Diary of a Madman (1)
A certain gentleman Kunzhong, whose name is now hidden, is a good friend in middle school in the past; After many years of separation, the news gradually faded. A few days ago www.biquge.info, I heard that he was sick of a big illness, and when he returned to his hometown, he only met one person, and his brother said that the sick person was also his brother. Lao Jun came from afar to see, but he had already recovered early, and went to a certain place to wait for (2). Because of laughter, he showed two volumes of his diary, saying that he could see the symptoms of the day, and he might as well offer them to his old friends. After reading it, I know that the problem covers "persecution maniacs" and the like. The language is quite incoherent, and there are many absurd words; It is not the month and the day, but the ink color and font are different, and it is not known to be written at one time. There are also some contacts from time to time, and I have compiled a summary of one article for medical research. It is not easy to remember the wrong words; However, although the names of the people are all from the village, they are not known by the world, and they have nothing to do with the general situation, but they are also easy to go. As for the title of the book, I will not change the title after I have learned it. April 2nd of the seventh year.
One
Tonight, good moonshine.
I have not seen him for more than thirty years; I saw you today, and my spirits were very refreshing. I knew that more than 30 years ago, I was all faint; However, great caution is required. Otherwise, why did the Zhao family's dog look at me twice?
I'm rightly afraid.
Two
There's no moonlight today, and I know it's not good. When he went out carefully in the morning, Zhao Guiweng's eyes were strange: he seemed to be afraid of me, and he seemed to want to harm me. There were also seven or eight people, talking about me, with their mouths open, and smiling at me; I went from head to toe, and knew that they were all in place.
I'm not afraid, I'm still going my way. A group of children in front of me were also there talking about me; His eyes are also the same as Zhao Guiweng's, and his face is also blue. I think I have some kind of enmity with the child, and he does. I couldn't help but say out loud, "You tell me!" "They're just running away.
I thought: What enmity do I have with Zhao Guiweng, and what enmity do I have with the people on the same road; Only twenty years ago, Mr. Gujiu kicked Mr. Gujiu's old running book (3), and Mr. Furujiu was very unhappy. Although Zhao Guiweng didn't know him, he must have heard the rumors and hugged him unevenly; Agree that those who are on the road will be wronged against me. But what about the little ones? Then. They haven't been born yet, so why are they still with strange eyes open today, as if they are afraid of me, and they seem to want to harm me. This really scares me. Teach me to be unsure and sad.
I understand. This is what their mother taught!
Three
I can't sleep at night. Everything needs to be studied to be understood.
Some of them have beaten the magistrate, some have slapped the mouths of gentlemen, some have taken possession of his wife, and some have been forced to death by creditors; Their faces at that time. I wasn't as scared as I was yesterday, and I wasn't so fierce.
The strangest thing is that the woman on the street yesterday hit his son and said, "Lao Tzu! I'm going to have to bite you a few times before I get angry! But his eyes were on me. I was startled, and I couldn't hide it; The group of people with green faces and fangs all burst into laughter. Chen Lao Wu rushed forward and dragged me home.
dragged me home, and the family pretended not to know me; Their faces were the same as those of the others. Entered the study. then buckled the door, as if a chicken and duck had been closed. This one thing, the more I teach me, I can't guess the details.
A few days ago, the tenants of Wolfzi Village came to report the famine, and said to my eldest brother that a great wicked man in their village had been killed by everyone; A few people dug out his heart and liver, fried it in oil, and ate it, so that he could strengthen his courage. I interjected, and the tenant and the eldest brother looked at me a few times. I know their vision today. It's exactly the same as the guy outside.
When I think about it, I went from the top to the heels.
If they will eat people, they may not eat me.
Look at the woman's words of "bite you a few bites" and the laughter of a group of green-faced fanged men. and the words of the tenants the day before yesterday, it was obviously a code. I could see that his words were full of poison, and his laughter was full of knives. Their teeth are all lined up in white, this is the cannibal guy.
