The night was quiet, and in the prime minister's mansion in the capital, a tired figure returned home. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

Chu Han was dressed dignified, luxurious, and smiling, greeted him, took off his official uniform for Xiao Feiqing, and waited for him to freshen up.

After Xiao Feiqing finished freshening up, Chu Han put dinner on the table, and Xiao Feiqing, who had no appetite, simply ate a little and put down the chopsticks.

"Why does the husband eat so little?" Chu Han persuaded, "Let's eat a little more." ”

"I can't eat it." Xiao Feiqing said lightly, and then asked, "What about Xinyan and Ling'er?" ”

Chu Han replied with a smile: "They all slept." Do you want to go and see it? ”

"yes, I haven't seen you for two days, I miss the children." Xiao Feiqing said.

Accompanied by Chu Han, the couple went to the children's residence together, and Xiao Feiqing cautiously went in and watched the two children fall asleep deeply.

Xiao Xinyan is the first child of Xiao Feiqing and Chu Han, a very beautiful little girl, who has already married Yang Muchen of Yang Chuting's family. Xiao Ling is the second child of the two, a boy with a delicate appearance and a bright nature, who has been selected by Zhao Wenzheng as the prince's companion.

"Let's go, I'm tired." Xiao Feiqing finished watching the children and went back to the room listlessly.

Chu Han followed up and asked worriedly, "Husband, have you been worried about anything lately?" The concubine looked at her, and her husband's brows had not been stretched these days. ”

Xiao Feiqing tugged at the corners of her mouth and said, "It's nothing, it's not early, go to sleep." ”

Chu Han took a deep breath, looked at Xiao Feiqing's back and said, "Husband, if I weren't Chu Han, wouldn't you say anything to me?" ”

Xiao Feiqing's back stiffened, turned his head to look at Chu Han in confusion, and asked, "What does Madame mean by this?" ”

Chu Han looked at Xiao Feiqing and asked word by word: "If I were Yu Ruyan, would you also say nothing to me?" ”

"Madame!" Xiao Feiqing said helplessly, "It's been almost ten years since the scholar left the capital, why did you suddenly say that?" ”

Chu Han smiled bitterly: "Yes, the scholar has been gone for almost ten years......"

"What the hell are you going to say, ma'am?" Xiao Feiqing asked.

Chu Han looked at Xiao Feiqing faintly and asked, "Don't say ten years, it's a lifetime, the concubine is in the husband's heart, it's not as good as a scholar, right?" ”

"Madame......"

Xiao Feiqing wanted to explain, but was interrupted by Chu Han: "Actually, after so many years, the concubine understands it both physically and mentally. My husband married me, but it was because of the interests of officialdom, and so did our marriage with the Yang family. In the husband's heart, there will always be only one woman. ”

Xiao Feiqing didn't speak, and every word of Chu Han stinged in his heart. Ten years ago, Yu Ruyan quietly left the capital, and like the last time she left, she disappeared without a trace.

She has never been able to give the happiness she wants, Xiao Feiqing understands this.

For Chu Han, he has respect, guilt, and pity, but there is no love. When I got married, it was also the order of my parents and the words of the matchmaker. Isn't this how everyone has lived since ancient times?

In the past ten years, Xiao Feiqing has not thought about inquiring about Yu Ruyan's whereabouts, but he has been holding back. It's not that I don't want to see it, but I can't see it.

What if you see it? After all, they are already people of two worlds. He has a family, and she has children.

If you miss it, you will have a lifetime, and if you miss it, you will have no regrets.

"I'm sorry......" Xiao Feiqing muttered after a while, "Madam, in my heart, you have always been solemn and virtuous, I respect you and cherish you and this family." ”

Chu Han sighed and said, "Actually, I want to thank my husband." When others are in high positions, they are all three wives and four concubines, for so many years, the husband has not taken a concubine, and he also cares for the children, what am I not satisfied with? ”

"I've been ignoring you, ma'am." Xiao Feiqing apologized, "It's just recently...... There are indeed a lot of things that don't go well in the court, and after a while, I will definitely make up for it. ”

Chu Han asked, "Husband, what troubles have you encountered recently?" Although the concubine is not as good as a university scholar, she can help you analyze the pros and cons, but when the husband says it, he feels better. ”

Xiao Feiqing saw that he couldn't hide, so he had to sit at the table and sighed: "Lord Li Shi was promoted to Prime Minister Zuo by the emperor, side by side with me. Although we are the elders of the Xiao family and the two dynasties, Li Shi's power is indeed not to be underestimated. ”

"The concubine remembers that Master Li was recommended by the university scholars back then." Chu Han said.

