Chapter 238: Madness
Yan Song respects Ye Han very much, whether it is her achievements in music, her loyalty to her feelings, or her optimistic attitude towards life, in short, all of them are admired by her. Pen ~ fun ~ Pavilion www.biquge.info she always thinks that if it were her and she encountered the same situation, she would not be able to be as free and easy as a teacher.
In fact, is Ye Han really free and easy? Not really. If she is really free and easy, she will not be free and easy for the rest of her life, and the only thing that accompanies her is her family and a few apprentices! Yan Song also once thought that the emotional wounds of the past were indelible, and maybe there would never be a person who could bring such an unforgettable memory to the teacher as the master.
Such a deep feeling, as long as it is once in a lifetime, is enough.
In the face of Ye Han's choice, Yan Song was already a foregone conclusion when he met her, Yan Song also envied the love between the teacher and the master, respected and envied but did not yearn for it, few people would insist like the teacher, even if the mother-in-law didn't like it, no, it wasn't even a mother-in-law, after all, the small book that proved his identity, until the death of the master, the teacher didn't get it, perhaps, this is the only regret in the teacher's chic life!
Yan Song, as Ye Han's apprentice, she has never seen the master, everything is just learned from the teacher's narrative, I didn't see the teacher once loved someone so unforgettable and desperate, but she could see the teacher's struggles alone, in fact, Yan Song is also a little uncomfortable, it is a fact that people go to tea and cool, no matter how beautiful the time they spent together, they can't hide the fact that they are lonely now.
Looking at the teacher's lonely life, Yan Song couldn't tell what it felt like in his heart. That master is a policeman, or an anti-narcotics policeman, that kind of police is very dangerous, every time she hears the words anti-narcotics, narcotics, etc., she will think of Chen Xuyao, he died at the border because of anti-narcotics!
Every year, the teacher would spend one day in the graveyard of the master, and later she learned that it was the birthday of the master, and the teacher only went once a year, and that day was not a death day but a birthday. Once Yan Song was waiting below, it was also the first time she accompanied the teacher, she was accompanied by Ye Liangsheng before, and that time Yan Song was there, and Ye Liangsheng also had something, so it was Yan Song who accompanied her.
Seeing that the teacher hadn't come down for a long time after going up the mountain, Yan Song was a little anxious. Pulled out the car key and went up to find her, that was also the first time Yan Song saw the photo of his master, a small black and white photo, on the cold tombstone, that is not such a handsome person, it can even be called ordinary, Yan Song thought of it, Chen Xuyao is also such a person, obviously a very ordinary appearance, but has a different taste, even the stereotypical facial features are inexplicably attractive, Yan Song can't help but think, is it the previous life, Chen Xuyao's tombstone is also like this?
Later, when he accompanied the teacher down the mountain, he saw the grave keeper of the cemetery, and the teacher asked him if anyone had come to worship the master in recent years. What the old man said, no.
She still remembered what the teacher said later, "Do it make sense for you to do this by doing your best all your life, even giving your life for it, and no one but me worships you, and no one even remembers you?" That pathetic tone, Yan Song will never forget. In the same way, she also wanted to ask Chen Xuyao in her previous life.
Don't look at Yan Song has been training in the army for a while this time, but her ideological consciousness still can't be improved, she always does things according to her own hatred, not that she needs others to be grateful to Dade when she does it, but when you really do it, there is no one to worship you, is it also a little sad?
Of course, some people say that this is their job, and if they don't do it, they can't do it, as long as they have a little sense of responsibility, they should do it, and this is how it should be. It is undeniable that this is the case, but can you not take such a thing for granted, if there is no such police and military personnel in the country who risk their lives to maintain the security of the country and the people at any cost, and there is no way to guarantee their own safety, can you still spit out such cold words, sarcastic and sarcastic about others, as if other people's lives and deaths are in your mouth, just as simple as touching the upper lip and the lower lip.
Reliving a life, Yan Song is still a little woman who only cares about a small family, but she won't stop anything, she has two soldiers in her own family, I don't know if she and Chen Xuyao will still be together in the future, and I don't know if Chen Xuyao's fate is still like in his previous life, he died for drug enforcement. But she won't stop it, that's their belief and pursuit, she can't stop it, and she can't stop it.
Seeing the teacher look so sad, she seemed to see herself in her previous life. Looking back now, she is still a little afraid of the quiet and somewhat excessive teacher, very afraid that the teacher will not be able to think about it for a while, or think about everything, and want to accompany the master. In fact, whether it is the teacher's brother and sister-in-law, or the senior brother and the second senior brother and her, there is a feeling, just like the teacher can leave at any time, she is free from the constraints of anything, Yan Song can even feel sometimes that the teacher is obviously in front of him, but it seems to be hundreds of millions of light years away, out of reach.
