In this world, the fate of most people is already decided before they are born - their parents. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

Most people don't have a choice - because of their parents and God.

The living environment is determined from the beginning; "Birth" is predetermined, human beings are so willful, and parents are so hateful.

"Want a baby!"

"To leave a legacy!"

"Continuing the ...... of Incense"

It's just for such a boring thing, and he keeps committing unacceptable sins again and again, and while committing crimes, he actually smiles and laughs as a matter of course......

As a parent, when is the most embarrassing time?

When their children cry out in grief, "Why did you give birth to me......"

They will choke, they will be sad, they will get angry...... My mind will go blank for some reason, and in the end I can't say anything, I can't answer anything.

What's the reason for that?

"Because for the first time, I realized that I was a garbage (scum, if the mood of the scum is not harmonious)!"

Of course, there will be worse ones!

They are worse than garbage - at this very moment, they will start beating the parents of their own children.

"What do you hate the most, Ito?"

"Human!"

"People? Why? ”

"Although I never considered myself a 'human', if humanity had become extinct earlier, I wouldn't have come to this world!"

"Ito, do you hate the world?"

"Ah~, the most annoying!"

"The world~, Ito said he hates you the most......"

"What? Is it true, Ito? ”

"Ah~ it's true."

"Ito, you...... Ignore you......"

"Hey, world!"

"It's true. You and the world, I hate it the most! Selfish and willful, timid will only blindly shirk and evade...... It's so small, but it's so arrogant. It's all gone! From my sight, from my side, from my ...... Deep down! ”

- I long for death.

-- I longed for permanent liberation as soon as possible.

It's not just about dying......

-- I want to make my existence disappear completely.

-- In this way, the possibility of "rebirth" that is infinitely close to zero but never equal to zero is eliminated.

That's exactly what happened......

But I can't!

-- I just had an idea.

-- I don't have a reason yet.

-- Unwavering determination.

The conviction to do it anyway - I don't.

Probably like this will continue forever, probably like those old immortals who live in the world, keep alive, live like this......

No...... No way...... No......

I don't want to be like those people.

I'm not human! Don't be like a person......

I, I......

……

I've forgotten when such a thing started! Just one day, a petite and delicate girl suddenly appeared in my dream, after which someone's self-talk would sometimes echo in my ears; When I dream, I see the memories of that person.

From start to finish, I saw him as a pathetic man throughout. I want to die, but I can't; I want to forget, but I can't forget; Every time I make up my mind to do it, I am always ruined by "accidents"; When he was about to succeed, he turned around and walked away......

That person's name was Makoto Ito, the only one in the dream who was replaced by a dark shadow for the pathetic.

Just now, I dreamed of him again!

The dream that had ended, the sad dream that I had forgotten awakened to my memory of him.

Now I think back to the decision I made that night in the night when there was no light in the night......

Before Makoto Ito's memories appeared in my dreams, before I met that petite and delicate girl, I was still in the dark, I was still in the night......

That day, the woman said to me calmly with a puzzled face:

"What are you following me for? Even if you follow me, I won't raise you! ”

I memorized these words forever, and wandered the strange streets with tears that I didn't know where to go. When I came back to my senses, I couldn't tell where I was. Walking in the night, sneaking in the dark, and then I got lost!

"But, I don't have a place to go back anyway, so it's better that way. At least, there's no way back! ”

I sat in the cold, lonely forest, and humid land. In the darkness, there was no sound; In the dark, nothing can be seen; In the dark, there is only cold, and I am alone!

The body gradually became cold, the heart gradually attached ice, and gradually, the feeling of grief dissipated. I fainted, and lay on the wet ground in the dark forest, with only a few dead leaves for pillows and a few weeds for a single ......

I can't see anything, I can't hear anything, only my mind is still thinking, "Why was I born in this world?" Why am I experiencing such a thing? Why...... Will I have parents? ”

"Is it three years old? It's time for kindergarten! ”

I don't want to be with other children......

"Very good, Xiaozhi is really a child who makes Mom and Dad proud! Then, when you go to elementary school next year, try not to lose to other children! ”

I don't want to go to school......

"This time it was also a perfect score, the first in the whole grade, it really deserves to be my child!"

I don't want to go to school...... Don't want to attend classes......

"That guy is a perfect score again, every time it's like this, that guy must have cheated!"

"That's it, that's it!"

"If you weren't cheating, how could you get a perfect score every time?"

Don't want to be in the same place as garbage......

"Narumi-kun is really amazing! I lost to you this time! ”

I don't want to have too much contact with girls......

"That's right, that's right! How did Narumi-kun learn? I can take a hundred exams every time, can you teach me? ”

“……”

"Na~Na~ Nakai-kun, just teach me! I also want to get a perfect score or two to make my parents and teachers happy......"

I don't want to be pestered by girls......

I hate girls. Because......

"Hey, Narumi! Izumi is talking to you! Hurry up and give me an answer! ”

Approaching or being approached by a girl will only invite unnecessary disaster......

Pretty girls are always with scum!

"Get out of here!"

"What did you say?"

"Bang!! Syllable!!! Boom!!! ”

Don't want to fight......

"Narumi-kun, why did you hit the forest tree?"

"Because he's noisy with me!"

"Got you arguing? So why don't you tell Lin Shu well? ”

"Tell him well, he won't listen!"

