62 Loss is precious
When Ling An woke up, the sky was still dark, and the room was lit up, glowing with a dim yellow light. She blinked www.biquge.info her head was still groggy, and she heard only a hoarse voice, "You're awake." ”
Ming Ze stood only two steps in front of the bed, with his back to her, unable to see the expression on his face, but he was lonely, looking at the unprovoked pantothenic acid in his heart. He turned around, his face expressionless, but his eyes were slightly red.
The light red color made Ling Anxin tremble, she forced her heart to be chaotic, and the corners of her mouth wanted to pull out a trace of laugh lines, but when she thought of the current situation, her eyes were covered with mist, "Master...... Kid ......"
Ming Ze, who was originally standing there, trembled and closed his eyes tightly, the sorrow in his eyes did not escape Ling An's eyes after all.
"Master, we still have children, this time ......"
"Nope."
"What?" Ling An's head sank, she grabbed the corner of the quilt and asked again, "Master, what did you say?" ”
"No, we won't have any more children."
The words are clear, but the words are like blades, cutting Ling An thousands of times.
Ming Ze opened his eyes again, and the inky ancient well in his eyes couldn't see to the end, but it made people's hearts tremble, "You know, you know how much I care about this child, and how much I care about you!" ”
For a while, Ling An's head shook violently, and under Ming Ze's condescending gaze, he instantly felt that there was nothing to hide, as if everything could not escape his eyes, as if he knew everything and knew it clearly, just giving her a chance, and also giving herself a chance. In the face of such coercion, Ling An couldn't say a word.
"Why don't you let go of this child, he is not only your child, but also my bloodline, the child I miss in my heart, our child!" Ming Ze took a few steps forward, squatted down, and looked at Ling An for a moment, his gaze was like a blade, and the knife was inserted into her heart, "I knew that it was difficult for you to get pregnant, so I found the imperial doctor, and found Dr. Tian to secretly regulate your body. I wish you a good life, I want to grow old with you, and I know that you have no place for me in your heart, but I can't let you go. I admit that it is despicable and shameless to tie you up with a child, but I have no other way, I can't control you, I can't find the slightest weakness in you. Since I can't tie your heart, I can only tie your people. But you won't even give me this opportunity. Ling An, did you ever have a place for me in your heart? ”
"There is ......"
"You talk nonsense!" Ming Ze's eyes were red, and as soon as he grabbed Ling An's wrist, he almost pinched it, "If you have me in your heart, you should know how much I look forward to your child, but you, you even knew that you were pregnant but didn't report it, and even killed our child with your own hands." You're so ruthless! ”
"No, I didn't!" Ling An denied it, and the sharp voice streaked across the night sky, overwhelmed by the sudden thunder.
"No, you have!" The lightning flickered and flickered, Ming Ze only felt obscure, and he paused word by word, "Ling An, don't you know about me?" The tongue discerns all kinds of flavors, how sharp it is, you can taste a few more grains of salt in the kitchen meal, can't you taste the rhinoceros horn, snail juice and safflower in this meal?! Others are harmful to others, but you, knowing it, do not save yourself, and let our children turn into a pool of blood...... How can you bear ...... heart?"
He knew it all, he even knew it!
Ling An only felt that her body was falling deeply, falling into the river, falling into the ice, and she couldn't fall to the end, she only felt the darkness and the bone-chilling cold, and her teeth chattered and couldn't stop.
