123 Don't leave me again
After kissing Jiaoyang, Song Zhe finally mustered up the courage to tell the secret that had been hidden in his heart for many years. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. biquge。 info
He sighed, a little relieved, and continued, "It is because of you that I dare not show my feelings!" Later, I became more and more inferior, and I became less and less courageous to express to you: on the one hand, I feel that you are too good, and I really don't deserve you! I don't look outstanding, my family conditions are not good, and I can't make girls happy. On the other hand, I'm afraid that once I confess to you, we won't even be friends! I know you won't find a man like me to be your husband, and I can only watch you silently, and I can only be your best friend, and be your listener when you are happy or unhappy! This gives me a reason to contact you more and see you a few more times! ”
Under Jiao Yang's break-free, Song Zhe let go of his arms, and Jiao Yang sat on the sofa on the side. She lowered her head and didn't dare to look at Song Zhe's fiery and uneasy eyes, she quietly listened to Song Zhe's confession to herself.
"Lingling, do you know why I left the criminal police team?" Song Zhe suddenly asked.
Jiao Yang was stunned, since he asked this, it wouldn't be as simple as he said back then, and there were other unknown inside stories in it? She shook her head.
Song Zhe's voice was low and helpless: "Because I know that you are in love, you are in love with Wei Jun, who has outstanding appearance, I have secretly gone to see him." You don't know my pain and despair! My heart is like a pool of stagnant water! I don't think I'll ever love again! I want to pay attention to you silently and watch you be happy! But I really couldn't do it, my heart was bleeding, I was really stupid and cowardly, I didn't even give myself a chance to confess, I didn't even have the courage to confess. In fact, even if I told you my heart at that time, you would not accept it, and it would only embarrass both of us! I had no choice but to disappear silently! ”
He looked at her affectionately: "Lingling, my feelings for you over the years have not only been unable to change, but have become stronger and stronger!" A lot of times I live with memories of our past! So sweet and yet so bitter. Until you come back again, Lingling, do you know how conflicted I should be? I miss you all the time! I love you madly, but I don't dare let you know. You're so good, so charming, I don't have confidence, I know I'm only worthy of being a nobody with a crush on you! But I really don't want to lose you again! ”
Song Zhe said emotionally, already standing in front of Jiao Yang, he stretched out his arm and took Jiao Yang in his arms again, so quietly experiencing her existence. Smelling the fragrance of her hair, he suddenly felt a little forgetful, a little irrepressible.
He lowered his head and once again grabbed Jiao Yang's soft little mouth with his fiery lips, his arm was like an iron hoop, Jiao Yang was fixed on his chest, and his soft delicate body was tightly attached to his body, just let him kiss arbitrarily.
He doesn't care, after so many years, he has been waiting for this moment for ten years, he wants to say his heart, and he wants to kiss the person he thinks about day and night! This kiss is like a general who wants to go to the battlefield to die, pouring too much emotion and desire, and even more dazed and terrifying about the future, he is anxious about whether he can triumph? Can you win the hearts of beautiful women?
It seems that life has become unknown, he is waiting for the judgment of fate in fear, he has no choice, the only thing he can do is to take out his heart! He wants her to feel the hot and sincere love in her heart, and he wants her to feel his strong ****.
Jiao Yang did not resist or respond, she quietly let him kiss greedily, helplessly and manically. Or is she afraid that her struggle will bring harm to Song Zhe? Or does she also have a faint feeling of love in her heart?
She was a little wooden, if he confessed to herself before she met Wei Jun, would she gladly accept his confession? Do you really not have the slightest affection for him? Could it have ended differently? Isn't it true that mom won't die?
Thinking of her mother, tears flowed down her eyes. Song Zhe, who was in a frenzy, suddenly felt a salty taste slip into his mouth, he was startled, and he was much more sober and calm.
He let go of his mouth and opened his eyes to look at the person in his arms, she actually cried? Do you blame yourself for being light? He regretted his recklessness somewhat. With infinite love, he asked in a dumb voice, "Lingling, did I make you sad?" I'm sorry! I don't know what's going on today? Am I scared of you? ”
Jiao Yang shook his head gently, stretched out his arms to hug his waist, pressed his face tightly against his chest, and listened to his strong heartbeat so quietly and comfortably. She wanted to be quiet, she wanted to find a safe haven, she wanted to sort out her messy and barren heart.
Song Zhe was a little agitated, his sweetheart was not frightened by his abrupt confession, she didn't run away, let alone refute herself, she actually enjoyed hugging herself so tightly, does this mean that she loves herself too? Does she want to accept herself? He hugged Jiao Yang's arm harder, and the blood around him boiled even more.
His hoarse voice was close to pleading: "Lingling, don't leave me!" I really can't live without you! ”
After a while, Jiao Yang regained her composure, she left Song Zhe's arms and sat down again, she felt flustered, she didn't dare to look at Song Zhe again. She had never thought of treating him as someone of the opposite sex, and today it seemed too unexpected for her to react.
She doesn't know how to be good? Finally, he stood up slowly and walked outside. Song Zhe suddenly felt extremely frightened, he stepped forward a few steps forward and stopped in front of Jiao Yang: "Lingling, I scared you?" Please! Don't ignore me! ”
Jiao Yang looked up at his frightened and embarrassed appearance, squeezed out a smile, and habitually stretched out his hand and punched him in the shoulder: "Fool! Am I that timid? Give me some time, I want to think about it seriously! ”
Song Zhe smiled with relief. As long as Lingling is not angry with him and doesn't ignore him, he will be at ease! Darkness has reigned outside, and the night of the city peeks at everyone with mystery and an indescribable weariness. The veil between the two was finally lifted in a hurry.
Song Zhe dragged Jiao Yang again, hugged her in his arms, and then gave another domineering kiss, he just wanted to stay on her soft lips forever, he didn't want to think about what would happen tomorrow? He just wants to hug the sweetheart in front of him tightly in his arms, to feel her and his own existence at the same time.
Jiao Yang still didn't struggle fiercely, she seemed to acquiesce to her once most trusted and intimate best friend kissing herself like this, or this was not offensive, she stood up straight from his arms quietly, and then admonished very seriously: "I'm Jiao Yang." ”
Looking at her stiff little face, Song Zhe smiled: "Okay." You are Jiaoyang, I'll send you back? ”
Jiao Yang didn't blame Song Zhe, he was not wrong at all. On the contrary, he was so careless at that time that he didn't think about it so much at all, but simply self-righteously thought that he was the same as his own thoughts! As a result, he was also subjected to so many years of emotional torture. If someone has to say sorry, then the person who says it should be themselves.
Jiao Yang suddenly felt helpless and confused! I seem to be a troublemaker, messing up a pool of spring water, how should it end now? An infatuated Xu Dashao, a self-righteous Guan Jiu, and the superficially accepting Feng Yuan and the stubborn Haibo, then added another Song Zhe. Are you indulging yourself too much?
Let them fall into the whirlpool of feelings, and the feeling of not being able to think about it will definitely not be good. And who does your heart favor more? It seems that his feelings for everyone are different, Feng Yuan and Hai Bo are family affection, and the other three, I can't say which one I prefer? Don't seem to hate it?
Jiao Yang didn't postpone it, or she never had a habit of being polite to him. obediently got into his car and calmly accepted his spoiling. He drove the car downstairs to her apartment, and then got out of the car to accompany her upstairs.
Jiao Yang stopped and said: "Don't go up, Xiangxiang should sleep!" ”
Song Zhe was a little reluctant, he hugged this soft body again, and imprinted a kiss on her forehead. Then affectionately watched as she disappeared from view alone.