It's the sixth day, and the weather is surprisingly bright. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 infoThe sunlight shines through the red plums in the garden, softly and gently shining on the ground, as light as a veil.

Xue Yan laid out the prepared meal in the Yanbo Pavilion near Qin Zimo's room, surrounded by flowers and green grass that she had specially begged the housekeeper to buy from the flower market.

She made a lot of small dishes, and she enthusiastically introduced them to me while cooking: "This is Zimo's favorite lion head, he used to love to swallow one in one bite; This is Zimo's favorite crab roe crisp, and it is his habit to order a snack after eating; It's ......" she said a lot, and I listened quietly.

Her voice is as gentle as the warm breeze of spring, so good. I seem to have seen Xue Yan when she first met Qin Zimo, so shy, so good-looking. I was stunned for a while, and then I remembered that I was going to find Su Chengjing at this time and ask him to ask Qin Zimo out, so I went out of the kitchen.

I walked around the house, but I didn't see Su Chengjing. I saw two people at the corner near the back garden, Su Chengjing was standing on Qin Zimo's side, but between Wen Ci's eyebrows and eyes, there were three points of coldness and seven points of coldness. I couldn't hear what they were saying, but I saw Qin Zimo nodding all the time, and then the two separated.

I pretended to pass by inadvertently, "Chengjing," my voice was very soft, and I didn't seem to want to disturb him: "I want you to call Qin Zimo, so you are here!" ”

"Oh, I'm just going around." For some reason, he seemed to be deliberately not letting me know about Fang Cai, as if the person just now was not him.

"I've just arrived here, too." I followed his words, but in my heart I wondered, why didn't you let me know? And his expression just now, is it really similar to that person?

"Let's go see how they're doing!"

"Okay." I nodded and went with him to the back garden.

When I got there, I saw that Qin Zimo was already sitting in the Yanbo Pavilion, but because it was inconvenient for us to appear, we had to hide quietly behind the rockery.

"I told him that I have something to discuss with him, and I just hope that Zimo won't be angry when he sees that it is Xueyan girl." Su Chengjing whispered next to me.

I was also vaguely worried: "I hope so." ”

After a while, Xue Yan appeared in our sight. She was obviously carefully groomed, and she had already fallen into the city, but she still changed into a new green shirt and wore a flowing cloud bun. She lowered her eyelids, picked up the flask on the table with her slender hand, and poured small glasses into both glasses before sitting down dignifiedly.

Qin Zimo's face, the moment Xue Yan stepped into the Yanbo Pavilion, became like thunder and lightning before the rainstorm, and it sounded all of a sudden.

"Why are you here!" Qin Zimo's voice was full of roar.

In fact, the moment Qin Zimo spoke, I had already guessed the current situation.

"You don't have to drive me away, wait until tomorrow, and I'll leave myself." Xue Yan completely shocked me when she said this.

I felt the resoluteness and helplessness in Xue Yan's tone, and I didn't know why she wanted to say goodbye to him in person. All I know is that she must have made the greatest determination for such a decision.

She continued: "I will not shirk responsibility for the death of my bride, but I also don't want to take everything by myself. Bai Sang said, I should cherish myself. So I want to fight for myself again, no matter how it ends. ”

Obviously, Qin Zimo didn't expect Xue Yan to say this, and after muttering for a long time, he said with a little impatience: "What exactly are you going to say?" Hurry up! I don't have that much to do with you! ”

She closed her eyes, as if caught in a good memory, and smiled unconsciously: "Actually, I was only thirteen years old when I first met you, although we have never met, but I know you." They said that the young master of the Qin family was not only gentle and handsome, but also knowledgeable. ”

She was a little excited when she said this, and she couldn't suppress the shyness in her heart, so she took a glass of wine and drank it all: "I never thought I would meet you until that snowy day." I was blocked in the alley by a group of robbers, and I didn't know what to do if my father had made the expensive clothes for the guests. But that's when you appeared before my eyes. It's like the light of the dark night sky, and the bright red of the green forest. If you make me wait where I am, I really don't dare to go one more step. You've been chasing the robbers for a long time, and it's getting dark, but I only remember what you said. Fortunately, later, you came back, and many years later, I have never forgotten that scene. You stand under a tree with a coat in one hand and a lantern in the other, smiling, with snowflakes falling in the wind behind you. ”

As she spoke, she poured them several glasses of wine, and both of them were slightly drunk.

Xue Yan's cheeks were hot, but she was still saying, "Actually, I thought you wouldn't come back." Just like my mother when I was a child, she said that she would not leave my father and me, but she still left. But you didn't leave, and I thought at that time, if I can marry you when I grow up, I will definitely not leave. Because, in addition to my father, you are the second person I want to protect. ”

She was visibly drunk, and the wine in her glass was one glass after another. Seeing that she was overwhelmed, I wanted to go to the pavilion to help her, but was stopped by Su Chengjing.

