy or eighty percent, but it was not my turn to be picky at this time, and it was already good to have them.

Half of the hay is spread on the stairs, and the other half of the hay is covered with a quilt with waste clothes, and even the head is covered tightly, which not only blocks the cold wind but also covers the fog, don't you say, it's really much warmer!

Soon, after a tiring day, I fell asleep with a sweet smile......

I don't know how long I slept, but I was woken up by a strong cold wind.

While I was packing up the "quilt", I cursed in my heart about the unpredictable weather - yesterday my eyes were bright and warm like spring, and this morning there was a strong wind, and it seems that Nima's still wants to rain!

While lighting a cigarette, I dug up a weed that could be eaten, and chewed a box of milk that had been found from the grass and had expired for an unknown period of time.

The wind is getting stronger, and the temperature is getting lower and lower. I felt like my fingers were going to freeze together, and the unfortunate thing was that it was raining......

Thunder was sensational, lightning flashed and thundered. It was the morning when the sun was rising, but the sky was very dark and cloudy.

The rain was blowing, and the cold wind irrigated the rain on my body, exacerbating the already small amount of temperature in my body.

I can't choose to shelter from the rain, and in fact there is nowhere to shelter from the rain. There is only upright grass next to the stairs, and there are some pine trees that are not tall or short, but the terrain is dangerous, and if you want to go under the trees to take shelter from the rain, I believe that the rolling rain will sweep you down in an instant, from the top of the mountain to the bottom of the mountain......

Standing on the top of Zishan Mountain, I cursed in my heart while preparing to go down the mountain, and go down the stairs to another Zishan.

I walked down the hill carefully step by step with my stick. As a child in the mountains, he naturally knows the skills of going down the mountain. There is an old saying: it is easy to go up the mountain but difficult to go down. Don't think that going down the mountain is easier than going up, first, you are tired of climbing up the mountain, and your hands and feet are sore; The second is to go down the mountain and lean forward with the center of gravity of the body, coupled with the violent storm, if you don't pay attention to it, you will roll down and break your bones.

One step at a time, one foot determines life and death. In this way, I trembled and trembled, and slowly descended the slope like a snail in the wind and rain.

Perhaps God knew that my time was short, and he did not embarrass me when he came down the mountain, but in the evening, I safely climbed the first mountain and reached the foot of the second mountain.

Although there were no accidents, my lung cancer cells were becoming more and more active. When I was ready to rest at night, I kept coughing, coughing until I vomited blood, and I was lying on the wet stairs coughing.

This is the consequence of the rain. The cold wind and cold rain invaded for a day, and my body finally couldn't help but protest.

I had a fever. I burned so much that I couldn't tell the difference between southeast and northwest, and I had chills and fever all over my body, so uncomfortable and uncomfortable. The only thing I could do was lie on the stairs, drenched in the rain, wrapped tightly in my thin, rotten cotton clothes, shivering, shivering, and waiting for the dawn......

It rained for a day and a night. I was so confused that I finally couldn't stay up and fell asleep......

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I'm starting to have nightmares...... It's so cold! Is it still raining? God, so you've been playing with me...... It's so warm...... Is it daylight? The sun is out...... My stomach hurts...... It's night again...... Where is this......

I don't know how many days I've been asleep, but when I was really conscious, my jaw, neck, and chest were melted away by lying on the stairs for a long time......

Soak in stagnant water and melt ......

So, the blood clot was gone, but there were a lot of blisters on my body, and the skin in front of me was rotten, and I curiously pierced one with a grass thorn, and it was thick and full of white pus.

It felt like a swarm of maggots crawling on my skin, and it was a little painful, as if an ant's mouth was biting.

However, these minor problems are not a problem at all, because the nerves in my brain are already dead and my sensitivity is weakened, and I would rather have more rotten skin than the discomfort in my lungs so that the pain and itching can offset the pain inside me!

Also, I'm lucky to have a fever to the point where I can't die, so I have to hurry!