In my own opinion, though not a wicked person. Since kicking the ancient family's book, it's hard to say. They seem to have something in mind, I can't guess it. Moreover, when they turn their faces, they say that men are wicked. I still remember that my eldest brother taught me to do theories, no matter how good a person is, turn over a few words from him, and he will make a few circles; Forgive the bad guy a few words, and he will say, "Turning the world upside down, making a difference". I can guess what their minds are; Besides, it's time to eat.
Everything has to be studied to understand. In ancient times, people used to eat people, and I still remember it, but I don't know very well. I opened the history and checked, this history has no age, and the words "benevolence, righteousness and morality" are written on each crooked leaf. I couldn't fall asleep, and I looked carefully for half the night, only to see the words in the cracks, and there were two words written all over the book that were "cannibalism"!
There were so many words written in the book, and the tenants said so many things, but they all looked at me with strange eyes smiling and groaning.
I'm human too, and they want to eat me!
Four
In the morning, I meditated for a while. Chen Lao Wu brought in rice, a bowl of vegetables, a bowl of steamed fish; The fish's eyes were white and hard, and its mouth was open, like that of the gang of people who wanted to eat people. After eating a few chopsticks, he didn't know if it was a fish or a human, so he spit it out his belly.
I said, "Old five, say to the eldest brother, I am so bored that I want to walk in the garden." The fifth child didn't agree and left; After a pause, the door was opened.
Nor do I move, studying how they are at my mercy; I know they won't let up. Really! My eldest brother led an old man and walked slowly; His eyes were full of fierce light, and he was afraid that I would see it, so he just lowered his head to the ground and looked at me secretly from the side of his glasses. The eldest brother said, "You seem to be fine today. I said, "Yes." The eldest brother said, "I invite Mr. He to come today and give you a consultation." I said, "Yes!" "Actually, didn't I know that this old man was an executioner! It's nothing more than borrowing the name of looking at the pulse, and taking a look at the barren: because of this merit, I also share a piece of meat to eat. I'm not afraid; Although they don't eat people, their courage is stronger than theirs. Stretch out two fists and see how he starts. The old man sat down, closed his eyes, touched it for a long time, stayed for a long time; Then he opened his eyes and said, "Don't think about it. Quietly recuperate for a few days, and you'll be fine. ”
Don't think about it, keep it quiet! Fattened, they are naturally able to eat more; What's in it for me, how can it be "good"? They are a group of people who want to eat people, and they are sneaky, and they hide their ideas, and they don't dare to do it directly, which really makes me laugh to death. I couldn't help it, so I laughed out loud and was very happy. I know that in this laughter, there is righteousness and righteousness. The old man and the eldest brother have lost their color, and have been suppressed by my courage and righteousness.
But the more courage I have, the more they want to eat me, and the more they lose a little bit of that courage. The old man stepped out of the door, and after walking a short distance, he whispered to the eldest brother, "Hurry up and eat!" The eldest brother nodded. It turns out that there are you too! This one is a big deal. Although it seems to be an accident, I also mean it: the person who eats me together is my brother!
It's my brother who eats people!
I am the brother of the cannibals!
I myself have been eaten, but I am still the brother of the cannibals!
Five
These days, I took a step back and thought: if that old man wasn't an executioner. It's a doctor, and it's still a cannibal. Their patriarch Li Shizhen's "What is the Materia Medica" (4) clearly says that human flesh can be fried; Can he still say that he doesn't eat people?
As for my eldest brother, he has not been wronged either. When he told me, he said that he could "change children and eat them" (5); Again, I accidentally talked about a bad person. He says that not only should he be killed, but he should also be "a carnivorous bed" (6). I was young, and my heart was beating for a long time. The day before yesterday, the tenants of Wolf Village came to eat their hearts, and he was not surprised, and he couldn't stop nodding. It can be seen that the mind is as ruthless as before. Since it is possible to "eat with children", it is easy to obtain everything and everyone can eat it. I used to listen to him reason, and I also fooled the past; Now I know that when he reasoned, not only did he still have human oil on his lips, but his heart was full of cannibalism.
