As soon as Zhuang Wuyan got home, she hurriedly called Ning Zeyi. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 info"I'm back to A University today. "I know, it's the weekend." Ning Zeyi didn't understand what was worth reporting on. "Oh, that's not what I'm going to say, I have a bombshell news for you oh, aren't you curious? Why don't you ask me what I am? Zhuang Wuyan asked anxiously.

What is it? Xiaomi told me everything. "Ning Ze has a posture that has already been understood." When? "Just a few minutes before you make that call." "Oh, then why are you so calm,

Xiaomi is going to study in the United States

Ay. Zhuang Wuyan was surprised that Ning Zeyi was completely indifferent. Zhuang Wuyan, are you really a journalist? That's your definition of journalism

Not? "Ning Zeyi still didn't think there was anything to be surprised about in this matter." Of course not, he wants to go with Huo Ziqi. ”“

Both of them? ”“

yes, I'm surprised, wait, didn't you say you know? How can I listen to your tone, as if I just knew. "I did just find out." "Then what did you just say that Millet told you?" "What he said is that Aunt Yuan has a very special attitude towards you today, and he also instructed Aunt Huang to prepare for you what you like to eat." "Yes, I also had a feeling of being flattered at first, but then I understood that there are only two possibilities for Aunt Yuan's attitude to change, one is that she forgives me, and the other is that she decided to live in peace with me for the sake of Ning Xiaomi and Huo Ziqi's face." "Hey, you don't care about her, as long as her attitude changes, she will be good to you." "Well, you have a point." Zhuang Wuyan agreed. "Of course, I'm a results-oriented person." Ning Zeyi said lightly.

Due to the smooth resolution of the matter of returning to Ning's house today, Zhuang Wuyan was in a good mood, and after relaxing, the feeling of fatigue hit, and she soon fell asleep.

In the middle of the night, the mobile phone ringtone sounded in the quiet night, which was particularly harsh, Zhuang Wuyan stretched out her hand from the quilt to the bedside table to grope, and just lazily "Hey", Nuo Nuo's anxious voice came: "Wuyan, come quickly, Xue'er doesn't seem to be able to do it." "What, what do you say? When we went to see her the other day, wasn't it okay? "All of a sudden, there was a rejection. The hospital just called me, and I'm heading there now, so you should come over quickly. "Okay, I'll be right there." Zhuang Wuyan's drowsiness disappeared in a flash, she put on a coat haphazardly, took her wallet and mobile phone and rushed out.

Due to excessive nervousness, she fired several times, but she didn't fight, her hands were shaking all the time, and Zhuang Wuyan struggled to hold her wrist: "Please, don't shake." Somehow, Zhuang Wuyan had a particularly bad premonition, the car finally drew a beautiful arc, in the quiet night, Zhuang Wuyan has been accelerating, as if a little late, will pass by Xue'er.

In the hospital, the red light of "in first aid" has been on, Nuo Nuo They have arrived, Nuo Nuo has been leaning against the white wall of the hospital, as if only in this way can she have a center of gravity and will not fall, Gao's father is sitting on the side, his expression is also terrible serious, Gao's mother's face is already sad, Zhuang Wuyan saw such a situation, and immediately understood the seriousness of the situation, she quietly came to Nuo Nuo's side, held Nuo Nuo's hand tightly, Nuo Nuo leaned over the weight of his body, as if he had found the most reliable support.

"How's it going?" With the sound of hurried footsteps, George's voice was heard. "It's still being rescued." Zhuang Wuyan pointed to the red light in the operating room. At this time, she found out that Ning Zeyi was also here. "Why are you here?" After Zhuang Wuyan asked, he regretted it, this question is too idiotic, fortunately, everyone is in a state of extreme nervousness, just say something white.

