011 Do you go to school......
After going out and seeing the sky outside, he suddenly realized that it seemed that he had been delaying for a long time. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ļ½ļ½ļ½Uļ½Eć infoIt's not too late. However, she didn't wear a watch, and she didn't look at the time when she went out, so she didn't know what time it was. But one thing is for sure, it's not too late.
When she walked to the cafeteria, as she expected, the ordinary students had already left, and there were almost no left. But the cafeteria was still noisy, even more noisy than when it was crowded with students. The reason is that their meal has arrived.
Socai suddenly remembered one thing, she had never seen them during the meal. Because she always eats at the same time, rain or shine, rarely delayed, and not at an earlier time. That's why she never bumped into them during mealtimes. But today is clearly not "normal".
So after she silently walked into the dining hall, the whole world seemed to be quiet, not even the distant sound had never been heard, as silent as death. As if nothing had happened, she walked straight to the dining room, completely ignoring them whispering and discussing.
She suddenly remembered the words of Lord Death.
Only when there are more friends, will there be fewer regrets?
Probably, it's possible. But even if you have more friends, there are indelible scars left in your heart, and even if you have more and more friends, the more troubles will arise accordingly.
When he got dinner and walked back, he was about to find a place to sit down, but he unexpectedly ran into Lord Death.
"Together?" He asked with the same smile as he had for the first time, holding the exact same noodle in his hand.
"Why?" She looked straight at Lord Death, no embarrassment in her amber eyes.
And the two people who talked to him were exactly the same, unchanged at all.
"Only when you have more friends won't you become lonely, right?" Lord Death was still smiling, and he said something almost the same as last time.
But, that's not the same.
Soda nodded silently, didn't say a word, and followed Death-sama. She knew that that sentence was no longer for Lord Death, but for herself. He doesn't need friends, and he doesn't have regrets that need to be addressed here. So, do you need it? Or, are you lonely?
She had never thought about it, and she didn't know what loneliness was. If being alone is lonely, then most people in the world are not lonely. But if the loneliness of the soul can be called loneliness, then most people in the world are lonely, but not her.
Eventually, Lady Death did not return to them, but instead chose to sit in the corner of the dining hall. As she entered, she noticed that Lord Death was sitting among them. It's just that she didn't choose to say it. She has never been a talkative person. She prefers to think, come up with answers, and then go about what to do. Even so, the result is often not expected.
"Was it found after?" Lord Death asked casually.
She shook her head, scooped up the tofu from her plate and put it in her mouth.
"yes, that's good."
The Grim Reaper-sama didn't say a second word. Naturally, she wouldn't say anything more.
Everything looks exactly the same as the last time we got along. When Lady Death put down her chopsticks, her spoon finally touched the bottom of the plate, making a slight noise inadvertently.
"Do you have a wish of your own?" Lord Death asked.
"Yes." She answered honestly. Not only that, but it can be achieved at any time. But that's not enough. She kept thinking, thinking, thinking about what she was supposed to do, thinking about what she was here for. She shouldn't be the same as them. She should have something to do, that's why she's here.
No one had ever told her what to do, but she still chose to survive it. She thought that if she had to choose the owner of the heart that was still beating, she would probably do the same. Because that's such an incredible person.
Her wish is simple, so simple that it can be fulfilled at any time. It's enough to just walk up to that person and whisper a "thank you." And that person is just across the table.
It's just that it's not that time.
She had more important things to do than her own trivial wishes.
That's what she came to after thinking about it. She had to do it, and only after letting them go would she be able to make everything go her way and say it. Whether it's her rigidity, persistence, or other moods, that's what she was told.
She's not good at thinking. So, everything she did was also the only way she could think of for them to let go of their regrets. She wasn't good at talking, so she never told anyone about it.
So, she became an "angel".
But she kept trying. She believes that some things can be solved.
"Heavy?" Lord Death asked.
"Yes." She nodded without hesitation, so determined that even she took it for granted. Seemingly, that's not something to be surprised about.
"Yes. That's good. Lord Death laughed.
Soda looked at Lord Death quietly, and suddenly, she finally found out where the subtle sense of incongruity that she had never found came from. I finally understood what they were different.
"Tomorrow, come to class." She tried her best to express what she wanted to say.
Lord Death's eyes widened slightly, unexpectedly, as if a little surprised.
Do you want to be rejected? She couldn't help but think to herself. She's been rejected too many times.
Still, Lord Death nodded, seemingly unconcerned.
She was relieved.
She was different from him. Obviously sitting across from him, but lonely as if he had never belonged to any place, even if he smiled, that smile did not have any warmth. What a deep sorrow it was, so deep that I didn't even realize it.
He also has his own regrets that cannot be erased. Even if it is forgotten in the corner of memory, even if it is sealed in the dust, it is not something that can be completely unfelt. As long as the heart is still beating, then there is no way to erase the heartache and sorrow. What exists can be erased, but it cannot be treated as if it never existed. After all, everyone who comes here has something that can't be put down.
So, she is not different from him.
She didn't have that kind of real regret. Her regret should have ended when she met Otono.
But...... She is the same as where he is.
Even she didn't realize that it was the first time she cared so much about someone. She no longer let her thoughts stop deeper, but kept going. After all, that scene still made her heart shake slightly.
She thought that it would be nice if this method could make the regret in the heart of Lord Death disappear a little. Then, everything she does is also valuable. She didn't know how to express it, and she didn't know what was right. However, you can't do nothing because of this, only what you have done can you prove that you have done it, you can prove that you have thought about it, and you can not regret doing it.
So, even if it's a sad thing and it's not the right answer, she'll do it.
"It's agreed." She whispered.
Lord Death was stunned for a moment, and then still smiled: "Well, it's agreed." ā
She silently looked at the smile and took the finished dinner plate away. She believed that the other party would keep the contract. Because that smile is not the same as the first time they met, the smile for the sake of smiling. It's a smile that feels happy from the heart.
That sentence, she thought, would never be for herself. Because even he knows that no matter how many friends he has, he still can't get rid of his loneliness. It's as if he never trusted anyone.
She had to do something.