The previously cold underground research institute became crowded. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

From one person to two, and from two to three, now, there are six people, no, maybe none of us can be considered "people" now.

Equality exists, but it is only in the face of emotions such as joy, anger and sorrow that there is so-called equality.

Now there are six of us, and we are equal.

I don't know if the person who is in the most pain right now is Liyue, everyone here has a way to avoid the people they don't want to see, but there is another me in his lab.

We haven't had any communication since then, and I know he'll stay in the lab and won't see him until I go in.

But dodging R5 is not so easy. I could feel that he hadn't gone to Moonglow Spring Valley to store that memory, but he understood the reason for my proposal. The Van Xi was becoming more and more reticent, and he didn't seem to be involved in anything, just like a wandering ghost from an underground research institute. Even if we pass by occasionally, there is no dialogue between us, only the frozen air makes it difficult for me to breathe.

The only person I can talk to these days is my future son, who tells me a lot of stories, about the past and about the future. He experienced what a ridiculous pain it was, just as I had before.

Every day he would find an opportunity to wander around the holy glass, but only swaying, like a teenager who had a crush on the school flower of the school next door, he didn't dare to approach, he didn't dare to talk, he just looked at her from afar. Sheng Li, on the other hand, continued to be busy in the laboratory, and she had completely put away the shyness I had when I first met her. But even if she was courteous and kind, she was still as unapproachable as a kaolin flower. The sight of her and Ritsuki working together in the lab is pleasing to anyone, and everyone else is just a set off the canvas.

Seong-ri was assigned to share a bedroom with me, and Liyue added a fold-out bed for her, but she never appeared in this room. However, tonight, she unexpectedly pushed the door open. There was no tiredness on her face, not like she had come to rest, but she was holding a pink nightgown in her hand.

I looked at her awkwardly, not sure whether to greet her or not, I had never been good at interacting with people I didn't know, I didn't know how to change a conversation from 0 to 1, and she didn't seem to have any intention of breaking the ice.

She took off her lab coat with her back to me, put it on the lid of the freezer in the middle, and then removed her hair clip, and her hair fell like a waterfall to her waist. As she began to slowly take off her shirt and unbutton her underwear, I always felt that it was rude to stare at her, so I looked away. Such a beautiful woman with creamy skin, even if a woman sees it, she will blush and heartbeat, no wonder Riyue has missed her for many years, and Ayali is so obsessed with her.

Logically, this is a rival in love who can take away my "son" and "husband" at the same time? But it almost made me feel that it was better to take it away from me.

She put on the pink pajamas and turned to lie on the bed next to me, the huge bow on her chest was unbearable, but it was also a little cute on her.

"Good night." She said to me.

"Good night."

I didn't feel sleepy, I just had nowhere to go but to lie in bed, but as soon as the holy glass appeared, I fell into the embarrassing situation of not sleeping, so I had to pretend to close my eyes. Her breathing was in my ear, even and soft, which was a great way to hypnotize. But my mind was still swirling with all sorts of disorganized things, and I was overwhelmed. Tomorrow is the day when R5 leaves with M6 and Ayarei, and I can't sleep at all.

After holding on for a while, I finally gave up sleeping. I sat up as gently as I could, so as not to disturb her, and thought about getting out of bed and walking around outside for a while. She was still awakened by me, or maybe she wasn't here to sleep.

"Can't you sleep?"

"Yes."

"Me too." She looked at the ceiling, "Even a body like Ritsuki will feel like it needs to rest...... My bodily functions were more dehumanized than I had imagined, and changing my pajamas was like a ritual. ”

"But there are a lot of people who suffer from insomnia every day."

"In the past few days since I came out of the cocoon, I haven't made time for sleep at all, and it should be an overload for ordinary people, but I still don't feel sleepy at all."

"Isn't that great? There are definitely a lot of people who aspire to have such a physique. ”

"If fatigue can be stripped away, then why can't other feelings be stripped away, if you can be a complete non-human, it would be a good thing."

