Chapter 45: Wandering

Shihui didn't go anywhere, and returned to the Qingshui River. Pen ~ Fun ~ Pavilion www.biquge.info When she returned here, Dongfang Yu had long since disappeared. She naturally fermented and spun in this poetic space, and involuntarily opened her voice and shouted without a sense of direction, "Teacher Dongfang......". Her feminine voice spread all around, listening to it so gentle and desolate.

However, in addition to the sound of rushing water, it is the "whoosh" sound of the river willows swaying under the breeze. In this quieter emptiness, she became more and more lonely. She was no longer agile under her feet, no longer freewheeling, she was one foot deep, one foot shallow, she staggered on the green field in the willow forest of the river beach, and finally sat down on the green field with a heavy ass.

Her mind was buzzing, her heart was pounding, and her mind couldn't calm down. She then looked around, and for a moment there was no order. She felt that she couldn't support it, so she simply lay down on her back, unabashedly spreading her back, she was releasing her inner emotions.

Looking up at the weeping willow branches, it is as dense as rain, and through the dense willow branches, it is the deep blue sky swept by the floating clouds. It was blue, and there was a murmur of water, and she greedily breathed in the fresh air, and gradually regained her tranquility, and entered a state of misshape. The vast blue sky, the vast nature, the pains and troubles of life, everything is vast and eternal, but only life is short, fleeting, and the eternal world is so dissonant, so dissonant, so funny, so incredible.

This man is her eternal emotional sustenance, and she has not changed over the years. She knew that he was married and divorced, and knew that he was now alone, but she never asked him what his living arrangements were, she only wanted to be with him, as long as there was an expectation, an almost blind waiting, she was satisfied, and everything was OK. She didn't expect that he would woo her, how could she not be excited.

Now, what is wrong with him, can it be said that he is really determined to start a new life and no longer indulge in the past.

Now, after piercing this layer of window paper, she was shocked and inexplicable, and she didn't know what to do. Speaking from the heart, even if he is not divorced, as long as he has this intention and has this heart for her, she is 10,000 willing. She just did it, so despicable, so incorrigible.

Dongfang Yu didn't leave, he was still on the bank of the Qingshui River.

He chased after him, but he couldn't run away. The pebbles were too slippery, and he was nowhere near as good as Shihui, and in the end, he gave up the pursuit.

Shihui grew up on the banks of the Qingshui River, and she used to run on it, jumping over and over the pebbles like dragonflies. From a distance, it seems to be stepping on the keyboard of the piano rhythmically, showing a beautiful posture. Dongfang Yu stood, looking out from afar, playing a beautiful piece of music.

Dongfang Yu stood there, staring at the beating beauty ahead, he was admiring the beauty. The beauty of the concave and convex set off by the tightness of the top, the sexy beauty of the plump hip curve, and the infinite vitality of the whole body, complement each other with the green nature, outlining a beautiful landscape.

He sat down on the grass under the willow grove, lying on all fours looking up at the deep blue sky, then took a deep breath and spit it out, and he sighed at the essential weakness of men in the face of beauty. Gradually, he was much more relaxed and quieter, he no longer cared about Shihui's whereabouts, he didn't worry about her safety, he just lay there and let his thoughts fly.

Time is like a shuttle, when a yellow-haired girl, after the years, now, it is the first month of the plum, March plum blossoms, May acacia flowers, festival flowers, say open on the open, say change on the change, instantly radiant, more and more charming, more and more full of youthful vitality, more and more extraordinary, more and more fascinating. Back then, in middle school class, he remembered that she only had a pair of big innocent eyes, and her mind was full of why. At that time, he had a feeling that this girl would definitely be able to stand out in the future, and she would definitely be promising. It was true that she was a wonderful girl, but he never expected that the two of them would be mixed together because of the love of men and women. When they were together, she would ask him at most some love stories and wonder why. She asked him, how could the poet Xu Zhimo be like that, how could he pursue Lin Huiyin's love, such a gap, where did such romantic feelings come from, are all poets like this, more romantic and more interesting than ordinary people. Why did Xu Zhimo dare to break through the shackles of traditional moral concepts and pursue love against the sky. For these questions, in Dongfang Yu's view, it is just the curiosity of the little girl, because of her love of literature. Because he loves literature, he has a strong interest in the characters and events in literature, and will not involve the rest.

In his opinion, such a girl should not understand love and do not care about love.

However, reality completely turns this notion on its head. Now it seems that Shihui's original heart was complex and precocious. In her childish heart, the seeds of love have long been planted and have been nurtured. She was as innocent as any other girl, but more curious; sincere, but more sunny; The pursuit of a happy life, but more affectionate. He thought about it so much and knew that this girl was different, but at this moment, he didn't know whether this girl agreed to his courtship or refused. He really wanted to find out what she was thinking, but he seemed helpless, he really wanted to hear the girl talk in person. He is confident that this is the opportunity that the two of them should have after the girl graduated from college and went to work. Truth be told, right now, he values, so to speak, completely immersed in this wonderful feeling. He had never felt so good now. She is so youthful and beautiful, so sunny and frank, so gentle and affectionate, giving people a soft and sweet feeling, he has found the long-lost beauty of youth.

It is precisely because of such a beautiful feeling that in the face of the girl's infinite beauty and impulsiveness, there was a move that was difficult to clean up just now. This kind of mistake is made by men, no matter what age they are, no matter how many complicated life experiences, no matter how prominent their social status and personal wealth, it is difficult to avoid it. Now everything was caused by himself, and he felt that the problem seemed to be a bit serious, and he couldn't hold back his jump, and quickly sat up, and at the same time quickly lay down, and then he stood up again. Restless and a little overwhelmed, he continues to reflect, continues to blame himself, and continues to put himself in a situation from which he will never recover. It's unbelievable that the boss is not a small person, and he actually did such a stupid thing. There he stood, his hands hanging slightly, as if he had done something wrong. Why are you so confident, so reckless, so uncalm, if you are really rejected, where will your old face go. He is infinitely sad and inferior, alas, people in their thirties and have a history of marriage, how can they not figure out their own positioning, and they are still bent on coveting other people's yellow flower daughters, why bother wading in this troubled water, I really don't know how thick the sky is. The girl is waiting to be released, what are you, the second pot head who is married and divorced, the little old man who is not too old, and the person who has buried half of the loess, but he is still immortal, and he thinks about such good things as the old cow gnawing the tender grass, which is really boring. It's good now, I stabbed Da Louzi, and I was left alone by the river, it can really be said that Cao Cao went down to the south of the Yangtze River, came fiercely, lost miserably, and was in a dilemma.

He even wanted to beat his chest, he wanted to be hysterical, he wanted to go headlong into the hole. But gradually, all this vanished, he calmed down, and he began to rationally analyze the reasons why the girl ran away, and he was now fully capable of analyzing the reasons. It can be said that he was cranky just now, and the actual situation is not bad to that extent, there is no reason, because he has been living in harmony, and the girl has no warning, it seems that there is no need to abandon him, there should be no accidents, he is optimistic.

Dongfang Yu didn't hear Shihui's shout, he lay on his back for a while, and then left there. Not expecting Shihui to return, he ran to the embankment upstream, where there was a pavilion at the foot of the hill. This gazebo has a great view but overlooks the surroundings. Of course, he didn't do it to see anything, he suddenly became a poet and was looking for a place to vent. He felt that the pavilion was the best place to go, with pavilions and pavilions, green mountains and rivers.

Of course, at this moment, they are the closest, but at the same time they are the farthest, just like their state of mind.