Chapter 443: Psychological Shadow

Mrs. Shen is Shen Ningxiang. The pen fun pavilion www.biquge.info Mu Hanfeng married her into the Mu Mansion as a flat wife, and the subordinates in the house called her Mrs. Shen. He opened his eyes, slowly got up, got out of bed, and opened the door. "Lord, letter" The sword boy lowered his head and handed over the light-colored letterhead with both hands, quickly looked up, and took a few steps back.

Mu Hanfeng took the letter, turned around and entered the house, and said as he walked: "Sword boy, who sent the letter?" But the people of the house. ”

"The subordinates don't know. I don't think I've seen it in the house. The sword boy raised his head and looked at Mu Hanfeng cautiously: "Very eye-catching, I asked him if he was new to the house." ”

"New here. What about people" Mu Hanfeng took the envelope and turned his face: "Go and let him come in in a while and bring a letter back." ”

Mu Hanfeng entered the house, lit an oil lamp and opened the letter, Shen Ningxiang wrote all lovesick words, and asked him how the battle was going, and told him to take care of himself and return safely. Later, he was vaguely reminded that next month would be the three-year festival of Princess Jinyu.

Three-year festival! The corners of Mu Hanfeng's mouth pulled up a sneer, a wry smile.

The three-year sacrifice is just his excuse, and he won't have sex with her in three years plus another three years, it's not that he doesn't want to, but he can't do it.

Three years ago, Yan Qianyan left Mufu with a huge belly, and then bad news came. After it took him three months to confirm that she gave birth safely and lived a worry-free life, he sent two trusted people to infiltrate Qingshan in the name of merchants and secretly protect her. married Shen Ningxiang as a flat wife in a very low-key manner.

He still hasn't figured it out, putting aside those premeditated conspiracies, he is bent on marrying Shen Ningxiang as his wife, he wants to fulfill his promise and let her not shed tears. But when he did marry her, he was sadly and ridiculously surprised to find that he was not as excited as he had imagined, and that she, like other women, made him unable to accomplish what he was supposed to do. Not only can't it be done, but there is no idea at all.

He was very surprised at the time, although other women did not complete what they should do, at least they still wanted to do it without their strength, and they couldn't help themselves. But in the face of this woman he has always wanted to marry, he thinks he wants the most has no idea, and even a little disgusted.

can only make an excuse for not approaching a woman for three years to keep a grandmother's soul alive, but in fact, this is just what he said casually.

Later, he thought deeply about why he knew that all the functions of his body were good, but he could only play a role in the face of Yan Qianyan, and in the face of other women, even Shen Ningxiang, who had been in love for many years, could not complete it.

In the end, I came to the conclusion that from childhood to adulthood, in addition to grandma, dead mothers, and nurses, the only woman who can be trusted to approach is Yan Qianyan. The reason why there is such stubborn behavior is because of an unspeakable shadow in childhood. It was still buried deep in his heart, and for many years he forced himself not to think about it, and he thought that he had forgotten it a long time ago. But the shadows are everywhere. He was only eight years old that year, because of the rejection of his brothers and sisters, and he didn't like to take people with him, so he always went to the martial arts training ground in the backyard alone in the morning and evening to learn martial arts with his master. To go to the martial arts training ground, you have to pass through the place that is now a green grassland, which used to be an old warehouse to store some miscellaneous items. It was a summer evening, and after practicing kung fu with the master, he was still alone in his small courtyard as usual.

Passing by the old warehouse, he heard a strange noise, and he pushed the door in out of childish curiosity. I saw the scene that overwhelmed him.

Under the moonlight, my father's concubine was entangled naked with the guards in the house. The bright moonlight shone on Bai Huahua's body through the unobstructed window, making him want to vomit in disgust.

He turned around and wanted to leave, and the guards with extraordinary skills naturally wouldn't let him go easily. But he knew that he didn't dare to use coarseness, although he was alone, and Liu Wuying always followed not far behind him.

The guard had done something evil to free himself. At that time, Mu Hanfeng was only eight years old, and although he had studied with Liu Ling for several years, he was not strong enough. Soon subdued by him, he stripped him naked, and forced him to attach himself to a woman and do something very despicable. And his father's concubine, the woman he called his aunt, shamelessly fiddled with him. Naturally, an eight-year-old child can't do that kind of thing, but he insulted him fiercely.

Of course, he was a child who was pinched, and it didn't take a few days for the guards to reveal the affair with that woman. He saw with his own eyes the guards being beaten alive and their roots pulled out, the women being brutally executed, and the body that had ravaged him shattered and bleeding. 、

He turned away in disgust, almost spitting out bile. The man who put him to shame was punished with destruction, and no one knew about the unbearable experience of that. This incident left him with a heavy psychological shadow, when he saw a woman, especially a woman who showed his body, he would think of the white flesh, where there was still a little action.

When I grew up, I naturally didn't feel the same as when I was a child. He knew that it was important to be a man. So would love to be treated. But he almost never succeeded, so he felt inferior in front of Liu Wuying and Xia Chenyu. Just in the heart, of course.

At that time, he felt powerless in the face of other women because he was dissatisfied and disdained them. As long as you marry your favorite Shen Ningxiang, you will change.

But he didn't expect that Yan Tanyan, who had been hated from the bottom of his heart since he was a child, made him enjoy the fun of a man, and he never got tired of it.

When Yan Tianyan was in Mufu, he always thought that he really hated her, and once wanted to toss her over and over again because he hated her too much. 、

He knew he wasn't sick. But the strange thing is that after testing,. In the face of other women, he still can't finish it, even if it's a woman he hates. He figured there was no one he hated more than her.

Later, with the contact with Yan Tanyan's ears and temples day by day, he found that he didn't really hate her in his heart, and he couldn't leave her little by little, and he liked her little by little, and later she had his child. He once thought that his grandmother's decision was not bad.

Now I figured it out a little bit more. In the past, although I thought about her in my head, I hated it, and I felt that I hated it. The reason why the body did not reject it was because she was still a child at that time. After being humiliated that day, he returned to his yard and saw her, who looked at him with wide, sparkling eyes that were not at all impurities, and they were very pure. Although he habitually stepped forward and kicked her and snatched her rag doll. but the heart is much purer.

That is, when she saw her, she didn't immediately think of the dirty appearance of her father's concubine.

Yan Qianyan and Shen Ningxiang were the two women he had seen with bare skin when he grew up, and he didn't think of Bai Huahua's physical squirming.

He felt that he had no self-control in the face of Yan Tanyan, and his ability was extraordinary. The reason why he didn't have any thoughts about Shen Ningxiang was that Yan Tianyan grew up with him, and he had never associated her with the disgusting body that wanted to vomit. So in his eyes, her body is the most beautiful.

But why can't you do anything to Shen Ningxiang, but she doesn't have any idea why.

But I can't figure it out.