My name is Shang Lian, and I am the son of the former prime minister, in fact, I have lived for 50 years in my life, and half of them have lived in the first 20 years. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info In the first 12 years, I hadn't met her, and I didn't know what to do, and I didn't know what to do. But since that spring, she has appeared in front of my eyes and changed my life.

Think about the days that have passed, those words that have been said, those intoxicating lingerings, which one is not fleeting? Now, she only left me with a cold coat and a pain that I could not quench for the rest of my life.

Eight years ago, I went out to play, just to find a suitable servant, but happened to run into her in the bucket with an innocent face, I still remember the girl's bright eyes, so stubborn, so transparent, maybe I have never seen such clear eyes, so I resolutely decided to choose her, and even feared that she would escape, so I gave her a drink of Wangchen water. I know I'm selfish, but what I want, I'll definitely get.

Later, she has been following me, I call her Qingli, she calls me Son, I thought that I would live well with her forever. But the change of Shangfu happened in this year, just like the bad luck that fell from heaven, I didn't expect it, I watched all my relatives die in front of my eyes, but I could only watch like this, there was nothing I could do.

It was at that time that Qingli grabbed my hand tightly and told me that I needed patience and timing. And she will always be by my side, as long as she can take revenge, she is willing to sacrifice anything.

But it was also at that time that my dignified merchant son became the king's male favorite, I am a man who stands up to the sky, a man, but in the end, I can only use that so-called peerless appearance to please the enemy who killed me all over the house.

For this path of revenge, I didn't even know myself later. It was also for this road that I personally pushed the woman I loved the most to hell from which I could never recover.

How much does my heart hurt when I see her going around with all those who are full of faces for me? At that moment, my heart was like thunder and lightning, but I could only bury these pains in the depths, but I still had to show a happy smile on my face. But who could have known, at that moment, I felt like a flat boat on the sea, casually blown and ravaged by the storm.

Actually, Qingli's heart should hurt more than mine, but I still said to let her wash it clean. How sad she must have been when she heard that, and who am I to speak of her?

Sometimes, I really hate myself. Shang Lian, you are still not human! Still not the one who loves her! Every time, I regret it, but after each regret, I have to face the established facts, and I have to deal with those disgusting faces.

I wanted to stop it, I wanted to hold her tightly, and tell her that I would protect you well in the future, but it was so pale that I didn't even believe it. Because there really is only one step left, as long as I take one step further, I can give her the happiness she wants. All we need now is food, grass, and money......

Later, it was she who I sacrificed. This time, she seemed to be really disappointed in me, disappointed that I finally pushed her away, disappointed that I actually fell her into the abyss, ruthlessly, and forced her to death from the heart.

She didn't cry the time she put on her wedding dress, although I would have preferred that she could scold me loudly and vent to me, but she didn't. She's always like that, she'll sacrifice everything for me.

But that time, she seemed determined to say her last goodbye to me, and I knew that I had lost her eventually. She toasted me three glasses of wine, and she drank those three glasses of wine so crisply, and my relationship with her was like the liquor in her hand, which led her to stop thinking. I was careful to hold the love for her in the palm of my hand, but it wasn't until she was getting farther and farther away from me that I realized that the relationship had long since dissolved.

Later, when I saw her again, I realized what it meant to regret not being at the beginning. If I can anticipate such a change, I should take good care of her when the years are quiet. Even if it's just a hug, even if you gently rub her in your arms...... Maybe the ending between me and her will be different?

She fell into my arms with a smile on her face, and although I avenged it with my own hands and embarked on the road to domination of the world, she gave her life for me, and everything was gone. I lost her, how can I threaten to give her happiness. I still remember that I took her hand and solemnly promised that when I sat in the world, she would be the only one in my harem.

But the so-called reunion and parting, the so-called admiration and longing, the so-called waiting and stumbling, the so-called love, and the so-called pain all condensed into a short time at the moment I lost her.

In fact, I rarely owe anything, but I owe her a blessing. I rarely promised anything, but I only promised my sincerity. So, I don't want to watch her leave, I've lost all my loved ones, I don't want to lose even her.

In the days after she woke up, I was so happy that I married the woman I loved the most in my life. That night, when I listened to her call me to be a husband, I felt as if all the suffering I had suffered was worth it for this moment. I could do nothing, but I could just see her smile.

However, she always felt inferior because of her disfigurement, and no matter how many times I told her, she would not dislike it, but she always resented it, so that I knew that I was responsible for everything that happened later, and I was not in a position to blame her. As she said, didn't I do all of this?

Therefore, I must protect her, and the best way to protect her is to let her go, out of this complicated palace.

As long as she is safe and lives well, that's enough.

It's a pity that I can't tell her that I really love her, but it's a pity that I'm afraid that I will never have a chance to say it again......

I don't know, is there an afterlife?

Probably not, she hated him so much. hated so much that she never wanted to meet him again, so hated that she begged him not to choose her again in the next life.

Later, I think it's been more than 30 years since she left, and I've always thought that she's right there for me.

"Qingli, there was a flood in the south today, and you said that you like the softness of Jiangnan, so I must do my best to relieve the disaster, don't worry."

"Qingli, today the imperial chef made the wine-stuffed balls you made for me, but unfortunately his cooking is not as delicious as yours."

"Qingli, I miss you so much."

……

I don't think you'll ever come back and never forgive me again.

Actually, I want to tell you before I die, I would rather be a yellow bird, a scroll of paper, a paulownia leaf, but also tell you, close to your ear, to tell you, I really love you. (To be continued.) )