Chapter 80: What I Want
Night, fall. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info The sky loses the light of the sun, and the cold light of the stars replaces it. Yan Huiqi looked at the silver-white moon that rose into the sky, and her heart felt more sad. After Rao Yu flew away, she had been thinking about what she wanted.
She really wanted to do something, and she didn't think about it at first when she was in the secret service, because the agents' actions were given purpose, belief, and expectation.
At that time, she didn't have to really think about what she wanted, she just had to follow the troops, and the wish born on the way: to find her parents. In the end, it was also strangled on the day of Yalan's accident.
After Yalan's accident, Yan Huiqi quit the special team. Perhaps, that is, from that moment on, she no longer has her own ideas, no purpose, no beliefs, and no one else expects her.
Like a doll left in the world by God, all she has to do every day is how to pass the time, surf the Internet, play games, and never think about how she wants to live her life, or even think about who she will like. She just wants this kind of pure life, as long as it stays clean like this.
To be a detective is nothing more than a superficial job that Yalan is afraid of worrying about himself. She has long lived like a lonely soul, with no past and no future.
However, now, in this place that is backward in the era of rapid development, she has to start thinking about what she wants for the first time. No longer drift with your heart, but learn to stay with someone.
actually gave her an expectation for someone like her, isn't Han Luoling afraid of cold? Yan Huiqi lowered her head and cried softly in the room surrounded by darkness. The darkness here was like her heart, and it didn't shine any light.
Everyone will cover up, and different people have different ways to cover up. Some are cold black, some are warm white. Her laughter deceived a lot of people, didn't she? Everyone thinks that she is the heartless Yan Huiqi, it's rare to be confused, no, what's wrong with being confused all the time? What's wrong with living like this stupid and going with your heart? What's so bad about living like a hollow doll?
At least, the heart won't hurt as much as it does now. Why, exactly? Obviously I don't like Ming Fan, and I obviously said that I want to avoid Han Luoling. Why did these two people give themselves shelter and why? She didn't want to pay it back, she didn't want to wake up, she didn't want to pursue what she wanted, she didn't want to.
Well? Seeing a few fallen leaves falling from the place where the courtyard had just been swept up, Xiaoshuang couldn't help but look up at the maple tree in front of him. This old tree was directly facing the house where Yan Huiqi was, and Xiaoshuang couldn't figure out why Han Luoling would throw Yan Huiqi into that room. After all, in that house, Han Luoling used to walk in alone and live for a few days every time he was lost.
Although it was clean, every time he walked into that room, Xiaoshuang still felt a sense of sadness. Obviously, there is nothing particularly hurtful to put out, but perhaps the heartache that Han Luoling has accumulated for too long is borne by this room, and this room is also full of a kind of sadness and faint longing.
Xiaoshuang lowered the corners of his eyes, is this a punishment for Yan Huiqi? Let her feel her grief too. Thinking of Yan Huiqi, Xiaoshuang stopped what he was doing and looked at the closed door of the room in a daze.
Ever since Rao Yu flew away, the windows of that room had been closed. Yan Huiqi didn't show up either, he tried to call Yan Huiqi out to eat, but it was useless. Even if he pushed the door open, Yan Huiqi just smiled at him faintly: Thank you, no need. I'm not hungry!
The coldness and loneliness in his eyes were the same as when Han Luoling was in that room, was it really a sad house?
Lighting the candles, Xiaoshuang walked to Yan Huiqi's door and knocked, there was no movement inside, Xiaoshuang wondered if he was asleep? However, I don't feel at ease!
Frowning and thinking about it, Xiaoshuang still gently pushed the door open. He was taken aback by what he saw. Yan Huiqi lay quietly on the cold floor, staring blankly at the moon outside the window, the light of the candle faintly formed an orange-red circle on her face, her expression was very peaceful and a little confused.
Belch...... Xiaoshuang was stunned for a long time before he dared to ask "Miss......"
Yan Huiqi glanced at Xiaoshuang, and slowly sat up, "Xiaoshuang, do you have any dreams?" ”
"Huh? Dream? Xiaoshuang walked to Yan Huiqi's side suspiciously, Yan Huiqi nodded, beckoned to him and motioned for him to sit beside him, "It's what you want, what you want to do, and you don't want to lose anything!" ”
Xiaoshuang looked at Yan Huiqi's face, and his depressed appearance made him feel that this was completely different from the Yan Huiqi who was always alive and kicking in his memory.
Lowering his head, Xiaoshuang smiled, "I don't like Miss's sad and confused look!" ”
Well? Yan Huiqi looked at Xiaoshuang suspiciously.
