Chapter 81: Achieving Love for Each Other
"But I'm ...... But I'm ...... Didn't do it. ”
Xiao Luo looked at Xue Yun deeply, did not move, and did not speak.
"In the past few months, I haven't welcomed... I hated my incompetence so much, and I ...... I have never been so greedy and selfish. ”
“......”
"At that time in Yuanzhou, except for the people who asked you to be bait to lure away the Feng family as you did, I ...... There's no other way I can save all the people we brought out of the village. I am ...... I don't want you to risk it alone, but I can't make the choice of leaving those two dozen monks behind. I'm greedy to keep everyone safe, but I don't have the ability to do that. Ultimately...... Still, I gave you up to save them, and myself. ”
Xiao Luo held the hand of her cheek, and gently rubbed her thumb against the corner of her eye: "It's not that you gave me up, it's what I want to do." At that time, that was also the best way. ”
"Xiao Luo......"
"What else?" Xiao Luo smiled lightly, looking unconcerned: "Only this?"
“...... In the past few months, I have even ...... Never even left this valley, never went to look for you. ”
"Yes, you don't know where I am. Xiao Luo still chuckled softly: "Besides, in this valley, these people ...... We can't do without you. ”
Xue Yuan's eyes were filled with tears, and his eyes were sour: "Don't you understand?"
"Understand what?"
Xue Yuan's voice was two points higher, and he finally couldn't hold back the tears in his eyes:
"Xiao Luo, in the past few months of your absence, I've been thinking about it all the time, and I've figured it out...... You can ignore life and death and future for me, but I ...... But I can't reciprocate! I ...... I have you in my heart, I also hope that I can accompany you and think of you, and I also hope that I can be with you all the time, but I ...... I can't do it! I ...... Selfish and greedy, I want too much, I want too much. I want to seek the truth, I want justice, I want to fight for the weak, I want to take care of everyone...... I have too many things in my heart, and I can't let go of them one by one, and it's not just you......"
“...... I know. ”
"What do you know!" Xue Yuan's hand grabbed his palm holding his cheek, and tears blurred his face in front of him: "If there is another situation like Yuanzhou...... Just like me...... For example, I have been waiting for your news and your safe return every moment for the past few months, and I will be awakened by nightmares every night, but I just can't take this step, I can't leave behind the people and things in the whole valley, and I can't leave everything behind to find you and accompany you! I never knew that I was so hypocritical and ugly...... Xiao Luo, I can't choose you at any time, I ...... I don't deserve the ...... you gave me."
Xiao Luo's fingers wiping her tears moved to her lips and pressed them gently, blocking her next words between her teary eyes.
"You're wrong. ”
"Xiao Luo?"
"This kind of Xue Yun is what I am willing to put in my heart. ”
"Xiao Luo......"
He sighed, took the person into his arms, lowered his head and kissed her forehead gently: "Life is long, who ...... You have persistence, you have ambitions, you have dreams, you have family, you have friends...... These are all part of life, who has to prioritize and prioritize?"
“...... I ......"
"Yu'er, I am happy with you and want to go with you on the next long journey, but this does not mean that I hope you will be the only one on the road ahead. We are together, what I hope more is to walk the next road side by side with you, move forward together, support each other, meet more people, see more scenery, and complete each other's common ambition on this road where we go down together, and then become a ...... A better version of yourself. ”
Xue Yun leaned on Xiao Luo's shoulder, listening to his soft murmur in his ear, and his sour state of mind, which was still a little collapsed, gradually calmed down. His words struck her heart again and again, unclear whether they were astringent or sweet.
She seemed to understand something in his words.
"I ......"
Xiao Luo reached out and rubbed the back of her head, making her already somewhat untidy bun even more messy: "You must mention the incident when Yuanzhou broke the secret land of the Nine Wells...... Get up, so do I. ”
“...... What?"
"If it's just the two of us, whether it's the Blood Sacrifice Soul Formation escaping from the village on the edge of Dingyuan City, or breaking the protective barrier and breaking out of the Yuanzhou Jiujing Secret Land, there is no need to ...... Make it the way it was. I mentioned both things, because...... Like you, I want to preserve everyone, and even I want them to inherit our kindness for today. ”
"Xiao Luo......"
