Maybe it's because I chatted with Qingqing for a while that day, recently, Xia Youran has been repeating that dream, the dream that started at the age of 16. The pen %fun %Ge www.biquge.info is absurd and funny in his dream, like a clown jumping off the beam. Her original plans, her original dreams, all changed qualitatively from there. That dream went on and on, constantly tormenting Xia Youran, she would always wake up from the nightmare, and the expression of that person laughing at her was always so profound. No matter how warm the people and things you experience in the future, you can't be redeemed from that kind of pain.

Heart, probably dripping blood, Xia Youran didn't know if this was love, after thinking about it for a long time, she categorically denied it, it was just a nightmare. She just sank in this quagmire, she couldn't climb out on her own, but if someone pulled her, she would drag that person into the quagmire with her.

People's memories will always be skewed, and the more time passes, the more they develop in their favor. Memories are probably constantly beautifying. Xia Youran knows this truth very well, because in her memory, all she remembers is his badness, his trickiness, his meanness, and his sarcasm, but they have also been better.

"In the past twenty-five years, I probably haven't liked anyone in particular, and I haven't cared much about anyone." When she said this, she laughed, because this kind of lie, even she could not deceive herself. Even now, she liked the guy, even though the guy never liked herself. However, she never said it in person, because she was already very aware of her position in that person's heart, and even if she didn't say anything, she knew what her ending would be, so there was no need to humiliate herself.

In September of the year when she was 16 years old, Xia Youran began her high school life, and in her impression, high school life began with self-introduction: "Hello everyone, my name is Xia Youran, the summer of summer, and Youran is from Tao Yuanming's 'Picking chrysanthemums under the east fence, leisurely seeing Nanshan." Because my mother likes that kind of unrestrained rural life very much, and hopes that I can live casually in the future, I chose such a name...... "That is a self-introduction that has been prepared for a long time, Xia Youran feels very good about herself, and she is a little proud." Because I was addicted to comics in junior high school, I didn't make many friends, so I thought about making a few friends in the new semester. My mother once said that first impressions are very important, so make sure to make a good impression in front of your new classmates so that you can make friends smoothly.

At that time, I sat in the position casually, and I didn't even know the name of the classmate sitting next to me, so it was essential to introduce myself. After her, there was a short boy who seemed to be struggling with something, and was reluctant to speak. Xia Youran's only impression of the boy was that he was thin and small, as if he could be blown down by a gentle wind. His skin was very white, as white as snow, and the light blue T-shirt he was wearing didn't even have a single wrinkle, and she didn't remember the rest very clearly, but she thought he was a cute boy.

Seeing that the kid hadn't spoken, the teacher had planned to make a round first, but the guy had already started to introduce himself: "My name is Nanshan, Nanshan of the South, and the mountain of Gaoshan." This short sentence caused the class to burst into laughter. Of course, when she heard this boy's words, Xia Youran didn't laugh like everyone else, she didn't understand why everyone was like this, she just glanced around her with wooden eyes, and finally stayed on the boy on the podium. However, it wasn't until later that she understood why everyone laughed like that, and that joke had been following her and Nanshan for two whole years. If I hadn't transferred at that time, it would have been three years. They would always talk about Tao Yuanming's poem with pleasure, of course, not because of how much they liked Tao Yuanming's poem, but because those two names happened to appear there.

Yes, just because of the sentence "leisurely see Nanshan". Tao Yuanming's poems are really good poems, could it be that he had foreseen today's scene thousands of years ago?

The boy didn't say anything more, just returned to his seat with a black line on his face, and glared at her fiercely as he passed by Xia Youran's side. Maybe he had already guessed the expressions of his classmates that would be in the future, so he had been struggling with whether to introduce himself or not. Maybe the timing is not good, the self-introduction of the two is just connected, or in other words, if Nanshan introduces himself first, the ending will be different.

If it wasn't good at the beginning, how can it get better afterward?

What a terrible start for them!

I don't know which classmate proposed: "Teacher, Xia Youran finally met Nanshan, let's let Youran and Nanshan sit together later." Then the whole class started to heckle. It's just that Nanshan stood up and said to the teacher: "I refuse, I feel a little stupid when I look at her, I don't want to be as stupid as her, I heard that stupidity is contagious." "Obviously so petite, obviously looking like a bully, why can he easily say such hurtful words?

That was at the beginning, Nanshan hurt Xia Youran in order to protect himself, but that sentence did not hurt Xia Youran, just because of that sentence, Xia Youran, who originally thought it was nothing, got on the bar with Nanshan, and the two often quarreled because of this.

