On a Sunday, the second sister mobilized me: "The child is getting older day by day, how tired it is to hold it,

It's hot in the summer, and when the time comes, you will get prickly heat again, and you will be guilty of a lot! It's better to buy her a baby stroller, which is convenient for both adults and children. "I have the softest ears, and I feel that whatever others say makes sense, and I am embarrassed to say no, so I followed the second sister and her stepfather (the famous principal mentioned earlier), and the three of them took a minibus to Huludao City to buy a stroller.www.biquge.info

I was taken to the thrift market, and they chose one for me, an old stroller with seven floors of new wheels. The second sister said to me very satisfied: "It's only more than 100 yuan, which is quite cheap, and it won't be a problem to use it for three or two years." I've seen a new one, and it's a few hundred dollars! ”

Her stepfather also felt that the price was right and worth the money: "Overall, this car is really good, I don't think I will lose money by buying it!" ”

Speaking from the heart, although I am an inconspicuous person, I am sometimes quite characteristic, and I am really reluctant to use things that have been used by others, especially for my only daughter. However, under the persuasion of the two, I obediently paid the money and bought the car that I was not very satisfied with.

Then, the second sister chose a lot of things such as sofas, coffee tables, desks, wall clocks, etc., and after talking about the price, she said to me: "I haven't come up yet, and now I don't have a penny, you can cushion it for me first." ”

I suddenly had a feeling of being calculated, feeling that I had unconsciously fallen into the trap they had set up and asked me to buy things just so that I could pay for the bill? Or are they not thinking too much about it at all, they are all a family, and they still know what to do so clearly? Who spends not flowers? Probably your own small belly chicken intestines, right?

I spent another 150 yuan to hire a liberation truck to bring the goods I bought from the city to the mountains. When I got home, my pockets were empty, and I was really shy!

Time spun rapidly in the ordinary, and the mother-in-law muttered from time to time: "When you go to work tomorrow, I will collect a few kang down, (Kang down is a child who can't walk and can only lie on the kang) to earn more money." "I guess life is too tight, so my mother-in-law has this plan? But I feel that my mother-in-law said this to me.

When my daughter was almost five months old, my husband returned to his home from Shenyang, and he handed over his salary to me, and then said to me, "The unit is looking for you to work." ”

At that time, I didn't know that there were two years of long vacation to take after giving birth, and even if I knew, I was reluctant to take a break in order to earn more money, thinking of my daughter's crying regardless of life and death, and in that hut where I couldn't see the sun, my daughter's black and white scene was reversed, I was really a little frightened! And the child is too young to have a nursery to send, and I think that my mother-in-law wants to take the child who can't leave, since it is better to take someone else's child than to bring her own child.

In fact, I have been thinking: Anyway, I want to use the money I earn for the family, so it is better to save the money of hiring someone and let my mother-in-law take it directly, and give the money to my mother-in-law, she got her wish, and my daughter is better than carrying it myself, I really can't believe my ability.

And the mother-in-law can't leave the house, the second sister's kindergarten needs her to take care of, the father-in-law is not in good health, and the mother-in-law also needs three meals a day, and the family also has to make a stove, feed the dog, and many chores are indispensable to the mother-in-law. Besides, I feel that if we let our mother-in-law and daughter-in-law get along for a long time, with our completely different personalities and styles of dealing with people, although I can't do anything disobedient or disrespectful, I can't guarantee that I will not be incompatible with my mother-in-law over time.

At that time, I had a heartfelt dislike for my mother-in-law, and it would be nice if my father-in-law could take care of the children! With that strong sense of kinship between us, I knew that I would understand whatever he did, and that he would never do anything that would make people unhappy out of love for his children.

After a night of tossing and turning, I finally made the decision that I would regret for the rest of my life and leave the child with my mother-in-law.

That night, I held my daughter's little hand, my heart was indescribable, more of a daughter's guilt, tears could not stop flowing, my only child in this life can not bring her up with his own hands, can not look at her every day, one day at a time, watching her grow up, listening to her babbling, inarticulate call me mother, can not face her cute little face every day, listen to her innocent laughter, the pain and loss in my heart really can not be described in words.

Thinking about being separated from my daughter, there is a kind of sadness of life and death lingering in my heart! All I can think of is the broken liver and intestines, and I understand the pain of a female ape—the helplessness, helplessness, and grief-stricken misery of losing her own flesh and blood, and there are no words to describe the pain of the heart.

