suicide

However, I think that I have never done anything that hurts nature and reason, and I have no grievances with others, why is this happening? I can't figure it out, could it be that I'm really evil? Neurasthenia?

Very early on, I heard that there was a distant relative in the family, and there was always a lot of strange behavior and a lot of strange things happening. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 info He always walks around the house alone, saying a lot of strange things, no one is around, but he is always talking to someone, the point is that no one understands what he says. At first, he always had a series of symptoms, and everyone thought he had a nerve problem, but later, he began to have a series of symptoms such as sleepwalking.

He always said that someone wanted to take him away, but no one believed him. Later, a wizard came to the family, saying that he wanted to take him as an apprentice, but the family did not agree. After the old wizard was gone, the man's condition got worse and worse. Sometimes during the day, it is as if I am sleepwalking, ignoring others. When he was sober, he always said that someone was going to take him away, and everyone just thought that he was suffering from some kind of heartbreak or something, and thought that he would just take him to the hospital to see.

But no, it happened that day in the hospital, he fell ill again, and he was stunned to see a doctor on the third floor and climbed up to the eighth floor. Along the way, his parents dissuaded him, but he was like no one around, just talking and reading something that no one understood and walked on his own. Later, the troops came to see the situation and called the police. But it didn't work, even though his parents pulled him, he broke free from everyone's pull and jumped down simply. In a sentence that usually the old people scold children for being impatient, "It's like being busy going to reincarnation." But it turned out that he jumped straight away, away from the vertical flower bed from which he had jumped, and fell straight on an empty concrete floor, as if he had chosen to fall there. It was originally a place where it was difficult to throw anything deliberately, but he just jumped around and fell there in everyone's sight, and died without even convulsing.

Since then, we've had one of these things happen every few rooms, like a spell, and anyone who has those symptoms ends up dying as a wizard or mysteriously dead.

I suddenly remembered the wizard who came to the door before, so does that mean I'm going to die? But after many years, I haven't encountered such a strange thing, so this incident has almost been forgotten by me. Now that I think about it, it's really a little tingling!

Just when I thought that goosebumps fell to the ground, there was a creak and it opened again. The morning sun brings not warmth, but weirdness. Because the morning sun was already so dazzling, it made me feel very uncomfortable, and the shadow was pulling for a long time, almost to my bed. It's like a devil coming at me with teeth and claws.

"Looks like you're pretty comfortable here!" The policeman had a wicked smile on his face, as if he were joking with me. I think he must have had no idea what a night in prison meant to a prisoner, which is why he said it so lightly.

"Who gave you the power? So that you can be careless of human life like this? I couldn't see his smug look on his face, so I threw the book over.

"You're looking for death! Believe it or not・・・・・・" He threw the book back, but slammed it into the bed.

"Do you have the ability to catch the murderer? Just know how to bully good people! ”

"I didn't speak, no one can prove that you are a good person!"

"Then you prove that I'm a bad person! Shoot me! I don't want to be locked up here again, and I'll die if I am locked up here again! ”

"Humph! To die? All right! You jump for me! Jump down and I'll let you go! He pointed to the balcony with a look of disdain. I think, if I was really locked up here, I might as well die, not to mention, this is only the third floor, he knows very well in his heart, he can't die if he jumps here, of course I also know that he is just scaring me. I can't let him look down on him, and I can't just be wronged by them and go to prison here for nothing. Rather than this, it is better to die!

After making up my mind, I rushed straight out the door and climbed onto the balcony. I'm usually afraid of heights, I don't dare to look down when I stand above the fourth floor, although it's only the third floor, but because I'm sitting on it, I feel my back is numb, and my heart is beating so fast.

"Humph! You jump! If you can't die, jump? Hurry up and don't waste my time! "He seems to be ironclad that I don't dare to dance, I look at his smug expression, and I hate it in my heart! I decided, even if I die, I'll jump! I just felt that my mind was blank and my body was weightless, but I didn't dare to close my eyes, I still wanted to live, and I tried to use my feet and hands to touch the ground first and cushion the weight. Thinking about the light body of people flying on the wall in martial arts dramas, I also fantasized that I just landed on the ground with a slight bend of my legs. It was the case, my feet hit the ground first, but I seemed to weigh a lot more than I thought.

I couldn't stand on my feet at all, so I fell to my knees and pressed my hands to the ground, and I used the last bit of my sanity to roll and cushion the impact. Then the pain swept through my body from all directions, and the tears brushed away, and I didn't want to cry, but the tears kept flowing, as if the flood couldn't stop it. I knew I couldn't get up, so I just lay on the ground and didn't even open my eyes.

