"I don't understand ......"

In front of me are small green bushes. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

"I don't want to understand ...... anymore"

Underfoot is a limestone pavement.

"I ......"

That's what I just saw......

"I ......"

That's just the way it was ......

"I'm ......"

-- Scenery.

"Just trying to like someone wholeheartedly...... I just want to fall in love...... It's just that...... Just want to know......"

-- Roads.

"What went wrong?"

"Go back—where I'm not there."

Probably there's nothing wrong with it, but one thing is just overlooked:

"You're ......"

"I'm not human, shut up! I don't care about you! ”

That man......

-- Not human.

After thinking about it, calm down a little!

"Sure enough, I still ......"

After pausing in front of the door for a second, I walked into the café again. Thinking back to Zhixing's words, recalling the relationship between me and him, after re-examining, I am finally convinced!

What I like is-

"Lovenowish a cup!"

Sitting in the seat I had sat in, I couldn't help but smile.

I always feel a little sad and dumped!

"Need tissues, guest?"

It's still the same people, it's the same way......

"Do you need a hand towel?"

Or the same face...... At this moment, it is no longer the face of yesterday!

became haggard, and there was a faint hint of sentimentality under his gentle smile. But that's because it is; It was because he was the closest person to him that he knew better - he was in pain.

"No, suddenly I think it's not bad to let the tears run wild once in a while!"

It's still pitch black!

"Yes, I do want that occasionally!"

Still not the slightest aroma!

"Huh? Will Mr. Waitress have such a time? ”

It still has no taste, saying that it is coffee, but it is not as good as plain water.

"Of course it will!"

"I'm not human, though...... But there are times when I want to cry heartily! It's just ......"

"Just?"

Is this lovenowish? Only people who are both "gentle" and "cruel" can taste the magic of coffee. There will be coffee in this world as well.

"It's just that it's just an occasional thought!"

"Huh? Why? Haven't you ever cried? ”

Takayuki is already Mr. Waiter......

"How is that possible?"

To be able to chat like this, to be able to listen to his heart like this...... That's it!

- That's enough.

"So ......"

"Even though I don't allow it, I still cry; Because it is not allowed, it is desperately suppressed ...... It's already painful enough, if you can't vent it anymore...... It will be even more painful...... It's like going on and on......"

"Put the cart before the horse......"

"Yes!"

"So ......"

"Of course!"

"Do you know what I'm trying to say?"

"Of course!"

"Why?"

Xiaozhi turned his back and froze in place. After a moment, he suddenly smiled.

"Of course! Even if I am already a waiter, even if you have become a guest, the memories will not disappear because of this. So, 'Of course'! The laughter faded away with the sound of light footsteps.

Listening to Xiaozhi's words and looking at his departing back, Yin Meng instantly felt much more relaxed: "Yes!"

Even if you want to forget - you just remember it more clearly.

Memories that cannot be forgotten and cannot be forgotten......

"It's changed a lot, senior ...... filial piety"

Standing on the side of the road in front of the café and looking up at the gloomy sky without the sun, Otomu curled the corners of her mouth and showed a shallow smile: "Maybe it's going to rain today!" But if it rains, you might be able to see a rainbow! ”

Shake the black liquid in your hand, sit down on the seat that still has residual warmth, and turn your head out the window. Looking at the outside of the one-way transparent glass, looking at the girl's voice reflected in the window, the man smiled reassuringly.

"So, get back to work!"

Putting the half cup of lovenowish on the table, with a brisk step, Takayuki returned to the kitchen.

"Hey! What do you do, bastard bug? ”

And his rash action will naturally inevitably be abused by the Great Empty Temple.

"Hey, I said~ I'll talk to you, don't ignore me!"

However, Takayuki doesn't mind! He's just...... Laughed......

There was a bouquet of pink roses on the windowsill in the small ward, and she stayed silently on the windowsill, silently emitting the fragrance. Sometimes you might even ignore it, but it's really there, just like that person!

"Good morning, sister! I'm coming to see you again! ”

"How are you feeling today? Are you feeling better? ”

The girl pushed open the door and walked in.

Sitting in front of the hospital bed, the girl held her sister's hand: "It's still the same as before (it's very comfortable)!"

"But......" the girl sighed, "I lost weight again......"

