I've stayed on the perimeter of the high wall since the M6 left. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info may be two days, or maybe three days have passed, time is worthless to the gap, and it is no longer important to me.

I could walk along the wall without sleeping, swiping my left hand all the way over the cold wall, waiting for the end to come first or if I would disappear first.

The life named Waayari has disappeared so many times that I can't remember, is it 390 billion, or 380 billion? The difference of 10 billion doesn't make me any more familiar with this number.

If only everything the M6 said was just a joke, it was a weight I couldn't afford.

These numbers represent failure, which is enough to prove that the world does not need me. My birth was based on my mother's lack of happiness, the result of violating R5, the creator of the "rules of nature", and a fortuitous event caused by mistakes.

So, to give up?

No, I've never tried. I'm just going with the flow, coping with tasks that "have to be done", reluctantly playing the role of "trying to survive", and perfunctorily maintaining the status quo. On the surface, I have never been able to find a purpose in life, and I have been given a goal that falls from the sky and cannot be avoided, and it is so reasonable, it is a 100% pure destiny arrangement, which does not require me to use any thinking about the correctness of the goal, nor does it give me any opportunity to hesitate. I've spent so many years discussing with porcupines about "it's not fun to live", but because of this one thing, the M6's tough attitude has become a fig leaf for me. Now, the fact that a negative life like mine can be born is already a miracle of 1 in 390 billion, and it is even more unrealistic than the saying that "you can only be born after defeating hundreds of millions of sperm", and instead of arousing the fighting spirit, I experienced another layer of despair.

What if no matter how much I struggle, the ending won't change? Then I'm just a number that adds to 390 billion, and M6 will forget me as long as it separates another M6-2, but if the "only chance" in this so-called multiple loop also fails, then M6 will continue to loop in failure forever, and all timelines and Ayari will repeat the fate of disappearing as soon as time comes.

And what if I succeed? I'll never see Yu Baiyuan again. I don't know if I've become a fanatical fool blinded by unwarranted love, but I can't make a judgment at the moment about the importance of life and seclusion.

The protagonists of those animations and movies can save the world and their lovers in a beautiful way, enjoying the longing and worship of everyone, while I can only sacrifice everything to save myself in a boring way, just to return to my boring real life and be an ordinary person. It's not a reasonable deal at all.

In fact, what about disappearing, there are thousands of human beings who die early in childhood, and people die every minute on the earth without anyone knowing, so what does the harmony of other worlds have to do with me? If R5 really chooses to let the earth's time move forward after regaining his memory, then why can't I give up everything freely and generously, and use the self-sacrifice that makes them grateful to Dade to achieve my mother's first love?

No, neither for the M6 nor for the sake of Youbaiyuan. I can't use my abstention to live up to a miracle that M6 has endured 390 billion times of pain and hard work, and I am not willing to leave Youbaiyuan now.

Life is no longer something that I can do as I please, I can't choose, but no one can choose for me.

"Drip."

As if to answer my troubles, the chip communication system prompted me to receive a new message, and I noticed that there was another message that I had received from the public when I first returned to the sub-gap, and I had not had time to read it.

[Announcement: Duan 28 passed the assessment and officially joined the first squad. 】

I read this short line over and over again, but I could only read one result back and forth - Duan 28 betrayed Xi 16, and maybe everyone else. I didn't have anger, hatred, or any other emotion, I just felt tightness in my chest, and maybe I had lost the energy to make my emotions fluctuate violently.

I turned off the notification, trying to pretend it didn't exist, and opened a new message from Ming Xiaohong.

[The research report of Yu Baiyuan has been fruited, please return to the Spirit Star Office quickly, there are some things I need to talk to you about. 】

There is only Xiao Ming and Xiaohong alone in the Psionic Office.

"Oh, oh, oh, you're here. Where have you been these days? Oh no, we'll talk about that later, let's get to the point. Xiao Ming Xiaohong twisted her body and turned into a ghostly appearance without warning.

"I'm not going to tell you," I tried to maintain my usual state, "what about Yubaigai?" ”

"We'll talk about that later."

"You don't mean to tell me that you have always conjured up."

This "Youbaiyuan" rolled her eyes at me, this is an expression that Youbaiyuan has never done, "Of course not," although "her" voice is the same, the tone is completely Xiao Ming Xiaohong's consistent style, like the ups and downs of a drama actor, "It's just more intuitive to say this." "She" jumped on the sofa with "poof", stepped on the soft cushion with both feet, but found that she couldn't stand on her feet after changing her body, so she wanted to sit cross-legged, and because the skirt was tied to the legs, it was inconvenient to bend, so she simply pulled the skirt up, revealing two thighs naked, however, under such a toss, the key parts happened to be strictly guarded by the skirt, and it has not been gone.

