145. The end of life
For the next period of time, the two chatted about their own things while drinking coffee, Bai He learned from Yao Lingling the name of the boy who liked her, as well as his class, and Yao Lingling also learned from Bai He that he was already with the girl he liked. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info
Before this, the two were obviously friends or less, and they could only be called a relationship of knowing each other, but now they are like old friends who haven't seen each other for many years.
The coffee in the cups of the two gradually ended, and Bai He and Yao Lingling both knew it was time to leave. Maybe the two will meet at school in the future, and they will nod and wave, but sitting and talking like this today may never happen again in this life, so whether it is Bai He or Yao Lingling, the last sip of coffee is very slow.
It seems to be reluctant, and it seems to remember this last moment deeply in my mind.
At the end of the end, Bai He drank all the coffee first, stood up and went to the front desk to pay the bill, and when he looked at the seat again, Yao Lingling had already left at some point, only the two empty coffee cups on the table confirmed what had just happened.
The waiter quickly walked over to the table, put away the two empty cups, and after a while a man and a woman pushed the door open and sat in the seat.
"Sir, looking for your money. Mr? The staff's words finally brought Bai He back to his senses, took the change and nodded to her, couldn't help but glance at the position where the two of them were sitting just now, and finally took a step and left the café.
In fact, Bai He had no plans to find a girlfriend or even get married before he met Xia Meng. There is an interesting saying: marriage is the grave of love. Although Hakutsuru hasn't had a girlfriend for so many years, he somehow empathizes with this sentence.
Whether you are married or establish a relationship with each other, it means that you will have one more person to participate in the rest of your life, and you will have to take on the corresponding responsibilities. If having multiple girlfriends is morally condemnable, then having an affair after marriage rises to the level of the law.
The reason why lonely people are lonely is because they disdain to be in the company of the world, and they don't want to be firmly trapped in the shackles of the world. There are so many gentle and elegant women in ancient and modern times, why can there only be one of them in the end? Hakutsuru knew that this was his own misunderstanding, but it was difficult to control this thought.
To establish a relationship is to be responsible, to be responsible means to be single-minded, and to be single-minded means to give up the whole world for one person, and when he thinks of starting a family with a woman in the future, Bai He has an inexplicable sense of fear in his heart.
Even if he already has Xia Meng as his girlfriend now, he will still have fear of the future from time to time in his heart. I'm afraid that I'll be treacherous and fall in love with other girls, I'm afraid that there will be family conflicts after I get married, and I'm afraid that I won't be able to restrain my hormones and do things that I'm sorry for Xia Meng......
The white crane sighed leisurely, and stopped thinking about miscellaneous things. There are some things that you can't figure out no matter how you think about them before they happen, and it's just a waste of time to think about them.
Hakutsuru understands this, so the only way at the moment is to take one step at a time. In the end, no one can give an answer in advance whether he can go to the palace of marriage with Xia Meng, or whether he will be a stranger in the middle.
Coincidentally, the white crane met the previous homeless man again at the door, and greeted him warmly after seeing him, and it happened that the white crane had nothing to do and came to his side.
"The guy smashed, and he came out to ask for food again!" As soon as the homeless man said a word, someone threw a dollar into his bowl and quickly bowed again and again to express his gratitude.
Bai He doesn't want to explain the homeless man's perception of himself anymore, anyway, he has the impression that he is a homeless man, and he will forget about it tomorrow after explaining it today.
"What's wrong, with a sad face? Is it because I didn't get much money today, and I can't eat? The homeless man saw that Bai He was in a bad mood, and thought that he didn't get any money today, so he quickly picked up the bowl on the ground and handed it to him and said, "Young man, I still have more than 20 yuan of change here, you can take it and buy something delicious!" ”
"Thanks, no need." The white crane shook his head and rejected the homeless. Although he felt warm about the homeless's kindness, it was not this matter that worried him. After thinking about it, Bai He asked coldly: "Uncle, do you have a wife and children?" ”
The homeless man was stunned for a moment, put down the bowl in his hand, and waved his big hand quite freely: "How can a person like me have any wives and children?" I ate every day without a meal, and if there is a woman who really wants to follow me, then I can't agree to it! ”
"Don't you feel lonely by yourself?" Hakutsuru asked again.
"To tell you the truth, sometimes it's really lonely, especially at night when there is no one on the street, I lie in the park and look at the stars in the sky, the cold wind blows into my clothes, thinking that it would be nice for me to have a home like everyone else. But--" The homeless man changed his words, and said with a sense of satisfaction on his face: "Everything has advantages and disadvantages, and if you lose, it also means that you have gained." Don't look at me every day, but I'm free! Without my boss to care about me, without my wife scolding me, I can go wherever I want by myself. If I'm really hungry, I go to the snack street to shop, and I pick up the leftovers to eat, and when it's cold, I go to the bank ATM to hide overnight. ”
The homeless man pointed to the crowd of people coming and going on the street, and said with a smile: "Look at these sick people with small glasses, maybe they don't live as long as I do!" ”
Bai He was dumbfounded, he didn't expect the homeless man's mentality to be so free and easy, and he also laughed.
"You're right, life is precious, love is more valuable, if it's for freedom—"
The two looked at each other, and said in unison with a very tacit understanding: "Both can be thrown!" ”
Ignoring the strange eyes of the people around them, the two laughed out loud, as if they had met a confidant for the first time in their lives.
The homeless man did not untie the knot for the white crane, but he became the object of his confiding, which made him feel a lot more comfortable. Life is like this, everyone has their own way of life, you look at him pitiful, maybe he will think that you are not as good as him.
"Smash guy, you are the first person I am optimistic about in my life, maybe I will meet in the future!" The homeless man said this, his tone mixed with a little regret.
"What do you mean?" Hakutsuru asked.
"It means I'm leaving here, I've been here long enough, I want to go somewhere else and see the scenery by the way."
"Really? Then I can only wish you a smooth journey. Bai He said, without the slightest intention of retaining. He was a man who longed for freedom like the homeless, and knew that he couldn't keep begging outside this school, and that it was better to say goodbye freely than to keep it, and to say what the homeless wanted him to say.
The homeless man smiled big when he heard this, and the white crane could see that he was very happy.
After that, the white crane also went out of the campus alone, but he never saw the homeless man again. He really went to see the scenery elsewhere as he said, but his big smiling face was deeply imprinted in Bai He's heart, and whenever he encountered troubles, he would remember what the two of them had said today, and it became a force to encourage him to move forward.
What Hakutsuru didn't know was that the homeless man died a month after leaving the neighborhood of the campus, and the cause of death was that he had advanced liver cancer after eating too much spoiled food, and he could never recover.
But on the day he died in the hospital bed, his expression was comfortable.