40 Mom is gone
Lingling didn't expect things to be so bad, she knelt on the ground and picked up her mother, her mother's face was already blue and purple, Lingling didn't feel like an ordinary faint, and hurriedly called 120 first aid, she hugged her mother and put her flat on the bed, and shouted sadly: "Mom, Mom, wake up!" ”
Mother's breathing gradually weakened, it seemed that even her heartbeat was gone, Lingling felt panic and helplessness, she felt unprecedented fear and despair, she felt that her mother must be in a catastrophe this time. Pen | fun | pavilion www. biquge。 info Her body was weak and cold, as if everything was unreal, like a dream, but this dream was real and she couldn't accept it.
Suddenly, she thought of her aunt and hurriedly called her. Then knelt in front of her mother's bed, desperately and frightened for the arrival of the ambulance, time passed minute by minute, she had never felt that time was so long and so tormenting, even time bullied herself?
She was already grief-stricken, she didn't expect her mother to be angry to death? What face do you still have to live in the world? She really hated herself, she was not good, she didn't listen to her mother, and finally swallowed the bitter fruit.
When the ambulance arrived, my mother had completely stopped breathing, and she lay there peacefully, more gentle than usual, and there was no more resentment and complaining! Soon her aunt's family also arrived, and Lingling cried to death.
With her aunt's family helping to take care of the aftermath, Lingling only knew that she was sad and sad. When everyone dispersed at night, my aunt handed Lingling a glass of milk: "Lingling, things are already like this, don't be too sad, you have to pay attention to your body, if you have a good one, my sister will not be blind if she has a spirit in the sky." ”
Lingling handed the money she borrowed to Hai Bo: "Hai Bo, let this money go first, the list of borrowed money is here, let's talk about it after a while." ”
Lingling stayed in front of her mother's spirit for three days, she had no thoughts and no feelings, just like the walking dead, and in the end there were no tears, just stupidly stayed there. His only reliance and only relative also abandoned him, and he was the culprit who killed his mother, but he still had to live in the world, what kind of face did he have?
Lingling Mumu has no thoughts, no love and hate, and no joy and anger, her whole person has become numb, no matter how much regret can not be exchanged for her mother's smiling face, no matter how much reluctance can not leave her mother who depends on each other, no matter how much loneliness and despair can not make up for the great mistake she caused, and no amount of punishment can not withstand the pain of losing her mother.
She was so immersed in boundless remorse, mixed with hopelessness in life, she didn't even know why she was still alive?
Aunt and Haibo comforted her from time to time, took some food and forced her to eat, and her aunt hugged her and cried bitterly: "Lingling, good child! Don't you do that? Auntie is really worried and afraid of you when she sees you like this, can you be strong? Auntie doesn't ask you for anything else, you have to take care of the child in your belly at least! Your mother really wants to see you and this child safe and happy even under Jiuquan! Don't get along with yourself like this, okay? ”
Hai Bo on the side also cried and persuaded: "Sister, don't be too sad, everything will pass!" There is no hurdle that cannot be overcome! Stay in the green mountains without worrying about no firewood! ”
In three days, Lingling's whole person was already haggard. On the day she sent her mother away, she was a little dazed, and her lower abdomen hurt from time to time, and in the past three days, due to excessive sadness, the little life in her stomach seemed to feel that her life was threatened, and she kept hinting at something?
At this time, Lingling didn't want to care about this child at all, what would happen? Maybe he shouldn't have come at all, the first thing he came to was to take away his mother's life, and now she didn't even have the mother who loved her the most, she suddenly thought that it was not the right time for this child to come, and he was reminding himself: his mother's death was related to herself, and she didn't even dare to face this unborn little life now.
Coming out of the crematorium, the grief-stricken aunt still did not forget her only niece, she was not worried that she was alone at home, and said with concern: "Lingling, go home with your aunt!" You are really not at ease alone, no matter what, you are pregnant now! Let's live with my aunt! ”
Lingling replied listlessly: "I'm too sleepy and tired these days, I want to sleep well, aunt, don't worry, I won't be unable to think about it, let alone have anything to do." When I'm almost done, I'll go over to you. ”
My aunt knows Lingling, she is not an ordinary narrow-minded girl, she has always been positive and optimistic, nothing will stump her or make her think about it, not to mention that she is still pregnant with a child, since she wants to rest, let her rest! She must want to be alone for a while, then vent, and start living again! The aunt had no doubts.
Lingling tiredly returned to this home that was about to no longer belong to her, and lived in the house with her mother for more than ten years, everything here has the breath of her mother, and the air was filled with her mother's love, she lay on her mother's bed, it seemed that her mother was lying beside her, and she was looking at herself lovingly.
Lingling's tears poured down like a torrential rain again: "Mom, I hurt you, what face do you have to let me live alone in the world?" Mom, I know you've always loved me, and I didn't say it, but I could feel it! How could you never have thought that it was your beloved daughter who finally led you to the point of no return? Mom, if you are innocent and have a spirit, you tell me, what should I do next? I really can't bear to pursue what Wei Jun did to me anymore, you're gone, nothing matters to me anymore! Mom, if I had known that this would happen, I would have listened to you, I don't want anything, I just want my mom! ”
She cried for a while, she was a little groggy because she was too sleepy and tired, and she didn't know if she was close to a coma or if she had fallen asleep. In a trance, she felt the subtle sound of a key turning lock, and she was too sleepy to open her eyes.
Lingling also thought that she was hallucinating due to excessive grief, maybe it was just a dream, and she felt that someone had walked into her mother's room. Mom must be back! Mom hasn't left yet, how can she bear to leave herself alone? I have already said that my mother will take care of the children for me at home, and I just had a long and terrible dream before.
Thinking that her mother was still safe and sound, she felt a lot more comfortable and relieved, and she wanted to be coquettish with her mother, so she turned over and said, "Mom, let me sleep for a while, I'm sleepy." ”
At this time, a voice that seemed to come from hell, with a gloomy tone and no emotion, startled her to fall asleep all of a sudden: "Lingling, are you asleep?" You okay? I've come to see you! ”