"Alright, don't move, let's get started."

"Yu Baiyuan" listened to my words, or habitually twisted his upper body, limited by the human body, and now it twisted not very dynamic, "Actually, I have known about this for a while, but Yu Baiyuan won't let me say it," she shrugged, "I understand, human beings, there are such and such cranky thoughts, although I am already a human expert in the entire Puma Star, but to be honest, sometimes it is difficult for me to understand what you are thinking." In short, ahem, you don't let me say it, so I haven't said it. ”

"Then you can say it." In order to prevent "her" from continuing to babble on and on about meaningless things, I hastened to urge "her" to get to the point.

"Ahem, that's right. You should remember that Qing Shao entrusted her to you at the beginning, and let me follow the surveillance, right? In fact, at that time, we did suspect that the two of you had a relationship, because the data on her body was very messy, unorganized, and looked like a simple record, but we found a lot of content related to you. Yes, we've translated and read all that data, do you know what that content is? ”

Of course I can't possibly know.

"It's the trajectory of your life. Trajectories, well, should be the word. It's all about some of your daily life, from birth, to kindergarten, elementary school, middle school, high school, ...... Oh, yes, there is also Ning 08 in these contents, Ning 08 without makeup I saw it for the first time, she once told me that the biggest advantage of the sub-gap is that the makeup is fast and it is extremely convenient to modify the wrong makeup, and she won't worry about hurting the skin, she said that she usually doesn't bother to put on makeup when she is on earth, but there are too many beauties in the sub-gap, and she feels that it is difficult to stand on the world without makeup...... Ahem, get down to business, get down to business, in short, that's something like that. Because as I just said, this information is very messy, and we also found out after roughly sorting out the fragments of your life from childhood to adulthood, and the content is so much that it doesn't seem to happen all at once. ”

"Happening all at once? What is the meaning? ”

"Ah, I don't know how to explain it, ahh The daily life of a little boy who looks exactly the same as when I was a child, some of the grids he is doing, such as learning to ride a bicycle with Sister Ceci, I do have memories, but I have no memory of what is happening in some grids, such as being dressed as a girl by Ning 08.

"That's just a small part of what I've picked out for you to give you examples. A certain year on the earth should be a unique point in time according to a certain month, a certain day, a certain time, a certain minute, and a certain second, right? But there are many different records about this 'unique' point in time for you. It could be the same January 2 and you were sick and didn't go to school, or another record on January 2 showed that you were sick but went to school anyway, and another record showed that you weren't sick that day. In this way, a lot of different data in the same time period seems to record your different lives. We call each data record that records your life a data line stream, and after a preliminary sorting, there are nearly 390988000685 data line streams, and they record different time periods, just like ropes of different lengths, some only record you when you are 16 years old, and the longest data line stream is recorded when you are 21 years old. ”

"You...... You're saying that this data records countless possibilities for me? "I found myself speaking in a surprisingly high-pitched voice.

"It's not a possibility," the "Yu Baiyuan" shook his finger at me, "these are real things. ”

"Real?"

"It's all you in other parallel worlds." "Youbaiyuan" turned off the projection, "After a long discussion, we Puma Star people, of course, also refer to the opinions of the Van Xi Star people, after all, they are experts in this area. All the living beings who participated in the discussion believed that the data on Youbaiyuan was the result of the aggregation of data lines on so many timelines on the earth. However, most of the starting point of these data line streams is recorded from the time you were born. So, it's no surprise that we'll think the two of you are related. But after observation, I have disproved this view, and you really don't look like old acquaintances. To say something that may make you earthlings uncomfortable, in the sub-chasm, we want to observe a certain object, it is completely possible to achieve all-weather uninterrupted, if you are related, it is impossible to leave no clues. So, I had a new idea, which was related to the composition of the psionic channel. ”

"Parallel space is still a strange territory for us, because, you see, although we have the ability to create 'space' in space, it is completely different from parallel space. Did you know that entering the sub-chastic space from Earth has to go through a psychic passage? The higher intelligent beings in the universe do not need to go through this step, to use the concept of 'dimension' that you humans like to talk about the most. The low dimension wants to enter the high dimension, and it is impossible to read it in the face of too much information, so you can only do splitting and recasting through the spirit star channel, and forcibly improve your dimension. In fact, there is a lot of redundant information in the universe, and at the beginning of the establishment of this sub-gap next to the earth, we Puma people used the 'data dump' near the earth to generate the psychic channel, because the redundant information floating around the earth is familiar to you humans, and when we pave the way for you to 'Gavi', the impact will be less than showing you the unfamiliar knowledge directly to you. Why is that? I'll tell you. Let's say you meet a primitive man from the Stone Age, and you want him to tell the difference between a "sound card" and a "graphics card". You say to him, 'The one with the fan is the graphics card,' and he doesn't know what a fan is, he probably doesn't even know the word wind, but he knows how the wind feels on his body. Then you just need to let him know that the thing that can make him feel that is the wind, the fan is the thing that can produce the wind, the one with the thing that can produce the wind is the graphics card, and the other one without the fan is the 'sound card', then even if he still doesn't know what these two things are for, he can tell the difference between the two. ”

"So the Psionic Passage is to let us start with familiar things first, and then gradually understand what we can't understand?"