Li Xun looked at the girl in front of him who fell into contemplation because of his own question, his face was still a little bad, he felt as if he was asking something that could not be asked, he admired Teacher Ye Han, not because of the complicated relationship between her and her fiancé, but because of her exquisite violin skills, he also studied violin for a period of time, and also wanted to worship Ye Han as a teacher, but he was rejected, and later he switched to guitar, and he did not hold a grudge because of the rejection, but a little regretful!
He didn't dare to say anything more, after all, today's meal was for the fourth and fifth to invite two younger siblings to roommates, and the atmosphere caused by his question was embarrassing, and he also regretted it a little, so much to ask what to do, so much food can't stop your mouth, it's really a mouthful.
He was still cursing himself in his heart, Yan Song had been separated from his past memories, she was not a person who was obsessed with the past, and the matter between the teacher and the master was not something that one of her juniors could tell, but she felt a little sorry for the teacher, but in the end, she still had reason, knowing that this was a dinner between Wen Yuan and Ding Yiren, and it was about the relationship between the two bedrooms and the happiness of the two roommates and sisters, so she still held back her pantothenic acid.
She has already calculated in her heart, and when she goes home, she must go to see the teacher more, "the tree wants to be quiet and the wind does not stop, and the child wants to raise but does not wait" Everyone understands, the teacher is like a mother, so many years have been caring and educating her, the relationship between them is not only a teacher and a student, but also a mother and daughter. Yan Song also proposed that if the teacher could be with her, she would not marry, but the teacher refused, and even yelled at her to admit her mistakes, saying that she would definitely marry herself at the right age.
The teacher's reaction made her a little frightened, she didn't want to marry, maybe her subconscious had already decided, except for Chen Xuyao, no one wanted to marry. And she felt that Chen Xuyao in this life would not love herself like in her previous life, because she was amorous, so she strengthened her belief in not marrying, of course, this was all Yan Song's nonsense, and she finally got married. The witness of the wedding is still Ye Han, which can be regarded as a success.
Yan Song's long silence made the dinner cold for a long time, and when he came back to his senses, Yan Song was no longer sad, he tried his best to suppress his negative emotions, and picked up the chopsticks with a smile, looking like he wanted to start.
The others present didn't know Yan Song's habits, but the three people of 325 knew it clearly, at this time, it was already past the meal, and it was already Yan Song's limit to be able to eat until this time, maybe it would be like a hungry tiger pounced on food when it was time to eat, but there were still outsiders in the end, so it should be a little more restrained, right?
This is their guess, when they started, they found that although Yan Song's movements were very elegant and polite, but the speed was really not a joke, it was just a scud, the place she sandwiched was like a locust transiting, and half of the dishes were eaten cleanly, so after turning around, the general dishes on the table had already entered Yan Song's stomach. It was an eye-opener for the people in the 621 dormitory.
I've seen people who can eat, I've never seen such a girl who can eat, the roommates of the younger siblings (sisters-in-law) really let them have a long experience, and when you eat with girls in the future, you have to ask about the amount of food, otherwise it's really less and it's not good, as if you're afraid of people eating.
After watching too much, you get used to it, the three people of 325 are already eating very calmly, Wen Yuan and Ding Yiren are serving dishes to their two boyfriends as always, Yan Song only pays attention to eating, and does not notice this. Yang Binqian noticed it and frowned, but because the occasion was not suitable for face-lifting, let alone pointing out the problem, she had no face for them in public, so she had to bow her head to eat.
Out of sight is clean, it's really a good way, but they are not only doing it, but also sound.
"Chen Yao, you eat this, it's delicious."
"Xianyun, you taste this. Eat that again. I've got you covered. ”
I kept saying these things when I was eating, maybe they were fun, but in Yang Binqian's eyes, I felt dazzling, can I use such a low three, maybe this kind of feeding behavior is an improvement of feelings, but it is generally done by boys for girls, how can it be the other way around them?
Seeing that the two younger sisters in the bedroom didn't eat much, and they were concentrating on serving vegetables to their boyfriends, the nameless fire in Yang Binqian's heart rose again, and the small flame couldn't be extinguished no matter how much she pressed it, just when she couldn't bear to be mad, Yan Song went crazy before her.
"Can you let people eat, chirp, they don't have long hands, won't they clip themselves?"
If Yan Song usually didn't care about such a thing, but at this time she was not in a good mood, she and Yang Binqian didn't want to come to this dinner, this was no trick, so she had the idea of having a good meal, but how did they let her eat like this?