Yuxiao looked at the dust floating in the sunlight and light in front of her, which contained the teacher's hoarse saliva and the bones that shattered and dissipated as Gaji's chalk swept across the blackboard. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

The test papers flipped with a bang, and all kinds of pens knocked on the table covered with thin test papers, ringing into an endless ocean, the ocean poured into Yuxiao's ears, and then the whole body, Yuxiao gasped for breath to avoid being annihilated and suffocated.

The words on the book also became blurred under the dazzling sun, the warm sun in the north made Yuxiao a little dizzy, and there was still half a class time, Yuxiao felt that the stomach in her body was like a balloon that had been released, and the two walls were glued together.

Yuxiao gasped for breath, he looked at his table mates holding the pen upright, and marked the topic with the teacher's best explanation.

Yuxiao was bursting in front of her eyes again.

Finally after school, Yuxiao numbly followed everyone to get up, pack up the books, and move out of the classroom and school. The bustling campus is full of sounds of slapstick and jokes. Yuxiao carefully bypassed the bicycle flow and turned into the community. Yuxiao sometimes envies those classmates who live far away, and can ride a bicycle together on the road and laugh. He was only a short way away, and soon he returned home, and when he got home, he had eaten, and he was in a daze and was about to leave again. He felt tired.

Yuxi opened the door, his younger brother was already at home, his younger brother was more like a student at school, he would get a lot of gifts on his birthday, he also socialized with girls, and he had already changed a girlfriend, although his mother, father and head teacher always beat him, thinking that he was a bad boy compared to his brother, and Yuxiao, he envied his younger brother and felt that he was tormented, whether at home or at school. Yuxiao doesn't know about Yuxie, although they eat and live together every day, they don't know each other. Yuxiao doesn't go out to play with others, he chooses to read magazines at home, and only goes out to get a haircut or buy something when he is really bored, or go to the bath to take a shower. Yu Xie will often go out with friends, he has a cabinet, Yu Xiao doesn't know what is inside, he knows in his heart that it is the extra things that his parents give Yu Xie, he doesn't fight, one is brotherly love, and the other is that he doesn't care about these little things. Yu Xiao felt that his life seemed to be too long, in the third year of high school, the whole school seemed to be as excited as chicken blood, he was immersed in this atmosphere, and felt that he should also behave like a warrior, but his heart sank deeper and went deeper, like a deep sea, with no end. