Chapter 30: The Soul Returns
Anything that happened in the palace or Xiliao after that, Qing Ning didn't care. The person she hated www.biquge.info had gotten the ending she deserved, and the one she loved had long since disappeared and could never come back.
Now she is like a puppet, there is no night, no day, she can only lie on the bed that is getting colder and colder. In addition to sleeping and drinking medicine, Qingning's most common thing to do now is to look at the bed curtain in a daze.
Even with the arrival of Ming Xu, Qing Ning did not have a different expression.
"Qingning, do you know, during this time, I have been wondering if I was wrong at the beginning. If I hadn't insisted on marrying you at the beginning, then now, are you still the galloping horse on the grassland......" Looking at Qing Ning, who was lying on the bed without a trace of brilliance, Mingxu muttered.
At this moment, he is no longer the king of Western Liao, he only wants to be the Ming Xu he once was.
"Remember what I said to you when I first taught you to play chess? Playing chess, you can see a person's inner ......" Ming Xu's voice suddenly paused, as if he was calming down something, "Do you know how frightened I was when I saw the hatred and killing intent in your heart from the chess game?" ”
"I thought that with the passage of time, everything would pass, and I could slowly heal your wounds...... But when I saw the hatred in your heart finally burst out, I realized how wrong I was. Your wounds, time can't erase them, and I can't heal them even more. ”
"I don't know what's wrong, what I want to give you has always been love and protection, but I always hurt you again and again......."
When he said the back, Ming Xu's voice was a little choked. But Qingning still didn't have any expression and didn't say a word.
When Ming Xu left Fengyi Palace, the whole person seemed to have become much older, and his back was so desolate.
Even though he drank bowl after bowl of medicine every day, Qing Ning's body was still getting worse.
Mingxu will come every once in a while, and he will talk to himself and Qingning a lot. Qing Ning never opened her mouth to respond to anything, but only she and An An knew that her tears had wet many pillows in the night.
Except for An An, she didn't say a word to anyone again. She hated the place and the people.
Last night she dreamed of the familiar grassland, which was her beloved Ulanbuir grassland. When she woke up, she knew that her time had finally come to an end......
Although she hadn't gotten out of bed for a month, today she wanted to leave the bed she was tired of lying on and bask in the sun she hadn't seen for a long time.
It's nice to sit at the desk and feel the sun shining warmly on your body.
After looking at the blank paper in front of him for a long time, Qing Ning finally picked up the pen and slowly wrote on the paper.
Now she doesn't have much strength, even if she writes a few words, her hand holding the pen is a little trembling.
After putting down the pen, Qing Ning only took a piece of white paper and covered it, and then called An An.
"An An, you go back to the grassland." After looking An An up and down for a long time, Qing Ning said, "I can't go back, if you can go back, it will be a comfort to me." It's not a good place to be......"
"Princess, the servant will always be with you. Even if she returned to the grassland, the maid hoped to accompany the princess back. An An's tears suddenly couldn't help but flow out, I'm afraid no one can understand her heartache during this time.
"The grassland, that's where I never dreamed of going back. Even if I die, I hope that I will be buried in the grassland instead of being buried in this cold tomb of the Western Liao King. Qing Ning's voice was light, like a gust of wind blowing.
But these words blew into the ears of Mingxu, who was standing outside the door. At that moment, Mingxu's heart felt as if it had been hit hard by a hammer, and it was dull and painful......
"You go down first, I want to sleep here for a while." Qing Ning lay on the recliner next to the table and said softly to An An.
When An An exited, he saw Ming Xu standing outside the door, and just wanted to speak, but was interrupted by Ming Xu.
Mingxu walked to the window gently, looking at Qingning's quiet sleeping face, with a shallow smile on his pale face. He couldn't remember how long it had been since he had seen Qing Ning's face like this, everything in front of him was so beautiful that he couldn't bear to break it.
I don't know how long I stood there, but a breeze blew through the open window and blew up a blank piece of paper on the table. The words that were originally covered were so faintly reflected in Mingxu's eyes.
Mingxu had forgotten how crazy he ran into the house when he saw those words. Looking at those few words, and the person beside him who didn't seem to have any breath, Ming Xu actually had a kind of pain, despair and fear that even his soul was whipped.
He trembled his hands and slowly approached Qing Ning's nose, and when his fingers stopped in one place and he couldn't feel any breath, Ming Xu's whole body collapsed to the ground.
His hands clutched the piece of paper tightly, and tears flowed from the corners of his eyes.
"At the end of the day, don't you want to say another word to me? Do you hate me like this? Mingxu's voice was bitter and desperate.
"You've failed me after all." Ming Xu repeated the words on the paper over and over again, and finally laughed with tears, "Is this what you left me at the end?" Qingning, how can you be so cruel......"
Standing in this gloomy dead wood forest, looking at the person and bird in front of him, Qing Ning didn't expect his heart to be so calm.
"Now I suddenly have some gratitude to you." Qing Ning said lightly, "Death without memory, no longer consciously living, maybe this is the way to stay away from all suffering." ”
"Can I ask you one last favor?" After thinking about it for a long time, Qing Ning still spoke, "Is it okay for me to enter my brother's dream?" If I die, my brother will definitely find trouble in Xiliao, and I don't want the grassland, which has finally settled down, to fall into war again. ”
"I don't need it." Dream shook his head slightly and said, "When your soul returns to my body, the traces of your existence in this world will disappear, and no one will remember the slightest trace of you." So, what you worry about, won't happen. ”
"Does no one remember?" Qing Ning was suddenly a little stunned, but finally muttered, "It's okay like this, nothing has ever existed." ”
Dream didn't say anything more, took off the porcelain vase around his waist, and said, "Now you can choose a new environment for your child to grow up, maybe this will be the only trace of your existence." ”
No matter how many times she looks at this child, Qingning still cries. Trying hard to stop the tears and wiping the tear stains from the tears, Qing Ning spoke: "If I can, I hope he can become my brother's child and live in my lively grassland......"
"Okay." Dream nodded, took back the porcelain vase, and said, "When your brother's wife becomes pregnant, I will give this child into her womb." ”