With daily training and a week's shift, Ane has passed the "probationary period". Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

According to the regulations, new security guards are required to wear uniform to work.

All white shirts, black trousers, and black leather shoes.

If you don't have this uniform, you have to go outside the factory to buy it.

It was the only time in a few days when there was a chance to go out.

In the evening, as a reward for the hard training of the past few days, Ane and another colleague ordered a few dishes at the factory's small fast food restaurant and ate them.

This kind of small comfort is already rare for the depressed Ane.

Only halfway through the meal, the squad leader A Biao broke in.

"Hey, squad leader. Let's eat together, I'll add another dish. ”

Anen said with a slight flattery.

"What are you doing here! Don't go shopping for clothes yet! Rubbing what? Ah Biao stared at his eyes and said.

"I'll buy it later, let's eat first, I'll invite you." Still smiling, Ane stepped forward to greet Biao.

"What to eat? I can't find you for half a day! Ah Biao didn't move, still glaring at Aned.

Ane's face was red and his brain was hot, and he was embarrassed.

"Squad leader, let's go now, don't be angry." Colleague Ayun persuaded.

At night, the city is full of lights and traffic.

The squad leader, Ah Biao, led a team of security guards and shuttled through the market.

"The girls in the south are so exposed!" Ah Biao looked at the girl in the suspender miniskirt walking by and couldn't help but say.

"Class leader, the girl from the south or the girl from the north, which place is more beautiful?" Ane accosted.

"Nonsense, of course it's southern." Ah Biao gave Ah Nei a disdainful glance and turned to chat with the other security guards.

After buying clothes, the security guards returned to their respective dormitories and prepared to rest.

Ane folded his newly bought clothes into the old suitcase he had carried.

A sudden wave of sadness swelled up in my heart.

This suitcase has accompanied him through college until now.

When I graduated from high school, my mother, who rarely traveled far away, took him to buy it in the market town.

Seeing her is like seeing a kind mother.

In the middle of the night, Ane lay on the cold iron frame bed, not sleeping.

The scene of the day still echoes in his mind.

He didn't expect that when he used to work in the warehouse, he was excluded by the company because of his silence.

But now, he forced a smile and insincerely flattered his superiors, and was still dismissed.

Perhaps, people don't like people who don't have ego and personality, especially a man like him who is indecisive and meek.

However, too much silence is also unpopular.

Ane couldn't grasp this degree.

Even a few simple words and a smile.

In his heart, he had made great compromises and efforts.

It was only on this quiet night that his true truth was revealed.

Deep down in his heart is serenity, serenity, and freedom.

It takes a great deal of effort for him to say a flattering word.

Because it's hard for him to get along with the left and right, and the eight sides are exquisite.

And even if you please others, you don't necessarily have to be good, and sometimes you get into an embarrassing dilemma.

His heart seemed to be holding on to something akin to dignity, even more dignity.

But reality forced him to abandon that thing.

If he is not abandoned, he will be ostracized and misunderstood.

Misunderstood as indifferent, dark, stingy, and ignorant of human feelings......

Social communication requires too many strings attached.

And he unconsciously insisted on and guarded the "unconditional" feelings.

Silence, sluggishness, that's how he does it.

But society will not trust him "unconditionally".

So, sometimes he has to pay words and even material favors.

When he was reprimanded, he felt a strong sense of shock in his heart.

It seemed to have encountered some kind of intense threat, which stimulated his instinct for anger and counterattack.

He wants to be at home, in front of his parents, without restraint.

But that's not possible.

It is impossible for outsiders to tolerate themselves as well as their parents.

He had to suppress his true feelings.

If he regards society as his home, he will surely be stared at with surprise and incomprehension.

It's like watching monsters.

And he simply can't face the scolding of others with ease.

Either it's the real anger of the parents, or it's the other extreme, which turns from anger to ridicule.

When he compromises and is lost, he feels a sense of desolation that he has betrayed himself.

But today, there is a magical feeling that dissolves this sense of desolation.

And this feeling actually comes from the old suitcase.

Seeing this old suitcase, he seems to see the scene of shopping in the market with his mother.

pulled him back to the mother-son relationship that blended with each other.

This feeling of the first chance appearance seems to be an elixir to dispel all sorrow and confusion.

This is something that no amount of outside comfort, diversion, and anesthesia can do. (To be continued.) )