Chapter 35: Guilt
"Why are you going?" Xuanyuan Xue watched Ling Wu go out of the courtyard, thinking that she had offended another person, and she was also depressed. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. biquge。 Info ignored Ling Xuan and turned around and went back to the house alone. Ling Xuan went up and grabbed it, his eyes full of doubts, as if it was really Xuanyuan Xue bullying him.
There was no one around, Xuanyuan Xue's temper also came up, and he glanced at Ling Xuan angrily, and said coldly: "Let go." ”
"You!" Ling Xuan originally came to her with good intentions, and tonight she put lanterns outside, wanting to take her out to enjoy the scenery together, besides, she was obviously thinking about her just now, and she reprimanded Ling Wu for her.
But her look of annoyance, and her cold words made Ling Xuan feel even more uncomfortable.
"Me? How do I? I'm just following the Emperor of Beijing into the palace, a woman of unknown origin. Xuanyuan Xue shook off Ling Xuan angrily, and quickly stepped into the house and locked the door.
Poof, this girl. In a word, Ling Xuan's confusion disappeared in his heart, and he smiled secretly, thinking that what kind of character Xuanyuan Xue was outside, he would be angry with himself for this, but she was not a painful little woman?
Xuanyuan Xue lay on the couch, and a violent grievance struck, why did she follow him in? Why did he set foot in the harem, obviously he resisted like this, but why did he soften his expectant eyes and lost look?
Xuanyuan Xue wanted to come in a hurry, and left in a hurry, without provoking anyone. But others don't think so, but just one day, Xuanyuan Xue felt the pressure brought to her by the harem, and she was not afraid of anything, but now she trembled a little in her heart.
"Princess, open the door, Emperor Xuan is gone." It was getting late, and when Xuanyuan Xue heard that Ling Xuan was gone, she got up and went to open the door.
"You!" As soon as the door opened, Xuanyuan Xue wanted to tell Mei'er to pack her bags, but she didn't want to stay any longer. But before he could speak, Ling Xuan stumbled and got in. Xuanyuan Xue couldn't believe it, "You are an emperor, why are you so discredited?" ”
Not trustworthy? Ling Xuan closed the door with his hand, and put Xuanyuan Xue against the door and looked down, "...... Why? Ling Xuan found this trick very useful.
Xuanyuan Xue's arrogance gradually wore off, since the last time he was imprisoned by Ling Xuan in the spirit pool, Xuanyuan Xue saw Ling Xuan's intriguing eyes, his heart beat hard, and he didn't dare to breathe, only felt that even the air was spreading an ambiguous smell.
"Don't you do it." Xuanyuan Xue's obedience made Ling Xuan's heart ripple, "Silly girl, it was my thoughtless thinking that made you suffer, but I have already ordered that no one will be allowed to come in without your consent, so don't be angry." At the end, Ling Xuan pouted aggrieved and grimaced.
"I didn't let you in." Xuanyuan Xue didn't look over, although she was not arrogant at all, she was still so arrogant. Ling Xuan raised his eyebrows, he had to rectify her. So, he suddenly pulled Xuanyuan Xue closer, and before Xuanyuan Xue could react, his kiss had already fallen, and Xuanyuan Xue was not allowed to refuse.
Xuanyuan Xue thought that Ling Xuan would scold her a few words, but she didn't want this kiss to come suddenly, she only felt that her heart suddenly tightened, and even her breathing seemed to be controlled by Ling Xuan. "Do...... What's ......" Fortunately, Xuanyuan Xue's hand had already been against Ling Xuan's chest, and a hard push pushed Ling Xuan away, "Good ......"
Xuanyuan Xue is not angry or blamed, but she is extremely shy. Ling Xuan couldn't help but smile smugly, looking at Xuanyuan Xue's reddish face, Ling Xuan took her into his arms lovingly.
