"Ahh Found something to eat! Thorns don't have to starve! At this time, Huang Po suddenly ran in from the outside room with a smile, and when she entered the door and saw Liu Xunxuan holding the child, she was even more stunned, "Huh? Madame, are you back? That one...... I found a little milk in the kitchen at the back, can I give it to Thorns? ”

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She took Huang Po's hand with crooked eyebrows and asked, "Huang Po, is your body okay?" Now that I've been out all day, will my family be worried? ”

Huang Po smiled, twisted her neck, stretched her waist, and twisted her chubby body in a strange shape, making a "clucking" sound.

"Madam, I think everything else is fine except for the feeling that my neck is a little stiff. Hehe, I'm a rough man, I'm alone in my family, the man in the family died early, and a child went to the army, hehe, Mrs. is a blessed person, I look at Thorn and my heart is happy. If Madame doesn't dislike it, I'm willing to follow Madame to serve you! ”

Huang Po smiled, and was a little embarrassed about this sudden self-recommendation.

Liu Xunxuan took her hand with confidence and handed the thorn into her arms.

"Thorn has Huang Po to help take care of it, which is naturally the best. I don't have much experience with children, and I ...... I don't know how long I'll be with her. Liu Xunxuan silently and gently looked down at Thorn, "If you don't dislike us, we should be grateful!" ”

Chu Yao listened to the sentence "I don't know how long I can stay with her", and his eyebrows trembled.

Liu Xunxuan said it sincerely, and Huang Po was so moved that her eyes moistened.

Liu Xunxuan continued: "Go back, we will help you transfer your children from the barracks, and go to Yudu to be a catcher, a servant or something, it's fine." Also be close to you, let him do his filial piety. ”

Huang Po was even more moved to tears this time, and knelt down for Liu Xunxuan on the spot.

"Madame! You are truly a bodhisattva! What a living bodhisattva you are! ”

"Okay Huang Po, get up quickly. You see that Thorn has been hungry for so long, didn't you say that there is cow's milk? I don't know much about this, you have experience, can you go and see if you can eat thorns? If you can eat it, feed her some. ”

"Hey! Ay! Good! Madame, you see I've forgotten all this serious thing! I'll go! Huang Po nodded again and again, holding Thorn in one hand and wiping her tears in the other, hurriedly got up, hugged Thorn, and hurried to the small kitchen.

After Huang Po left, Liu Xunxuan slowly walked to the coffee table, lifted the porcelain pot and poured himself a glass of water, and drank it all.

She slowly turned her head, looked at Chu Yao seriously, and said, "Chu Yao, I don't believe in drifting away, nor do I believe in being far away. Whether it's the road to hell or the darkness before dawn, just keep going. All this is not my choice, I just go with the flow and go with the flow. It's not meant to hide it from you. And now that I'm going to explain it to you, I don't know where to start. ”

"So you mean I'm going to endure all this in silence? You have changed, you are no longer the same as before......" Chu Yao stared at Liu Xunxuan's eyes, and found that it was like an unfathomable pool of water, dark and mysterious, obscure.

Chu Yao's thoughts and moods, Liu Xunxuan didn't have to think about it clearly, she lowered her head, smiled slightly and said: "I look at things, and everything is my color." If you look at things without being visible, everything is color. If you can let go of the control of power, I think your life will be easier. Not everything you have to master, not everything you have to control. Don't put so much pressure on yourself all the time. ”

"In your opinion, I am the one who loves power?" Chu Yao raised his sword eyebrows and asked, "The reason why I want to tighten up my power is not because I hope to give you a stable situation and a stable harem?" If you don't do anything to Qin Lu, then won't Qin Yingxue always be a head above you? ”

Liu Xunxuan turned his teacup indifferently and watched the ripples inside round and round.

Chu Yao continued: "I exiled you to the Canglan Gobi, and I didn't want anything to happen to you. If I do something to Qin Lu, he will inevitably threaten me with you, so I have to pretend that you are already my outcast, so that he will not do anything to you. ”

He choked up and paused, "If I had known that you were pregnant at that time, I would never have used such drastic methods to protect you!" ”

"It's all in the past, and there's no point in talking about it." Liu Xunxuan said lightly, looking down with an indescribable sense of distance.

Chu Yao's heart was completely cold, cold. He always felt that Liu Xunxuan was no longer willing to go back to the palace with him to live a good life. I always feel that Liu Xunxuan no longer looks like a person in this world. She is detached from life and death, detached from the desire for interests, and even detached from human affection.

He frowned, his mind searching for all the words that would allow her to stay, to stay with him.

He said with some urgency: "We still have thorns!" In the future, you will be the queen, and Thorn will be a noble princess, I would like to swear that you are the only one in the entire harem! Trust me! ”

Chu Yao's eyes were like stars in the nine heavens, shining brightly, and the sincere tone in his words was overflowing.

But Liu Xunxuan is still faint.

She glanced at him and smiled.

"Yao! I think that the madness you once had, the things you did, or the ones you encountered, will become a scar on your heart and affect you. In the difficult time later, it became a silent support force in my heart. So we're thankful for the madness that makes us who we are today more unique than they seem. What you have experienced that has made you who you are today is not accidental, but inevitable. The choices themselves reflect how you think about life, don't they? I don't hate you at all, I don't blame you, I don't think about your mind at will. You say, very good. However, I think that my inevitability should not be in the palace, my number, I know. ”

Liu Xunxuan smiled lightly at Chu Yao, the brightness in her smile seemed to be a spring with a wound, and the calmness in her eyes was like the deep water in the ancient pool.

People are steady, and the water is silent.

When Chu Yao heard her say this, the last hope in his heart was also shattered. He could no longer find the words to refute, and there was no better reason to keep her.

There was a moment of silence between the two.

Liu Xunxuan looked around the whole room lightly, and the scenes of those scenes of cold and traceless care for her were repeated in front of her eyes, and the sadness in her heart came from it, and a wordless sadness deeply filled her whole body.

Cold without a trace.

False name.

Qu Sixia.

All of them are gone today, on the day of the birth of Thorn.

That's right. What she experiences will become a scar on her heart, and in the difficult time in the future, it will become the strength that silently supports her in her heart.