"Yes, to be exact, let you start with a familiar environment, and then gradually broaden your cognitive abilities. But that's not the point I'm going to talk about, the point is, we didn't know where this redundant information came from. Ah, no, we don't know now, there are so many sources of redundant information that we can only say that we have a reliable conjecture about one of the sources. This is also because I came to you a while ago and listened to the gossip. ”

"Gossip ......"

"You see, that's what the M6 said at the time, right? In order to prevent R5 from coming back to be with Ning 08, she takes you to travel to the 'past' to find your biological father, so, if you fail, Ning 08 is not with your biological father, what will happen? ”

"I don't exist."

"Yes, you don't exist anymore, where did all this data go, where did the history of you who lived for seventeen years go before that?"

"It's supposed to be gone, right?"

"Youbaiyuan" shook his head at me, "Since it has been generated, there will definitely be a destination, this is a huge amount of data, not only for you, but for your entire planet for seventeen years, you human beings themselves will say that 'the energy of the universe is conserved', of course you will not say that there is no and there is none." ”

"Then you say, where did you go? Is it ......?"

"—it's been compressed and turned into redundant data hidden on the periphery of your planet."

"I don't understand, what do you have to do with the whereabouts of Youbaiyuan after you said so much?" I have a vague feeling that if I continue to listen to it like this, there will be more and more bad content.

"It's not just about you, it's about you," "Youbai" put down one leg, pressed his knee with one hand, and supported his chin with the other, "What I'm going to tell you now is that M6 may not be the first time to take 'you' to do 'time jump', strictly speaking, she used to bring 'you' from other parallel worlds, and those 'you' have failed." ”

"I already know that......"

"What!" "Yu Baiyuan" bared his teeth at me angrily, "I still want to see your surprised expression!" ”

"Go on."

"Hey, okay. Anyway, since there are infinite parallel worlds, and there are also infinite 'you' to try, there will always be one that will succeed. But what if, every one of you, fails? Anxiety, fear, and a strong desire to survive, 'I don't want to go away', you should think so, right? If you really didn't care about just disappearing, you wouldn't be here. It's the same with those redundant information. It seems that these redundant data are not conscious, but they are precisely the matter formed by the collection of thousands of consciousnesses, the most important of which is your consciousness in the flow of 3909800068500000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 After a pause, as if trying to give me some buffer time, I waved my hand and motioned for her to continue.

"Among the data on the 'Youbaiyuan' body, your consciousness is the strongest, and I guessed a little about this reason. Chances are, everything that happens in these 3,909,080,685 data line streams will still happen in a timeline that you don't exist. Babies born in these seventeen years will still be born on the timeline of Ning 08 choosing R5, even if one of your family teachers meets a man and gets married and has children because she takes care of you, she will also know this man and get married and have children for other reasons in the timeline you are not there, but you are the only one who has no chance of existence at all, so three thousand nine hundred and nine hundred and eighty eight thousand five thousand six hundred and eighty-five you who have no hope of survival have gathered the strongest obsession. Well, next, you need to answer a question. "Yu Baiyuan" stood up and walked in front of me, "What do you think of Yu Baiyuan's body?" ”

"How...... Why do you suddenly ask this? In the face of "her" approaching, even if I knew it was fake, I couldn't help but blush.

"If you don't answer this question, there will be no way to say it next, you see, I specially changed into her appearance, so that you can see clearly, if necessary, you can touch it and confirm your feelings."

"Don't get nervous!" I pushed the "Youbaiyuan" away, and this push made "her" change back to the shape of "jelly".

"Really, there's no gentlemanly demeanor at all, how can you push a girl like this!" Xiao Ming Xiaohong shook her body and complained to me.

I didn't bother to bother with it.

"But you still have to answer my question." Xiao Ming Xiaohong twisted around freely, and changed back to the appearance of Youbaiyuan, with a wicked smile on her face, "How does you look, how is your figure, is it your favorite type?" ”

"Okay, okay, I said that's it, don't change!" I closed my eyes and tried to keep my voice as low as I could," ...... Truly...... Be. ”

"Sure it's your favorite type? Is there a type you like more than this? ”

"I don't know...... Probably, there won't be. ”

"Yay!" "Yu Baiyuan" jumped up happily in front of me, "This proves that my conjecture is indeed very reasonable!" ”

"What conjecture?"