"Wake up quickly, sister! It's been three years...... If you don't wake up again, Brother Narumi will be snatched away by other women! ”

Putting her sister's close to her chest, the girl shouted in her heart: "Wake up!" Wake up! After sleeping for so long, it's time to wake up! ”

But the "sister" didn't react at all, just closed her eyes slightly. It's just a little body temperature on the slender palm.

She fell asleep, and fell asleep quietly and peacefully......

It was like waiting silently, waiting for someone to wake her up; Or, already completely hopeless, just hurt, just sad!

"Why didn't you come, Brother Narumi?"

The sky was still obscured by dark clouds, and a light rain began to fall in gray. Raindrops lap on the umbrella and fall from it.

"Tick!"

- "Do you ...... Don't you like your sister anymore? ”。

"How is that possible, so stupid!"

Suddenly, I felt a feeling of suffocation, and a breath was stuck in my throat, and I couldn't spit it out or swallow it. Holding it in the chest, it makes people breathless, and it is extremely uncomfortable!

There are only two words echoing in the silent ward.

"Stupid!"

"It's raining!"

"Just look at it, stupid bug!"

"Yes......"

"Uh......"

"Is it raining again?"

Ignoring the Dakong Temple next to it, Xiaozhi quietly watched the rare rain scene.

For rain, filial piety is not hateful. However, it doesn't mean liking.

It's just that...... I don't know when it started......

"Ah~ it's so cool!"

Whenever it rains, he always steps into the rain involuntarily like this. Enjoy the rain shower, feel the coldness of the rain, experience the cold, and calm your mind. Then, gradually, the body stiffened, the body began to heat up, the head swelled, and the vision became blurred - sometimes just walking home in a daze.

"Boom!"

Sometimes it just falls.

Falling in the rain, lying in the torrential rain, looking up at the sky, reaching out to it, as if trying to grasp something.

That embarrassed image is not even as good as a stray dog!

"It's so uncomfortable! That's really uncomfortable! ”

The body is so heavy, the hands and feet are so weak, there is no strength anymore! However, he always got up again, either before the rain stopped or after the rain stopped.

In any case, he will definitely get back on his feet again......

He was conscious, he was hurting himself in disguise, but he just wanted to feel the pain.

Why? Why do such a thing?

"I can still feel it, I can still feel it...... Pain ......"

- But that's all in the past.

Hurting yourself for the sake of being hurt, trying to make your heart cold and make yourself cold.

――If it's cold, you won't feel warm.

It has already collapsed, and naturally it will no longer be "broken......

It's just that I thought so......

I would only feel silly in retrospect, but I couldn't laugh!

Because-

-- It's a stupid thing to do, but there's something worth it.

- In the midst of countless rainstorms, I got something.

I don't know what it is, but I'm sure: I got it.

"What do you see? Stupid bug! ”

"Rain! It's raining! ”

If you want to ask why......

"Oh, look at the rain? Is it raining~Rain...... Are you stupid? ”

"Maybe so......"

- I've lost something.

Something that used to exist, but now it doesn't!

I didn't know it at first, but I gradually realized it......

-- That's feelings.

"Maybe that's the case...... Now, bugs! ”

I'm not going to be angry now......

"There's something wrong with you!"

Won't be angry......

"What does 'wrong' mean?"

-- I lost my impulsive feelings of anger.

"I don't know! But...... It always feels that way! ”

"What's that, Great Sky Temple?"

-- And what I've gotten is not yet known.

"How do I know that kind of thing! Ah~ I'm annoyed, dodge! ”

"Hey, wait a minute, little brother!"

I'm not going to be angry!

"What's the matter?"

No anger!

"I'm sorry, I'm in a hurry and want to borrow some money from you! Don't worry, I'll pay you back tomorrow! ”

Walking on the road, the young man who passed by Xiaozhi suddenly grabbed him. The young man stared at him with anticipation and unease. He hoped that the good-looking, gentle-looking boy would help him.

"Let go of your hands!"

But he never expected that the voice coming from the mouth of the gentle-looking young man made him tremble involuntarily!

-- This man is dangerous.

The young man's instincts told him to stay as far away as possible from the gentle boy in front of him. But......

"Sorry! Really urgent! A thousand, a thousand dollars is enough! ”

There was only this life-saving straw on the street after the rain, and although it was still possible, he gave up and waited.

"I'm not going to say a third time - let go of your hand."

"Oh ~ oh! I'm sorry! ”

It's not that he finally noticed, but just the innate reflex of the body to protect his consciousness, and the young man finally let go of the hand that had been holding on to Takayuki.

