The clear sky in late autumn is as calm as the sea. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 infoThe faintly fluttering white clouds are the same as the faint microwaves on the sea.

The sun was already a little cold, and a flock of southern geese flew high in the dazzling white light.

Gillian sat under the bamboo forest and enjoyed the last warm autumn light, with translucent osmanthus cakes neatly placed in the slightly transparent jade plate.

She sat on the shore with Zhang Liang, didn't speak, just silently enjoyed the fragrance of flowers and osmanthus cake with warm ****.

Chew carefully, sweet and delicate, soft and glutinous floral fragrance. Between the lips and tongue, it is as if osmanthus flowers bloom in the mouth. Layer by layer, open carefully, it is endlessly memorable.

The two of them took one piece after another, and in a moment they ate a plate of osmanthus cakes.

Zhang Liang held the jade cup and took a sip lightly before he spoke freely. "The fragrance is bursting, as if I have eaten autumn in my mouth."

Gillian smiled and said, "If you like it, you can do it." ”

He glanced at Gillian, but suddenly had a conversation when the autumn mood was strong. "Your understanding is not good, but it is not bad either. I should be able to teach you by this time next year, and I will go to her mausoleum to see when I go back, and the old man has not yet seen her. ”

Zhang Liang spoke of Lu Hou's tone lightly, and he couldn't see many ups and downs. But just because he doesn't call Gao Hou or her by name, but vaguely calls her, you should know that his heart is still complicated and difficult to speak.

If she had chosen him at the beginning, she might not have been able to stand at the top and be proud of the world, but she would have been much happier.

Smart and transparent like Zhang Liang, why don't you even have the courage to try? And to remember her for decades.

"Why?" Gillian asked in a low voice, her eyes clear.

Zhang Liang was stunned for a moment, but quickly reacted, not caring about her abruptness. Instead, he seriously thought about the question, and only spoke softly for a while.

"The first time I met her, she was already a mother of two children, and we missed it in the first place."

His voice was a little gloomy, but his eyebrows seemed to be relieved, and he smiled faintly. Speaking of Lu Hou, I have a lot of memories, and even the self-proclaimed ones have changed from "old man" to "me" unconsciously.

"Later, I have been thinking for many years, if I had been decisive, leaving behind the hatred of the family and the country, and giving up everything, would she have gone with me?"

He looked at Gillian with a pure gaze. didn't wait for Gillian to answer, so she talked to herself.

"No, she won't. And I can't do it, revenge and hatred are the reason why I lived at that time. ”

His gaze was soaked in sadness, but it was so clear with grief. Because of what he said next, Gillian didn't even have words of comfort.

"It's all an excuse, an excuse to deceive yourself. She has only regarded me as a trustworthy senior brother in her life, how can I? How can it? ”

He shook his head again and again, his face full of helplessness.

There are only three kinds of feelings in this world, loving each other is the most wonderful and difficult to find, and being loved is the happiest, and Zhang Liang belongs to the most heartbreaking three. Love someone who will never love themselves.

Gillian was silent at the moment, wanting to say something, but she felt that everything was superfluous now.

Suddenly, a voice volleyed out of the air.

"She's just using you from start to finish!"

Looking for prestige, it is Zhang Boda.

When Zhang Liang heard this, his face immediately sank, and Gillian saw that the situation was not good, so she wanted to get up to stop him. Gillian saw it when she didn't know that the old lady was Zhang Liang, and Zhang Boda didn't like the old lady's little sister very much.

Zhang Boda has endured words for many years, how could Gillian stop him. He completely ignored Gillian's hints in his eyes, and slowly walked from under the corridor step by step, his voice sharp, like a knife nailed to Zhang Liangxin's mouth.

"Father! To this day, do you have to lie to yourself all the time? You supported her again and again in the previous dynasty, kept the crown prince for filial piety, and even raised her to the dignity of the world, and my father just listened to your orders! ”

The more he spoke, the smoother it became, but Zhang Liang just listened silently and did not refute at all.

Gillian stepped forward quickly, grabbed him and scolded in a low voice: "Zhang Boda! Stop it! ”

Zhang Boda glanced at her and struggled to break free of her. Walked quickly to Zhang Liang, "Father Wang! Actually, you already understood, right? Otherwise, you wouldn't have lived in seclusion here, even if she advised you to stay. ”

"In the Zhulu Rebellion, he killed the heroes, killed the clan, and married his son to his granddaughter. This kind, is she still the little sister you used to be? She is like a drowning person struggling desperately, even if you have been willing to be used by her, you know that you can't help her anymore, destiny returns, she can't go back! ”

Zhang Boda said very happily, the past half a year in the mountains has made him fade away from weakness and show a little solidity.

After he finished speaking, he looked at Zhang Liang fixedly.