"What are you hiding from me? I've been waiting, waiting for you to confess to me, I'm not afraid that you're fine, I'm not afraid you're an assassin, I'm just afraid that you don't have me in your heart, I'm afraid that you've never loved me. As long as you say it, I believe you, as long as you tell me, I am willing to forgive you, as if it never happened, but you have never confessed to me, never thought of confessing to me! I'm willing to wait for you, I'm willing to wait for you to show your fangs, waiting for you to break my body into thousands of pieces, I'm willing. But I never thought you'd do it to a child, to our unborn child. That's my hope, that's my hope that I think you still love me, that's my thought. But it's all gone, it's all gone...... You still don't love me after all, you still don't want to be with me after all, can't I impress you with anything? Ming Ze's hand was on Ling An's heart, and his heart was beating under the palm, and his palms hurt, "I really want to take it out and see how hard your heart is!" ”
Ling An's tears came as soon as they were said, and they were never worthless, but there was no time when they were so distressing that she couldn't control them, and streams of water rushed down to her eyes, "No, you listen to me......"
"Ling An, why didn't you tell me?" The corners of Ming Ze's mouth were slightly hooked, and he slowly stood up, looking at the person on the bed so condescendingly, her miserable little face was full of tears, but he hated it, "Wang Wei, is it?" I heard that you two childhood sweethearts, you entered the palace for him? Zhengda entered the Warm Spring Pavilion in the bright, and flirted with you in front of me, when I was dead? ”
"This has nothing to do with him, it's all my idea, don't implicate the innocent."
"I hate you the most, being nervous like this for others, do you know? Murder the dragon heir, none of them can escape! As for you, I will be in this Warm Spring Pavilion for the rest of my life, and I don't want to see you again until I die. ”
I don't want to see you again until I die. What a determination, how painful. What kind of disappointment should it be to be so resolute and unhesitating. Ling An suddenly felt a great deal of grief, and she only now realized what a stupid and self-righteous decision she had made. She only felt that the heavens and the earth had fallen into the darkness of despair, and she had lost the whole splendor of the world.
She jerked to her feet, trying to grab Mingze, it was her salvation, and only he could take her out of this infinite darkness. But in despair, she didn't even catch a corner of Ming Ze's clothes, only to see the man of the Qiongzhi Yushu gradually leaving, and the figure disappeared in a flash.
Ling An knew that they were finished, this man really hated himself to death, and he never wanted to see him again.
Falling to the ground, Ling An only felt that a big hole had opened in her heart, and the cold wind swished in, but she had no choice, her eyes were blank, and then she was lifeless, her heart tightened, and a wave of heat rushed straight to her throat, she spit out a mouthful of blood, and her eyes were full of redness. She collapsed in Hongdan's arms, and said, "He doesn't want me anymore, he doesn't want me anymore......"
Ling An never thought that Ming Ze occupied a far greater place in her heart than she had imagined. I don't know how precious it is until I lose it, but what I lost can't be returned after all.
She was like a helpless child, huddled there, crying in the dark.
***
Ling An on the bed was lying there, the thin quilt on her body had already been kicked under the bed by her, and only one corner was pressed under her body. The light curtain was wrapped around, and a faint light shone into it, Ling An, who was lying on the bed, was sweating profusely, holding the sides of the pillow with both hands, and burying his face deep in the pillow.
She tensed all over, and suddenly shuddered, and Ling An woke up suddenly. Ling An's eyes were red, his face was full of tears, and his pillow was wet.
Ling An, who woke up suddenly, still didn't know where she was, she trembled and covered her lower abdomen, I don't know how long it took, she seemed to finally come back to her senses, reached out and touched her face, and laughed stupidly.
The laughter was too weird, and Hong Dan, who was waiting outside, unconsciously knocked on the door to ask, and was called in by Ling An.
Today's Ling An feels very different, her eyes are red with a thin mist silhouette, and her smile is bright, the charm can be deadly, her clothes are loose, and there is no hanging in the light cover, and she can vaguely see the hidden hills and ravines between the ****.
Hong Dan took a breath, only to see Ling An with a weird and amazing smile on his face, "You sent someone to invite the imperial doctor of Xiao Wang to the palace, come, come!" ”
The voice was tactful and clear, but with a strong killing intent.
Hong Dan sighed in his heart, Xiao Wang's imperial doctor was going to be unlucky......