"Brother, I'm here to see you......"

"Actually, it's nothing, just to see you. Pen & Fun Pavilion www.biquge.info time flies by so fast, it's been a few months since our last mission. ”

"How? You kid is pretty good over there, aren't you? You don't have to answer me this time, you usually say a lot, you just listen to me. ”

A young man in camouflage trousers and a T-shirt came to a tomb, took a long breath, slowly squatted down, took out a cigarette from his trouser pocket, lit a few, put three in front of the tombstone, kept one for himself, sat down on the edge of the tomb, took a deep breath, took a long breath of smoke, and slowly continued:

"I want to tell you that since you left, I have not had a good time these days, and several times I have woken up in the middle of the night from empty dreams, and in my dreams you are still so vivid and clear, as if you never left us. When you wake up, you turn around and look at your empty bed, as if something is missing in your heart. In reality, the material deficit can be made up, but how to fill the deficit in the heart? ”

"I've been bothering you to talk in my ears before, but in the past few months, I'm a little unaccustomed to it, so much so that I miss you spitting and boasting about all the trivial things that you didn't have. Our boring training, with your boastful spice, adds a lot of fun and vitality. In the days when you are away, when you are training, the hungry mountain wolf rhino cub will occasionally say, if the fat cow is still there, the atmosphere will not be so dull...... Yes, I'm not the only one, a lot of other guys miss you. ”

"When I was a child, I saw the dead in the village of the old and the old. At that time, I thought that death was in order of seniority. It's just what I thought. It would be nice if what I thought was true when I was a kid, you were a little younger than me, so you wouldn't have left the army and left this world before me. The person who should have been lying here was mine, and if you hadn't pounced on me, that little bomb would have sent me to see me, but it was your grandson. You once jokingly said that Hades is your grandson, and you will not allow your grandson to take any of our brothers away. But you boy went to your grandson first, let us remember you, you say, is it too unrighteous for you to do this? I don't know what's going on, as he spoke, his heart was sour, and the unknown liquid in his eyes was overflowing, sour, he didn't look at it, and wiped it off with his elbow.

"You have done the mutual rescue in our usual training, regardless of life and death, we are proud of you, and your parents will be proud of your bravery. But you don't know how much I wish it was me and not you to be the one lying here. I have nothing, no parents, no siblings, my parents died when I was young, I supposedly have an older brother, but after my parents left, he also abandoned me and left alone. I don't have any relatives, I'm like this when I'm a child, and death is home for me, a home, and a brother who sleeps forever. And you are different, you have parents who love you, a sister who is still in school, a good family, there should be no shortcomings, but fate likes to joke like this, imperfection is our realistic life. ”

"You said that your favorite way to die is to die directly, without the slightest breath, so that you will not have any pain. I didn't tell you, that's the way I like to die. In our line of work, most of the tasks carried out are linked to death. I haven't experienced the demise of my teammates, and your departure is the first I've ever experienced, right in front of my eyes, with hot blood dripping on the hem of my clothes. Sure enough, the way you want to die, just as you think. I'm glad you died the way you thought it was, and I'm sorry you didn't leave a word to ask for anything. In front of us is your blood that is hot, and the corpse that is gradually losing its warmth. In an instant, a living life disappeared, and my mind went blank when I faced death for the first time. As the leader of the group, I did not bring all the brothers back, and even if the mission was successful, in my apologetic heart, it would have been a failure. A good leader will not let a brother die in the middle of a mission. ”

"The boss said to me in a trance after you left, you can't do anything to decide whose life or death you are, this is war. That being said, I still didn't get any relief from it, and the thought of dying in your place still haunted me, and I even made myself closed off from talking to others. I'm stupid enough to think that when I know it's impossible. You are a guy who can bring happiness to people, and I will pass on your spirit, and I will slowly try to pass on happiness to the people around me, so that they can smile, because that's what you want. ”

"It's funny, Lao Tzu is still in tears this time. The outside world thinks that we should be a tough guy, but my tears are still flowing in you. It's okay, the weak side in front of my brother is found not to be tight, don't laugh at me. ”

"You also once said that if you are a soldier, you should pursue the highest honor. You did it, but your young life came to an abrupt end, and your life history was fixed on the list of many martyrs. You have received many honors in your life, and this time you have come to the highest price, at the cost of your life...... A lot of times I don't want you to be a hero, and I don't want the word hero to be there, because the definition of the word is often accompanied by some kind of tragedy. There has never been a natural hero, it is the times that create heroes, and heroes are the best names given to the parties, because it is the highest honor, and you deserve to be a hero. ”

"We need heroes in our real world, but I don't want to be tragic heroes. The circulation of your deeds is limited to our troops, not as vigorous as those heroes who have achieved certain things in the outside world, we are just a group of marginal people who silently dedicate their youth to the people of the country. ”

"Some time ago, someone asked me, 'What are you going to do when you retire?' When I heard the word retirement, I was shocked, I had been deliberately avoiding it before, I didn't dare to think about it. The army is my home, my spiritual home, and where will I go without it? What am I going to do without it? At that time, I really couldn't answer that seemingly simple question, but now I have already thought about it, after retiring, I will go to 'Lai Tou Sore' and go to sea with him, Lai Tou Sore, he has retired, and after returning home, my son will inherit his father's business and become a small captain. He talked to me on the phone, and he said, 'Hey, come to me when you retire, work at sea, we'll still ...... together.' ”

"When you think about it, the blue sea around you is endless, the huge waves are raging, and a small boat is rippling with the waves, it's really fascinating to think about. If I am martyred in a storm, ah, die at sea, and the sea swallows up my body, and the sea is my grave, which is a great way to die. Another option is to stay in the team, beat the rookies who want to join our team, just like beating them like the head of the assessment of us, will not show mercy, how to beat out a real man without hammering? How do you whip out a qualified pawn? Speaking of which, I think of what I said, if you want to be a qualified soldier, you have to forget your past, forget your past, you can become a real man, and a real man can become a qualified soldier! ――But can you forget it if you said you forgot it in the past? He let out a long breath.

"I'm going to leave tomorrow on a new mission, and I haven't told you what kind of mission the mission will be. All I know is that the location of the mission is the city where your home is located, and I will visit your parents if it is convenient. ”

He stood up, looked down at the breeze in the twilight sunset, lit another cigarette for himself, took a deep breath, let the smoke swirl in his lungs, and let nicotine fill every cell in his body, as if he wanted to forget the pain in his heart for a while, "One day we will meet again, but the time has not yet come...... The time has not yet come. ”