Chapter 136: A Thousand Knots in the Heart (3)
When I woke up in the morning, as soon as I opened my eyes, I saw Bai Moyin sitting at the table, holding his head with one hand, still resting, and the morning light fell on his body through the window, mottled and scattered. Cen Kexuan, the www.biquge.info of the pen "Fun" Pavilion, suddenly didn't want to move, just looked at him quietly, and didn't say anything for a long time. It wasn't until the lady of the farmhouse came up and knocked on the door and asked them to eat some porridge that she pretended to wake up and went outside with Bai Moyin.
The lady smiled: "Did the girl sleep well yesterday?" Cen Kexuan nodded slightly, and when he saw the other party's clear eyes, he suddenly felt a little embarrassed. The lonely man and widow came late at night to ask for accommodation, and Bai Moyin happened to hold her, which is really difficult to explain, it is obvious that the peasant woman misunderstood the relationship between them. However, Bai Moyin behaved much more calmly than her, lowered his head and drank some porridge, and asked, "I wonder if there are horses or vehicles entering the city here?" ”
The man said, "We are going to the city today to deliver food, if you two don't dislike it, you can go all the way with us." "Their food delivery car is naturally not easy to sit on, but their family has some horses, Bai Moyin happened to have a lot of silver on him, so he simply bought it, and the man's food delivery car should lead the way for them.
It's just that Cen Kexuan, who sprained his ankle, is really inconvenient.
Bai Moyin looked at Cen Kexuan, with hesitation in his eyes, as if he was afraid that she would lose her physical strength, but Cen Kexuan smiled and said to the man: "Then I will trouble you." ”
People with inconvenient feet ride horses, the difficulties can be imagined, Cen Kexuan stubbornly did not want to ride with Bai Moyin again, a person tossed for a long time before finally climbed on the horse, Bai Moyin waited for her quietly a little farther away, only about ten steps away, but it seemed to be separated from the ends of the world.
The two peasant couples thought that they had a good relationship, but when they saw them getting along like this, they were embarrassed and embarrassed.
"I think he really cares about you, it's a big thing, as long as he is really good to you, what's the point of not being able to get over?" As she was leaving, the peasant woman approached her and whispered, and the woman's acuity made her see some clues, and she couldn't help but remind, "What's more, I see that you also like him very much." After finishing speaking, there was a little smile in his eyes, like rippling water.
Of course she liked him, otherwise, she wouldn't have been so miserable. Cen Kexuan looked at the person who was waiting for her ten steps away, as if he was talking to the male host, tilting his head slightly, occasionally showing a smile, looking gentle and polite. This is much more approachable than the cold and unapproachable appearance at first sight, no wonder it is so easy to make people feel good, even the peasant woman who has only known him for a day has begun to speak for him.
If he had a heart, how easy it would be for someone to fall in love with him, wasn't he the stupidest one?
"But he deceived me, and he may have ulterior motives......" she bit her lip, "I don't know anything about him......"
"People's hearts are flesh and blood, and you won't feel whether a person is true or false to you." The peasant woman patted her hand, "Little girl, human eyes do not deceive. I think his eyes are warm when he looks at you. ”
Cen Kexuan looked into the distance in a daze, not knowing how to respond.
The two of them followed the man all the way into the city, and neither of them spoke again on the way. When I walked to the gate of Biliu Garden, I caught a glimpse of a figure from a distance, some distance away from the gate, but it did not move a bit, and it seemed that it had been waiting here for a long time. Cen Kexuan was bored in his heart, so he only glanced at it casually, and saw that it was a middle-aged man, with a cold color, and a hideous scar on his face covering his face, but his whole body was full of tenacity and imperceptible elegance.
Cen Kexuan turned over and dismounted, almost fell, and was quickly supported by Bai Moyin's eyes, Cen Kexuan took two steps back after standing firmly, and whispered as if talking to himself: "Why are you so good to me?" After saying that, I regretted saying such a thing again.
Bai Moyin looked at her deeply and said, "I'm not like this to everyone. ”
Cen Kexuan's words were tantamount to confessions, but she knew that the meaning of his words was definitely not like that. Cen Kexuan's heart trembled, and finally couldn't help but ask very directly: "Why?" Do you like me, will you marry me? It took her a lot of courage to ask this sentence, and after she finished speaking, her whole heart began to tremble, and she felt that she was about to be driven crazy by herself, and she was also about to be driven crazy by the inexplicable crazy love in her heart.
