"She's not my mother, my biological mother ran away with someone else when I was two years old, and my father was a grumpy drunkard who drank every day, gambled cards, and beat me when I was unhappy, and still has the scars he left on me. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 info When I was four years old, the aunts and uncles in the community saw that I was pitiful, so they took me to the kindergarten for free, she was the kindergarten teacher, that was the most beautiful woman I have ever seen, the time with her was always so wonderful, she would hold me, tell me stories over and over again when I couldn't sleep, would carefully help me wipe the wounds I was beaten, would show me a lot of beautiful flowers, take me to eat delicious food, would tell me her dreams when I was bored, would read her diary to me in a whisper, by her side, I could feel a little warmth, and I was really happy that day. ”

Liu Xinjie told Zhou Jing all this plainly, Zhou Jing listened quietly, looking at the black and white posthumous photo, imagining in his mind what kind of patience this kind teacher used to melt Liu Xinjie's scars.

"However, it didn't take long for her to die." Tears began to fall from the corners of his eyes again, and his expression became hideous. "I can never forget that night, she met my dad on the way back from taking me to the playground, the drunken man, when he saw me, he slapped me, scolded me, spat on me, and the beer in the beer bottle in his hand rushed to the top of my head and left it in my body, I didn't dare to resist, I was so weak that I didn't even dare to move, I didn't even dare to cry. It was because of my weakness that she lost her life. ”

It's like a tragic novel.

"Why is it because of you?" Zhou Jing stroked Liu Xinjie's hair and said.

"Why not because of me." As if stimulated by Zhou Jing's words just now, Liu Xinjie sat up suddenly, his eyes widened, and he looked at Zhou Jing fiercely: "If it weren't for me being too weak, she wouldn't be in front of me, she wouldn't have been ruined by that disgusting man, and she wouldn't have left at a young age, all because of me, because I'm too weak, because I'm incapable, because I didn't protect her, you know." Liu Xinjie said excitedly, clenched his hands into fists and knocked his heart, and the tears of sadness and self-blame couldn't stop staying, at this moment he was a child who made a mistake, he could only cry to repent, and there was no way to make up for it.

"It's all gone." Zhou Jing looked at Liu Xinjie and stretched out his hand to wipe away the tears from the corners of his eyes, but Liu Xinjie dodged Zhou Jing's hand as soon as he turned his head.

"Who doesn't go through some hardships in their lives, she's gone, but those who stay are still alive." After Zhou Jing finished speaking, she slowly moved in the direction of Liu Xinjie, and then stretched out her hand and gave Liu Xinjie a hug directly.

Liu Xinjie felt the body temperature of the person in front of him, and the uniform heat between breathing, and in a trance, the photo hanging on the wall disappeared, and he was not panicked, no longer had to deliberately please with false affection, everything seemed to return to the time when the little boy was pampered by a young beautiful girl, the sun was gently sprinkled, they sat on the swing on the lawn, showed a sweet smile, and frolicked against the blue sky and white clouds.

Grief flowed more wantonly, filling the entire space, and there was pain between breaths.

After the night, the sky should have brightened, the bell in the corridor rang loudly five times, Liu Xinjie left Zhou Jing's arms, stood up, didn't say a word, took Zhou Jing's hand out of the long corridor, and climbed a small mountain peak from the side of the cemetery, where Zhou Jing saw the sunrise for the first time. First there was a slight glimmer of light behind the dark mountain, and then the red sun slowly rose, and it did not emit a dazzling golden light, it hung in the air so gently, as time passed, it finally revealed the golden light, and finally the dazzling pierced the dawn, and walked towards the highest point of the sky, shining on everyone.

"I'm sorry." Liu Xinjie said to Zhou Jing at the moment when the sun rose.

Zhou Jing looked at the slowly rising sun, her mood had never been so calm, as if this world was empty and she was alone, so close to this huge sun, she could touch it with her hand, this world suddenly became quiet, and her heart followed the sun slowly into the air, and finally bloomed with golden light, surrounded by warmth.

"It's me who overheard your secret, and I should say that if you want to say it."

After a pause, Zhou Jing didn't hear Liu Xinjie's answer, she focused on appreciating the beautiful scenery of the sunrise, and the shock and calm in her heart were unprecedented. When the sun released a dazzling light and hung high in the sky, Liu Xinjie gently held her hand, pulled her body towards him, looked into her eyes, and said carefully: "My life, so far, there is only this one secret, I don't know why, I will bring you here yesterday, I will tell you those things, maybe it is emotional, maybe it is the arrangement in the dark, but, no matter what, thank you, Zhou Jing." ”

Zhou Jing's overly serious expression made Zhou Jing not know how to react for a moment, but seeing that Liu Xinjie in front of her and Liu Xinjie, who was competing with Yang Fan before, were completely like two people, she also lit a light in her heart for Liu Xinjie. Those who hide secrets and sorrows but have nowhere to tell the suffering, how can they not experience it, this busy life, no one wants to stop their steps to listen to your boring thoughts, can only be quietly buried in the dark night, one after another tear feast.

"Thank you for introducing me to such a beautiful and kind lady."

The two looked at each other and smiled.

"Let's go, on this day in previous years, I would go back to the kindergarten after watching the sunrise, sit on the swing we sat together, walk the road we walked, go to every place where there are our footprints, and finally go back to the kindergarten again, write a diary to tell her about my recent life, and then sleep peacefully in her bed."

"Well, it's a romantic trip."

After speaking, the two of them went down the mountain, and when they left, Liu Xinjie walked into the gatehouse and returned the key to the uncle, and vaguely saw him handing the uncle a red envelope. Then the two of them drove to a nearby town and went to the kindergarten in Liu Xinjie's mouth, and the name of the kindergarten was "Yixin Garden". Liu Xinjie said that Xin is her name, and she was not called Liu Xinjie before, but Xin was added later.

After arriving, I learned that this kindergarten had already been bought by Liu Xinjie, her room was still well preserved, cleaned clean, as if there had always been someone living there, the flower beds in the yard were red camellias, and there was a wooden swing on the green lawn, Liu Xinjie took Zhou Jing to sit on it and gently shook it and closed her eyes to enjoy the warm sunshine.

"I bought this place three years ago, when I found this place, it was about to close down, there was nothing in the yard, only two thin children and the old dean were there, after I bought this place, I took in some homeless children, everything here including her room was redecorated according to the way I remember, in fact, her shadow has long been gone, just looking at these exactly the same things I miss make me feel more real."

"She's lived here for so long, and there's her smell in the air, and when the sun shines down, her shadow has long been carved out, and it's never been gone because of the decadence of these objects."

"That's true." Liu Xinjie smiled slightly.

In the following day, Zhou Jing accompanied Liu Xinjie to almost every corner of this town, and walked again according to the traces they had walked before. There are many restaurants and shops on the street that are long gone, and then they were bought by Liu Xinjie and restored to their former appearance.

After going back in the evening, Liu Xinjie said to Zhou Jing. "You sleep with me, before, I slept, she turned on the light, read me the story of "The Little Prince" over and over again, you can do the same once, okay?" Liu Xinjie's eyes were full of sincere pleading.

"Yes, of course."

So all night, Liu Xinjie slept next to Zhou Jing, Zhou Jing was half-lying on the head of the bed, holding a somewhat old copy of "The Little Prince" in his hand and reading it softly from the beginning. She didn't know if Liu Xinjie was asleep or not, but she read the book seriously from night to dawn, when the white light shone in through the gap in the window, Liu Xinjie opened his eyes, Zhou Jing slowly put down the book, his eyes immediately closed, and he fell asleep.