"Originally, I had two ideas, the first is that Yu Baiyuan is what your obsessions generate, that is, something composed of countless of your consciousnesses in the parallel world plus some other redundant information, but I don't think this idea is tenable, because Yu Baiyuan has memories of characters other than you. So I came up with the more probable hypothesis, which is that Yubaiya was actually the first group of immigrants, but when they passed through the sub-chasm, they were intercepted because you took a fancy to them—"

"Why do you say that I am like a pervert......"

"Don't worry, think for yourself, when 3.6 billion of your consciousnesses are compressed together, everything is chaotic, what is left of your sanity? It's all instinct-driven, okay? Of course, I'm not saying that they are all driven by ****, the strongest instinct in those consciousnesses is still 'existence', and the instinct to return to the original state or find an opportunity to exist. But these consciousnesses themselves can't do this, they can't get out of here, they need a shell, a carrier, and of course this carrier has to be people, and among the thousands of people who first immigrated they chose Youbaiyuan. When you passed through the psionic passage, the completion time of the 'fusion' was accelerated, and the original trajectory of the body of Yu Baiyuan was to come here, so she was naturally 'discharged' from the psychic passage. ”

"You mean, the current Youbaiyuan is the result of the redundant 'I'' consciousness merging with her?"

"Suffice it to say, if you want me to say, you deviated from the course and came to this point in time, most of which was also absorbed by the energy accumulated by the redundant data on this timeline."

"Is it that simple?"

"I don't know, conjecture, conjecture, conjecture." "Yu Baiyuan" patted me on the shoulder heavily.

"So," I sighed again, "while I'm grateful for telling me so much I don't know, after all, where is Yu Baiyuan now?" ”

"As you may have noticed, I've been a loose observer of Yu Baiyuan, as we quickly figured out that her composition is not a threat in the sub-chasm, and the rest is purely my personal curiosity to see what happens when you meet. It is true that after she came into contact with you, the redundant information in her body became very stable, which was conducive to excretion through the Moonglow Spring Valley, but her eventual recovery state should have been a human again, but now she has become a new creature. ”

"New creatures?"

"A creature that is both human and human."

"Van Xi Xingren characteristics?"

"The Van Xi Xing people are composed of scorchers, and all their forms are separated and reconstructed, so M6 and R5 can't install chips between subgaps, and they don't need to install chips, they have an automatic adaptation mechanism. It's just that the structure of the Hundred Towers is not composed of skulls, but a new particle formed by compressing the redundant data that has been dissolved, and this structure is beyond the technical scope of the Puma people. ”

"So ......"

"You've been dependent on you since the beginning, and you can tell, but I think it's an added effect based on her ingredients."

"So...... Yes......"

Yes, I was mentally prepared for that from the beginning, wasn't I?

"Remember the day I took her to the sleep pod to find you? After she met the members of the first team, she vaguely remembered some of the past, and she also realized that when she recovered her memory, the personality she presented after combing the data should be her real self, but her original personality was no different from that of a machine, and she was afraid that she would lose her emotions after recovering, so she had been consciously hiding. But after all, there will be days when she remembers everything. A face, a word, a name, anything can be triggered. ”

Then, there is the moment of separation.

The precarious dream, which had flattered me for a while, suddenly turned into a nightmare.

I don't want to listen anymore. "Where the hell is she now?"

"Her body structure allows her to move freely like a Van Xi Star, and she chose to return to her body on Earth, but now she is not the Yu Baiyuan you know."

“…… I'm going to find her. ”

"Oh, you have to think about it clearly," Xiao Ming Xiaohong's incarnation Yu Baiyan sighed, "She finally escaped 'you' and was freed, can't she be freed from the shackles called 'Waayari'?" That's cruel. You wouldn't have thought that your pet-owner relationship would last forever, would you? By the way," "Yu Baiyuan" winked at me, "If you just like this body, I can transform at any time, don't mind." ”

Xiao Ming Xiaohong told me a joke at the moment, but I couldn't laugh at all.

"Didn't she say anything before she left? Reason...... Or purpose? ”

"No, I don't understand why she didn't go straight to Team 1 and went back to Earth. If I had to say what she had left, there was a note in her room, and I don't know who it was addressed to, and she didn't say who I wanted to give it to, but I saw it myself. ”

"Yu Baiyuan" handed me a piece of paper with only one line of words on it.

I may love you, but in the end I will ruin you.