However, how could he pretend to care for her? As she said to Xiao Wu yesterday, all the pros and cons analysis could not match the most real feelings in her heart, she closed her eyes, cleared her throat, and finally found her voice, "I heard that you didn't sleep all night last night, if it was because of me......"

"I couldn't sleep in the first place, but it just so happened that your medicine was also delivered. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 info" He glanced at her, as if to comfort her, "You don't have to worry too much. ”

"Why...... Will not be able to sleep. "If a person is well, how can he lose sleep? Could it be that like her, she is worried about the relationship between the two?

"No why." The old servant in the distance passed by here, saw that there was no one at the stone table, and began to look this way, Bai Moyin nodded at him, and promised him to clean up the wine and food, "For many years, I haven't been able to sleep, and I've long been used to it." He spoke very ordinarily, with a faint smile on his lips, as if he thought that long-term sleeplessness was not a disease, but a disease that needed to be treated.

Cen Ke preached: "People say that they think about it every day and dream at night, and some people daydream every day, and they can wake up laughing when they fall asleep, but if they can't even dream, isn't it too pitiful?" ”

"yes, I don't even have a dream, it's really pitiful." He could still say something like that with a smile.

This made Cen Kexuan not know how to deal with it for a while. Speaking of which, when she was in Ziyun Palace, she also couldn't sleep because she missed her brother day and night, but Dou Lan rummaged through the medical skills, asked and studied it many times, and really made a recipe for her, and drank it for two months in a row, and she really slept a lot more soundly, but it was just ...... Every time I decoction, the time and effort it takes are hard work for Doulan's girl, and she has lost a lot of weight all over the place.

On the other hand, the prescription is still in Doulan's hands, and Cen Kexuan, who has never paid attention to this matter, has no idea where to start for a while, and ...... I'd do anything for your sake. She thought about her declaration of love sourly and affectionately, but she didn't dare to say it, never dared.

"I've never asked, what is Bai Gongzi's wish?" The way he smiled and spoke just now made her very concerned, both panicked and distressed.

"Wish?" He raised his eyebrows slightly, and there was a slight doubt in his dark eyes, as if he did not understand the meaning of the word.

"Yes, wish." Cen Kexuan repeated it a second time, but his tone became much more serious, "Everyone has their own wishes, isn't it, Xu is successful and famous, Xu is rich and can spend a lot of money, Xu is a harmonious family, loving mother and filial piety, maybe it is ...... There is a lover who will eventually become a family......" Speaking of this, her face flushed slightly, "What about Bai Gongzi?" Didn't you ever have any wishes? ”

Bai Moyin was silent for a moment, and just when Cen Kexuan thought that he would not answer and was about to change the topic, he actually spoke slowly: "There have been many things, about myself, about the people around me, but now ......" He lowered his eyes, and the smile on the corner of his mouth became more and more unreal, "There should be no more, only things that must be done, and even if I once thought that I had to do things, not long ago, I was still shaken and confused, and began to doubt whether everything I did was really meaningful." ”

Cen Kexuan tilted his head to look at him, the first time he heard him open his heart and say something, but he didn't seem to understand.

"It sounds like I'm just a wretched and miserable person who has no pursuits." He chuckled self-deprecatingly, and didn't continue, but stopped at the point, but turned the topic to Cen Kexuan, "Maybe you can tell me, what do you want?" ”

"Huh?" Cen Kexuan didn't understand what he meant, "This...... What does this have to do with me? ”

"Since my wish cannot be fulfilled in this life, if I can declare any unfulfilled wishes, I might as well tell me that if I can help one or two, it can be regarded as the beauty of an adult, and I will not regret it so much, if I leave this world one day in the future......"

"Don't talk nonsense!" Cen Kexuan couldn't help but interrupt him, put aside his face and said, "What's going on with Bai Gongzi today, say something strange." Taking a deep breath, she began to answer his question seriously, "My wish is that you are well, not only in good health, but also here." She walked up to him, held out her finger, and carefully poked him in the heart.

The old servant who had packed up the wine and food had already walked away, and at the last glance, he looked back, the cold boy in white and the smart Tingting girl stood opposite each other, he only saw the woman's face, the gaze was very obsessed, and secretly sighed that there is no shortage of crazy men and women in the world, and turned around and walked away.

Bai Moyin lowered his head slightly, and saw the finger she put on his heart, which was not only his heart, but also hidden behind the placket of his clothes, which she had never seen with her own eyes, a long-lasting scar that almost killed him. But...... Does she know how the scar came about?

"Look at you and you look like you can't be happy, I feel uncomfortable, if you're happy, then I'll be happy, if you're unhappy, I'll not be happy anyway, you know that I ...... you" hurriedly shut up, and accidentally said too much, girl's family, why don't you know how to be reserved? Cen Kexuan bit his lip tightly, turned his head uncomfortably and said, "Anyway...... You know what I mean. ”

A trace of indescribable emotion flashed in Bai Moyin's dark eyes-understood? Why was she so sure he could understand her mind? In fact, he didn't understand very much, and he never understood what love in the mouth of a seventeen-year-old girl was. At first, I wanted to laugh at it as a painless episode, but this idea seems to ignore her sincerity, but how much is her sincerity?

