Chapter 50
In the ancient book "Qunfang Spectrum", it is said: "The light snow is cold and the snow will be snowy, and the ground is not cold and the snow is not big." Pen ~ Fun ~ Pavilion www.biquge.info"
In the blink of an eye, the light snow season has arrived. Chu Yao didn't come back for ten years.
Qu Menhan sent a few letters through special channels. After reading them all by Liu Xunxuan, she secretly put them in the vermilion lacquered wooden box under the bed.
The palace wall of Mingyue Palace was painted with all kinds of flowers, birds, fish and insects by Liu Xunxuan's maids, so even if Chu Yao didn't come, she was tired of seeing the flowers and plants in this palace, and now she can enjoy herself when she stands under the corridor and admires these ancient graffiti in the moonlight on this cold night.
Now her legs still ache faintly in the cold night, which can also make her never forget the thrill of Xiaoyuelin, Qu Menhan's archery skills, the laughter of the mountain bandits, the dizzy self rising in the soil cave, Chu Yao's bowl-sized pills, and most importantly, her own stupidity.
Of course, she can also be far-fetched to blame Chu Yao for this, who told him not to look at her well, and to make something like parole, deliberately letting her go, etc.!
She felt that her psychology had become extremely strange now. Sometimes I think of him and feel good in my heart, his gentleness, his kindness, his tongue that doesn't speak love, and the eyes that he always looks at her silently behind her back. But sometimes there is an inexplicable anger in her heart, such as when he failed to come to accompany her when she needed him, for example, when he didn't come to her palace, she would wonder if he went to the arms of other women, for example, she felt that his tenderness to her could only be tempered after reading thousands of women and thousands of flowers...... She really thinks that she has lived two lives, and both lives are sane people, but this time she can't explain it with reason. Obviously told her sensibly that he was not wrong in this matter, but emotionally she still had to sulk. Once the psychology is unbalanced, she doesn't want to be stupid and say to Chu Yao that she is angry, as if she cares about him a lot, there is no way, she can only keep it in her heart, and she will be able to digest it herself in a few days. Then, when he really missed Chu Yao and missed him tightly, he asked Zihuai to send him a bowl of sweet soup.
Alas! She sighed heavily, and spread her hands helplessly to grieve for her inexplicable little daughter. Doesn't it mean that whoever cares more will lose. She felt that she had already lost, that she was already in a vulnerable position in the relationship.
Perhaps, it is the deep walls of this palace and the shadows that make people become sentimental!
She glanced up at the full moon, beckoned a few maids, and helped her back to the palace.
Liu Xunxuan lay on the bed and looked at the curtain on the top of the bed, and a deep longing came to her strongly. A tearing pain rose from her heart, and it has been continued by her second vein. She let the pain gradually spread to her whole body, and silently shed two tears.
Plus meditated to probe Chu Yao and then wanted to implant her, and she wanted him to fail???
My life has become different from what it used to be, and because of one person, all the pleasures of this world have become dull, all the delicacies have become bitter, all the laughter has been mixed with sorrow, and all the meanings have been empty. Where do I find my happiness?
"Right and wrong, disturbing one after another, not looking, not listening, not thinking, can have a quiet heart. Sometimes, it's not because someone else has hurt you, it's because you care too much. ”
A clear man's voice suddenly sounded in her head, and she was suddenly shocked into a cold sweat and sat up from the bed.
"Who?"
After asking, she felt that it was wrong, the voice just now was clearly poured directly into her head, not the sound heard by her ears, so the person who spoke into her brain must not be here. Rather, at a distance. This kind of kung fu is not like enough internal force, but it is like enough of the exercises in the father's scroll!
It was obviously a cold night with withered pines and cypresses, and she sweated even more! Who is it? Who is it? Who exactly? Listening to the voice is definitely not the stinky Taoist priest in vain. Who would that be? Is it the Father? The tone is somewhat similar, but the voice of the father is not like this.
Zihuai had already heard the sound and came in, "Madam, I just heard your voice, I have searched everywhere, and I have also asked Xingsha, there is no one here." Are you having nightmares? ”
Liu Xunxuan wiped the sweat from his forehead. "Oh? Do you hear me? Do you hear anything else? ”
"Nope. I heard you ask who it was, so I quickly got up, and when I saw that you were okay at the window, I changed my route and searched outside the palace, without any trace. ”
"Got it. Change your clothes for me. ”
Liu Xunxuan couldn't think of who this person was, but he intuitively felt that this person had no ill will towards him, so he no longer struggled to think about it again and again.
She looked back at the window and saw that the lights in the Chengqian Hall had not been extinguished, so she asked Zihuai, "Do you know what Chu Yao is doing?" ”
Zihuai followed Liu Xunxuan's gaze and looked over, "The master is handling government affairs, and it seems that he has shut down several Qin Prime Minister's workshops and is planning his next move." ”
"Oh? That's his father-in-law. It's a shame for him? Liu Xunxuan came out of the quilt and changed into a long shirt for going out.
Zihuai bowed his head slightly, "They are not a real husband and wife." ”
"How is it not true that the Lord who is famous and has a share in the Eight Classics? Besides, Qin Yingxue is really good, if he really likes her, it is not impossible. ”
"Madame......"
"Alright. Go get some refreshments, and we'll go see your master!" Liu Xunxuan couldn't sleep even if he thought about it, and Chu Yao really hadn't seen him for a long time, so it was better to go there and join in the fun.
Zihuai happily agreed.