The hospital at night is exceptionally quiet, occasionally you can hear the sound of pulleys, the smell of disinfectant water is all over your nose, and the doctors and nurses who occasionally pass by are in a hurry, no one is talking and laughing, everyone's expressions are extraordinarily calm, I don't know how long it took, the red light on the operating room finally went out, and the tired doctor slowly walked out of the operating room, Zhuang Wuyan felt that this scene was like the scene of a bloody TV series, and the doctors usually only said two things in this scene: "I'm sorry, we tried our best." Please mourn. Or, "The surgery was successful and the patient came out in a moment." "And this time, they belong to the unfortunate latter, and the doctor says the former. At that moment, no one cried bitterly, Zhuang Wuyan understood what the book said, people can't cry when they are in the most pain, she felt a little weak, and before losing consciousness, she only felt that she had fallen into a warm embrace.

When Zhuang Wuyan woke up again, there was bright sunshine outside the window, but she felt that her heart was dark, and she heard the doctor communicating with Ning Zeyi: "Mrs. Ning will only faint due to a certain blow due to sudden emotional stimulation, as long as you pay attention to nutritional conditioning, don't overwork, rest for a few days, and you will be fine." "Okay, thank you, doctor." Ning Zeyi thanked the doctor, turned around and saw Zhuang Wuyan who had woken up, and said happily: "Are you awake?" Zhuang Wuyan still felt very tired: "Hmm." "Would you like to eat something or drink some water?" Zhuang Wuyan shook his head, "Where's my phone?" Give me your phone, okay? "Okay." Ning Zeyi handed the phone to Zhuang Wuyan. Zhuang Wuyan found Xue'er's circle of friends and flipped through them one by one.

I don't know if it's because of the long-term illness that gave Cher more time to read quietly and think quietly, but it was precisely because of the illness that she didn't know who to express her feelings with, and posting on Moments became a way for her to communicate with the outside world:

On October 15, Cher wrote: "Coffee is easy to cold, fireworks are easy to pass away, and youth is easy to go." It was as if she had already felt the coming of death, and this day was only 3 days before she died.

On October 14, Cher excerpted this sentence - "I did not come to this world to explore the meaning of life, let alone make a long speech on this profound question, the meaning of my life is that I did what I wanted to do, and I have always done my best, so I am satisfied and have no regrets." - Lee Kuan Yew"

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On September 22nd, Cher seemed to have quarreled with the prince of the children's home, so she summed up what the prince had said, and countered: "You think that if you drag r=a(1-sinθ), you are a mathematician, you think that if you drag an E=mc^2, you are a physicist, you think that if you drag a ro3a, you are a master of language, you think you are a fool, you are a famous critic, you think you take a selfie, you are a handsome guy, hum, vulgar, naïve, tasteless." ”

On September 21, Cher spent her 17th birthday with her friends at the Children's Home, and she wrote: "We need to have fox friends in our lives, and when you meet someone who has the same problem as yourself, you will be really happy, and you will suddenly feel that you are not so lonely, everything is destined, and there is a special and wonderful fate." Originally, we were all eggplants, and naturally attracted a bunch of purple things, we didn't want to, we had to be green, blue, red, yellow, balabala, we all like to keep our ears and eyes open, and we don't even know what we see or hear, just to make life less boring, less lonely, with low chanting and accompaniment.

Your faults are like a special mysterious symbol, only you can see them, look at each other, understand everything, and smile. ”

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On August 5th, Xue'er didn't know who to be anxious about that day, and wrote: "In the past, I was like the little boy in a fairy tale, saying to those arrogant and conceited kings everywhere, hey, you don't have any clothes, people ignore me, and I also took the initiative to give them one, for fear that people will freeze." But I decided that from now on, I will definitely not say more than half a word, what to say, what is there to say, people are difficult to dismantle, besides, I said it ten thousand times, they will come out naked next time. But holding back and not saying that it is definitely a kind of practice, suffocating me. ”