"Hasn't Ke Xuan always felt that I was full of lies and not worth believing?" He slowly opened his mouth and said something in a tone without reproach.

"I ...... I didn't ...... "distinct...... You've always rejected me, haven't you? Why such an expression?

"I'm sorry." He closed his eyes and turned his back to her, "I may have lost some of my temper tonight, so I'll see you tomorrow, Kexuan." ”

He did not smile and say goodbye as he usually did, and without even looking at her, he opened his legs and turned into the house, took two steps, and stopped, as if he had thought of something, and said in a voice as heavy as night: "Whatever happens in the future, I do not hope that one day you will hate me for being disappointed in me." ”

"Why...... To put it this way? "The first time I opened up and talked to him, I thought that I could slowly communicate with each other and become understanding of each other, why did I ......

He pushed the door with one hand, and stopped at the door with his back to her, his whole back shrouded in darkness, and the white clothes lost the coolness of the usual snow, replaced by an indiscernible darkness, and his silence for a long time.

"I'm happy to be with you." He finally said.

Cen Kexuan didn't understand what was wrong with him, she could feel his loss, and even understood what she should say, otherwise the distance between the two would only get farther and farther apart. However, what should I say, how should I tell him these indescribable emotions when I don't know anything? Is it just like that, not saying anything, not doing anything?

No...... That's not true...... Cen Kexuan tightened his fingers and watched him push the door into the house, the door was opened, and he saw that it was about to close.

"Bai Gongzi!" His movements finally stopped slightly, but he still didn't look back at her, Cen Kexuan didn't care much, and shouted at him: "In Kexuan's eyes, Bai Gongzi is perfect." She covered her beating heart, mustered up the courage to speak dryly, trying to express something, "Even if there are occasional things that are unacceptable to Kexuan, it is only because I can't really get close to you, in Kexuan's heart, Bai Gongzi is inferior to others in any aspect, but the only frustration is ......"

"The only thing that is frustrating is that no matter how hard I try, I have never been able to get close to Bai Gongzi's heart, I can't really understand your feelings, know and share your pain and happiness." After saying it in one breath, everything returned to silence again, only Cen Kexuan's pounding heart seemed to be unable to calm down for a long time.

With such a hot heart, unreservedly dedicated in front of your eyes, why do you never look back?

The silence spread for a long time, and Night Wind finally delivered his last words, "It's late at night, go to bed early." With that, he pushed the door again, creaked, and entered the house. Cen Kexuan looked at the closed door, stunned like a statue, and didn't move for a long time, until a gust of wind rose, her feet suddenly softened, and she simply sat on the ground, not wanting to get up again.

The moon above her head was big and round, and she sat on the ground outside his door, with her back against the wall, and there was a lot of peace and quiet, you have watched me for so many nights, and tonight, let me watch over you. When I closed my eyes, I saw him under the pear blossom tree for the first time, and he looked unreachable and alienated, as if he couldn't get close to it in his life.

But...... She opened her eyes and reached out to caress the closed door, the distance between us was just a stone's throw away.

The moontop treetops, the sunset and the sunrise, the morning fog in the depths of the mountains and forests has not yet had time to disperse, the sky has begun to glow with a faint white light, Zhang Qianlan was shaken awake in a daze of sleep, opened her eyes, a slightly tired face appeared in front of her, a pair of originally sharp eyes, with a lot of red bloodshots.

"It's time to get up and hurry, go home and go to sleep, Qianlan." He said to the little sister as gently as he could.

Zhang Qianlan woke up suddenly in a hazy way, only to realize that she didn't know when she fell asleep, and with the haggard face of her second brother in front of her, a sense of guilt instantly filled her whole heart.

"Big brother." She hurriedly looked at the bed board in the corner, Yun Zhen wiped the cold sweat on her forehead for her eldest brother, and the person who fell into bed had lost his vitality more and more, and was dying, "There are no horses, if you want to rush back to Luoyang City from this mountain forest, I'm afraid it will ......" Even if you don't know the world like Zhang Qianlan, you also understand the difficulty of things.

"I can only go out first and see if I can catch the carriage into the city, if I go to find it myself......" Zhang Jiansheng looked at the place of the eldest brother, and also knew that things were not easy, "I'm afraid that the eldest brother can't bear it." ”

Zhang Qianlan's eyes were full of tears, she nodded, and said, "I understand." ”

"Chen Yun, He Wu, you're ready to go." After Zhang Jiansheng gave an order, several people came to their senses as quickly as possible, each took clean water to wash, hastily cleaned up, erased the traces in all directions, and walked out of the door one after another, when a familiar figure blocked the door.

"Yao...... Sister Yao'er? Zhang Qianlan said softly.