He felt guilty about what had happened today. It was his thoughtfulness that made Xuanyuan Xue inexplicably provoke right and wrong, he knew that Xuanyuan Xue didn't want to have too much contact with this harem, he could let Xuanyuan Xue come in with him domineeringly, but he couldn't really restrict her freedom to come and go, she had the right to choose, and this was not under his control.
Therefore, Ling Xuan knew that he had to do better and protect her better in order to keep her.
Xuanyuan Xue snuggled in Ling Xuan's arms, thinking about what she said to Zhu Xuan, "Go with the flow, you love him now and are willing to live in this palace for him, why bother yourself for tomorrow's mediocrity?" 'It's a bit ironic to be at peace with what happens, you can persuade others, but you can't persuade yourself?
"Are you still mad at me?" For a long time, Ling Xuan rubbed Xuanyuan Xue's long hair around his fingers, and Xuanyuan Xue shook his head silently. Ling Xuan still wanted to persuade him, but Xuanyuan Xue went to touch the jade finger between his lips, "I want to try." ”
Xuanyuan Xue finally mustered up her courage, she didn't know if she could let go of the past, but she was willing to try.
Xuanyuan Xue did many things decisively, but she thought about this matter for a long time, and thought that when she saw Ling Xuan again, she would turn around decisively, indifferently and indifferently.
But the reality woke her up, she couldn't let go of Ling Xuan, not only from her heart, but also in her mouth, she was also unwilling to refuse. So, I can only choose to go with the flow, perhaps, it is not as difficult as I thought.
Xuanyuan Xue said calmly, as if there were no waves in her heart, but it suddenly aroused the huge waves in Ling Xuan's heart, full of surprise and happiness, Ling Xuan's arms became tighter and tighter, he was glad that he went to Ming Shangguo, glad that he forced her to live in the palace, and he couldn't wait to hold her three more times.
Xuanyuan Xue was too tightly looped, and he only felt that he was going to be detained into his body, although his body was in pain, it was difficult to suppress the sense of happiness that came from relief.
Xuanyuan Xue is enjoying it very much, enjoying Ling Xuan's arms, and also enjoying her own indulgence, the future? She didn't have the brains to think about it right now.
After having dinner with Xuanyuan Xue and walking all the way to Gaowu Palace, Red looked at Ling Xuan with a smile on his face, and was in awe of the master who lived in Jingyue Xuan, which made Ling Xuan smile when he thought of it.
Rhett doesn't know how Ling Xuan was in the past, but Ling Xuan, who was still a prince back then, saw it several times every time he came back, and he thought he was a kind person.
ascended the throne as the queen, Ling Xuan's government office was resolute and resolute, decisive and wise, but unlike the modest prince in Rhett's impression, he still had an extremely elegant face, but he would unconsciously frown, and Rhett knew that it was not just for state affairs.
Ling Xuan ascended the throne for three years, and the harem was deserted and pitiful, initially because the emperor died, but the queen mother also followed after half a year. Catching up with the filial piety period, Ling Xuan's harem is not abundant, and it is also forgivable. But since last year's filial piety, Concubine Ying has also been Zhang Luo a few times, but she was pushed by Ling Xuan, saying that the situation was stable.
Therefore, since Concubine Ying, except for Concubine Xuan, the people in the palace are inextricably linked with the previous dynasty, but they are just strong and weak. But even so, there are only a few people in the harem, where is it like an emperor's courtyard?
Coupled with Ling Xuan's impartial attitude towards everyone, Red originally thought that Ling Xuan was a man with little affection and was not a good woman. But he didn't expect that noble lord to hook the emperor's heart like this.
"Go, Sakura." Ling Xuan paused, as if he remembered something, turned around and walked back.
Red quickly stopped thinking and stepped up to follow, "The slave said that the emperor is most worried about Niangniang, and in the afternoon, Niangniang also sent someone to send intimate snacks, and the slave heard that it was made by Niangniang herself." ”
Ling Xuan thought of the crispy flower cake on the tea table, which had been forgotten all the time in the afternoon. Frowning slightly, I thought about what kind of stuffing it was?