"If you don't have feelings, I'm afraid there is no way to judge whether it's 'good' or 'bad'."

I wanted to know if the "feelings" that bothered her were the same as what I thought, but I felt that with my current awkward position, it was really difficult to speak.

"I never cared about these things before, as long as I had my goal in mind, I would follow through to the end without distraction."

"By 'before,' do you mean before you went to the Achasm?"

"Yes, it looks like a past life now."

"Why didn't you go to the first team and go straight back to Earth?"

She was silent for a while, "People who are in a hurry to escape are prone to make wrong judgments, but the more they want to escape, the more they insist on going their own way." ”

"Is the person you want to escape from Wazuya?"

The Sacred Glass turned her back to me, resisting the answer.

"He's leaving tomorrow, I guess it doesn't matter if you say it, just take it as a night of repentance? I'm not going to tell anyone. ”

For a long time, she didn't speak again, and I took it as if she refused, intending to continue to complete the plan just now.

"Then I'll ......"

As soon as her feet touched the floor, she suddenly opened her mouth again: "In the past, everything was under my control, I could grasp my own thoughts very clearly, and I could guess other people's thoughts very accurately. But the Psionic Passage has indeed fundamentally 'dismantled' me, and I am no longer a holy glass, but a completely dependent on others and an emotionally overcharged 'ghost', but now, when I regain my memory, it is neither a holy glass nor a ghost. ”

"Who do you want to be?"

"It's better to be everyone than you are now. I thought I would return to the state of the Holy Glass, but there are still emotions in my heart, I don't know if those emotions belong to me or not, they may just be the sequelae left by me in the spiritual passage. So I did everything I could to restrain it, however...... Why do I love that person? I can't find a reason at all. ”

"Love is metaphysics, there is no reason to be normal, why refrain from it."

"But it's a mistake, we don't belong at the same time. Now so, is the best solution in my opinion. Anyway, he'll soon forget about me when he returns to the future. ”

"He may fall in love with someone else, but he will never forget you."

That's the only thing I can say. I can't hypocritically comfort her that "there is always a way", because even I am helpless.

"I ...... Go for a walk outside. ”

Her back trembled, and I tiptoed to the bed, giving her time to cry as much as she could.

"Promise me, don't tell anyone."

"yes, definitely."

Even though I wanted to knock on Ayarei's door immediately, I knew that this was the greatest cruelty to her.

On the last night before they left, I was the one who was going to hide in the room and cry to my heart's content.

Closing the door, I turned my head to look deep into the hallway, where in the cold and wet light, a fuchsia shadow sat crouching at the door of Ayare's room. When they met my gaze, the shadow dissipated.

My future son is a wretched and happy fellow.

Taking the elevator all the way up, I went to the first floor and pushed open the door of the institute.

There is a quiet beauty along the riverside at night, and I want to take a break along the river, and I should be able to find my own space here.

After yesterday's rain, the water level of the river has risen a little, but the bare embankment and the cocooned plants around it are still not a pleasant place to look at. If the bio-armor could reflect the real atmosphere here, then I am afraid it would be the smell of decay. Only the starry sky above me can find me calm.

If human beings were not cocooned, it would be completely impossible to look up and see such a dense number of stars in such a city. However, living in such a city, people may not have many opportunities to look up and enjoy the starry sky.

As I walked with my head up, out of the corner of my eye, I saw a shadow in front of me.

If it was an alien creature, the alarm at the institute would have sounded a long time ago.

So, there's only one possibility, and I'm not alone here.

In a trance, I thought it was Kazuki, but when I took a few steps closer, I realized that it was Liyue. This distance was enough for him to discover me, and then he wanted to pretend to turn around and leave as if nothing happened, but it was Chinese deliberate. I stopped where I was, not knowing whether to advance or retreat, and he hesitated for a moment, but walked towards me anyway.

Even with the cover of night, I still feel that this scene is very embarrassing.

"You ......"

"—How's the experiment?" Before he could speak, I moved on to a less awkward topic.

