Chapter 60

"Song Jia!" The more Chen Chuan listened, the more uncomfortable he felt in his heart, and he couldn't help but interrupt Song Jia: "Have you finished speaking!" ”

Song Jia's remaining words were immediately choked in his throat. His face turned red www.biquge.info and he gasped a few times before he pressed the roar that was about to burst back into his chest. His chest heaved violently, his eyes lit up, "No! Finally he said word for word: "I said I didn't finish!" ”

"What do you know?" Chen Chuan stretched out his hand and pushed Song Jia to stagger, his face changed greatly, and his fingers were trembling, "What you say is what!?" Is it possible!? Who can help for a year!? Yes! Am I alone? It's my family's business! ”

Song Jia withdrew a few steps before standing still, and just about to rush back, Chen Chuan had already strode over, and the blood seemed to rush to his head, and he grabbed Song Jia's neckline: "Do you make money yourself?" Are you working now? You still have to rely on your parents to support you, why can you help me!? "He was simply completely furious - Chen Chuan had always been very gentle, and could even be described as cowardly, but tonight he was like a bull on a rampage, showing his anger wantonly.

was pushed by Chen Chuan, Song Jia's anger also burned all at once, hatred and deep concern for his friends, sympathy mixed together, and became the fuel of this anger. He pushed Chen Chuan behind with his backhand, and then gritted his teeth and said, "I have to rely on my parents!" But that's my mom and dad! Why can't I rely on it!? Why don't you reflect on your own self-esteem!? You think the whole world cares about your! ”

As soon as he said this, he saw Chen Chuan's face fade from blood red to white little by little at a speed visible to the naked eye. Song Jia paused for a moment, and suddenly realized how hurtful his words were just now. Regret and depression gnawed at his heart, he coughed a few times, touched his nose, and said curtly: "I, I didn't mean that!" Chen Chuan, don't be angry, I really don't mean anything else......"

After stabilizing his mood slightly, Chen Chuan took a few deep breaths, then he looked at Song Jia's anxious face and shook his head, and barely kept calm and said, "No, you're not wrong. It's that I'm prone to overthinking. His voice could be heard with a distinct tremor and choked up. The young man clenched his fists, and finally calmed his face, and he asked Song Jia, "It's late, do you want to go back to the dormitory?" ”

Song Jia wanted to say something more, but looking at Chen Chuan's face, in the end he didn't say anything, nodded after kicking a lesson of stones in frustration, and took the lead in walking towards the dormitory building alone.

Chen Chuan took steps mechanically, and Song Jia's words lingered in his ears over and over again, "I can rely on my parents!" "The whole world doesn't care about your!" "You have to reflect on your self-esteem!"

These words turned into huge words that were constantly flying in front of him, and almost every word could be deeply rooted in Chen Chuan's softest heart. He felt a burning pain in his eyes, and something was pressing heavily on his chest, making him breathless. Intellectually, he knew that he couldn't blame Song Jia, but emotionally, at least for the time being, Chen Chuan didn't want to see him.

After returning to the bedroom, Chen Chuan took a hasty shower, didn't look at Song Jia, who pushed the door in, and went to the desk with the paper in his arms. It's the summer tutoring time of the third year of high school, and the dormitory has not been powered off for the time being, so Chen Chuan has to drown himself with a large number of questions, otherwise he doesn't know how he will share a room with Song Jia without thinking about how to kill him.

Song Jia went to take a shower in a gloomy way, and after he calmed down, he wanted to slap himself twice. Chen Chuan's eyes were red and he looked at him hurt and kept dangling in front of Song Jia, and he had to seriously think about it for the first time in his life: whether the personal will of the recipient is more important, or the emotional satisfaction of the ministerer is more important. The seventeen-year-old boy was confused, he wanted to help his friend, but he found that the very existence of this "want" emotion hurt his friend, and he found that he could not actually have a clear conscience - Song Jia had to admit that he may have gained a greater sense of satisfaction and superiority when he wanted to help Chen Chuan.

That night, it was late at night that Song Jia secretly went back to the dormitory. The room was rightfully quiet, he washed up as quietly as possible, climbed into bed in a gloomy manner, and before he was ready to go to bed, Song Jia sighed, thinking melancholy - probably Chen Chuan will not wait for him to go out with him tomorrow.

He was right, not only the next day, but also the next week, Chen Chuan ignored him. On the one hand, they are already facing the start of school, and the teachers seem to be willing to teach more lessons before the start of school, and the daily recess has been compressed to a minimum, and even the evening self-study has been extended by half an hour; On the other hand, Chen Chuan seems to be busier than anyone else, and whenever he sees him, he seems to be doing questions and reading books, even if it's meal time.

Song Jia was helpless. But the only good thing about his intense study life is that he doesn't have time to think about messy things. Everyone is forced to keep pushing themselves, and they are told by their teachers that if they choose to give up or slack off at this time, they may never be able to catch up with your classmates later.