"Huh?"

The feeling of danger vanished without a trace in an instant, without the slightest warning. The young man was stunned, and by the time he could react, the gentle young man had already walked away.

"Thank you! I'll be waiting for you here at the same time tomorrow! Holding the five thousand yuan in his hand, he waved happily with a grateful expression and shouted to the gentle young man who had already walked away.

Maybe it was too far away, and the gentle boy didn't have any action to respond. Watching him gradually move farther and farther, the young man turned his gaze back and clenched the five thousand yen in his hand with a sense of joy, and the young man sighed softly.

Friend!

It's better than a stranger......

I have lost the emotion of anger, and I will no longer hate it; It became gentle almost as a matter of course, and that's when I made a strange coffee called Lovenowish.

Then I became even more distant......

"Are you off work, brother filial piety!"

The petite body, the childish face, the innocent and innocent smiling face - even such a child, I can no longer touch it.

I don't want to touch it! Becoming distant......

After losing the feeling of anger, I rejected intimacy with others, both physically and psychologically. I try to avoid physical contact with anyone, and although I don't get angry anymore, I feel disgusted from the bottom of my heart!

"Hmm!"

"Hui Na, is Mom coming home?"

"Well, I'm cooking now! Said that Dad would be back tonight, so be prepared a little richer! ”

Hye-hyun said excitedly like Hyo-yuki, looking quite expectant. As for whether she was looking forward to a sumptuous dinner, or whether she had not seen her father for a long time, it was unknown.

"Really......"

Listening to Hui Na's words, Xiaozhi opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something.

"Well, enjoy the evening!"

But he didn't know what to say!

Even if you don't get angry anymore, you won't resent it, but your family is so far away. Filial piety subconsciously avoids that warmth! He was afraid that he would be warmed and that he would be "hurt"!

I live alone!

"Yo, are you back? Filial piety! ”

I was supposed to live alone......

"Did you bring me dinner?"

That's how it should be!

"I've cleared the stock in the refrigerator, go buy some and come back, I'm starving!"

But I lived a somewhat unusual cohabitation life with a girl I didn't know very well.

"Jingcun, your dad will come back tonight, don't you go and talk to him?" She is the eldest daughter of the Jingcun family who lives next door to me, and because I don't know the name, I always call her "Jingcun" (this surname).

"Didn't you call me 'Shiko' after you said it?"

And after knowing it, I often call it out without thinking about it because I'm used to it.

"Alright, Shiko! Aren't you going home? ”

"Home? Where to go? Isn't this my home? Could it be ...... Even filial piety ......"

"That's not it, Shiko!"

Because it is gentle, it is impossible to refuse.

"Isn't that like that? That's good...... I thought ......"

"Don't touch me!"

But they can't tolerate even the slightest physical contact with others.

- Don't touch me.

Subconsciously slapped away Shizi's outstretched hand, listening to the crisp sound that sounded at that moment, looking at the back of his hand that was red at that moment, Xiaozhi lowered his head with some guilt:

"Sorry, what I wanted to say wasn't what you thought!"

"I know...... Filial piety! ”

"But...... I won't be going back! I won't be going back......"

"That home, I never want to go back to it in my life!"

"I don't want to be a puppet anymore...... Don't want to see those two again...... I ......"

"I ......"

"I ......"

- Me.

There is nothing left!

-- Except for you.

Listening to that voice and looking at the splash on the ground, Takayuki sighed softly—just like me in the past.

But it's completely different!

Lost the emotion of anger, became extremely gentle, but unwilling to be touched. In that kind of filial piety, but what remained. He unconsciously walked up to Shiko and raised his arms as if he wanted to do something.

It seemed to want to hug him, it seemed to want to hold her in his arms, it seemed to want to comfort her, it seemed to want to bring her peace......

But—

My hand is in the air, but I can't lift it again!

He just kept that weird look......

He paused for the moment of disobedience......

And then—

He turned his back and lowered his arms, which were in the air.

"You're crying, filial piety!"

There was no sign, no sound, but Shiko was sure as if she had seen it with her own eyes.

I cried!

Why?

I don't know! Even I don't understand! It's just that......

When his hand was raised in the air, Takayuki suddenly woke up from his unconscious state. Then, the consciousness of resistance collided with the instinct that still remained.

In the end, the resistance won an overwhelming victory.

- He lowered his raised arms.

But at that moment, what Xiaozhi felt was not joy, but just an inexplicable loss.