Xiao Feiqing nodded and said, "Yes, at that time, the scholar thought he was a genius, so he recommended him to the emperor." Unexpectedly, after so many years, Master Li is no longer the folk genius of the past. Power and desire have made him lose his heart, and the ideas he gave to the emperor are very much in line with the emperor's wishes. But it hurt the people. ”

"The concubine also heard that the great earthquake of the Wu clan that year, hundreds of thousands of people lost their lives, it was his idea." Chu Han sighed.

Xiao Feiqing patted the table lightly, and said with some anger: "Yes, his idea just met our emperor's ambitions, and the two hit it off." The earthquake almost killed the academics! He also harmed scholars and emperors...... Eun broke off the love. ”

Chu Han's face was slightly dark, and sure enough, when it came to Yu Ruyan, Xiao Feiqing still couldn't hide his concern. Chu Han then asked, "Recently, has Lord Li had any troubles?" ”

Xiao Feiqing sighed: "I'm annoyed when I talk about this. The marriage between the Xiao family and the Chu family was also given by the emperor himself, and our family Xinyan and Yang Muchen were also married by the emperor, and the power of the three of us in the Chen State can be said to be below one person and above ten thousand. But the emperor just likes to play some imperial tricks and play balance tricks. Seeing that several of us are in the dust, how can the emperor not be afraid in his heart? ”

"The emperor asked the three of us to marry each other, also to envelop us." Chu Han said, "This time, what will the emperor do to the three of us?" ”

Xiao Feiqing sighed: "The emperor has promoted Lord Li to be the prime minister, and in the court, he wants to give us a horse." Some time ago, didn't he transfer your brother to Mobei again? Recently, there has been another rumor that General Yang will be transferred away and Yang Muchen will be trained in the army. ”

"The emperor not only envelops us, but also disperses our power." Chu Han said, "I don't know what happened to my brother in Mobei." ”

Xiao Feiqing said with relief: "I will send someone to inquire, don't worry." Li Shi has also gathered a lot of forces in the DPRK and China over the years, and many sycophants are also willing to slap him. Over the years, people in his faction have also been suppressing our families, saying that we are relying on the shadow of our ancestors, but we have not actually done anything, but look at what he did? It's just that these despicable and despicable acts are in line with the emperor's wishes. ”

Chu Han said: "Husband, the concubine doesn't understand, but party strife has always consumed national strength. The concubine thought that it was better for her husband to try to have as few conflicts with Master Li as possible. As the husband said, the emperor likes to play with the art of balance, and he will not let the faction over there become bigger. ”

Xiao Feiqing looked at Chu Han and said with a smile: "Don't worry, madam, don't worry about these messy things." Although I, Xiao, am not talented, I can still protect the family. ”

"This concubine naturally knows." Chu Han said.

"It's not early, let's rest." Xiao Feiqing said a little tiredly.

Chu Han looked at his tired figure, and couldn't help but feel distressed in his heart.

On the wedding night, he lifted the bride's hijab, and the husband and wife looked at each other. Xiao Feiqing looked at his newlywed wife indifferently, a smile tugged at the corner of his mouth, and said, "Madam, are you tired?" Would you like something to eat? ”

It's as plain as water, it's so polite, it's ...... Alienate.

At that moment, Chu Han knew that in this life, it could only be like this.

She will never be able to enter her husband's heart, which is the saddest thing for a woman. Either way, no matter what.

Aren't all people in the world living like this?

Chu Han, whose health is getting worse and worse, has not improved despite seeing famous doctors. All doctors have the same sentence: heart disease requires heart medicine.

"Madame, do you have anything on your mind?" Xiao Feiqing asked with concern.

Chu Han lay on the bed weakly, smiled slightly, and said, "No, husband, I'm fine." ”

More than 20 years have passed, and Chu Han has thought about it. It doesn't matter whether Xiao Feiqing has herself in her heart or not. As long as he can stay by his side at this time.

It's a pity that she wanted to drive too late, and she couldn't stop the heavens from retracting her footsteps.

"Madam, it's all my fault, it's me who didn't take good care of you." Xiao Feiqing sat on the edge of the bed, holding Chu Han's hand tightly, and said with tears in his eyes.

Chu Han chuckled, "How could it be? In this life, my husband treats me like a jewel, but I am not satisfied and do not know how to cherish it. Unfortunately, I repented too late. The wish of this life, let me have another life in the next life. ”

Xiao Feiqing kissed Chu Han's hand distressedly and asked, "What is Madame's wish?" My husband will definitely help you. ”

Chu Han shook his head, looked at Xiao Feiqing and said reluctantly: "In the next life, I must be one step ahead of her and enter your heart......"

"Madame......"

The moment she closed her eyes, she was helpless and reluctant......

The marriage is wrong, the heart is wrong, the regret is wrong, and the life is wrong. (To be continued.) )