I just heard all kinds of voices from men and women around me, saying that someone jumped off the building, some people said that they were sent to the hospital, some people told me not to move, and some people came to help me. Of course I couldn't stand up, and I couldn't feel the pain anywhere, I just felt that it was all hurting. I still haven't opened my eyes, and I can feel a lot of people around me. At that moment, the only thing I thought in my heart was that the police station forced people to jump off the building, and it was time to make headlines! I heard the voice of 120, and the voices of all kinds of discussions, and I didn't care so much anymore, I just thought that I could leave the police station now. That damn cop, tell you to look down on me. Auntie, grandma, I am also a person with temperament, it's not that you say it's forced, it's enough to be locked up by you for a day, now, it's strange to see if you don't be punished.

I felt a pair of hands groping my body, and after passing through her hands, I probably knew that my feet were not feeling anything anyway, except that they hurt and hurt, and my hands seemed to be bleeding because I felt bandaged.

"Nurse, is she alright?" It's that damn cop, my God! Why hasn't he been arrested yet? Can you still come to the hospital with you? Is there no one at the police station?

"It is preliminarily concluded that there should be no danger to life!" Hearing her say this, I was relieved, "At present, I have to go back to the hospital for a detailed examination if there are many external injuries and whether the specific bones are injured." Looking at the current situation, the leg injury is more serious, I don't know if there is a big problem! "Hearing this, my heart is cold, what is a big problem? Does it mean paralysis? Oh my God! I knew that I wouldn't dance, and in order to fight for breath, I accompanied me for a lifetime. I really feel like my whole leg is unconscious. Is it possible? Oh my God! I'm not married yet, am I going to spend my life in a wheelchair? Thinking of this, my tears began to flow out again.

"Hey! What are you pretending to be dead? They all said it was okay! "Damn! Is this guy talking to me? How did he know I hadn't fainted?

"Are you pretending to have tears like that?" Just as I was talking, I felt someone wiping my tears with a tissue. I opened my eyes suddenly, and it was the nurse.

"Oops! I really didn't faint! The nurse smiled, "Can you feel the injuries in those parts of you?" ”

I don't know why, when she asked me like this, I felt very wronged, very hurt, and cried even more sadly. Originally, I wanted to prove how good I was, but now it's like this. Impulsiveness is the devil, and this life is going to end like this.

"Didn't you say let me go? What are you coming along? "I wanted to say it very strongly, but I couldn't help but cry, more like a pleading, it was really even more spineless.

"I meant to let you go, but can you go now? Then there you go! I'm not going to stop you! He still had a nonchalant face. I was so angry that I really wanted to turn over and leave, but as soon as I tried to move, I found that my arms didn't seem to be able to exert any strength, and my feet couldn't move.

"Hey! Don't move yet, I don't know where you're injured yet, don't move, cause secondary damage! "The nurse was busy helping me to lie down and telling me not to move.

"Xia Ling, let me tell you, I regretted it when you jumped off the building, I think I should have let you go, maybe you really have nothing to do with this matter! But when I saw you jumping off the building, I knew that I must have something to do with it! "Listening to him say so seriously, I really want to cry without tears. He continued, "You know what? Your jumping posture is so professional, it's like a professional jumper! Jumping so high and still being able to stay awake, I can clearly feel that you are trying to mitigate the damage. He carefully analyzed the whole process, as if it was not a person who jumped off the building, but an experiment for people to analyze and reference.

I don't have any illusions about the police profession anymore. I only thought they were great and selfless before, and they kept one side at peace. Now it seems that the reason why they can handle everything well is because no matter who they are facing, they only have things in mind. Faced with a girl jumping off a building, he just thinks about studying my posture is not very "experienced"? What else can I say,

I was so desperate that I gave up explaining anything to him and just closed my eyes and recuperated. I think it's a waste of my strength to talk to someone like that, I'm injured now anyway, and even if he doesn't let me go, it won't affect anything, the only possibility is to imprison me in another place. It used to be the little black room, but now it has to be in the hospital, at least temporarily. I really don't know, whose money is for my hospitalization, and if I have to pay for it, I would really rather die, because then it must be known by the family, and how will I explain all this then?

When I arrived at the hospital, I was tormented by all kinds of tosses, my knee was heavily bandaged, and my right foot was directly in a plaster, and I heard that my ankle was broken, and I fell on the bed. The wounds on his hands were also re-cleaned, and his right hand was dislocated, and the doctor said that he had to hang it around his neck when he wanted to get up. Due to the rolling, there was a bruise on the shoulder, and the doctor only said to come to liniment regularly. You need a wheelchair to go out, and it's better not to go out today.

I just lay like an idiot, I couldn't move, because of the back pain, and I couldn't move, so almost only my eyes could move around. I finally know why some people are going to commit suicide in wheelchairs, thinking of those days of freedom in the past, I am so miserable now, oh my God!

The doctors and nurses were out, and the policeman hadn't left, so he walked around the room as if to check if I could escape. I looked out the window, I could barely see anything, and I knew, not because I was lying, I guess it was more than twenty floors. Maybe because I was sent by the police, so this room looks quite comfortable, with a TV and air conditioning, and a bathroom, although it is a small single room, but there are tables and stools. Just then, I heard the policeman's cell phone ring, and he looked at me and went into the bathroom. I was tempted to hear what he had to say, but he came out with a few simple words.