Rhett's mind flashed with shrewdness, and he bowed down and said with a smile: "The slave smelled the osmanthus crispy cake, and the roundworms in his stomach turned several times. Ling Xuan chuckled at Red's head, "If you're smart, I'll have to guard against you." ”
Although the meaning of the sentence is harsh, but the words are in a joking tone, and Red will not take it seriously, "Where can a slave take the word shrewd, I am afraid that it is not as good as one ten-millionth of the emperor." ”
"Poor mouth." Ling Xuanlang laughed a few times, and raised his hand to ask Rhett to lead the way.
Rhett was naturally relieved, and when the spirit sent the pastries in the afternoon, Rhett knew that it was specially sent by Concubine Sakura, but was it just to let the emperor go to his place more? He is only in his early thirties, but he has also been in the palace for more than 20 years, and he can achieve the position of chief eunuch, naturally relying on knowledge of current affairs and flattery.
He was still worried, how to persuade the emperor to go to Concubine Sakura. It's good now, the emperor mentioned it himself, saving himself a trouble, not to mention, but he can also give Concubine Ying a face, but the more he thinks about it, the more comfortable he becomes?
Since Ling Xuan returned to the court, because Zhu Xuan was pregnant, Ling Xuan was by her side most of the time, and Xuanyuan Xue entered the palace the day before yesterday, so naturally even Zhu Xuan couldn't tie Ling Xuan.
In the dormitory, Murong Ying withdrew her clothes early, took off her bun, changed into comfortable bedclothes, and played the guqin alone.
The strings under Murong Ying's hands vibrated wantonly as if they had been enchanted, seemingly chaotic but matched into a gripping movement, which came from afar and drilled into Ling Xuan's cochlea.
"You're idle." Ling Xuan didn't let people pass it on, he pushed the door and entered, looking at Murong Ying's calm and intoxicated face, knowing that she was playing in love, and he didn't interrupt her immediately, and stood on his side for a long time listening to the sound of the piano getting weaker before he opened his mouth and said with a smile.
Murong Ying's face was shocked, and she hurriedly got up and saluted, but she was a little apologetic, "I didn't know that the emperor came up, and the concubine lost her manners." "Murong Yingsheng's delicateness, although not as heroic as Zhu Xuan's and concubine's coquettishness, has a unique dignified atmosphere.
Stripped of the gorgeous clothes of the day, the green silk shawl reached the waist, and the breeze blew through the ends of her hair, making Murong Xue even more gentle and lovely.
Ling Xuan sat on the couch and smiled and asked her to get up and sit beside her, seeing that she looked graceful. Ling Xuan only felt relieved, fortunately, she was not as narrow and jealous as those ordinary women, and her calm face seemed to make Ling Xuan's inner guilt rise in vain.
"I've come to see you. I know that you have suffered a lot of grievances for me in the past few months. Ling Xuan's heart was warm, and he took Murong Ying's hand. Everytime, in the face of Ling Xuan's gentle and watery appearance, Murong Ying's heart beat violently, and her face was flushed with shyness.
"What a concubine should do." Murong Yingwan also stroked his hand and held Ling Xuan.
Ling Xuan's heart moved, Murong Ying raised her eyes slightly, and leaned her head over with a smile, "I know that you have always been a lovely person, and you have always considered yourself very little. ”
Murong Ying leaned on Ling Xuan and didn't answer, just snuggled quietly, like an ignorant girl who didn't know the world, as long as she had her husband by her side, she would be satisfied.
Ling Xuan was also pitiful, he knew that his love was given to Xuanyuan Xue, and he couldn't get it back. But he can't fail to be responsible for these women who have lived in the deep palace for a long time because of themselves.
