Chapter Thirty-Eight: Chisato Feels Like Something Changed
Chisato sat in a chair, motionless. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info
"Hey, are you alright?" Jiang Yu was a little worried, "Even if you have 200 billion, it's just a bigger problem, and you definitely can't die." ”
Chisato didn't say anything, thinking about things.
"You mean something, don't be like this, okay? It's a big deal, I went to my second uncle after work. ”
"It's not that I don't want to help you, it's that it's useless to go to my second uncle now."
"Say something! What the hell are you going to make a fuss? ”
Qianli moved, raised his head, looked at Jiang Yu, and asked softly, "Am I wrong?" ”
Jiang Yu was stunned: "What's wrong?" ”
"Anything is wrong." Chisato raised her head higher and realized that she saw the stars, "There are stars on the ceiling, they belong to the stars outside the sky, I see them." ”
Jiang Yu looked up, then at Qianli, not knowing what to say.
"I sit here as if I was sitting on the top of a mountain, the cold wind blowing against my body, and I didn't feel cold at all."
Jiang Yu didn't want to talk about the air conditioning on the side, and tried to think of a way to change it.
"I saw the starry sky, countless stars changing, like the deepest night, and like the time when the soul is silent, words cannot be desolate."
"I feel like I can have everything as long as I close my eyes."
"However, once you have it, you lose it immediately."
"I'm afraid!"
Chisato lowered his head and closed his eyes, and the whole person fell silent.
An old man in a hospital gown appeared, walked straight to Chisaku's side, and sat on an idle chair.
The old man lowered his head and watched his left finger keep moving, reciting notes that others couldn't understand, and wisps of light fell from the ceiling, paving the space with a layer of dreams.
"You ......" Jiang Yu was speechless when he opened his mouth, and his body seemed to be imprisoned, watching the old man knock Qianli's head.
"You're doing something wrong." The old man said.
"I know." Chisato nodded, "I've been wrong all along. ”
"You're wrong, but do you know where you're wrong?" The old man continued to knock Chisato on the head.
"I ...... I do not know. ”
"You're wrong because you don't know."
"Yes, I was wrong."
"Do you know what you're supposed to do now?"
"I don't know."
"Do you know what you're holding on to?"
"I don't know."
"Do you know why you're holding it all the time?"
"I don't know."
The old man sat down and whispered, "No, you know, and besides, you always knew it. ”
"What do I know?" Chisato looked at the old man, his eyes suddenly brightened, "Yes, I know." ”
The old man nodded: "What do you know?" ”
"I shouldn't have insisted." Chisato said, "When there is no hope, I should give up and choose a feasible path." ”
"Huh." The old man smiled and shook his head.
"Shouldn't I give up?"
"Do you know what giving up is?"
"Give up...... It's about giving up. ”
"Yes, giving up is giving up, and it's just giving up." The old man looked up, "Looking at the ceiling, it's like looking at the sky, there are countless lights, dotted with stars, that illuminate my eyes." ”
"It's the stars." Senrito.
The old man shook his head.
"What's that?" Chisato was puzzled, "That's supposed to be a star." ”
The old man shook his head again and said softly, "That's an illusion. ”
"Hallucinations?"
"Yes, hallucinations, just what you think they are."
Chisato lowered his head, not looking at the ceiling, thinking about nothing.
"Think too much, do too little, and you don't get much." The old man closed his eyes, "I can still see the night sky with my head down, and I can see the night sky when I close my eyes." ”
Qianli was puzzled, and said: "But that's an illusion!" ”
"Hallucinations? Do you think that's an illusion? ”
"Didn't you say that?" Chisato was even more puzzled.
"Illusions, they can be hallucinations or something else." The old man took a deep breath and slowly exhaled, "When you think it's an illusion, you're not far from giving up." ”
"I don't understand." Chisato said.
"Yes, if you don't understand, who can understand?" The old man smiled, laughing out of vicissitudes, "No one understands!" ”
"You don't understand either?" Chisato asked.
The old man nodded, opened his eyes, and looked at Qianli: "You tell me, you understand." ”
"Uh, this ...... I know. ”
"Okay, you get it."
Chisato was puzzled, nodded under the old man's eager gaze, and said softly, "I already understand." ”
"Now that you understand, I should leave too." The old man said, getting up and leaving.
The old man's speed was not fast, but there was a kind of smoothness that he couldn't even follow, and he disappeared from the world of thousands of miles in an instant.
Jiang Yu found that he could move, so he moved, and hurriedly asked, "What do you understand?" ”
Chisato shook his head and said with a wry smile, "These are not things I can understand now. ”
"This ...... What do you really understand? ”
"I see, that's not what I can understand right now." Chisato added, "That's what I learned. ”
Jiang Yu was helpless, knowing that a lot of very strange things would happen, and trying to convince himself that it was not strange, that it was not strange that nothing would happen, and that it would not be strange if anything else happened.
"I was wrong." Chisato suddenly said, "I was wrong from the beginning, and I was very wrong. ”
"What are you wrong?" Jiang Yu asked.
"Everything was wrong, it was wrong in the first place."
Jiangyu was a little helpless, but if you think about it carefully, it seems that it can really be said to be like this.
"I shouldn't have insisted on this wrong path."
"What road?"
"The wrong path." Chisato had a handsome smile on her handsome face, "Although I still can't let go, I'm starting to know what I'm holding onto." ”
Jiang Yu didn't want to speak, but after hesitating, he decided to ask, "What are you insisting on?" ”
"I'm holding on to my mistakes." Chisato said seriously.
The river fish was speechless, very speechless.
"My persistence now proves me wrong." Chisato said solemnly, "So, from now on, I'm going to change." ”
"How are you going to change?" Jiang Yu still felt speechless, but he just wanted to ask.
"Actually, I haven't gotten a definite idea of this question yet, and it's not in my hands." Chisato said with a smile.
"Can you still laugh?" Jiang Yu felt that he was convinced.
"In life, there are always happy and unhappy, and when you are unhappy, you should also make yourself happy, right?" Chisato was still smiling, smiling handsomely.
"I really don't know what you think, besides, I've already served you."
Chisato nodded and said with a smile: "Actually, I also admire myself." ”
"Thick-skinned." River Fish Road.
"Wrong, shameless." Chisato looked up and looked at the pale ceiling, "Lianlian, do you say it's shameless?" ”