Six
It's pitch black. I don't know if it's day or night. The Zhao family's dog barked again.
The ferocity of a lion, the cowardice of a rabbit, the cunning of a fox,......
Seven
I know their way, and they will not kill them directly, and they will not dare, for fear of disaster. So they all contacted me, covered with nets, and forced me to kill myself. Let's look at the men and women on the street the other day. and my eldest brother's actions in the past few days, it is enough to realize eight or nine points. It is better to untie the belt, hang it on the beam, and strangle it yourself; They are not convicted of murder. Fulfilled his wish again, and naturally let out a whimpering laugh happily. Otherwise, he will die of fright and sorrow, although he is slightly thin, he can still approve a few times.
They only eat dead meat! -- I remember that the book says that there is a thing called "Haiyina" (7). The eyes and looks are ugly; I often eat dead meat, and even the very large bones are chewed carefully, and I swallow it in my stomach, and I am afraid to think about it. "Haiyina" is the relative of the wolf, and the wolf is the home of the dog. The day before yesterday, the Zhao family's dog looked at me a few times, and it can be seen that he was also complicit and had already been contacted. The old man looked at the ground, how could he hide it from me.
The most pitiful thing is my eldest brother, who is also a human being, why is he not afraid; And what about the partnership to eat me? Or are you used to it and don't think it's wrong? Or has he lost his conscience and committed a crime knowingly?
I curse the cannibal, beginning with him; If you want to persuade the cannibal, start with him first.
Eight
In fact, by now, they should have understood this truth,......
Suddenly, a man came; He was only about twenty years old, and his appearance was not very clear, and he was full of smiles, and he nodded to me, and his smile was not like a real smile. I asked him, "Is cannibalism right?" He still smiled and said, "It's not a famine year, how can you eat people." "I knew at once that he was also a gang, and liked to eat people; So he was a hundred times more courageous, and he wanted to ask him.
"Right?"
What did these things ask him? You're really going to ...... Tell jokes. …… The weather is good today. ”
The weather was fine and the moonlight was bright. But I'm going to ask you, "Is that right?" ”
He was unimpressed. He replied with a hint of huh, "No......"
"Isn't that right? Why do they eat it?! ”
"Nothing ......"
"Nothing? Wolf village is eaten; And the books all say, red and new! ”
Then his face changed, and he was as green as iron. Open your eyes and say, "Yes, it's always been so ......."
"It's always been that way, right?"
"I will not speak these things to you; In short, you shouldn't say it, you say it's your fault! ”
I jumped up, opened my eyes, and the man was gone. He was sweating profusely. He is much younger than my eldest brother, and he is actually in the same group; This must have been taught by his mother first. I'm afraid I've already taught him a son; That's why even children look at me viciously.
Nine
I want to eat people, but I am afraid of being eaten by others, so I look at each other with very suspicious eyes. ……
I went to this thought, and I was relieved to do things, walk, eat and sleep, how comfortable. It's just a threshold, a juncture. They are fathers, sons, brothers, husbands, wives, friends, teachers, students, enemies, and people who don't know each other, all forming a group, exhorting each other, holding each other in, and refusing to take this step even if they die.
Ten
Early in the morning, go to find my eldest brother; He stood outside the hall and looked at the sky, so I walked behind him and blocked the door, which was very quiet. And he said unto him very kindly,
"Big brother, I have something to tell you."
"You say so," he quickly turned his face. Nodding.
"I only have a few words, but I can't put them into words. The eldest brother, about the beginning of the barbarians, has eaten a little people. Later, because of different thoughts, some stopped eating people. If you blindly want to be good, you will become a person, and you will become a real person. Some of them still eat, like insects, and some of them become fish, birds, and monkeys, until they become people. Some are not good, and they are still bugs. How ashamed this cannibal is better than the non-cannibal. I'm afraid that the monkey is ashamed of the worm, and it is far, far away.