"It's going well so far, but R5's manworls have helped a lot, but not every human can let him use this dose to fill the spores, so even if it succeeds in you, it may not be applied to others."

"Take your time, there are so many projects in the world that have taken decades to develop."

"The state of the Sons of God and the recent Abyss is unstable, and you can't expect the Van Xi to be willing to stay here for decades. I don't want to waste a single minute of such a rare resource and opportunity. ”

Yes, they're leaving tomorrow.

If only the R5 had injected so much boobs into my body that I could lose my feelings.

"Well, then you should work hard. Come on. ”

I managed to finish in three sentences, and began to move backwards in the direction of the underground research institute, and if any of us said goodbye, it would all be over.

However......

"You still like him, don't you?"

Without foreshadowing or warning, he dropped a bombshell on me.

“…… I do not know. ”

I don't want to think about that answer.

"As for Ayarei...... I still can't get used to the fact that he's my son. ”

"On this subject," I tried to keep my voice as calm and rational as I could, "I don't want to change our relationship because of this, and I don't want to be a burden to you. I don't need you to try to deepen your contact with me for the sake of this future, I don't need you to force yourself to like me or be with me for this future, I am a person with a spiritual purity and do not need to succumb to fate. I know you like Shengli, you still have a lot of opportunities to develop, I won't force you, giving up R5 is my own choice, it doesn't mean that you have to do it, I think we can find another way to make Ayari born, it's just ......"

"You're wrong about something," he interrupted me, "I realized this reunion with Shengli that longing is just longing after all, it is my spiritual sustenance, but it is not a real feeling. She is not a woman to me, but the embodiment of some kind of dream, the embodiment of 'perfection' that I cannot reach. It's like a kid who wants to be a hero on TV. ”

"Then try to get in touch with the real her now."

"I've been touched," he said, looking down as if the river was the one he was talking to, "you're right, I've been affected by this. These days...... I haven't been able to concentrate on my work for a few days, and I'm completely dependent on the help of other people, Shengli, R5, and M6," he couldn't say a word, "I've been thinking about you, and I can't control it like I've been manipulated mentally." Then I started thinking constantly......"

The air seemed to be drying out, and I felt a little suffocated, and I felt the urge to run away, but my spine felt like it was rusty, and it was strong and heavy supporting my body. A paralysis slowly crept up from my neck to my lips and my eyes, my breathing became softer and softer, my ears were hot, my mouth seemed to be sealed with wax, and finally I didn't even dare to blink my eyes.

"I don't know, maybe...... Hypothesis...... If...... Will you give me a chance? ”

I didn't dare look at him, but I could feel his tentative gaze.

"Of course, you don't have to rush to give me an answer, I need to think about it for a while......" he covered his mouth with his hand, "I'm sorry, I seem to be a little crazy tonight...... I just, I don't want you to think it's because the R5 is about to be gone, I'm ...... But ......"

This was obviously the worst confession, but my heart was drumming and my face was red to the base of my ears. In the past, when I confessed, I would think about how to refuse, but this time I had the urge to nod.

Is it because I am also hinted at by the so-called "fate"?

No, if I hadn't met R5, I'd have fallen in love with Ritsuki.

But once there is such a pre-emptive condition as "if", the subsequent conclusion is meaningless.

I like Ritsuki, and the happiness that wells up in my chest at this moment honestly expresses my love for him. It's because I like him so much that I can't just treat him as a candidate and use him as a good filler to satisfy the hole in my heart that has been dug up by R5.

There will come a time when my passion for R5 will fade over time and I'll come to my senses and be ready to fall in love with Ritsuki and let Ritsuki fall in love with me completely, no matter what we ultimately choose to do with you.

Then, Wa Ayari will be born.

Maybe there's never such thing as 100% purity, but I'm willing to try.

So, not now.

"Then, I'll go back first."

As he passed me, I grabbed him by the corner of his clothes.

"If you change your mind, remember to tell me."

Hearing this, his face, which had been tense since just now, slackened for some reason.

"So are you."