Wang Tingting poked her head at the door of the department and saw that Mu Yang was immersed in work, so she walked in lightly and sat quietly and watched. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

Obviously in this youthful years, his thick eyebrows always have the sadness of experiencing the ups and downs of the world in his eyes, and there is a solemnity all over his body.

Mu Yang found that she was still a little frightened, and said perfunctorily, "You still don't get off work?" ”

"Your published paper has won an award, why don't I call Zhang Yinan and celebrate you in the evening."

"He's going to have his girlfriend's birthday in the evening." Mu Yang's heart tightened suddenly, and he didn't even dare to mention the word "girlfriend" now.

"Then I'll celebrate for you."

"No need."

Wang Tingting was very disappointed, they all knew the news that Baihuan was married, she didn't know whether to be happy or worried, because Mu Yang was more indifferent to her than before.

At this time, the director of the department came in and saw Mu Yang is smile on his face, "Xiaomu, congratulations on your award, Corey will have dinner together in the evening to celebrate you." ”

"Thank you, Director." Mu Yang replied respectfully, "It's just a few papers, there's no need to break the bank." ”

"The focus is on essay ideas, and I've always felt that your mental age is a lot older than your actual age. Everyone is curious, eager to open your heart and study it. The director looked kind and very proud of this proud protégé.

"Xiao Wang is also here, you are classmates, come together in the evening."

Wang Tingting's heart was overjoyed, "Thank you, Director!" ”

The dinner party is the restaurant near the hospital, and many times reality can collide with the ghosts of memory.

Colleagues first congratulated Mu Yang on winning the award, and then began to analyze people's hearts, Mu Yang did not participate too much, only vaguely a few words into the heart, "The psychological age is much more mature than the actual age, which is roughly divided into two categories, one 'positive maturity' and the other 'negative maturity', 'positive maturity' is from an 'accident' or 'accident' to give inspiration, which started the ideal of that person's talent or ancestral genetic inheritance, and there is no distraction in the heart, only because of that 'accident' or' On the contrary, 'negative maturity' is a devastating stimulus on the basis of 'positive maturity', and the reality is recognized as a last resort. ”

Mu Yang poured a bottle of beer on the chair with his arms, tilted his head, and his memories were like an abyss.

When he was thirteen years old, a girl fainted and hugged his heels, lying on the ground breathing weakly, but her fingers were trying their best to pick at his heels, as if seeking a glimmer of hope for life. It was the first time in his life that he had a desire to protect, wanting to be a "hero", the "hero" who could save her. At first, he didn't know how to do it, so he quietly poured his own rice into her lunch box when he was steaming in the canteen on duty, and the idea at that time was very simple, just to let her eat a few more bites of rice and be in better health. But after entering junior high school, she still ran to the infirmary every once in a while, and he wished she could run like other normal children, but he couldn't do anything, so his chemistry was so good...

And his "passive maturity" is also because of that girl, from one meter away to a wall, from two cities to thousands of miles away, and then to a lifetime of not owing each other, it is an unbearable burden...

After the meal, everyone invited to sing again, and Mu Yang realized that he had drunk all the beer in front of him unconsciously, but why did he still feel that there was nothing empty in his stomach?

So he drank endlessly at KTV.

Wang Tingting also drank a lot, she never played cards rationally in terms of feelings, howling and crying in front of more than a dozen people in the private room, and kept beating Mu Yang, "You owe me time, you owe me youth... You bastard..."

Mu Yang has an instinctive resistance to other women, even in a drunken and delirious state, he can firmly keep his own world.

But there are always some stunned people who sing some songs that will make people angry.

It's Zhang Yu's, "****".

I am a bird imprisoned by you

Getting less and less love

Watch your laughter burn badly in others

I don't want a hug

I'm like a dispensable shadow to you

and loneliness in exchange for sad thoughts

There is nothing to be done about love

This recollection of the day

Tears are the only luxury...

Zhang Yu's voice had a crying tone, Mu Yang's vision gradually blurred, and he touched the corner of his eye with his hand, and when he saw it, it was tears.

At eleven o'clock, the director asked to leave, and he had to go to work on time at eight o'clock tomorrow morning, and he didn't want everyone to treat patients with the smell of alcohol.

Wang Tingting is an obstetrician, and she didn't have a colleague with her, so Mu Yang helped her into a taxi. He may be really tired, and he doesn't worry that she is drunk at home alone, and they return to "Kingkey" together.

Wang Tingting fell asleep, Zhang Yinan hadn't come back yet, and Mu Yang suddenly found that he had a lot to say, and no one to talk to.

He walked to the kitchen again and sat down next to the refrigerator, and soon there were several empty wine bottles around him.