"Yi Ya (8) steamed his son and gave it to him. It's still the same thing as before. Who knows that since Pangu opened up the world, he has eaten until the son of Yiya; from Yi Ya's son, all the way to Xu Xilin (9); From Xu Xilin, he ate all the way to the people caught in Wolf Village. Last year, a prisoner was killed in the city, and there was also a tuberculosis man who dipped his steamed buns in blood and licked them.
"They want to eat me, and you alone can't think of it; But why bother? Cannibals can't do anything; They will eat me, and they will eat you. In a group, they will also eat themselves. But as long as you take a step, as long as you change it immediately, that is, everyone is peaceful. Although it has always been. We can also be extra good today and say no! Big brother, I believe you can say that the tenants wanted to reduce the rent the day before yesterday, but you said no. ”
At first, he just sneered. Then his eyes became fierce, and when he revealed their secrets, his face turned blue. There was a group of people standing outside the gate, and Zhao Guiweng and his dog were also inside, and they all probed their brains in. Some of them do not see their faces, as if they are covered with cloth; Some of them were still green and fanged, smiling with their lips pursed. I know them as a bunch, both cannibals. But I also know that their minds are very different, one is that they think that they have always been like this, and they should eat; One is that he knows that he shouldn't eat it, but he still wants to eat it, and he is afraid that others will tell him, so after listening to my words, he became more and more angry, but he pursed his lips and sneered.
At this time, the eldest brother suddenly showed a fierce appearance and shouted,
"All out! What's so nice about a madman! ”
At this time, I understood one more of their ingenuity. But they will not change it, and they have already laid it out; Prepare for the next madman to put a name over me. If I eat it in the future, not only will it be peaceful, but I am afraid that there will be people who will see it. The tenant said that everyone ate a wicked man, and this is exactly the method. This is their old score!
Chen Lao Wu also walked in angrily. How to hold my mouth, I will say to these people,
"You can change it, start from the heart! Know that there will be no place for cannibals in the future.
"If you don't change, you'll eat it all yourself. Even if there are many births, they will be exterminated by real people, just like a hunter kills a wolf! - It's like a bug! ”
That group of people was all driven away by Chen Lao Wu. The eldest brother didn't know where he went. Chen Lao Wu persuaded me to go back to the house. The house was completely dark. The beams and rafters were shaking on their heads; After shaking for a while, it grew up and piled up on me.
It was so heavy that I couldn't move; He meant to kill me. I knew that his heaviness was fake, and I struggled out, sweating profusely. But to say,
"You changed it immediately, from the bottom of your heart! Know that there will be no place for cannibals,......"
Eleven
The sun does not go out, the door does not open, and it is two meals a day.
When I picked up my chopsticks, I remembered my eldest brother; knows that the reason for the girl's death is all in him. At that time, my sister was only five years old, and she was cute and pitiful, and she was still in front of her. His mother couldn't stop crying, but he persuaded her not to cry; About because I ate it, I couldn't help but feel a little embarrassed to cry. If you still can't help it,......
The sister was eaten by the eldest brother, and my mother knew about it, I don't know.
Mother wants to know; But when I cried, I didn't explain it, and I probably thought it should be. I remember when I was four or five years old, sitting in front of the hall to enjoy the shade, the eldest brother said that my grandmother was sick, and the son had to cut off a piece of meat, cook it and invite him to eat it, (10) to be considered a good person; Mother didn't say no. If you eat one piece, you can eat the whole nature. But the way I cried that day, now that I think about it, it really makes people sad, which is really a strange thing!
twelve
Can't think about it anymore.
A place where people have been eating people for 4,000 years, I only understand today, and I have been mixing in it for many years; The eldest brother is taking care of the housework, and the younger sister has just died, so he may not be in the meal and secretly give us food.
