Lan Sheng looked at me for a while and said, "I only know that as long as we don't separate, our marriage will always exist." Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 infoI will love you as much as I used to. ”

But I can't love you as much as I used to. I said in my heart.

He said to me again: "Now that you are pregnant, don't think about this, and raise the baby with peace of mind." ”

At this time, Yueying knocked on the door outside the house and said, "Uncle, Zhu Niang, the medicine has been decocted." ”

"Bring it in." Lan Sheng shouted out the door.

Yue Ying was holding a porcelain bowl in her hand, and was picked up by Lan Sheng again, and said, "You go and prepare hot water, and we'll go wash up in a while." ”

"Yes." Yue Ying quit after speaking.

Lan Sheng blew on the decoction and said, "It's still a little hot." ”

"It's okay, I'll just do it myself." I said, reaching for the bowl.

Lan Sheng didn't let go, saying that the bowl was still a little hot, and he gave it to me after a while.

After washing, I politely asked him to go to the east wing to sleep.

Lan Sheng didn't answer for a long time, and after a while, he said, "If you want to do something at night, it will be more convenient for you to be by my side." Dr. Yao said, you have a tire gas, and you can't be left without anyone around to take care of you. ”

"Then let Yueying come in and accompany me." I said.

He looked at me with a gloomy expression, and said, "My time at home is not long, when I go to Pingjiang, I will call Yueying over to accompany you, okay?" ”

I didn't say anything, turned and walked out of the bathroom.

After a few steps, he suddenly hugged me from behind, his arms clamped loosely, as if he was afraid of hurting me.

Lan Sheng said in a calm voice: "Sister Wan, why have I done so much, but your heart is still not here?" What the hell am I going to do to make you change your mind? ”

My hand held his wrist and said lightly: "You don't have to do anything, Lan Sheng, there are some things that can't be forced." ”

"I'm sorry." I said again, my voice choked, "Don't be so nice to me, I can't bear it." I feel very guilty, I can't give you the marriage you want, the family you want, but I still make you sandwich between me and my mother. Do whatever you want, don't worry about me. ”

"But in my heart," he said, dumb and tightening his arms, "only you." ”

"Don't say anything about leaving, okay?" Lan Sheng said again. His cheek was pressed against my ear, and the warm breath hit my eyes and eyelashes.

For a while, it was like a hundred claws scratching my heart. My eyes were hot and moist, and I repeated in a low voice, "Lan Sheng, I'm sorry, I'm sorry......"

He didn't say anything after him, and after hugging me for a while, he let me go.

While resting, he came out with a quilt from the cupboard and spread it on the couch. I didn't squeak, I lifted the bed and lay in. He extinguished the candle and lay down next to me.

When I woke up the next day, I felt something pressed on the quilt. I leaned up slightly to take a look, and saw Lan Sheng's hand stretched out and put it on my arm. I lay on my back, his hand slipping.

At this time, keep your hands outside so that they don't freeze cold. I groaned in my heart, and grabbed his wrist again, ready to put his hand under the covers.

His hands were as cold as pig iron, and when he was raised, he seemed to wake up, and he whispered, as if to say, "You're awake," and then circled me with his hands and leaned against me.

Lan Sheng had just woken up, and he must still be confused, forgetting what happened last night.

He also stretched out his arm, touched the cold quilt, was stunned for a moment, then took his hand back, lay flat and said to me, "Are you going to get up?" It doesn't matter if you sleep a little longer, it's good for the baby in your belly. ”

Now he's just coming to his senses.

"Well, let's get up." I said softly.

He turned sideways again, looked at me quietly, and said nothing.

After a while, he said, "Is your stomach still uncomfortable?" ”

"Nope."

He raised his hand and placed it gently on my stomach across the back.

"Lan Sheng." I spoke again.

He let out an "um".

I continued: "You can rest at Yunqing's place in the future, I am pregnant, and it is not good to have sex with me." Other people gossip too. You are usually tired from official duties, and when you go to Yunqing, she can take good care of you. ”

He was silent for a moment and said, "Are you angry with me when you say such things?" ”

"It's not." My voice was calm, "That's what I want to say. Yunqing is more docile and more suitable for being your wife and daughter-in-law. ”

I suddenly sighed and continued, "Am I wrong in the first place?" The fate between us was forced by myself, and I only now realize that it is not suitable. Sadly, all the bugs have already begun. ”

Lan Sheng said after a while: "I understand." You really want to leave me. No matter how much I try to keep it, it is useless. ”

I whispered, "Lan Sheng, let's get along, okay?" ”

"You already have my blood in your belly, you can't leave." He insisted.

I turned my head slightly and discussed with him, "You and Yunqing will still have a child, can you let me take this child away?" ”

"Ridiculous!" He said in a stiff tone, "How can you take the child away?" I can't reconcile with you, you're already pregnant, everyone will know about it soon, if I let you leave the Lan family, then won't I become a cold-blooded and ruthless negative person? ”

My eyes darkened, and I said, "What you're saying is that I shouldn't be so selfish. ”

"Wouldn't it be nice to stay here?" Lan Sheng said, "You see how happy my mother is to know that you are pregnant, and she came to see you." ”

She wasn't looking at me, she was looking at the baby in my womb. I said in my heart.

"You give birth to the child now with peace of mind, and when you give birth to the child and become a mother, you will have more words to say with your mother, and the relationship between you and your mother will not be so stiff at that time. I came back from outside and saw you and the child waiting for me...... How nice those days were. Lan Sheng said, a soft smile on his face.

I didn't say anything, I thought to myself, what Lan Sheng meant was actually that when I gave birth to a child, my mind would be on the child, and I would be a housewife in peace, and I wouldn't think about anything else, let alone leave this house, because there were children at home.

It's really a bond. This bond binds thousands of women, who remain in the family with patience and strength, and work all their lives for her children and her husband.

But these are not the lives I expected, not to mention, my marriage to Lan Sheng is only an empty shell. I just can't do that.

I paused for a moment and said, "You should give these words to Yun Qing, not to me." ”

His smile instantly froze on his face, then he turned around, lifted the quilt, and collapsed without saying a word. (To be continued.) )