Chapter 52: Loneliness
For the next period of time, everyone was the same as usual, and there were no waves. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ļ½ļ½ļ½Uļ½Eć infoLisa hasn't looked for Ziqiao either; Nuo Lan also seemed to disappear, day and night; Mika and Sekiya are also having a good time now (don't get me wrong, it's not life, it's working together and drawing comics); Yifei also seems to have forgotten what happened some time ago; Zeng Xiaoxian recorded programs and uploaded books as usual, and everyone went to the bar downstairs to sit down, chat together, and brag about it.
The people at the bar and the surrounding neighbors are also used to Zeng Xiaoxian as a "celebrity", and they no longer make a fuss, but they say hello a lot more often than before.
The only thing that has changed is Wanyu. A few days ago, she suddenly announced her identity to everyone, saying that she missed her father and wanted to go home to accompany her father before going to Milan. He also said that this time he would negotiate with his father and stick to his position, but he would never fight by running away from home again.
Although everyone was shocked, they didn't care too much about it, and they still got along with each other as before. Wanyu also left after the New Year's Day with everyone, and asked everyone to contact her more in the future, don't forget her as a friend, otherwise he will be very sad and sad.
On the balcony of 3601, Zeng Xiaoxian looked at the night view of SH City, and the lights of the reunion of thousands of families made him feel a sense of loneliness that he had not felt for a long time. In the past, because he had no family and no friends, he was used to being alone and did not feel lonely.
But now, I've been in this world for almost 4 months, laughing and going crazy with everyone. He felt the warmth of his friends. There are even some family feelings. Not long after New Year's Day, everyone went back to prepare for the Spring Festival, and even Guan Gu, a native of country R, also went back. Zeng Xiaoxian is now left alone in the entire apartment.
When everyone was reuniting and carnivaling through the festival, he could only stand here quietly and watch the hustle and bustle of the city. The streets of the city are no longer as deserted as in previous years, and young people no longer stay at home to watch the Spring Festival Gala with their families.
As usual, they invite friends to go shopping, watch movies, and party karaoke. There are also those who shout "sacred" slogans such as "find yourself" and "wait for your soul" to take advantage of this rare holiday to travel together. There are many ways to celebrate the New Year. ć
The current "year" is a "holiday" in their eyes, a holiday that they don't have to go to work. But such a lively situation made Zeng Xiaoxian feel lonely. Seeing everyone in groups, and alone he was like an outlier, completely unable to fit into the world.
Sometimes Zeng Xiaoxian also thinks about his biological parents, but no matter how he reminisces, he is always vague, and he doesn't know what his parents are like. Whether in his previous life or in this life, he was an orphan, and he was since he was a child, so he couldn't remember.
Fortunately, he is more fortunate in this life to have these friends. Perhaps, this is also a kind of compensation from God.
"Ah!! What kind of nonsense do you think! It's been like this for so many years, why did I start to feel sad and lonely within a few months of coming here. Zeng Xiaoxian patted his head and yelled and said: "Go down and get some wine, two small sips, a person's Spring Festival is also a Spring Festival, you can't treat yourself badly." ā
Back in the room, Zeng Xiaoxian picked up his wallet and keys and went out. Originally, he wanted to go directly to the bar downstairs to have a good time, but the bar downstairs was also closed for the New Year. Zeng Xiaoxian could only go to the supermarket outside to buy alcohol. Fortunately, there are some chain convenience stores that are open even during the Chinese New Year.
"Bring me two dozen old Qingdao!" Zeng Xiaoxian went to a 24-hour convenience store and said to the cashier inside, "Give me a few more packets of snacks with wine." ā
"Excuse me, sir!" The salesperson looked at Zeng Xiaoxian and said politely: "Our convenience stores are all paid at the front desk after the customer's choice, so you have to trouble yourself to choose by yourself." ā
"Uh, okay!" Zeng Xiaoxian listened to the cashier's words, and after answering with some embarrassment, he went to choose beer and snacks he liked to eat.
In his previous life, his favorite thing was to drink old Qingdao, which was delicious and not expensive. However, after looking for two rounds and not finding it, Zeng Xiaoxian remembered that this kind of convenience store does not have bottled beer, so he could only settle for the second best thing and choose two boxes of cans, and then chose some snacks and prepared to go back.
Fortunately, he drove his classic car here, otherwise I really don't know how to move back later.
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"Cheers, SH!" Zeng Xiaoxian raised his glass to the city lights and said, "Let's not get drunk tonight!" ā
When I got home, I was still on the balcony. Although the weather was very cold, Zeng Xiaoxian didn't care, and took his quilt to the balcony and spread it out. Wrapped in a quilt and drinking beer, it's also a real taste.
Cup after cup, Zeng Xiaoxian chatted with himself like this, thinking about some messy things. Thinking about what everyone is doing at home right now. Will Yifei be forced to marry by her family? Is Ziqiao picking up girls again? Is Meijia counting the New Year's money with her fingers (it seems that there is no New Year's money at this age)? Is Sekiya in the kitchen helping his dad with the cooking? How are Wanyu's negotiations with his father going? How did Zhanbo celebrate the New Year when he didn't go home?
Where are Zhang Wei, Yumo, Youyou, etc., who have not yet appeared? And Nolan ......
"Ahh Thinking of Nuo Lan, Zeng Xiaoxian shivered, of course, it was also possible that the weather was too cold. However, thinking of Nuo Lan, Zeng Xiaoxian remembered the tragedy of that day and Yifei's face, so he quickly stopped this thought and began to think about something else.
After Zeng Xiaoxian ran to the toilet 7 times, he also finished a beer. There's one more thing that I can't put in my stomach anymore. In fact, when he drank about eighteen cans, he was already very unconscious, and he only relied on his subconscious to keep opening and drinking, so he killed the remaining six cans.
Zeng Xiaoxian, who was very drunk, didn't have the consciousness to climb back to the bedroom, so he lay directly on the balcony and wrapped himself in a quilt.
This night, Zeng Xiaoxian can be said to be the loneliest and loneliest night since coming to this world. But it was also the most restful sleep he had. Forget the sadness and loneliness, forget the laughter and happiness, and even forget yourself, forget everything. Just like a newborn baby, there is no desire, no sorrow and no joy, immersed in the world of dreams!