At the end of the day's practice, Tu Ran hesitated for a while and told Teacher Xiaozhang that he would not come to study in the future. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

"Think the practice is boring?" Teacher Xiao Zhang turned his chair and asked.

Tu Ran shook his head.

"Lost interest in drawing?" Teacher Xiao Zhang then asked. He was holding a red pen in his hand, and at this moment, the red pen was drawing regular circles in Mr. Xiaozhang's hand, like a ceiling fan whirring and turning wind leaves.

Tu Ran still shook his head.

"Then there must be some unsolvable doubt in my heart." Teacher Xiao Zhang put down the pen with a snap, pushed the chair and walked to Tu Ran: "Are you interested in talking to the teacher?" Maybe I can help you with your questions......"

Over the years, I have learned painting with Mr. Xiaozhang, and Tu Ran and Mr. Xiaozhang have become very familiar. At this moment, listening to Teacher Xiao Zhang's question, Tu Ran hesitated for a while and then explained everything. Even his own sentimental little emotions Tu Ran did not miss out. She needed someone to listen to her. But will anyone really understand these delicate emotions when they say them? Hesitating like this, Tu Ran didn't even say anything to Tan Xi. Unexpectedly, at this moment, under the inducement of Teacher Xiao Zhang, Tu Ran vomited quickly. Maybe it's the trust that has gradually cultivated in the past few years, Tu Ran thinks that Teacher Xiaozhang may be able to answer his doubts.

"Don't you want to live here?" Teacher Xiaozhang asked.

"Not really. I just ......" Tu Ran slumped for a while, unable to think of a word to describe his innermost feelings.

"I want to go to a higher place! This is human nature, as the saying goes, people go to high places, and water flows to low places......" Teacher Xiao Zhang understood, and he smiled and said what she wanted to say for Tu Ran.

"Does the teacher think my heart is too high?" Tu Ran asked Teacher Xiaozhang with a red face.

"No, no. Not at all. Life in the world is actually to strive for a better life. You're so small, you should go out and have a look. This world is much bigger than Beiyuan......" Teacher Xiao Zhang said with a sigh.

"However, if I can't get into Kitahara High School, everything will be impossible." Tu Ran lowered his eyes, and then said, "Brother Xiaolong is so good. Originally, everyone thought that he would be admitted to the best high school in the city. But no one expected that such a thing would happen. He's just a little close. Just a little bit. Teachers, adults say it's fate. Do you believe in fate? ”

Tu Ran's sudden question made Teacher Xiao Zhang stunned: Is it fate?

After a moment of trance, Teacher Xiao Zhang opened his mouth: "No, Tu Ran, I don't believe in fate." Everyone's life is in their own hands. I haven't told you my story! ”

Tu Ran's eyes widened: "The teacher's story?"

"yes. My story. Teacher Xiao Zhang slowly opened his mouth.

When Mr. Xiaozhang was very young, his family was very poor. A family of three is crammed into a tiny reed house. When it rains, it rains heavily outside the house, and it rains lightly inside the house. Even though they took out all the containers that could hold water to catch the rainwater, the house would still get wet. At that time, Mr. Xiaozhang was lying on the damp and moldy bed, and his greatest wish was that the sky would clear as soon as possible.

"Actually, the rain is not the worst case. When I was nine years old, my father was fishing on the river when a big wave overturned the boat. Those days, the sky was overcast and very windy. My mom advised Abba not to go. But Abba didn't listen. He wanted to catch more fish in exchange for some money, so that the family's life would be a little less tight. Unexpectedly, he rowed a boat and left home that day and never came back. After that, my mom and I lived together. My mom worked hard like a man to keep me from following my father's path, just to earn a few more dollars for me to study. When I was in high school, she got her entire left arm involved in a machine due to fatigue. I don't miss it anymore, I feel sorry for my mom. But my mom didn't agree. She got up from under the hospital bed, begged for help, and borrowed some money for me to continue my high school education. Teacher Xiao Zhang calmly talked about his past, without a trace of waves in his tone, as if the person in the story was not himself.

Tu Ran looked at Teacher Xiao Zhang, but he didn't expect that Teacher Xiao Zhang, who usually loves to laugh so much, has hidden so many sad pasts.

"After the college entrance examination, although my grades were very good, in order to get free tuition, I went to study at a normal university. The Normal University has a training program, which will pay students a certain amount of living allowance every month. Of course, that comes at a price. That is, after graduation, everyone who enjoys living allowance will have to go to a backward township to teach for three years. After Xiao Tan finished speaking, Teacher Tan looked at Tu Ran quietly.

"Then you're leaving......" Tu Ran counted the dates carefully, lowered his head and said in a sad tone.

"Yes! I'll be gone when you're on summer vacation. Teacher Xiao Zhang sighed.

"Is fate really in your own hands? However, Brother Xiaolong, he is obviously so powerful......" Tu Ran hesitated, but still said what he thought in his heart. Although Teacher Xiao Zhang used his own personal experience to dilute the dark clouds in Tu Ran's heart, he still did not solve Tu Ran's doubts.

"Indeed, Ma Xiaolong is very powerful." Teacher Xiaozhang said, "But sometimes success doesn't depend on strength. There are many other factors that can affect it. For example, the environment or something. But we can't just do nothing because other factors will affect our success. Right? ”

"But if you don't succeed after paying a lot, won't it be sad......" Tu Ran is still entangled.

"But if you don't do anything because you don't necessarily succeed, you'll regret it later. I'd rather be sad for a while than regret it for the rest of my life!" Teacher Xiao Zhang sighed.

"Would you rather be sad for a while than regret it for the rest of your life?" Tu Ran muttered and repeated Teacher Xiao Zhang's words.

"Hmm. If you don't try it now, you'll regret it in retrospect. How do you know you won't succeed if you don't give it a try? Don't leave a regret in your life. Everyone's fate is in their own hands. If you believe in your fate, then why do you struggle? If God arranges everything, then everyone doesn't have to do anything, just eat and wait for death, isn't it? But if you look around, your father, your uncle, and my teacher, which one of them is not living diligently? Heaven has arranged for us? It's not ......" Teacher Xiaozhang looked at Tu Ran and said seriously.

Tu Ran was stunned. Teacher Xiao Zhang's words illuminated Tu Ran's heart like a beam of light. Oh, yes! If you don't give it a try, how do you know it won't work? What kind of life, it's all nonsense! If it is all predestined, then why do people have to work hard to live better?