It was originally a well-prepared self-introduction, but it was self-defeating, and in the end, she still didn't make any friends, it should be said that she didn't make any close friends. There are no friends, but there is one. The two are always competing with each other everywhere, but in the eyes of outsiders, it is a manifestation of a good relationship.

When did the relationship between the two people start to change?

Xia Youran couldn't say it, but suddenly one day, he couldn't hate Nanshan anymore. Instead, there is an incorrigible liking, and even if it has been eight years without contact, he will appear like a nightmare, tormenting her endlessly.

Class reunion, when Chen Qingqing mentioned this, Xia Youran subconsciously thought of Nanshan, if it was a class reunion, he would definitely go to Nanshan, and he might not be embarrassed to see it later. She wanted to refuse immediately, because she basically didn't have a relationship with those classmates, and she didn't miss them like that. couldn't say polite words or anything, plus Chen Qingqing was the kind of person who was fierce, so he didn't give Xia Youran time to refuse at all. It's just that when you can meet people you haven't seen in years, it's always a little different. I thought that she had been forgotten for a long time, but she didn't expect to accept the invitation, and she was still a little happy.

Human memories are really strange things, obviously some inconsequential things, which will always pop up from time to time and catch you off guard. When you want to remember more things, the memories are quietly hidden, leaving you at a loss to know why.

"Leisurely see Nanshan!" Xia Youran couldn't sleep well at all, so he simply propped himself up and sat up, "I haven't seen him for so many years, I think I must not know that guy anymore." I'm not a cautious person, and there's no need to hold a grudge against him for so many years, as if I really like him. All I need now is dawn......"

"Xia Youran......" As soon as Bai Xiao was mentioned, Bai Xiao appeared, he pushed open the door of Xia Youran's room, and leaned in halfway.

"What's wrong?" Xia leisurely looked at the time, 2:35 in the morning.

"Today at school, my classmates have been telling ghost stories, and as soon as I close my eyes, I feel as if there is a monster next to me...... Can I sleep with you today? After Bai Xiao walked in, Xia Youran saw that the little guy was holding his pillow, it seemed that whether she agreed or not, he planned to spend the night here tonight. Before, he probably wanted to secretly sleep next to Xia Youran while he was asleep, but he didn't expect Xia Youran to be awake.

"Of course you can ......" Xia leisurely pulled the corners of the quilt and motioned for Bai Xiao to come in. After all, Bai Xiao was only an eight-year-old child, and those fears of the unknown could not be explained by reason at all. Xia Youran finally understood why he wrapped the whole person in a thin quilt just now, obviously more afraid of heat than anyone else.

"Xia Youran, do you say there are ghosts in this world?" After lying down, Bai Xiao obviously didn't want to sleep immediately, and the doubts in his heart were not resolved, and he couldn't sleep.

"No, but I wish I had......"

"Why?"

"Because if that's the case, I'll be able to see my mother." Xia Youran touched Bai Xiao's head.

"Xia Youran, do you miss your mother?"

"I really want to think about it, but I will never see her again, and I almost forget what she looks like."

"I've forgotten what my mother looks like." Bai Xiao replied a little sadly, after all, the last time he saw his parents was four years ago.

"Wait a minute......" Xia Youran seemed to remember something, rummaged in the bedside cabinet for a long time, found a delicate jewelry box on the ground floor, took out a silver chain with a pendant from it and handed it to Bai Xiao.

"What is this?"

"You open it and take a look......" Xia leisurely pointed to the pendant of the chain.

"Mom and Dad?" What catches my eye is a photo of two people, one on the left and one on the right, the one on the left is the father, and the one on the right is the mother, which was ordered by Xia Youran not long ago, and she has never found the opportunity for Bai Xiao, because she is afraid that he will be disgusted, but now, it should not matter.

"Well...... It's Mom and Dad, take this with you and think of it as a talisman...... No matter what ghosts there are, Mom and Dad will protect Xiao. Saying that, Xia leisurely adjusted the length of the chain and put it on Bai Xiao's neck.

During the whole process, Bai Xiao didn't mean to resist at all, he was afraid that he would remember what happened at that time, when the car accident happened, his mother took the lead in blocking Bai Xiao who was sitting in the safety chair with her body. It was precisely because of this that Bai Xiao was not harmed. Dad died on the spot, and Mom died after more than ten hours of rescue. Although I had a high fever at that time, and my memory began to be a little blurry, the loud noise from the car accident and the screams of my mother at that time lingered in my ears. The more he wanted to forget, the clearer he remembered.

Sometimes fate is really cruel, so cruel that you can't complain and make you disheartened. But sometimes it will make you meet some people, and it will warm you for a whole lifetime.