"How would you know if you didn't try it?"

("I thought he was a good teacher, but after all, it only turned out to be a degree?") ”）

"Ah, it's annoying, you're so noisy!"

Enough is enough! I've had enough of running a family or something, being an obedient good boy or something......

"Is that how you educate your children? Is it okay to have good grades? If you have good grades, can you be willful, can you look at no one, and can you defy the teacher...... Let's go back and educate yourself! ”

That's what it's like to be!

"Narumi-kun, the first place is out of 100! It's a good try, Narumi-kun! Everyone applauds! ”

"Let's do our best next time!"

That's all a lie......

If you are obedient, you are a good student! Disobedient......

"You dare to contradict me, and you have to ...... if you go on like this"

But it's just an eyesore flower......

"Xiaozhi, why do you want to contradict the teacher?"

"Because he's so noisy!"

"It's too noisy...... You kid...... This is really my dereliction of duty, because I have always been very obedient, so I didn't care much about you, I didn't expect to become such a willful bad boy! ”

"Smack!"

It's also nature!

"Come, Takayuki, try the new clothes that Dad bought for you......"

"Come here, filial piety, try the stew that my mother made for you!"

"Did you take the first exam again? What do you want? Tell Mom and Dad, Mom and Dad will buy it for you! ”

Obedient is a good boy! Otherwise......

"Smack! Syllable! Smack......"

Is it just a punching bag......

Why go to school?

"There are a lot of children like Xiaozhi in the school, and you can make a lot of friends!"

Friends or something, I don't need ......

Why go to school?

"Why learn knowledge, you can learn a lot of things that Xiaozhi has never seen or heard!"

Knowledge or something, can't you just read a book......

Why are there teachers in schools?

"Teachers can teach you a lot of interesting things......"

Teacher or something, I hate it to death......

Why are there classmates?

"It's more fun to study together, right?"

Why approach me?

"Narumi-kun's mind is so good, I want to be as smart as Narumi-kun!"

It's noisy, you guys...... Be quiet...... Why do you have to say everything...... Shut up...... Shut up...... Get the hell out of my way......

Because I was beaten for no reason, because the people who were gentle to me suddenly changed their faces, so I also changed!

"Narumi-kun, ...... yesterday"

"Get out of the way!"

There's no need to push yourself anymore!

"Narumi-kun, what are you doing?"

"It's so boring that I don't understand what you're talking about? It's better for me to teach myself. ”

There is no need to cater to ......

"Hey, Narumi, you little ......"

"Get out of the way!"

There is no need to be patient......

"What?"

"Bang! Syllable! Boom! Knock ......"

"Xiaozhi, what's going on with your grades?"

"What do you mean?"

"I've always had a full score in the test before, but this time I only barely passed the test, are you fighting with the teacher?"

"No~ it's just tired......"

"Tired? What does it mean to be tired? ”

"Actually, I hate to study! So...... Tired ......"

It's not a big deal, it's just a matter of saying what is in your heart......

"What are you talking about, why am I paying for your education? Not for your own good! I hope you can get ahead, I hope you can live a good life, why are you so uncompetitive......"

What's the point of getting ahead?

Is it so good to be watched all the time?

Even then......

"I just want to live an ordinary life......"

"Smack~"

Forced to study, forced to be a good boy, just like a puppet! Manipulated by the puppet line, at the mercy of the ......

Although I was forced, I became a wonderful good boy. Excellent grades, excellent physical fitness, and a wide range of friends, it is already too good to be good! That's exactly what happened......

"Come here, filial piety! This aunt is Mizuno and Nako, and in a few days, she will be your new mother, and now ......"

"Hello, Narumi-kun......"

"Don't touch me!"

"Ah, I'm sorry! It's the aunt who is wrong, and the aunt apologizes to you! Is it okay to forgive Auntie? ”

Mizuno and Noko are indeed beautiful, gentle and virtuous good women. But......

"Hey, Kazuya, what do you mean by that?"

"What do you mean? Isn't that obvious? Divorce, divorce! In the past, when I came back a little later, you would mess with me until late at night; If you drink alcohol and it smells of perfume, you will go crazy and quarrel with me...... I've had enough of you! Kazunako is a good woman who is several times better than you, she can understand me, she will care and understand me...... Anyway, sign it! House, car, I don't want any! Half of the deposit, filial piety must follow me! ”

But Kanoniko did something that wasn't a good thing!

But it was also because of her appearance that I found out: in addition to the fact that I have been suffering, the originally harmonious and happy family has long been shattered when I didn't pay attention.

It was then that I noticed that my nerves had already become numb......

I didn't feel sad, and I didn't think about stopping it......

"No, I won't follow you, I'm going to follow my mother!"

Just because I don't want to see a woman's tears, just because she looks so pitiful, just because betrayal is absolutely intolerable; So, I chose her......

"What are you following me for? Even if you follow me, I won't raise you! ”

However, my eyesight was so bad - I chose the wrong one!

Her words deflated me, and I couldn't answer......

I don't want to answer either......

Family, it's no longer worth anything to me! Family, for me no longer has any meaning! I left home......

Standing in front of the door, I glanced faintly at the room where I had lived for eleven years, and looked at the night sky without moon and stars, and I decided-

Never going back here again......

From now on, I'll be alone!

But......

"Where should I go if I don't have a home......