023 What She Wants......
I didn't know what Death-sama's real name was, but Kanata didn't seem to be as sad as she was just now. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 Info followed the previous words, took down the fifth book from the bookshelf that he hadn't finished yet, and sat down on his bed and looked at it.
Lord Death realized that he had nothing to do, so he went to take a bath. Although he doesn't need it, habit is habit, just like he feels uncomfortable if he doesn't eat three meals a day.
When he came out of the shower, he was still sitting in the position he had just taken, but the book in his hand had changed from the fifth to the sixth.
Seeing that Kana didn't seem to have any intention of sleeping, Lord Death picked up the programming book he had just read and continued reading. He found the book to be interesting. In particular, there is a certain concept in it, which is very similar to what Lord Death needs. However, it is not yet known whether it will be enforced. And in his opinion, this is also a bit unscientific, and there are many restrictions. Only after reading the entire book can he judge whether it is available or not.
It's just that if it really works, it will also be a great help to Lord Death. Vaguely, he felt that it was likely that that terrible ability to play came from what was written in the book. It's just that the specific situation of how she did it will be until Lord Death has to wait to see.
Without a word, time continued to pass. Again, a soft call interrupted the silence.
Lord Death put down the book, turned to him, and asked, "What's wrong?" ”
It's a bit difficult to understand this book, and Bleach hasn't touched a computer for a long time, so he has to think about a lot of things while reading them, so he's only halfway through it. And the book in his hand has been updated to the seventh.
But she didn't seem to have any intention of continuing to read: "It's twelve o'clock, and there will be classes tomorrow." ”
Lord Death shrugged his shoulders and asked, "Are you going to sleep?" "He didn't mind. Anyway, it's the same when you wake up the next day, because even if you let him watch it all night, it doesn't really mean much. It is unlikely that he will be able to do anything with the principles of this book before tomorrow, so it would be better to postpone it until the day after tomorrow. After all, something quite troublesome is going to happen tomorrow.
"Hmm." Soda nodded. While she did learn to be flexible in some places, many things don't change. What to do, she will still do it well, and it will always be the same.
"Then go to sleep." Lord Death flipped over his hand and put away the book in his hand, "What about the lamp?" Do you want to turn it off? ”
"Hmm."
Lying on the "bed" made of quilts, Lord Death put his hands under his head and did not close his eyes. The ceiling was dark, but there was still a little light through the window, and the room was not completely darkened. With his back to him, his long white hair stood out even in the dark. However, to the surprise of Lord Death, Kana did not fall asleep as she said, but was awake like Lord Death. For Lord Death, this kind of thing is not difficult to judge at all.
"Don't you sleep?" Lord Death asked curiously.
"Can't sleep." Song replied honestly, "I always feel that my heart can't be calm." It's just that because she has her back to Lord Death, and the bed is higher than Lord Death, he can't see what Kana's expression is. Anyway, you can't hear the sound at all. But since she's said so, let's just think so.
"Why?" Lord Death asked.
"Bad things come to mind." Play in a low voice.
"Yes." Lord Death closed his eyes and didn't go any further.
However, just as he was about to fall asleep, Soda suddenly asked, "Lord Death, will everyone leave here one day?" We're all dead, so that's why you're here. Right? ”
"yes." Lord Death replied a little confused.
She turned around slightly, but found that Lord Death was already asleep, and seemed to be so asleep that she wouldn't wake up no matter how she screamed, so she put out her thoughts and continued to ask.
She didn't quite know what her mood was all about, even if she read a romance novel. It was a chaotic and more complicated mood than before. No matter how much she thought, she couldn't figure out what was going on. And this kind of mood is something that has never been seen before.
As she pondered what she could do to make everyone's regrets disappear, a question suddenly came to mind.
If she really let everyone leave, will she disappear too?
No...... It's going to disappear.
She was willing to believe in Lord Death, and since he said yes, that was. So he must be the Grim Reaper, coming to take their souls. It's just that every time she thinks that one day she will never see Lord Death again, and maybe she will forget about the existence of Lord Death, she can't help but feel a pain in her heart. What a lonely thing it would be if people met only for the sake of separation. In that case, she didn't want to at all.
As she thought about it, she noticed that something seemed different about her. If it was her before, she probably wouldn't have had such an idea. Or even if there is, they will accept it, because that is the best choice. But now, she doesn't feel that way anymore. She wished she could do something about it, and wanted to stay. But no longer for that thank you, there are also insignificant wishes. It's for yourself.
She wondered what it was that made her what she was like.
And this answer is probably in Lord Death. Lord Death is unlike anyone else. His presence is special and irreplaceable to her. And this kind of thing, perhaps...... It's been since I was seen that time. It is precisely because of the shaking that it will change, and the ice will melt.
So, only by getting to know each other, becoming more familiar, and then thinking desperately, can she get the answer. What exactly she wants, what exactly does she want. She didn't live for anyone, and she didn't stay for anyone anymore. She knew she had some untouchable regret that she was allowed to keep - because she hadn't lost any of her memories. So, she must have some regrets.
That regret is no longer to say "thank you" to the benefactor. That regret should have disappeared the moment they met. Therefore, she must have had greater regrets, which is why she was allowed to come here.
So...... What did she want?
Sotsu suddenly understood why Lord Death didn't say anything.
That's for her to find out for herself. Only what she finds will be right, and it will be what she prays for in reality. So no matter how clumsy she is, if she can't figure it out anyway, go find it. If you find it, you will know it naturally, and you don't need to think about it. Her thinking had always been incomplete. She was missing a part of the mood she should have.
Lord Death has said that everyone has their own regrets, and only happiness cannot fill them.
She didn't want happiness, she knew what it was and felt it. So, that's not what she wants. What she wants should be something more profound. It is because of what is missing that she is incomplete. Her thoughts, so much so that her heart had always been incomplete. That's why she didn't realize for the first time why she thought so much, why Lord Death was special.
That's, what a sad thing.
With this sorrow, the girl fell into a deep sleep.