Chapter 404: Conscience
"No, just these two little demon stars, I have often been tortured by them to the point that I can't stand it. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ļ½ļ½ļ½Uļ½Eć info" Xiao Nan was slightly stunned, then shook his head, Lin saw that she insisted, so he didn't persuade more, at this time, Jiang Jingxuan and Zixiu also entered the courtyard, Jiang Jingxuan came first to pay New Year's greetings to the Lin family after being admitted to the hospital, and then walked to the courtyard and watched a few children have a snowball fight.
At first, Lin didn't notice the abnormality between Xiao Nan and Jiang Jingxuan, until lunchtime, there was almost no interaction between the two of them, Lin realized that something was wrong, realizing this, Lin couldn't sit still, just off the dinner table, she grabbed Xiao Nan's hand, pulled her to the room, looked at her seriously and asked, "Auntie, what's the matter with you and Jing Xuan, quarreled?" ā
"We're fine, Grandma." Xiao Nan paused and replied.
"Don't fool me, I'm your mother, you and Jing Xuan grew up by my side since childhood, your words and deeds, every move, which expression and action I don't know? I didn't pay attention to it before, but when I was eating, I realized that you were wrong, and said, what the hell is going on? Lin glared at her and said with some dissatisfaction.
"Mother, you say, is it easy for a person with a character like me to make her husband feel very depressed and aggrieved?" Xiao Nan didn't answer Lin's question for the first time, and after she was slightly silent for a while, she raised her eyes and looked at Lin and asked rhetorically.
"How come, although your personality is stronger, you have always been very measured when you are close to people, you have been in charge since you were eleven years old, me and Zixiu, and Xiaozhen, almost all of you are taking care of and blessing, but we have never felt suppressed and aggrieved, but we have always felt that we owe you a lot, you ......" Lin is almost subconscious.
"That's different, mother, you are my mother, the more capable I am as a daughter, the more proud you are, Zixiu and Xiaozhen are my younger brothers, when they were young, I should take care of them as a sister, but husband, we live in a social environment where men are superior to women, do you think a man who is very capable in his own right, marries a wife like me, will he be happy?" Xiao Nan shook his head.
"This ......" Lin subconsciously wanted to say, of course happy, how good her daughter is, how capable, and how good her personality is, but as soon as the words came out, she couldn't help but stop.
Lin is not an illiterate woman, she is full of poetry and books, well versed in the world, it is her daughter who is so good, it is easy for people to feel depressed and aggrieved, as Xiao Nan said, mother and husband, these are two completely different roles, the feelings are naturally different, the idea fell here, after spit out a word in his mouth, the following words could not be continued.
"Mother, perhaps, my marriage with Jing Xuan was a mistake, Jing Xuan is a talented person, Wen Tao Wuluo, everything is extraordinary, if it weren't for me, he would have done a good job in his career, with his ability, and then marry a gentle and virtuous wife, presumably his life will be much happier than now." Xiao Nan glanced at the Lin family, and a faint loneliness and self-deprecation appeared in his eyes.
Xiao Nan thought for a long time about the anger and excitement that Jiang Jingxuan showed that night, and gradually understood that Jiang Jingxuan's emotions were not caused by one or two things, but after a long period of suppression and accumulation, maybe even he didn't understand the cause of his emotions, he liked himself, Xiao Nan was 100% sure of this, but a man, like and love, could not occupy the whole of his life.
He was a very capable man, but under the cover of his wife, his light was covered little by little, and he unconsciously began to have an inferiority complex, which made him suspicious and sensitive.
Xiao Nan, who figured this out, had anger towards Jiang Jingxuan in her heart and subsided cleanly unconsciously, and more guilt and sadness surfaced in her heart, she had feelings for Jiang Jingxuan, maybe not as strong as Jiang Jingxuan's feelings for her, but this person was the only one in her two lives combined, who was willing to marry him.
Jiang Jingxuan has really paid too much for her, in the eyes of outsiders, because her wife's light is too dazzling, most people subconsciously ignore Jiang Jingxuan's own ability, and even when he was sixteen years old, he also took off the fame of the civil and military test, and chose to forget it, thinking that he can have the current scenery mostly because of his wife's shadow.
But in fact, if Jiang Jingxuan hadn't given up her career and chose to stand silently behind her wife, he might have been a fourth- or fifth-grade official at this time, he had never used his wife's money since he was sixteen years old, and his current family business was earned back by himself.
Countless days and nights, the wind comes and goes, this can take a few years to put down that piece of family business, and when she got married, she also gave 10,000 taels of silver as a dowry, Jiang Jingxuan gave up a man's ambitions, ideals, and future for her, his whole life seems to be only living for Xiao Nan, Xiao Nan is not a person without a heart, she will not take other people's kindness to her for granted.
Everything Jiang Jingxuan has done for herself, she has seen it in her eyes and remembered it in her heart, over the years, her heart has almost been filled by this man who loves herself more than his life......
But a man, love in life is not enough, when he is young, he can still be governed by strong emotions, and when this passion gradually precipitates, other suppressed things will slowly surface...... The marriage of the two of them has come to this point, and there has been an irreparable rift, not that Jiang Jingxuan is bad, nor that Xiao Nan is wrong.
Just because the two of them are together, it's really not suitable, Jiang Jingxuan, he needs a bigger stage for him to play, to let him show his own light.
People in the world often envy the leisure and freedom of those who live in the countryside, but ignore that people who can have this state of mind have often experienced the most brilliant colors and times in their lives.
And Xiao Nan is the opposite of Jiang Jingxuan, she is a person who has really exhausted thousands of sails, experienced life and death, honor and disgrace, and can penetrate the world's fame and fortune, she is a qualified hermit, what she likes and yearns for is the kind of chrysanthemum picking in the southeast mountain, leisurely seeing the idle and ordinary life of Nanshan, with her heart and experience, no matter how much she likes a man, there is no way to give up her desire for this person, and turn to be the man's virtuous helper.
"Auntie, what are you talking nonsense? Jing Xuan, how well he treats you, he willingly gave up his career in order to marry you, he, he, you, you ......" Lin was frightened by Xiao Nan's tone and expression when he spoke, and couldn't help but grab Xiao Nan's hand and said hurriedly, her daughter had just had a few words with Jiang Jingxuan, and now it seems that the problem is much more serious than she imagined......
"Mother, don't worry, we will take care of the matter between me and Jingxuan, let's go, let's go out, there may be guests in our house in the afternoon, I want to go back." Xiao Nan was caught by the Lin family like this, and suddenly came back to her senses from her thoughts, she looked at the anxiety and panic on her mother's face, couldn't help but smile slightly, whispered a word of comfort, and then took her hand and walked out together.