His heart was extremely depressed, he was holding his breath in his chest, he was so uncomfortable and painful, he wanted to vent and scream! But he couldn't......

His sanity wouldn't allow him to do that......

The body is resisting, and the subconscious mind is restricting!

He is so powerless, he is so incompetent, he is so aggrieved!

He was in tears!

- because he could do nothing but shed tears.

"Ah~ tears!"

Xiaozhi didn't wipe the tears off his face, he let the tears flow down his face. He quietly felt his weakness and helplessness!

Time passed quietly, the tears gradually "disappeared", and in his heart, unconsciously, something had passed.

"It's been a long time since I've shed a tear!"

It's just that he doesn't know yet; At least, he wasn't aware of it yet!

“……”

Shiko was silent, and her tears had long since stopped.

"After crying, I always feel much more relaxed! Why? ”

"No matter!"

But Takayuki laughed, turned around, looked at Shizi in front of him, and a relaxed and joyful smile appeared on his face: "Shiko, let's cook!"

……

I had a long, long dream.

In the dream, I am very happy!

Because...... Takayuki and I got married, had children, and lived happily together.

We went to the movies together, we went on a hot spring trip together, and we sat under that big tree together......

I'm really happy to have a time like that!

So, I never knew...... I never even thought about it......

"It's already the last! There's no need to lie to you anymore, ......."

- I've never liked you.

- I lied to you.

I'm just too gentle to want you to get hurt!

After waking up......

She couldn't remember the dream clearly, but she knew—it wasn't a pleasant dream.

Because, after waking up, she found that she had cried......

On the hospital bed, the girl who should have been sleeping peacefully suddenly squirmed her lips, and she whispered softly: "It shouldn't be like this......"

――It shouldn't be like this.

She kept repeating ......

At the same time, she slowly opened her eyes—after three years of sleep, she finally woke up—as it should have been.

But......

"Doctor, let's see what's wrong with my sister!"

There was no sparkle in her eyes, which had finally opened, and the hollow eyes clearly told that she had only "woken up"—but had not regained consciousness.

Empty eyes stared straight at the ceiling, as if they were ignoring something; Ignoring what's in the depths. Or the side of the dream!

- Even though it was just a dream, even though it was not a perfect dream.

Although it hurt and hurt her, she still lingered; Nostalgia for that dream.,Nostalgia for Narumi Takayuki in the dream.。

Even if it was just a lie, even if it was just a lie, even if it was just a lie, but he did make her happy.

She just watched quietly, she whispered softly, and then, when no one was looking, tears gushed out like springs.

No one knew why she had burst into tears, but everyone knew that the girl was sad.

But they couldn't do anything, they just watched in silence......

Even to wipe the tears from her cheeks......

"It's okay, filial piety! Thank you, that's it...... My aunt's family was very satisfied......"

They are also not eligible.

Although she was not expressively prominent, she was sad; Although she didn't sobble in a low and suppressed way, she was so broken!

But her heart didn't break, not because she was strong, but because her fragile heart was guarded by an existence called "Narumi Takayuki" from beginning to end.

"Are you alright?"

When heavy books fall from the top of your head, when your body is about to fall......

"It's dangerous...... Are you alright......"

The soft eyes, the warm chest, the faint concern that penetrates deep into the heart......

When eyes collide together! From that moment on, she fell in love with him! Then I was gradually attracted to him, and gradually I couldn't extricate myself!

-- It's all just wishful thinking on my part.

She knew from the beginning, from the first time we met, from the first time we looked at each other, she knew that he would not really like me.

Because...... At that time, he didn't have me in his eyes...... There is no one else either......

He just watched, just watched!

That's right, I knew it from the beginning...... However, I don't want to give up......

I......

"I like you......"

On the hospital bed, the girl opened her eyes and slowly closed. She seemed to fall asleep "peacefully" again,

"Doctor, sister, she ......"

"Wait a minute!"

Maybe she really wanted to sleep again......

"Please mingle with me!"

It's just that he's been waiting for a long time......

-- It's time to face it.

A slit appeared between the closed eyes, and the girl's eyes slowly opened; The first thing she saw was two women in front of the hospital bed, looking nervously at her. She blinked her eyes repeatedly in order to see clearly, adjusting to the light that was somewhat harsh to her.

"Akane?"

"Sister! I'm Akane! ”

The vision gradually became clearer, and Haruka finally saw the two people in front of him clearly.

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