"Actually, don't you think that only when they are drunk can they tell the truth?" He said quietly.

I nodded silently, and looked at the two people in the Yanbo Pavilion with helpless eyes, at this time they were like two best friends who drank and talked. Naturally, I can't interrupt.

It was getting dark, and the night wind blew the wind chimes at the four corners of the pavilion, which was pleasant to the ear, like a flowing blue water in the silent night.

Qin Zimo was probably also drunk, and he had been listening to her story quietly, and finally couldn't help asking: "What happened later?" Haven't seen him yet? ”

Xue Yan stopped holding the wine glass and said slowly: "Later, after I went back, I coughed at night, and I had a fever, because my father only remembered to make clothes and couldn't take care of me, and finally I burned out my brain, I can't remember anything before that day, and I haven't seen you again." Until your mother came to the door to propose, there was a later story. ”

Qin Zimo was stunned, and he didn't know why, he just stared blankly at Xue Yan opposite. Although I was not close, I suddenly saw the fiery emotion in his eyes, and I couldn't help but blurt out, "He is ......"

"He recognized her as Chunniang." Su Chengjing took the words.

He said it well, Qin Zimo's consciousness was obviously not clear at this time, he sat up and hugged Xue Yan, as if to melt her into flesh and blood, he buried his face in her hair, and whispered: "Chun Niang, is it you?" Are you back? ”

Xue Yan was a little surprised, but just for a moment, she laughed, and the corners of her mouth curled with satisfaction: "It's me, I'm Chun Niang, I'm back." I could clearly see the tears in her eyes, sad but warm.

I think that at that moment, those old scenes mottled in the dust, a few brushstrokes, were enough to warm her whole body. Even if she loses her soul, she will never forget.

It's just that Xue Yan doesn't understand, the man's heart, once it hardens, is a clay sculpture and wood carving, and he won't think of a bit of affection.

Qin Zimo, I believe that he is talented, and he was really touched by this story. However, he always thought that nothing would ever change its nature. Just like the truth he himself believed, even everything turned into a lie.

And I, no matter what I do, am an outsider to the two of them after all.

Therefore, when Qin Zimo woke up and saw that he was hugging Xue Yan, he vented all his anger on her. She was thrust to the ground, and the porcelain bowl on the table shattered into pieces, cutting her hand. He glared at his eyes and said coldly: "You are not Chun Niang, you are Xue Yan, you are a liar, you are a murderer!" ”

She didn't react for a while, and said, "Zimo, I'm Chun Niang!" What happened to you? She struggled to get up and tried to get close to him, but he pushed her to the ground again.

Qin Zimo's eyes were full of anger: "I really regret giving you the same face as Chun Niang." After speaking, Qin Zimo picked up a piece of porcelain bowl fragment and aimed it at Xue Yan's face and scratched it. In an instant, bright red blood flowed down her face, and a hideous wound crept up her pale face, and the shocking enchantment was terrifying and strange in the candlelight.

"Bastard!" I was trembling with anger by Qin Zimo's actions, and despite the fact that I was hiding behind the rockery at this time, I directly rushed up and slapped him hard: "Qin Zimo, one day you will regret it." ”

He didn't hide, but laughed out loud and spat the blood on the corner of his mouth: "Regret? Hehe, drawing her is the thing I regret the most in my life. ”

That night, Xue Yan cried for a long time. It's obviously uncomfortable, but I laugh while crying.

She smiled: "Those few words of his, like a sharp knife, cut at my heart little by little, I can't see blood, but it hurts to the extreme." ”

Her smile deepened, but I only felt a complete coolness, and mocked her own coldness.

"Maybe I'm really too stupid, I only now know that I will never be able to get Qin Zimo's love in my life." The grief that had been suppressed in the past and in the present finally brought her heart to the edge, and she drank a lot of wine, laughing as she drank, and the smile on her lips was bleak and sad.

"I decided to let him go," she said. He and I became strangers after all. It occurred to me that it would be nice if I had never met him. ”

She dug her nails into her flesh and kept whispering the words.

Only now do I clearly feel that Xue Yan has finally learned to let go, whether it is despair or sadness, the love that has trapped her in the love prison all these years has finally come to a light day.

In these seven short days, it seemed like just a dream, she showed all her love, and he, just through her love, slashed her heart one by one. At the end of despair, she finally wanted to come out, but he never walked in.

Whether it is Chun Niang or Xue Yan, she is too tired to love in her life. But the memories of these two lives are flooding in her mind, lingering and dissipating.

And this parting, thousands of mountains and rivers, the end of the cape, but after all, there is no goodbye.