So, he gently lifted Murong Ying's jaw, but he didn't expect Murong Ying to dodge with his head. Seeing the slightly surprised look in Ling Xuan's eyes, Murong Ying chuckled, "The emperor's thoughts, the concubines understand." The emperor is not afraid that Sister Xue'er will blame? ”
Murong Ying didn't wait for Ling Xuan to speak, lowered her head and plunged into his arms, looking extremely understanding, "Others don't know, don't the concubines know?" Back then, no matter what the reason, it was always because of the concubines who broke up the good marriage between the emperor and Xue'er's sister. The concubine knew that the emperor had never let go of his sister in his heart, and the concubine did not ask the emperor to treat the concubine like a sister. As long as she can be by the emperor's side, the concubines will be satisfied. ”
"You ......" Ling Xuan couldn't bear it when he heard her attribute the original incident to himself, he knew that it was he who led her into the palace for the sake of the Murong family, so he couldn't say whether to explain or to consol.
"The concubine knows." Murong Ying put her finger on Ling Xuan's lips, choked up but endured it, and smiled with tears, "The concubine has fantasized that the emperor is really empathetic." Although the concubine despised those things that interfered behind her back, she really hoped that this time, only this time, the concubine really did it. But the emperor, the concubine is a woman, the past of the emperor and his sister is deeply engraved in the heart of the concubine, and the emperor knows how much envy the concubine was in it? Therefore, the concubine knows where the emperor's mind is, but the concubine doesn't care. ”
Murong Ying looked at Ling Xuan firmly, Ling Xuan didn't know how much he felt sorry for Murong Ying like this at the moment, he was hurt but not afraid, he was also very guilty in his heart, he always hurt a woman who treated him sincerely, and he hugged Murong Ying tightly.
"I'm sorry......" Ling Xuan said these three words to Murong Ying for the first time, no matter how patient Murong Ying was, she couldn't help the long-awaited apology, she burst into tears but still kept smiling.
"Your Majesty, when the emperor ascended the throne, how much resentment the concubines had in their hearts, and now they don't dare to hide it from the emperor. But later the concubine finally figured it out, the emperor pitied the concubine and loved the concubine, even if it was not love, but the concubine knew that the concubine had a place in the emperor's heart, and that was enough. Love doesn't have to be taken, and sometimes it's a blessing to be able to give companionship. ”
"Sakura."
"So the emperor, the concubine knows that her sister is willing to come to the palace this time, does the emperor know how much comfort the concubine has in her heart? The concubine knows the pain of her lover and thinking about others, and the concubine doesn't want the emperor to be immersed in it every day, but now that she has a great opportunity, how can the concubine make the emperor in a dilemma and not achieve her wish? ”
Ling Xuan was afraid that Murong Ying would be displeased, so he wanted to comfort him, but he didn't expect Murong Ying's words to be speechless, and even guilty, he actually underestimated Murong Ying like this. Yes, the eldest lady of the Murong family is naturally not as open-minded as ordinary women, how can she be compared with women like Concubine Yan?
Murong Ying used her virtuous gentleness to once again prove that she was different in front of Ling Xuan, and it also deepened the guilt in Ling Xuan's heart.
She clearly knew what was soft in Ling Xuan's heart, that is, after he had no choice but to hurt people, others repaid their grievances with virtue. Ling Xuan may not know her, but she has been silently paying attention to him for thousands of days and nights, so her understanding of him is as clear and profound as her own.
Therefore, Murong Ying sighed and said with a reluctant smile: "The emperor should go back." ”
Yes, she didn't keep Ling Xuan tonight, naturally for Ling Xuan to explain in front of Xuanyuan Xue, and naturally she knew that what Ling Xuan was looking forward to now was that Xuanyuan Xue was not an infatuated herself.
Of course, the most important thing is that she knows that this not only achieves her reputation as gentle and virtuous, but also makes Ling Xuan feel guilty in her heart, and she wants to compensate herself more.
Sometimes what you get will eventually be lost, and what you lose may not be gained, right?