Daughter! Mom really has no choice, when you are older and can be sent to the nursery, the family conditions are better Mom will take you home! More than that, I am afraid that I will not be able to take care of the child, and I have a kind of trust and dependence on my mother-in-law, and I believe that my mother-in-law will do her best to treat the child! But there is one most important thing I didn't expect, after all, it is a generational person, and the attitude towards children is fundamentally different.

If I hadn't made that stupid decision anyway, even now, sometimes in the dead of night, my heart-wrenching remorse often erodes my heart and involuntarily slaps myself. These are just later remorse, at that time, except that I felt that my mother-in-law with children had better experience than me, and the children would live well, I really didn't think so much.

At that time, there was no problem with milk powder, and the variety of milk powder was not so particular at that time. If there is something wrong with my daughter because she has eaten the milk powder in question, she will not even have a place to cry. I was so stupid and ignorant at the time! It's a pity that time can't be turned back, and there is no place to buy regret medicine!

In this way, I left my five-month-old daughter and returned to Shenyang with my husband. I really don't want to think about that pain and suffering, the first time was when I felt the most painful, desperate and numb mentally, and I didn't even know what I was doing in a day. In a trance, the heart doesn't know where to wander? Especially when I see the child held by others, my tears are about to burst out of my eyes, I think of my daughter!

Time really seems to change everything, and gradually, that sadness and despair fade away, and life seems to return to normal. A month later, I stepped on the train back to my mother-in-law's house alone, and finally saw my daughter who was thinking about it day and night, she grew up a lot and gained weight, she didn't recognize her life, holding her, there was an indescribable steadfastness in her heart.

I had to leave my daughter for two nights, and seeing that she was safe and sound, my heart was somewhat comforted, and I gave my mother-in-law a month's salary: "Mom, let's buy milk powder for the child with this money!" "The only thing I can pay is money.

Gradually, I began to get used to the fact that my daughter was not around, and life returned to the calm it was at the beginning. How do you always plan to pick up your daughter?

My husband sells meat alone, and he has to load the goods in the middle of the night, so he can't be busy, and it just so happens that there is a boss in the market who likes his husband's meat selling techniques, so he hires his husband to sell meat for his family with a high salary, and specially equips his husband with a BB machine that was very popular at the time.

And my husband doesn't have to go to the market in the middle of the night, he only needs to go to work when the market is open, and many times he goes home when the meat is sold out, and the level and speed of the husband's meat sales make the boss very surprised. My husband's salary is twice that of my salary when I start the monthly funding, and often the boss invites my husband to take me to the restaurant to eat and have fun, that time is really carefree, happy and happy, of course, many moments will think of the daughter who is not around, the loss is even more indescribable.

Finally, one day, I received a telegram from my in-laws, "Return quickly". My first thought was: something happened to my daughter. Tears fell like beads of broken thread, and I ran to the public phone booth on the side of the road like crazy, crying and hitting my husband's pager.

The moment I heard my husband's voice, I was like a flash flood, crying: "There is a telegram from your house, and it only says return quickly." Is something wrong with the child? ”

My husband couldn't figure it out for a while, but he was much calmer: "Don't cry first, it should be fine, I'll go home immediately." ”

Soon my husband came back on the boss's motorcycle, saw me and said: "I called my neighbor, she asked the second sister to answer the phone, the child is fine, our mother fell from the car and cracked her wrist." ”

As soon as I heard that my daughter was fine, I immediately burst into tears and laughed, and my husband glared at me very dissatisfied: "You have such a bad conscience? When I heard that the child was okay, my mother had something to do, and I couldn't hide my joy? What's up? Are you happy if my mom has something? Gloat! ”

Actually, I didn't mean to be happy, but I was too nervous about my daughter, and when I heard that she was okay, I subconsciously put my mind at ease. Of course, I don't want anything to happen to my mother-in-law, whether I like it or not, she is my husband's biological mother, and she is the closest and most respected person in the world. And I've always considered myself part of the family, how could I possibly want something to happen to her?

At this time, I realized that the watch I was wearing on my wrist was missing, and I heard my husband say: "It was bought by the eldest sister when she got married, and it is quite expensive!" "How's that for you? If you lose it, you lose it!