"I know your deeds, your toil, your patience, and that you cannot tolerate the wicked, and you have tried those who claim to be apostles but are not apostles, and you have found them to be false. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info You can also endure it, and you will not be tired of working hard for my name. However, there is one thing I want to rebuke you, and that is that you have forsaken your first love. —Revelation

Illya later learned his name, which was Shirou. It didn't take long for the boy and girl to get acquainted.

In the hospital, Ilia and Shirou are both in good health, and with the same age, they naturally become good friends.

Illya's personality is not so much lively and active, but rather a stream-like freshness and purity. Compared with Shirou's characteristic heavy gloom, her existence seems out of place on a certain level, but there is a certain peculiar sense of complementarity.

Shirou was one of the victims of the Fuyuki fire, and he doesn't remember anything before the fire. But he felt that it was not something to be sad about, but another kind of happiness. The parents who were guided to heaven must be living happily ever after.

The death of her parents - the kind of thing that makes Illya sad just by imagining it, means that she will never see each other again, right? Why was this boy so cold?

I don't remember anything, in fact, like Shirou, I don't know about my father, and I don't remember anything about my mother at all. There were other children in the hospital, but only the boy and himself, who did not have the knowledge of their parents.

We all knew it—and the thought of it filled Elijah's heart with a sense of emptiness.

Every time I think about this, it is like a hole in my chest, and the lonely feeling gets through, and that hole makes me shiver with cold. However, now I have friends.

It's like sunlight shining into the darkness. Looking at Shirou in front of her, Elija was soothed, and she felt the warm breeze blowing in her chest.

At that time, they often talked a lot about things together and exchanged a lot of knowledge. Longing for everything that was far away from him at that time, Shirou relied on not knowing many words to interpret the bitter Bible. Illya, on the other hand, listened with interest as he told the stories of the Bible.

Illya thinks it's really great to be as passionate about something as he is, and to go straight to the goal. It's a maturity that goes far beyond childhood, and it naturally attracts the attention of others, and he can blend in with his surroundings more easily than he can be.

It's just that, for some reason, Illya felt a sense of incongruity. The more they communicated, the more Illya felt strange about her "first friend in life".

At first glance, Shirou does blend in with the surrounding atmosphere. But it still does feel like a separation, as if there is an invisible barrier between you and your surroundings. As a young man, he showed a keen interest in everything around him, greedily absorbing all kinds of knowledge. It's just that Shirou's use of a child's curiosity is too unusual.

For other things, Shirou would first observe, then touch to observe the other person's reaction, and finally destroy it without mercy.

Once, a nurse accidentally dropped a needle on the ground, and Shirou and Illya, who happened to be passing by, found it, and according to ordinary people's thinking, they probably ignored it or threw the needle in the trash. However, Shirou placed the needle under a bed and carefully concealed it with a sheet, so that the needle would only be pricked out when the person sat down because of the weight.

Illya, who was not sensible at the time, did not know what that meant. It wasn't until a few hours later, when the old man who was back in bed had been impaled in the back with a needle, and the nurse had been punished for it, that Illya understood.

What kind of damage can this sharp needle cause, and how would a human react to such an injury? ――Shirou may just have a strong interest in this matter. While the old man lay back, Shirou stood aside, looking at the needle with interested eyes.

But Illya, who found out about this, did not dare to speak out about it, for fear of being scolded. That night, she felt as if she was carrying a heavy load, her body felt like it was tied with threads, and she couldn't sleep for the first time. Hurting others for no reason, Illya couldn't understand it anyway.

"Why are you doing that? Somebody's hurt. ”

When she met Shirou the next day, Illya scolded him so hard that tears fell from her eyes.

- Illya's tears of emotion touched Shirou deeply.

It was a moment of enlightenment, like a long-dry ground welcoming the long-awaited rain, which really made Shirou's heart ripple.

The body was the first to react, a strange sensation made his vision blur, the blood in his body was churning, his heartbeat began to increase, and his breathing became rapid.

This is...... Are you happy?

Why? Because of what?

Who should I ask for this kind of thing? How to let go of this mood?

Illya, with her head down and crying, didn't notice at all that Shirou beside her was suppressing the satisfaction she was about to overflow. The dazed Shirou covered his expression with his hands and squatted down, in the eyes of others, he looked completely remorseful.

"I'm sorry, I should have ...... I'm sorry, I should have ...... like this."

As if trying to seal this twisted joy, Shirou lowered his head and repeated the phrase desperately.

However, at that time, he didn't understand that this was a fateful thing that had been decided in the first place. Just as Jesus was bound to die, it was a fate that could not be changed no matter how much he cursed.

- Just like that man, it's just a futile endeavor.

Ten years later, Shirou had a deep understanding of this fact.

……

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After that unhappy day, Illya never saw Shirou in the hospital again. The man in the bed next to him said that he had been adopted by a man that afternoon and had been discharged.

The loneliness came back - did I talk too much at that time? Shirou didn't know it would happen, right? He regretted it that day, too. I really want to apologize to him. I haven't said goodbye to him yet......

A cool breeze caressed Illya's skin, and thoughts like this repeated in her mind as she lay flat on the bed.

"It would be nice if we could meet again......"

There was something else she wanted to say, and Illya naturally said to herself with a tone of remorse.

- Then I'll help you make that happen.

？！

Illya sat up suddenly, her eyes wide, and she looked around.

It's just that it's quiet, and there's no one around.