"Isn't it very simple to do what you have in your heart and chase what you want? Why think about it for so long, especially now to think about what will happen in the future, it is better to start acting now, after all, if you don't chase what you want, you may miss your life! Xiaoshuang stood up and looked at Yan Huiqi, "I like that young lady before, although sometimes very silly, but always vibrant, even if I do something wrong, I just grin and bring it, such a happy miss, Xiaoshuang has always been envious!" ”
"Even if you do something wrong, you just giggle and bring it ......," Yan Huiqi said softly, repeating Xiaoshuang's words. The reason why I can take it lightly is because I don't care! If you cared, you wouldn't think like that.
The young lady in Xiaoshuang's impression always doesn't buy the prince's account, and smiles all day long. However, if the young lady feels tired of laughing all day long, sometimes she can take a break, and if you like it, you like it, and if you don't like it, you don't like it. When you're tired, you should go and rest, shouldn't you? Xiaoshuang tilted his head and looked at Yan Huiqi.
It was the first time he had said these words, and he didn't know what affected him, but he said them so bluntly. If it were another young lady, he would definitely feel that what he said was wrong, but he looked at Yan Huiqi in front of him, and there was contemplation and reflection in her eyes.
After being silent for a long time, Yan Huiqi suddenly laughed, she raised her head slightly and looked at the moonlight outside the window, "Yes, if you like it, if you don't like it, if you don't like it, you should go to rest when you are tired, you should pursue what you want, even if you do something wrong, you can take it with a smile...... Thank you, Little Shuang! ”
Not...... Yan Huiqi felt that Xiaoshuang's expression seemed to become a little unnatural under the illumination of the candle, "Ah, Xiaoshuang, why are you blushing?"
"Me? I ...... "Xiaoshuang began to tie the knot" how can there be a blush, it is the light of the candle! ”
"Can the candle light shine so red?" Yan Huiqi continued to step forward suspiciously, and Xiaoshuang hurriedly retreated, "The candle shines on the candle, if Miss has figured it out, let's go to sleep!" I'll go first! After speaking, Xiaoshuang hurriedly pushed the door and left.
What a little Shota! Yan Huiqi smiled wickedly in the house, but what he said was right, like is like, if you like it, the other party will never know if you don't say it. She looked at the bright moon outside the window, it was also this bright moon that made her figure out the meaning of friends, and now this bright moon still guides the dream she wants, thank you Mingyue, and thank you Xiaoshuang, now she has something special and special to do.
Thinking like this, Yan Huiqi began to plan carefully in her mind, but she neglected Xiaoshuang in front of her, and naturally used "me" instead of a minion......
Early the next morning, Yan Huiqi went to Pei Huansi's mansion under the guidance of Rao Yufei. I really can't figure out what Rao Yufei thinks, and I'm really afraid that he will run away, so many people will follow him. Before leaving, he leaned into his ear and threatened himself: It's useless for you to go to Pei Huansi, that guy won't tell you any news!
Really, how did she not know that Zhengtai, who would blush when she saw herself, would become the guy who threatened herself today and didn't blush, the eighteenth male college has changed! Yan Huiqi couldn't help but sigh, and at the same time, she also deepened her decision in her heart to teach Xiaoshuang well, so that he couldn't become Rao Yufei's guy.
Pei Huansi's mansion was heard to be newly bought, although Rao Yufei did not explain the reason, but Yan Huiqi decided that it was for Tang Caiyi! After all, if you are so seriously injured, it will be more reassuring to settle in the mansion you bought!
Speaking of this, Yan Huiqi still doesn't know what kind of story Tang Caiyi had with Pei Huansi in the past. Pei Huansi, the chic looking guy, was not chic at all when he looked at Tang Caiyi, but looked worried.
Today, she went to his mansion to visit Tang Caiyi on the one hand, and on the other hand, she asked him, if she liked him, she could find some clues about Ming Fan. After all, he is the one who seems to be relatively neutral now.
Although Rao Yufei said that if she went to find Ming Fan, she would betray them, but she couldn't just leave Ming Fan alone.
Slightly opening the curtain of the carriage, Yan Huiqi looked at the crowd on the street in a daze, this seems to be the first time she has seen it!
Children are constantly running around the streets, and adults are walking in twos and threes, but there are very few girls. There were also noble ladies who let their servants take care of their children, and then went about shopping along the streets.
It's really a lively place, and it's exactly the same as the one painted on the Qingming Riverside map. However, it seems that there is still something missing, by the way, it is the river. This place seems to be a special shop area, and the people who come and go look very particular about their clothes. She saw no one in coarse linen clothes, except for the children running around the streets.
Did Pei Huansi buy his mansion here? Is it to gather some intelligence? Yan Huiqi put her head on the window and quietly looked at the scenery flashing outside the window. (To be continued.) )