There is also the big head sticker that "leave evidence that you love me", and there is a handwriting written at some point behind it - exquisite dice An red bean, do you know that you are lovesick?

I only remember that night, he cried because of his thoughts.

Zhang Yinan opened the door, a strong smell of wine came to his face, and intuitively walked to Mu Yang's room, the person who didn't want to fall asleep was Wang Tingting, and heard the sound of wine bottles falling to the ground in the kitchen, and walked over strangely.

"Poplar?"

Mu Yang glanced at him weakly, "I'm back." ”

"What are you doing on the floor? Didn't you go out to drink, why did you come back and still drink? ”

He whispered, "I want to drink." ”

"It's all talent... Don't drink it, look at how drunk Tingting is, get up tomorrow morning to find you responsible. Zhang Yinan bent over to help him as he spoke, and Mu Yang stretched out his hand, "Don't touch me..."

He sat in the corner of the refrigerator and the wall, his head on the refrigerator with a white face, sweating all over, dying.

Zhang Yinan suddenly became nervous, "What's wrong with you... Hey..."

He closed his eyes and used the last of his strength to knock his heart three times, "Here, it hurts." ”

It's like missing a piece of meat, and the shredded meat is still sticking to the heart, and it can't be replenished and can't be replaced, and it can't fall down...

"Is it the stomach? Isn't it too much to drink... I'll find you a sobering one, no, no, stomach medicine. ”

Zhang Yinan panicked and took out stomach medicine from the drawer in the living room, but when he returned to the kitchen again, Mu Yang had already vomited blood and was unconscious.

…

After waking up the next day, Wang Tingting hurried to the hospital, Mu Yang was lying on the hospital bed with her eyes closed, and after she understood the situation, she walked directly to Zhang Yinan outside the door, her eyes full of resentment, "Zhang Yinan, are you unable to distinguish between heart and stomach?" You're going to give him stomach medicine! Have you lived in vain for more than 20 years, do you want to kill him! ”

Zhang Yinan was extremely innocent, "I thought he drank too much..."

Wang Tingting was even more angry, "Have you ever seen a person who drank too much vomit blood, do you know what it is to vomit blood?" "She suddenly cried uncontrollably..."Holding back her grief is tantamount to suicide!"

These words frightened Zhang Yinan, "Didn't the doctor say it's okay?" ”

"The resentment in my heart turned into that mouthful of dirty blood and spit it out."

Zhang Yinan was sweating, "I'm scared to death." ”

Wang Tingting wiped away her tears, took a few deep breaths, and walked into the ward again.

Mu Yang still had his eyes closed, Wang Tingting pulled the quilt for him and sat in front of the bed.

"I know you're awake, why are you tormenting yourself like this?"

Mu Yang turned over, a hint of impatience.

"You go, I'll be able to go to work in the afternoon."

Wang Tingting's tears poured out like a flood waterfall, in Mu Yang's emotional world, there is still no place for her, she is still expelled by him again and again, she will never get his love and tenderness!

"Do you feel a little more comfortable with me like this?"

"I just want to take a break, don't mess around."

"Am I messing around? Do you know that you are like this, I have a pain in my skin! ”

Wang Tingting was so angry that she couldn't bear to pull Mu Yang's collar, Mu Yang had no choice but to sit up and sigh, "What do you want?" ”

"You, tell me clearly, what do you love her?"

"What don't you love, I just feel that I owe her in my last life, and I'm here to repay her and repay my debts in this life, okay?"

Wang Tingting was so angry that she went crazy, "Mu Yang-"

This hoarse voice awakened his inner conscience, and Mu Yang realized that he did not have the least respect for people, and whispered, "I'm sorry..."

"You are sent to Tsinghua University, with seven years of bachelor's and master's degrees, studying abroad on public assignment, and reading thousands of books, how can there be such absurd and weird theories?" Wang Tingting raised her head self-deprecatingly, and smiled, "In the last life, in this life, Mu Yang, in the last life, I owe you in the last life?" ”

"Tingting, you are also a cold window for seven years, the lady of the sky, why do you have to waste your time."

"Baihuan is already married, so what are you waiting for? Waiting for her to get a divorce? ”

Mu Yang changed color and didn't want to look at her again.

Wang Tingting still didn't give up, the shrew grabbed his collar and said viciously, "I don't think you are love, you are just unwilling because she changed her will and fate!" ”

"Eighteen-year-old decision, you shouldn't doubt my original intention, otherwise it will be an insult."

"You're driving me crazy, aren't you?" Wang Tingting was hoarse again, and her eyes were desperate like never before!

"Well, I'll fulfill you!"