It's all his fault! She suddenly had an unspeakable resentment, and if she hadn't met him, she wouldn't have become this strange person.
The other party suddenly lost his voice, and said softly after a long time: "You are tired and need to take a break." ”
Ha - that's true.
In the face of his confession all along, he has always avoided answering, what is the difference between this and rejection? If you already know it, why bother yourself?
Cen Kexuan secretly sarcastically mocked his self-inflicted amorousness, tried his best to hold back the tears that were about to overflow from the corners of his eyes, and said with a smile: "Yes, I'm tired, I want to go back to rest early and go north one day." After all, I'm going to get married soon. She glanced at him sadly, took a deep breath and suddenly said, "In the future, Bai Gongzi should call me a sister-in-law." After saying that, he walked around him and walked to the front, and did not look at him again.
In this way, it is better to put aside the thoughts about him a long time ago, and in the future, everything will be done without entanglement with his thoughts and positions, and it will be much cleaner and more refreshing. When the time comes, turn your face and turn your face. This person is just a small episode, she will marry as planned at the beginning, find her brother, complete the task, and then quietly leave, and will never have anything to do with the surname Bai again.
How nice it is!
Bai Moyin stood in place and looked at her back, his eyes were complicated and difficult to understand, he opened his mouth slightly, but he didn't say a word, he didn't like to express his emotions and emotions, at this time, it was like this, why not Cen Kexuan who was embarrassed? He looked silently at the thin and stubborn figure, and let out a long sigh.
She limped and walked with great difficulty, but she insisted on not letting anyone help her, and when she approached, she finally saw the person waiting at the door. That person's temperament was very contradictory, although Cen Kexuan didn't look at him carefully, he still guessed his identity and intention in his heart, so he didn't notice that Bai Moyin next to him was instantly unusual in his calm face when he saw that person.
The man was about to step forward to talk to Bai Moyin, but when he looked up, he caught a glimpse of Cen Kexuan, and his originally calm pupils suddenly flooded with thousands of waves. Cen Kexuan didn't know why, took two steps back, and whispered, "What's wrong with you?" ”
"Miss!" With a shout, a little girl in green clothes rushed out from behind the door, with tears in her eyes, it was Doulan.
"Listen to the third prince, you are trapped in Baiyun Valley. I had heard earlier that the lord of the valley was a very difficult lord to mess with, and that the young lady did not return all night, and I was so frightened that I did not fall asleep all night! Dou Lan's eyes were red, and as soon as she opened her mouth, she chirped: "Miss, are you okay?" Did it hurt anywhere? As he spoke, he looked her up and down, his eyes full of worry.
Cen Kexuan was in a trance, he didn't know how to respond, his body didn't hurt much, but his heart hurt badly, how should he say this?
"You can take her in and rest first." Bai Moyin suddenly commanded Dou Lan. Dou Lan nodded, and hurriedly said, "Miss, hurry up and go in and drink a bowl of chicken soup, I just boiled it for you, and I'm looking forward to your return." ”
Cen Kexuan was already very tired, and he wanted to be separated from Bai Moyin earlier, so he nodded, and Ren Doulan helped him into the door, never turning back on the way. The man originally saw Cen Kexuan leaving, and was about to take a step up, but was stopped by Bai Moyin holding down his shoulder, and the man had to look straight at the direction Cen Kexuan left, until there was no trace, and then he said with some hesitation and disbelief: "Second son, that girl just ......."
Bai Moyin interrupted him and said, "Mr. Duan, let's talk in another place." ”
Outside the Biliu Garden is an alley, out of the alley turn left, is a small teahouse. The two went up to the second floor and sat down one after another, and Xiao Er came over with tea, and then slowly retreated. The room is quiet and tranquil, with the fragrance of tea. Bai Moyin unconsciously stroked the teacup lightly with one hand, and saw the man groaning to himself, so he spoke first: "Mr. Duan, no matter what you do, Mo Yin should do his best to help, but it's just ......"
He paused at the right time: "Sir, it's better not to appear in the place of Yujin Villa, after all, that matter is not completely over, please be cautious in your words and deeds, and take care of yourself." ”
The second son helped Duan several times, and Duan was really grateful. Duan Mou was alone, and he had no worries for a long time, even if he ...... "The man looked flat, and he was not afraid of life and death. At this point, he didn't go any further. As soon as the conversation changed, he said again: "That girl ...... just now"
Bai Moyin didn't respond to his question immediately, but looked out the window a little distracted, he recalled the despair and sadness in Cen Kexuan's eyes, and when he finally looked at him, he was already filled with hatred, which really made him unbearable.
