"Brother Li Shang, although this question is a bit presumptuous, I still want to ask you, because it has been bothering me for too long!" Maybe Li Yang's topic made both of us feel a little heavy, and after being silent for a long time, I began to change the topic, which is why I looked for him today. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

He smiled at me and said gently, "Say it! ”

"What do you think love is? Or what is love like? I asked, looking at him.

"Love?" He muttered, looking away from me, as if recalling something: "Maybe I will have a personal opinion, but I think love should be a wonderful feeling!" ”

He paused for a moment and continued: "When you really fall in love with someone, you can't help but want to get close to her, you want her to be happy, you will do everything you can to protect her, and you will do everything to do everything for her. And herself, will be happy because of her joy, and sad because of her sadness. ”

"Is that so?" I muttered.

Every time I see him, I am delighted, and I am satisfied when I see his smile. When he is not around, he will worry about whether he is okay, whether the stomach problem will recur, and occasionally his injured eyes will pop out of his mind. The throbbing feeling when approaching him turned out to be so obvious, but I didn't want to admit it!

All of this, the feeling that I have never had before, which makes me tangled and wonderful, is it the love for him?

"Perhaps in the eyes of many people, love is very beautiful. However, the pain that love can bring to people may make life worse than death! This pain will be stronger than the feeling of happiness! Li Shang continued.

I looked at his slightly sad side face and didn't speak, waiting for his next step. Perhaps, he had experienced such pain before he could say such a thing.

"What if...... If you don't have the power to protect him, give him up! He turned to look at me and said, "It would be much more painful to have him for a while and then lose him forever than to be able to watch him live happily ever after from afar." If I had made a different choice, maybe I wouldn't be so miserable now! ”

She ...... Is it no longer there? "Maybe I shouldn't have asked it, but I asked it anyway.

His eyes were already a little moist, and he turned his head away from my gaze before saying, "At that time, I didn't have the ability to protect her and let her leave this world in pain!" After a pause, he said with a wry smile: "Maybe I still don't have enough ability to protect her now." Maybe the first encounter was a mistake! ”

I wanted to comfort him, but I didn't know what to say, so I could only silently say sorry.

"It's okay, it's been a long time! I just wanted to remind you that the ultimate choice is still yours. The wheel of fate is always dictatorial, and we only have the right to choose, but not the right to determine the outcome. ”

"Actually, meeting is not a mistake, maybe the wrong thing is just a choice!" I stood up and said to him with a smile, "Brother Li Shang, thank you!" I already know what my heart is going to do. ”

Seeing me get up, he smiled and said, "Go ahead!" Hope you get the results you want."

"Hmm!"

If I only have the right to choose, then hopefully my choice will lead to good results. The result I want is actually very simple, as long as he can live happily, it will be enough, even if there is no longer me in this world.

For him, this kind of me should be just a passing visitor in his life, and we don't belong to the same world.

It was the first time I drove at a crazy pace, and when I got to the airport, he seemed to have just arrived.

From the airport lobby all the way to the dedicated entrance, it was packed with a lot of his fans, and it took me a lot of effort to squeeze a little further forward.

Protected by several bodyguards, he got out of the car and entered the special passage of the airport, and the fan base immediately set off a wave of crazy screams.

He greeted the fans with his trademark smile and shook hands with them, but his eyes looked around from time to time, as if he was looking for something.

Soon he found me in the crowd and surprised me a little. The moment we met each other, the smile on his face became even brighter, like a child getting the candy he had been longing for for a long time. But this bright smile shook my originally firm heart a little.

He seemed to want to move in my direction, but he didn't take a few steps before he was pushed forward by the staff around him. After looking back at me reluctantly, he continued to smile and wave to the fans.

I smiled as his back disappeared into the aisle with a high-decibel scream, and after confirming that he had entered the break room, I hit my phone and pressed the dial button.

Soon, the phone was connected, and his delightful voice came from there: "Laugh! I see you! ”

"Brother Nanfei!" There are some things that I want to say but are hard to say.

"Are you still outside? I'll go out and find you! I seemed to hear him get up.

"No!" I said hurriedly.

I was scared, scared that if we actually met, I wouldn't be able to speak. It's been so long, and now it's time to break off, so I can't hesitate any longer.

He seemed to pause and asked with some concern, "What's wrong, Xiaoxiao?" ”

After being silent for a while, I plucked up my courage and said, "Brother Nanfei, I know you have been waiting for me for a long time, but ...... I'm really sorry! ”

"Smile...... I can imagine the bitter expression on his face.

"Brother Nanfei, this answer is not the result of my momentary consideration, it is really the answer I came up with after a long time. Brother Nanfei, do you remember the night when we watched the moon together in the yard? After seeing that you wanted to talk and stopped, I actually knew a little bit about how you felt about me at that time. But, I'm really sorry! I can't give you the answer you want. ”

There was silence on the other end of the phone, and there was no speech.

"Brother Nanfei, in my heart, you will always be the brother who brings me a lot of happiness! I really don't want to hurt you! So, even if you don't have me, please be happy! ”

Tears have begun to slide down my cheeks unconsciously, but I still smile and say that he must be happy, this bitter feeling is the first time I have experienced it in so many years, and my heart will really hurt.

I felt that I couldn't control my emotions and tone anymore, and I knew that I couldn't say more, so I took a deep breath, tried to control my tone and said with a smile: "I'm sorry! Have a nice trip! With that, I hung up.

Tears began to fall uncontrollably, and in the haze, I looked at the end of the passage, and the pain in my heart became even more intense.

I'm sorry, Brother Nanfei! I'd rather just watch you from a distance like this than let me hurt you in any way, maybe you'll be sad and sad, but that's the only way I can love you!

The phone in his hand began to vibrate, it was he who called. But I can't take it, if I do, I will be soft-hearted, and if I do, he will hear that I am so helpless, so I can't. I pressed the reject button tremblingly, tears falling on the screen of my phone, and his smiling avatar was faintly visible.

The crowd around him, which had already dispersed a little, began to boil again, as he appeared at the end of the passage again, his phone in his hand, his eyes constantly searching for me in the crowd.

Looking at his anxious figure, I didn't think much about it, and quickly turned around and squeezed out of the crowd. Because I knew it wouldn't be long before he could find me.

Sure enough, soon, he seemed to have figured out my direction and began to charge into the crowd, eliciting bursts of piercing screams.

At this time, I just squeezed out of the crowd and quickly found a corner to avoid his sight.

The screams were getting closer and closer, and the phone in his hand began to vibrate again.

I looked at the avatar on the screen, and tears flowed even more.

I cautiously found a hidden position, looking at him not far away surrounded by enthusiastic fans, he looked a little embarrassed without the protection of the staff, but he still kept looking for me.

He seems to be a little crazy like this, and I have never seen him so anxious and painful, as if he has lost everything he has, and wants to desperately try to make amends, desperate for anything.

He makes me feel distressed, but I can't be soft-hearted.

The phone still vibrated and he never gave up and hung up. I looked at the beating buttons, clutched my phone tightly, and felt like I was about to collapse, and I wanted to get out of here and end all this pain.