XXXVII. Concerns
"It's solved, it's solved, it's just..."
"Just what?" I was puzzled by the hesitation between Yang Gao's words. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info
"It's just that I killed a sixteen or seventeen-year-old high school student."
"It's just..." I was in a daze and told him, "Everyone has been killed, why are you still locked up so much?" ”
However, Yang Gao still repeated: "That's not the case, I mean yes, this person is a sixteen or seventeen-year-old high school student. ”
"No, does it matter to you whether she's six or seven or sixteen or seventeen? Even if... Wait, do you mean that this person is a sixteen or seventeen-year-old high school student, not Ke-chan, who should have gone to college, as expected? ”
"Exactly."
This sentence made me feel dizzy, and the previous inference that was only one step away suddenly walked into a dead end, and now, the boss who worked so hard to push off has suddenly become a passerby. If the former can still be regarded as an unreasonable idea, then the latter is simply trampling all logic and common sense under his feet. I have already confirmed in the previous world line that the person who will come to assassinate Yang Gao is Ke Sauce. And just now this person was indeed moved by my words, and stepped into the trap in a trance. In every sense, she should be Ke-chan.
The long silence gave Yang Gao an opportunity, and he suddenly asked such a sentence: "So, now, can you still claim to be righteous?" ”
"Is that the point of the matter now?" I almost jumped.
"Why not? If you think about it carefully, will you and I really be killed by a guy of Wang Zuo's level? Of course, I'm more concerned about your growth than this kind of thing. How far can your half-tone of justice go? ”
"Hey, you guy, you can't be an evil spirit entrenched here."
"This... Who knows? "Yang Gao uses rather clumsy technique to try to create a sense of unfathomability.
Put on this look, and this person will not be able to count on it for a long time to come. Then the task of solving doubts naturally fell on my head again. It's just that this kind of third-rate script written by a crappy author really can't raise people's morale. It is even more interesting to say that instead of thinking about this kind of question, it is more interesting to talk about "what is justice" with Yang Gao. Thinking of this, I weighed it, judging from the current situation, it is still far away from finding the truth and solving the puzzle, and Yang Gao will inevitably die three or five times during this period, so it is harmless to die once more and die less once. In addition, since the situation is beyond our grasp, many things will no longer follow the established logic. For example, there is no evidence that starting immediately will speed up the process of solving the problem, and maybe after a while, other clues will emerge. Therefore, I don't have to be so serious, as if facing a great enemy, the real importance of this incident is not how to solve it.
Here Yang Gao mentioned me, and now I realize that in fact, like him, in my heart, I don't think that a Wang Zuo will cause much trouble. The whole incident did not give me the feeling of danger and danger, but a hearty refreshment. After entering the university, I was silent for a year, living an ordinary life of classrooms, cafeterias, and dormitories. This is not because the world is peaceful and clear when you arrive at the university, but in fact, because there are so many strange people and strange people, this university seems to be even more prosperous. The real reason for my silence for a year is my apprehension. I didn't know anything in high school, so I could fight with my head covered and my feelings. And now, I know a lot, think a lot, and naturally worry a lot.
It's not necessarily a good thing to have concerns, but it's a sign of growth, so I don't have any complaints about that. What I am really dissatisfied with should be the ordinary daily life without any waves, with great talent but nowhere to do it, this is my real pain. When an event happens, on the one hand, I know that there will be all kinds of problems when I intervene in it, and sitting still is the best choice of the wise; On the other hand, I can't really be willing to be lonely and endure my own inaction. In this way, I have been deeply trapped in worries for a long time, and I have been confused by the reasonableness of my concerns, and I have been unable to face my sincerity for a long time. The reason why I am so committed to this duel against Wang Zuo is because this is actually a process of facing myself and unraveling my worries step by step.
Therefore, Yang Gao's question is not avoidable for me.
"Even if this person is really an innocent ordinary person, this kind of thing can only be regarded as a mistake at best."
"Well, you can say that." Yang Gao first agreed with my statement, and then said: "But in the face of her parents, can you really be so ashamed?" In the face of the grief-stricken appearance of the old man, can you still be so frank? ”
I sneered at this and replied, "How can I not be so ashamed, how can I not be so open-minded." The grief of the old people is a matter of course, and how they will resent me is beyond reproach. But what about it? Do you want to tell me that these two old men represent the failure of justice? It's like an old man suddenly falling to the ground with a sudden illness, and then there are enthusiastic passers-by to help. As a result, due to the lack of knowledge of passers-by and improper disposal, the old man returned to the west with his life. After such an incident, the children of the old man were naturally grief-stricken. But is it really necessary for society as a whole to care about their feelings? What society needs is more passers-by to help others, rather than scaring all the well-wishers for the feelings of one or two people. It's the same reason here, those who fight with the villains need to let go of their hands and feet, this is the general righteousness of the whole society, and there is no reason for such a righteousness to be overturned for the tears of one or two old people. ”
These words made Yang Gao silent for a while, and after that, he asked less decisively: "Then are you going to tell me that your so-called righteousness is to be built on the tears of the old man?" Since you claim justice, you should save all the unfortunate people one by one, instead of seeking the greatest happiness like a politician. What the rulers did was to build the Great Wall and open canals, and he could do it for a while. But as a hero in Liangshan, you advertise yourself as chivalrous and righteous, and you are doing the right thing for heaven. Then you can't do this. ”
Yang Gao's description of the magnificence made me breathe a sigh of relief, to which I could only tell him: "What you describe is not so much justice as a miracle." However, this did not make him die, and he continued: "Shouldn't justice be as omnipotent as miracles?" Otherwise, why would there be countless people who have been running around for it all their lives and going to die? ”
So I finally replied, "Justice is a human virtue, not a divine gift." ”