It took him a long time to come back to his senses, and he said slowly: "This matter is a long story, Mr. Duan is willing to listen to it and start from the beginning......
After the two of them left Biliu Garden, Cen Kexuan slowly walked out from behind the door and headed directly to the west. She originally went to the house with Dou Lan, and halfway through, a strong restlessness and uneasiness suddenly surged in her heart, and she suddenly said: "I'm not very comfortable, Dou Lan, you go and bring me the chicken soup first, and I'll sit in this courtyard for a while." After saying that, he sat down on the stone bench in the courtyard and did not move again.
Seeing her like this, Dou Lan hesitated for a moment, but still responded.
However, as soon as Dou Lan left, Cen Kexuan got up and walked back, and his pace even quickened a lot. In fact, she didn't hurt her ankle heavily, and she pretended to be difficult to walk, just to make Bai Moyin think that she couldn't go out on her own. The first time she deceived him so deliberately, there was an extremely ridiculous reason, that is, she was angry, and when she saw his worried look because of this, she felt as if she had finally won back and was less aggrieved.
What a childish and ridiculous mind, even she couldn't help but laugh at herself.
Of course, there was another reason, and that was that she wanted to go somewhere and didn't want anyone to know.
Turned over the horse, followed the route in memory, went all the way out of the city, and found the mountain forest in memory not far from the city gate. Many years later, there were many deviations in her memory, and she came and went for a long time, until she was exhausted, and finally found the tombstone of the ancestor of the Cen family.
Row by row, column by column, tragic and heavy, she looked all the way, and saw the tombstone of her father and mother. Many years have passed, the grave is still clean, and even some dried paper money and bouquets are placed, apparently there are often people to pay tribute to clean it, but she has not set foot in Luoyang for nine years. It must be Master Li who does these things, even though he has never regarded Cen Kexuan as his own family, but his loyalty to the Cen family still makes Cen Kexuan grateful to him.
She sat on the grave with weak legs, called "father" and "mother", the wind in the forest blew the leaves, rustling, as if the parents in her memory were responding to her softly, she suddenly burst into tears and cried bitterly.
The picture of her childhood flashed in her mind continuously, her parents, her little aunt, the nurse Ah Zhen, and countless relatives, when they were young, they scolded, doted, loved, and finally reluctant eyes, all kinds of things, many. They existed for real, then vanished on a snowy night, never to be seen again. The so-called unpredictable fate, providence makes people, and that's probably it.
If it weren't for the accident nine years ago, what kind of life would she have lived?
She closed her eyes, tears rolling down her cheeks, dripping down the grave, soaking the dry, loose soil. After crying tired, he finally got up again and walked around to the back of a small hill in the jungle, as if exploring a secret past with his memories bit by bit. She didn't know what she was about to face, and her heart was beating so hard that it seemed to be beating out of her mouth.
Lifting the messy bush branches, the small grave that the elder brother had deliberately avoided before appeared in front of him.
Messy, dilapidated, overgrown with weeds, apparently after the death of my father, this tomb has been left unattended for many years, and it has become more and more desolate. And Master Li didn't take care of this place. The small grave had been buried by weeds, and he vaguely saw a Cen character engraved on the tombstone, and the rest were covered, Cen Kexuan unconsciously looked frightened: This is the tomb of the Cen family.
Which person in the Cen family can't be known by her?
Daddy and brother, what are they hiding from her?
She swallowed her saliva nervously, stepped forward carefully, stretched out her hand and pushed it away little by little, just like when she was a child, she was cautious and jealous of stealing the tribute of the Buddha Hall behind her father's back. After years of blurring, the handwriting engraved on the tombstone has been very tattered and mottled, Cen Kexuan tore open the vines wrapped around the tombstone, and carefully wiped the dust away, and the hidden place slowly appeared, one stroke at a time, extending little by little, clearly showing in front of her eyes.
Her heart was beating faster and faster, and she couldn't breathe, but when she saw the words in front of her, her hands suddenly trembled, and her heart suddenly became empty.
What was written on it was actually the tomb of the deceased daughter Cen Kexuan. (To be continued.) )