"Finished?" Zhang Liang asked softly, Zhang Boda nodded hesitantly, and Zhang Liang got up leisurely and turned his head to leave.

Zhang Boda stared blankly at Zhang Liang walking away, a little puzzled why such a slapstick couldn't cause a little fluctuation.

Gillian walked up to him, saw him with a blank face and asked softly: "Zhang Boda, do you think it's very unfair to your queen mother?" ”

"Yes!" He didn't hesitate, "My queen mother is also a Korean nobleman, gentle and demure, and she is the best person in the world." It's just that she went when I was young, why wasn't she the one who got my royal father's lifelong affection? Shouldn't it be her? ”

Gillian swayed her hair in a bun and was swayed by the wind, "Then did your father complain to your uncle?" Has your queen mother ever complained? ”

The past is too far away, and it is not that no one in the parties can tell who is right and who is wrong. But the willingness to pay is real, Zhang Boda was full of anger when he heard this, and it seemed that it was the first time to think about the problem from this perspective.

Gillian already had an answer, so she said: "I don't have any bias, but since even your queen mother has never complained about your father and uncle, shouldn't you also be considerate of your royal father." ”

Zhang Boda was speechless and stood in place.

In the lonely autumn night, the cold moon and cold stars in the ink-stained distant sky fanned their eyes.

Zhang Boda didn't come to the study that night, and Zhang Liang didn't ask him where he went. The two grandchildren still fell into an embarrassing situation, and Gillian had no position to say who was right and who was wrong, but quietly worked hard until it was time to go to sleep before getting up gently.

Zhang Liang, who closed his eyes and was pondering, spoke at this time, "Queen, sit down and talk to the old man." ”

His voice seemed to be dyed with the silence and depth of the night, and Gillian sat down after a slight hesitation, waiting for Zhang Liang's next words.

"Boda's queen mother and old husband have known each other since childhood, after the country was broken, after Qin Shi Huang wantonly searched for the Six Kingdoms. We wandered together, and after the old man entered Gaozu's command, it happened that a general in the Han army took a fancy to her and asked Gaozu to be a matchmaker. After she learned the news, she begged the old man, saying that if she wanted to marry someone who had a constant wife and concubine, it would be better to die. ”

"She wants to marry you?"

The old man told her that marrying her would hurt her even more, but she said that she had known it a long time ago. It's just that she didn't expect **** anymore in this troubled world, she just wanted a home that could accommodate her, and said that she could cover up for the old man. So, the old man agreed, and then there was no doubt and no doubt. ”

As he said this, the color of memory on his face became thicker. His eyes were deep and his expression was stunned.

The lights burst on, making it particularly frightening in the silence of the night.

*****

At the end of October, autumn is bleak and the leaves are falling.

Ning Lang was about to give birth, and the Queen Mother had already sent the trusted palace people around her to watch. Although she is giving birth for the first time, she is not very afraid after watching the Queen Mother's cronies by her side and letting go of more than half of her heart.

Every day before going to bed, she was glad that there was another day, after all, it was always good for the child to have an extra day in the belly.

It's boring all day long, but fortunately, His Majesty will always come to the palace every other day at most, and there is a lot more hope for life.

In the afternoon of this day, she asked the palace people to read to her, and when she was a month old, the people around her did not dare to make her tired. Ning Lang wanted to read more books, and His Majesty would not sit dry when he came.

His Majesty's reading was extensive and varied, not comparable to what she had learned in her boudoir, but occasionally she could pick up a few sentences and see that Her Majesty was obviously interested.

For the sake of the child, she wants to ask His Majesty to like her a little more.

She was listening carefully with her eyes closed, when she heard someone running in from the outer hall in a panic, out of breath and not knowing what to say.

Ning Lang didn't take it seriously, but he listened to Liuzhu's reprimand. I couldn't help but save my heart, and when Liuzhu came in, I casually asked, "What's wrong?" What does a little girl do? ”

Liuzhu's face changed greatly, and she replied very unnaturally: "It's nothing, I did something wrong and asked the maid to scold a few words." ”

Ning Lang sat up and asked, "What's wrong?" What's wrong? ”

Liuzhu still refused to say, and begged: "Good seventh son, it's really nothing." You see that Your Majesty is coming, do you want to take the silver to Shaofu to order His Majesty's favorite food? ”

Ning Lang used to love to talk about this topic with Liuzhu, but today he is not interested. Liuzhu obviously has something to hide from her, which is still a big deal.

"Say! What's up! ”

Liuzhu just shook his head, and Ning Lang shouted loudly, "Aoba, come in." ”

A small palace man with the color of a man came in in response, saluted, and looked at Ning Lang very uneasy.

"What were you talking to Liuzhu just now?"

Aoba didn't dare to speak, and secretly glanced at Liuzhu with his eyes. Ning Lang immediately shouted: "See what she does?" Say! ”

Liuzhu waved her hand desperately, but Aoba hesitated, but she heard Ning Lang stop drinking and call someone to come in and drag her down to beat.