"I have the same purpose as you, Yu'er. We can't talk about accommodating anyone, let alone abandoning anyone, but when we are working towards the same goal, we have to have a different division of labor and separate for the time being. Neither you nor I need to feel sorry for each other. Yu'er, I'm for you, but I'm also for myself. ”
Xue Yun was silent for a long time in the face of Xiao Luo's gaze, closed his eyes, and leaned his forehead on his shoulder:
“...... Xiao Luo...... You're so good, I'm ......."
Xiao Luo put it to her ear and laughed lowly: "Since you know that I'm good, you have to hold on hard, don't let go." ”
“...... Well, don't let go. ”
"It's yours. Xiao Luo's voice was low: "No matter what happens in the future, you can't regret it." ”
She leaned on his shoulder, moved her head and buried her face in his arms, and said in a muffled voice: "...... I still remember the time when I was in Lingling City, Cangzhou...... It's me who told you not to go back......"
“...... Ha!" Xiao Luo smiled, his eyebrows and eyes curled in a very happy and happy arc: "Well, that's right! So now...... I'm the last time?"
“...... Well. ”
Xiao Luo's hand caressed her back: "What else?"
“...... Xiao Luo. ”
"Huh?"
"I ...... I want to eat soup dumplings. ”
Xiao Luo was slightly stunned, then narrowed his eyes with a smile, leaned over and kissed her loudly on the forehead: "Lord Gu Lord, do as you want!"
......
Before Xiao Luo came back, only Xue Yun was a Jindan monk in the valley who had reached the stage of being able to open the valley, and everyone else still had to eat, so although the conditions were limited, there was still no shortage of ingredients in the valley.
At least, it was enough for Xiao Luo to steam a few soup dumplings for Lord Gu Lord.
However, this is also the second noon.
On the day Xiao Luo just came back, although there was nothing wrong with him, and Xue Yun didn't notice the secret injury after probing, he still pressed him to rest early.
It was a building built in the middle of the valley, next to Xue Yuan's wooden house.
Everything is brand new, and the furnishings in the house even have the smell of grass and trees, but everything is complete.
This night, Xiao Luo, who was indeed a little tired from the long journey, slept peacefully on the newly made wooden bed covered with a thin blanket, while Xue Yu sat on the edge of his bed and did not leave, sitting all afternoon and evening, until the early morning of the next day, when he opened his eyes, he handed over a warm cloth towel.
Xiao Luo opened his eyes and looked at Xue Yun, who was sitting on the edge of the bed, took a deep breath, raised his hand to take the cloth towel she handed over, but he didn't rush to get up:
“...... Sitting all night?"
He just woke up in the morning, although his eyes were smiling, they also revealed a little different kind of fog, and his voice was rare and hoarse, and Xue Yuan, who had been empty by his bed all night last night, trembled slightly.
She paused for a moment before she smiled and replied:
"It's gone in the blink of an eye. ”
Xiao Luo's hand wiping his face paused slightly, then sat up with one hand supporting his body, casually threw the cloth towel that wiped his face on the table on the side, and reached out to hold Xue Yuan's palm:
"Still not sure?"
Xue Yun was silent for a moment, then hooked the corners of his mouth and smiled: "...... Now it's down-to-earth. ”
This time, it was Xiao Luo who shook his head: "That's not right." ”
"Huh?"
Before Xue Yu could react, Xiao Luo took her hand and pulled the person over with a slight force, and gently imprinted a kiss on her forehead.
Xue Yun was stunned and felt the soft touch on his forehead, and after realizing it, the roots of his ears turned red.
Xiao Luo still held her palm with one hand, rubbing his thumb gently on the back of her hand, and the other hand lightly covered the side of her face, using his fingertips to delicately outline her eyebrows: "Is there a little more grounded?"
“......”
Xue Yun hung his head slightly and didn't make a sound, but Xiao Luo chuckled lightly and pulled the person closer and hugged him in his arms: "It's still good like this." ”
“...... Well. ”
......
Not long after waking up, Xiao Luo went to the stove room to prepare to make soup dumplings.
The valley had just been built, and many things had not yet been divided, and now there was only a simple stove in the whole valley, where everyone ate and drank. There are those who take turns to cook food every day, and there are also those who make something that suits their taste on a whim.
Breakfast time has passed, it is still early before lunch, and there is no one here in the stove room, but it saves some trouble.
And then......
The current valley master, Xue Yuan, was quick to intervene when someone was preparing to make noodles, limiting the amount of ingredients he used......
