Chapter 15: A Dream of Huangliang
When did Shen Jiarou fall in love with Qin Huan? It seems to be from the beginning, and it doesn't seem to be. When she heard Qin Huan say loudly in her ear: "I love you", Shen Jiarou's happy tears fell out.
She once longed to become Qin Huan's bride, but she didn't know that life was so realistic.
Tear off those warm veins, everything is clear.
For people like Qin Huan, the most important thing around him is to go forward and succeed. In the two years I have been with Shen Jiarou, there may not have been no emotional moments, but only at a certain moment, that's all.
After Qin Huan left, it took Shen Jiarou almost a year to get out of the shadow of broken love.
When she married Liu Wangsun, what she was thinking about was still the missing Qin Huan.
The so-called poor couple mourns everything, since Shen Jiarou got married, they have never smiled happily. Shen Jiarou didn't want to be cautious for the sake of three melons and two dates, and lived like a small people.
The economic constraints made Shen Jiarou have to save everywhere.
I think about what kind of life she and Qin Huan lived together at the beginning, and what kind of life is now.
The so-called once difficult sea is water, and it is indeed difficult for Shen Jiarou to accept the huge gap between the rich and the poor in front of her. It's even harder to keep her from complaining and nagging.
When Shen Jiarou and Qin Huan were together, they had been to various high-end places, which was undoubtedly eye-opening and saw the prosperity of the world.
What women are most afraid of is to open their eyes, if Shen Jiarou looks mediocre and does not have any opportunities and possibilities for adventures, maybe there will be less resentment in her heart. But she looks so good, it is inevitable that she is a little arrogant and pretentious, which also increases this psychological loss and dissatisfaction.
When Shen Jiarou was 22 years old, she never worried about her livelihood. At that time, even if she didn't find any regular job, do etiquette, or occasionally show her face, the money she earned was enough for her to live. Especially after falling in love with the young, handsome, chic and golden Qin Huan, she never worried about food and clothing.
Qin Huan didn't need her to go to work, and he didn't want her to go to work; Shen Jiarou, who was carried away by love, just wanted to be with Qin Huan every minute and every second, where would she think of any career plan. At this age, she did not have this kind of consciousness or this kind of crisis, and her parents' insight and life experience did not give her any favorable advice in life.
When Qin Huan drove the sports car and parked in front of the broken attic house rented by Shen Jiarou, Shen Jiarou pulled up the suitcase and got into his car without hesitation. During that time, they loved each other in the dark. Even if Qin Huan is on a business trip, Shen Jiarou will be tired of him, and wherever Qin Huan goes, she will follow him. Qin Huan never felt annoyed, and always called her baby doting.
Originally, such happiness would always be there, but I never thought that it was just a beautiful dream.
Before Qin Huan left her, it was not without warning. Before getting on the plane, Qin Huan smiled and said to Shen Jiarou: "Little piggy, my husband is no longer around, you have to take good care of yourself." Maybe you'll be sad if I'm not there, but you'll really grow up. ”
It turned out that at that time, Qin Huan was saying goodbye to himself. It's just that I don't know it yet.
Qin Huan melted into the sea like a drop of water, and never appeared again.
Shen Jiarou was depressed for a long time, and it wasn't until the money Qin Huan gave her was almost spent that she remembered to go to work. At this time, she was almost 25 years old and could no longer eat the meal of youth. Life became realistic and cruel to her unexpectedly.
In addition to the short front-end experience in the advertising company, Shen Jiarou almost did not have any substantive work experience, and finally found a small company as a clerk, everything was started from scratch, making forms and filling in documents, but no matter how hard you worked, the small company only learned so much.
Later, she got married, and it seems that she has never been lucky again.
As long as Shen Jiarou talked about Liu Wangsun's deliberate deception, Liu Wangsun was a big liar, and Liu Wangsun was angry.
Isn't Shen Jiarou a liar?
Before her, there was Qin Huan, who had two years of profligacy and profligacy, and she was just a person who took over. Whoever deceives whom more is the liar.
No matter how vigorous love has been, what wealth and glory have been enjoyed, and what kind of romance and ecstasy have been, time will dilute all this.
When Shen Jiarou was 30 years old, all this was like a passing cloud, and the name Qin Huan had long been sealed by her at the bottom of her heart.
As for Liu Wangsun, after the two separated, they became more tolerant and introspective.
Liu Wangsun is no longer as aggressive as a hairy boy, but instead has a kind of peace and tranquility that is as warm as jade.
He finally matured and grew up, but the two of them could never go back.
Those hurts are like a chasm in each other's hearts, and they can never be crossed. Those words were like sharp knives and daggers, stabbing both sides in the heart, bleeding and scarring. The old days of verbal abuse, mutual accusations and hurts are always there.
In the marriage relationship, why must you fight for whether you are right or wrong, you live or die; Some are just one win and one loss.