Aoba panicked, so he had to say, "I heard that Ningfu was raided and exiled today." ”

Ning Lang's head exploded with a bang, and it hurt. She heard herself calmly ask, "Because of what?" ”

"Corruption and bribery."

"Let's go down." Ning Lang spoke calmly, and Aoba retreated obediently, but Liuzhu got up and handed Ning Lang a silk handkerchief.

Ning Lang took it with a slight trembling hand, and then realized that his face was cold. It turned out that she was crying.

She's not crying for others, she's just worried about her mother. The family was raided and exiled, and how much hardship had to be endured on the way. When her mother was young, she was tortured by her mother and fell ill, but fortunately, she was obedient and gave birth to only a daughter.

Compared with the young and vigorous newcomers, the grandmother is still willing to take care of her father a little, and she can have good medicine to nourish her every month, and her body has just been a little better in the past few years.

But if she is exiled, how can she have medicine for her mother?

I'm afraid that all the dirty work along the way will have to be done by her mother, and I don't know if I can eat and dress warmly?

Liuzhu persuaded her in a low voice: "Seventh son, don't cry, I'm going to have a fetal gas again." Seeing that she didn't hear it, she said Your Majesty with a mouth.

Ning Lang smiled bitterly and shook his head, Your Majesty? Your Majesty? It's useless. He just didn't want her to intercede so he didn't tell her, even if she used the child in her womb to beg, it was useless.

Your Majesty has always been a very clear person in the harem, and the queen still pleads guilty to the Xuanshu Palace for her mother's family, how can she have such a big face to make Your Majesty open the net?

She only felt that her heart was beating fast, and she let out a few long breaths, and asked Liuzhu to help her to lie down on the couch.

His Majesty did not come that day, she was half-asleep and half-awake on the couch. One time, when I saw that when I was a child, Ah Niang touched her face distressed after she fell asleep and whispered, and after a while, I seemed to see Ah Niang laughing and crying when she entered the palace, and said that she had to protect herself even more when she entered the palace, don't worry about her.

By the end, A-Niang's face became more and more blurred. There are only countless voices saying that your mother is a fox, and you are too, too.

Among these voices is a third sister who is as old as her, and Ning Lang likes this half-sister very much for a while. In the end, the third sister still became as disgusted with her as the other sisters.

There is also the nurse of the mother-in-law, who when she was very young and heard that the mother-in-law was not very bad to their mother and daughter. But A-Niang is becoming more and more favored, and her father likes her very much.

When she went to the third sister again, she could hear her mother-in-law's nurse scolding her behind her, and her mother-in-law was silent.

Later, her grandmother began to torture her in various ways to torture her mother.

The mother told her that a woman keeps a man's heart, but she is a concubine, which is the greatest sorrow, and she must not be the same as her.

So Ning Lang studied hard, and at the age when he was the most playful, he immersed himself in learning everything he could learn.

She is obedient, sensible and studious, and her father loves her very much, more than several sisters-in-law.

It would be nice if such fantasies were kept alive, Ning Lang thought to himself in his dream.

Whether she was five or six, she sat in the courtyard. But I heard the eldest sister sobbing and saying that her father was eccentric and gave Ning Lang a copy of everything, and Ning Lang still had a little bit of child's pride and vanity in her heart when she heard this.

Unexpectedly, her father gently explained that it was because he could marry her to a wealthy family as a concubine in the future, so as to help the future of her younger brothers.

Ning Lang cried out at once, but he only dared to cry silently.

She grew up overnight, and she had to work harder.

Slowly, my mother-in-law finally eased up and wanted to use my mother to entrap my father. She smiled and thanked her mother-in-law, but her heart was cold.

Finally, she took the position of the third sister and entered the palace. The family no longer dared to show A-Niang's face, and Ning Lang thought that he had succeeded.

As a result, something happened to my father and the whole family went into exile.

Since her name as the seventh son is not easy to use, do you still expect to be better to her mother in exile?

Between the virtual and the real, she went through all the sadness of the past many years.

She tried her best to drive away the buzzing sounds in her ears, she wanted to drink them, she wanted to say that her aunt was not a fox, no!

Ning Lang's outstretched hand was really grasped, and she heard someone in her ear calling, "Seventh son!" Seven sons! Wake up. ”

Seven sons?

This is in the palace, she opened her eyes, tears had already soaked the pillow, and Liuzhu was looking at her nervously and eagerly, full of worry.

Whatever she was based on, there were people who were genuinely worried about her safety.

Ning Lang was about to say that it was okay, but he felt that something broke open and water flowed out. She reached out and choked up, "Go and call someone!" I'm going to give birth, I'm afraid it is! (To be continued.) )