Therefore, the first speech of two people in the same dormitory after the argument was actually a week after the start of school.

Chen Chuan gradually got used to going to the hospital first on weekends and then going home. His experience has basically spread among the teachers, and the teachers who pity and sympathize with him will take the initiative to grant him leave on the weekend, and they will also try to find time to tutor Chen Chuan in the future. Chen Chuan's reaction to this was to be more diligent, even to the point of not being fatal at all.

Song Jia finally decided not to remain silent after finding Chen Chuan up in the middle of the night for the third time. He chose a night to have a good talk with Chen Chuan, but Chen Chuan obviously didn't give him this opportunity - he didn't come back until the lights were turned off in the entire dormitory, and at that time, the dormitory was required to be quiet, especially not to make loud noises.

Heading into September, it's still hopelessly hot during the day, but at night, especially after 12 a.m., the temperature drops to a comforting temperature. Song Jia lit the small lamp by the bedside, reading a book while waiting for Chen Chuan to come back, and after he yawned again, he finally heard the sound of the door lock.

Chen Chuan obviously didn't expect that Song Jia hadn't slept yet—he usually came back at this time, and Song Jia had already slept so much that he didn't know who was going to sleep. Although he has been yawning all the time, he is obviously still very sober, and it is even more obvious that Song Jia is waiting for him.

Song Jia was silent, and Chen Chuan didn't want to speak—study and life had taken up most of his energy, and this exhaustion was even more obvious when he returned to the dormitory where he could rest. When he went to wash up, Chen Chuan found that Song Jia had pulled a stool and sat on the opposite side of the bed, and he also held a cup in his hand—the bitter smell of coffee wafted from it.

"That." After hesitating for a long time, Song Jia still spoke in a hurry, he scratched his head with an empty retraction, "I'm sorry." While apologizing in a low voice while thinking about Chen Chuan's expression, Song Jia quickly said a second time: "I'm sorry." "I didn't mean anything else that night." I just thought about how I could help you. He was very sincere when he said this, "I thought a lot about it afterwards, and I felt that I was really thinking about things too simply," Song Jia lowered his head and said listlessly: "I didn't think about things from your standpoint, I'm sorry." ”

Chen Chuan grabbed the towel and stood in front of Song Jia, and it took a long time before he let out a long, crying and laughing sigh. He silently hung the towel back on the shelf, soaked the dirty clothes in the basin and planned to wash them again the next day, and after doing everything, Chen Chuan returned to the bed and sat down opposite Song Jia.

"I'm not actually angry." Chen Chuan said sullenly: "At least it's not as angry as you think." He emphasized: "I can still distinguish between good and bad, I know that you are for my good, and I am worried that I will not be able to stand the college entrance examination because of too much pressure." He smiled wryly, "It's me who is too sensitive, and you're not wrong." ”

Song Jia hurriedly cut off his words: "No, no, no, this matter is not good for me, let's not talk about this now, right?" He made a gesture to skip the conversation, "Actually, I've always wanted to ask you, but I'm afraid you'll be angry." Song Jia mustered up his courage and finally spoke: "Chen Chuan, what are you going to do?" ”

"Let's wait for my dad to be discharged from the hospital - he is much better now, but he still can't be discharged, and after he is discharged, the financial pressure is still much less." Chen Chuan said in a low mood, "It's just that I'm worried that no one will take care of him when he goes home after he is discharged from the hospital." You know, in my family," he smiled wryly, "that's what worries me more than money." ”

Song Jia didn't know how to comfort her helpless and painful friend. Chen Chuan complained to his friends as if he suddenly wanted to open it. He said that Chen Aiguo was untimely and stubborn, his relatives shirked, and his mother who needed to be taken care of. Chen Chuan seemed to have finally found this suitable opportunity to expose the things hidden in his heart that were almost rotten into a black mud in front of his friends, he still felt embarrassed and painful, but he also felt relaxed

Finally, Song Jia patted Chen Chuan on the shoulder, "I think you must be fine." He said to his friend in a firm tone, "What did the Chinese teacher say?" The fragrance of plum blossoms comes from the bitter cold, and you are now a bud! So be sure to stick with it! He was babbling endlessly, and if the Chinese teacher was present, he would definitely be extremely moved-Song Jia recited almost all the famous quotes he had learned to Chen Chuan.

The young man's eyes were crystal clear, and Chen Chuan found an expression that was almost about to cry under Song Jia's eyes. For the first time, he did not hide his feelings, and although he was clumsy, he still said to Song Jia seriously: "Thank you, brother. ”

Song Jia closed his mouth, the smile gradually disappeared from his face, and finally he patted Chen Chuan's shoulder and sighed silently.

Of course, the spirit can be extremely powerful, but no matter how strong the spirit is, the material world will not change in the first time as the spirit is strong.

Therefore, the dilemma faced by Chen Chuan shows no signs of improvement.