"Do you want me to turn on the TV for you?" He glanced at me and picked up the remote.

"Are you leaving?"

"Of course it can't be, I'm a criminal, I have to watch you!" He sat to the side in dismay, but I could sense that he was leaving.

"Can you let my friends come and see me, I'm so bored by myself!" I begged. In other words, people are under the eaves and have to bow their heads, I'm like this, and if I don't see anyone again, I'm going to die of depression.

"Of course not!" He looked at the TV, said angrily, turned the TV to the news channel, put the remote control aside, sure enough, it was the police, he knew to watch this, and he had decided that he wanted me to watch this. Because my hands are wrapped so that I can't see my fingers.

"Let them bring me basic books! I promise not to say anything! You see that you have harmed me like this, and this request will not help me? "When I think about my current situation, I can't help but cry down.

"Alright, alright! Don't cry, it's useless to cry! You're still killing people like this? And I did! He said impatiently, getting up and taking a step, but he didn't seem to know what to do!

"I said I didn't kill anyone, you had to frame me!" I didn't want to cry, but the thought of being so miserable made me sad to death. I was made like this for some reason, in fact, crying in front of the enemy is the most humiliating, I know, but I just can't stop.

"You'd better stay honest, don't make fearless struggles, and don't think about running away." With that, he walked out of the door, closed it hatefully, and glanced at me outside. I don't know why, but when he was looking outside the door, I felt particularly insecure because people could see me from outside. I'd prefer it to be a door with no small glass windows. The policeman is gone, and I don't know what he did, but based on the phone call just now, I think he must be going back to the police station.

I really hope that he will be scolded in Zaicai, but is it enough to make me scold so badly? Why am I so unpursuing? I think he should be fired, or, arrested, so that he can feel what it will be like to go to jail.

The news on TV ranged from economics to politics, from national events to people's livelihoods, and I was bored but unable to move. I then remembered that I hadn't eaten, I hadn't washed my face and brushed my teeth, and I didn't know what the mess had become. Oh my God! What kind of world is it, what exactly have I encountered? With all my might, I finally sounded the alarm bell, and after a while, a beautiful nurse came in. The bow on her chest made her look particularly fresh, and most importantly, she was wearing blue underwear under her pink nurse's uniform. It's really trying to cover up but looming! The treatment of the city's First People's Hospital is different, I really hate myself for not being a man.

"What's wrong?" I could tell that her voice was not very pleasant, but despite this, I still found her voice sweet.

"I'm a little hungry!" I looked at it, and suddenly reacted, I wanted to turn my head, but I found that my neck couldn't move, so I simply continued to look. Fortunately, she has been moving here and there since then, and she hasn't paid attention to me at all. What a hospital now! No matter what the problem, I will be infused with a bottle of saline first, and even my external injury will be like an internal injury.

"This is the family's problem, the hospital is not responsible!"

"But I don't have any family, the policeman just now, you know, he's gone!" I really want to say that I am his relative, so maybe people will be polite to me, but when I thought that I was pulled by 120, I guess I had been exposed, and I hurriedly explained: "My situation is special, you know!" ”

"I'm sorry, we really can't control this, he just said that he will be back in a while!" The nurse was filling in something as if she were making a note for me. But he said that the policeman would come back? Ay! No matter what, I don't believe they just threw me, the murderer in their hearts, here and don't care, forget it, come back, come back! Or I don't know how to die!

"So what if I want to go to the toilet? If he can't come for a while, won't I? The nurse gave me a blank look and took out the bedpan from under the bed. She won't be? Before I could refuse, she had already tucked the potty into the quilt and was doing something to me. My face was red to my neck, I thought she would try to help me to the toilet, but I didn't expect her to be so direct, I didn't want to urinate in an instant. She tossed for a long time because I was tied up, and it hurt me everywhere, but I thought wouldn't it be even more embarrassing if the policeman really came back? It's still a woman now, and after brewing for a long time, it's finally resolved.

I said thank you very aggrieved, and the nurse was very aggrieved and left. After she left, I remembered that I should ask her to help me change the channel. But people have already done something extra for me, I can't go too far, and the nurses are not for me alone. I figured that if the policeman did come back, I would call the nurse a few more times because I could give him some benefits. Ay! I feel like the best person in the world, and I want to give him benefits because of him like that. But why, do you think I'm a bad person!

After solving the problem, I was relaxed and lay down like this, and it seemed that the pain in my body was not so serious. The dull news swept over the sleepiness, and before I knew it, I closed my eyes. But because I couldn't move, and my feet were tied up and I fell off from the old high, I slept very uncomfortably. I just wanted to open my eyes, but I found that the door was open, I remember that the nurse closed the door when she went out! I nervously glanced around the room, only to see a pair of angry eyes staring at me.