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On July 15th, Cher was in really good shape, her appetite was also very good, and she looked healthy and energetic: "The point is not what I ate at night, there will be two big bowls in front of me, the point is that the green bowl suddenly slid uncontrollably towards the corner of the table like a drift car in a racing game, but my legs were still far enough from the table to start, it was impossible for the impact to have this effect, there was no one next to me or opposite, and I was 108,000 miles away from the window and door, There can't be other uncontrolled external forces and similar wind interference, thinking of this, I feel a chill drifting in, the hairs are standing up, all kinds of signs are the rhythm of the ghost film, if it is not for good concentration, you must scream. Until I saw the phone on the desktop............................. Let's revisit two junior high school physics knowledge points: 1. Sound is produced by vibration, and 2. When you have a smooth enough interface, the effect of friction is negligible. SO knowledge is power, come on. ”

On July 12, Cher wrote: "I don't have any foreign problems such as fear of heights, claustrophobia, denseness, and difficulty in choosing" with a picture of "Why can't you go to heaven".

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On June 24th, when Xue'er was in a state of recovery, she read a lot of books on the hospital bed: "I don't know each other, I don't know each other, but I can hear the echo of the soul in the words, and the moment the thoughts in my heart are accurately expressed by others, the whole world lights up." When the flaws in my brain are integrated and expressed by others, I feel that NND is really a confidant. One has to put one's soul to a certain height first, so that every step is correct, and if one of the empty skins occupies a high position, sooner or later it will fall to pieces. So, slow down and wait for our souls. ”

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On May 17, when Cher was due to have surgery the next day, she excerpted a quote: "Growing up is to mute your crying." Perhaps a person has to walk a long way and experience countless sudden prosperity and desolation in life before he becomes mature. -- Seven Syre Years"

On the same day, she herself wrote: "The same life, some people live a life, some people live a life, but sheli, the life we disdain may be the day that others can't ask for." Didn't Rilke also say: "There is no victory to speak of, and holding on means everything." ”

On May 15, Cher wrote a long paragraph: "The view we should have in the face of life is

1. Respect and cherish all life to a limited extent, which of course includes one's own.

2. Be calm in the face of death, if the Qin Emperor, Han Dynasty, Tang Sect, and Song Ancestors are all alive, then we don't have to live, natural selection, survival of the fittest may be cruel but accurate.

In the face of life, we are easy to make two mistakes, one is to ignore, thinking that life is insignificant, careless of human life, widely seen in a variety of irresponsible industries, this may be due to our thousands of years of feudal rule, ordinary human life is really looked down upon, the other is pseudo-respect, the gentleman is far away from cooking, King Liang for sacrifices are talking about this truth, think about it, we are killing every day, who has never been born chicken, duck, beef, mutton? Who hasn't killed a mosquito or a fly since birth? Who hasn't walked and accidentally stepped on two ants? Even vegetables and fruits are living things in a broad sense, and they also have life, so it seems that respecting life can only be a hunger strike like Gandhi. Grasp the appropriate degree and don't make moral judgments.

A moth just swam between the lamps in the ward, it hit again and again, and the lamps made a violent thumping sound, why bother?

Life is nothing but a process in which one joy is diluted by another, and one sorrow is overshadowed by another. Time is the best doctor, the most just judge, but also the most cruel executioner, nothing good can last forever, instead of calculating how long there is until the end of happiness, it is better to seize every minute and every second of this rapid passage ~~~"

Seeing this, Zhuang Wuyan's tears couldn't stop flowing. Ning Zeyi hugged the wife who brought the rain to the pear blossom in his arms, "Xue'er is so sensible, why did God take her away." "Wuyan, maybe God needs angels, don't people say that God took Michael Jackson away because he likes to listen to songs; God wanted to play with the iPhone5, so he took Jobs, and probably now God needs an angel to accompany him, so he will take Cher. Zhuang Wuyan's tears did not stop, and they still remained. Ning Zeyi stopped persuading and let Zhuang Wuyan's tears flow, this is fine, it's much better than holding it in your heart, isn't it?