I may not have unintentionally stopped eating a few slices of my sister's meat, and now it is my turn,......
With 4,000 years of cannibalism experience, although I didn't know it at the beginning, I now understand that it is difficult to see real people!
A baker's dozen
Children who haven't eaten people, or are there any?
Save the Child......
April 1918.
exegesis
(1) This article was originally published in New Youth, Vol. 4, No. 5, May 1918. For the first time, the author adopted the pseudonym "Lu Xun". It is the first novel in the history of modern literature in China to violently attack the feudal etiquette of "cannibalism". In addition to mentioning the reason for its production in the "Self-Preface" of this book ("The Scream"), the author also pointed out in the "Preface to the Second Collection of Novels of the New Chinese Literature" that it "is intended to expose the evils of the family system and rituals", which can be referred to.
(2) Alternate: In the Qing Dynasty official system, middle and lower-level officials who have obtained official titles through imperial examinations or donations, but have not yet held actual positions, are distributed to a certain ministry or a province by lottery by the Ministry of Officials, and are called alternates.
(3) Mr. Gu Jiu's old flow book: This is a metaphor for the long history of feudal rule in our country.
(4) "What is Materia Medica": refers to the "Compendium of Materia Medica", a pharmacological work by the Ming Dynasty physician Li Shizhen (1518-1593), a total of 52 volumes. The book once mentioned the record of using human flesh to cure tuberculosis in the Tang Dynasty Chen Zang "Materia Medica", and expressed dissent. It is said here that Li Shizhen's book "clearly says that human flesh can be fried", which should be a "mistake in the memory" of a "madman".
(5) "Yi Zi and eat": See "Zuo Chuan" in the fifteenth year of Xuan Gong, it was the Song general Huayuan who recounted to the Chu generals that the tragic situation when the capital of the Song State was besieged by the Chu army: "Yi Yi Zi eats, and the remains are dissected and planed." ”
(6) "Carnivorous bedskin": In the twenty-first year of Xianggong in the "Zuo Chuan", the Jin State Prefecture said to Qi Zhuang Gong: "However, the two sons, such as birds and beasts, eat their flesh and sleep on their skins." (Note: "Erzi" refers to the colonists and Guo Zhi of the Qi State, who were once captured by the state.) )
(7) "Haiyina": The transliteration of the English hyena, that is, the hyena (also known as the coyote), a carnivorous beast that often follows the lion tiger and other predators, and feeds on the carcasses of the beasts they have eaten.
(8) Yiya: In the Spring and Autumn Period, the people of Qi are good at seasoning. According to the Tube. Nickname": "Fu Yiya reconciles the matter (press: refers to the Duke of Qi Huan), and the public says, 'But the steamed baby has not tasted', so he steamed his first son and offered the father." "Ji and Su were the last generation of monarchs of the Xia Dynasty and the Shang Dynasty in China, and Yi Ya and they were not contemporaries. The "Yi Ya steamed his son and gave it to the man" here is also a manifestation of the "madman" who "speaks quite incoherently".
(9) Xu Xilin: implicitly refers to Xu Xilin (1873-1907), a native of Shaoxing, Zhejiang, and an important member of the Guangfu Society, a revolutionary group in the late Qing Dynasty. In 1907, he and Qiu Jin prepared to revolt at the same time in Zhejiang and Anhui provinces. On 6 July, under the cover of his identity as the head of the Anhui Patrol Police Department and the supervisor of the Patrol Police Academy, he took the opportunity of the graduation ceremony held by the school to stab to death the governor of Anhui Province, Enming, and led the students to capture the Ordnance Bureau. (10) It refers to "cutting the strands to cure relatives", that is, cutting one's own strands and flesh to cure the serious illness of one's parents. This is a kind of foolish and filial behavior in feudal society. History of the Song Dynasty. Election Zhi 1": "If you take people with filial piety, the brave will cut off the shares, and the cowardly will be in the tomb." (To be continued.) (To be continued.) )