Although she did miss the familiar taste, it didn't mean that she really planned to eat it in a few cages at this time.
Xiao Luo was restricted from playing, and he looked very uncomfortable:
“...... I'm used to preparing the ingredients for the eight cages once......"
Hearing the number of "eight cages", Xue Yuan felt that the green tendons on his forehead seemed to jump.
"Don't you have an appetite today?" someone didn't seem to notice, and chased after him and asked, "Can't eat eight cages?"
“......”
"Then I'm going to prepare seven cages?"
“......”
"You didn't eat last night, plus ...... this morning"
"Xiao Luo. ”
"Huh?"
"Come on. ”
"How...... Oops, hey, it hurts, it hurt......s, it hurt Okay, you can take a few cages......"
......
Xiao Luo rubbed the soft meat on his waist and sat at the table, watching Xue Yun eat the soup dumplings with his mouth, enduring and enduring, but he didn't ask any more questions such as "is it enough".
After eating a few, after this long-lost familiar taste stained his taste buds, Xue Yun let out a sigh of relief and felt a kind of satisfaction from the bottom of his heart.
raised his head and looked at her quietly with Xiao Luo holding his head.
The hand holding the chopsticks tightened, Xue Yun pursed his lips, and his face flushed slightly...... I handed over the soup bag that had just been picked up on the chopsticks.
It was handed to his lips, and the soft skin of the bun gently brushed his lips.
His eyes were crooked, and there was nothing, and he poked his head out with his mouth open...... Took a bite.
Tender and juicy.
Well, he's pretty good at it.
......
Because of Xue Yuan's previous strong restrictions, Xiao Luo rarely did it once, the number of soup dumplings was really not much, and the two of them ate it separately, and they ate it all after a while.
After eating, Xue Yu took Xiao Luo to look around the valley.
I occasionally met a few people on the road, most of whom greeted Xue Yun respectfully and cordially, calling him "Gu Master", but he was slightly hesitant about Xiao Luo, and he was still called "senior" for the time being.
Although when they were in the village of Dingyuan City, Yuanzhou, everyone could see what the relationship between these two people was.
After watching a female cultivator named Yao Lan call "Gu Master" and "Senior", her eyes turned around the two of them a little ambiguously before leaving......
Xiao Luo turned his head sideways to look at Xue Yuan, who was walking slowly beside him: "Won't the valley master give me a proper name?"
“...... What?"
"I don't like this title very much, it's clear that I'm still young and suave, and everyone who is older than me is called so......"
Xue Yun turned his head sideways and glanced at him: "Then you can let everyone call you 'Brother Xiao' and 'Xiao Gongzi'." ”
Xiao Luo shook his head: "It's not good, it's not good." ”
"How?"
Xiao Luo glanced at Xue Yun deeply, and then hooked the corners of his mouth and sighed lightly: "You are all 'valley masters', if I am still Brother Jiang', it doesn't seem to be a good match." ”
“......”
"Why, Lord Gu doesn't make me an 'elder'?"
Xue Yun stopped: "Xiao Luo." ”
"Huh?"
"I remember hearing you mention your future aspirations. That's when you ...... You most want to do an ordinary but leisurely casual practice, without burden and pressure, so you have to live better than you want to live. ”
"Yo!" Xiao Luo raised his eyebrows: "What happened so many years ago have been turned out by you? You haven't slept all night...... I've been thinking a lot about it again!"
Xue Yun pursed his lips, thinking of the conversation between the two Rao yesterday.
“...... I thought about it, but I ...... Didn't think much about it. ”
"Oh?"
"Whatever...... I'm still determined to catch you. ”
Hearing Xue Yuan's words, Xiao Luo was stunned at first, and then laughed very heartily: "Really?"
Xue Yun took a deep breath: "It's just...... Just as you will listen to my wishes and do your best to help me try to make it happen, I ...... Want to know yours, want to ...... Do my best to meet yours. ”
“...... Do you really think so?"
"Hmm. ”
"That ......" Xiao Luo stretched out his hand, hugged Xue Yun in front of him tightly in his arms, lowered his head, pressed against her forehead, touched the tips of his nose, and even his voice was a little hoarse: "What I want most now...... It's a lifetime of hand in hand with my beloved. If you want to satisfy my words, you might as well ...... Will you pay me for yourself?"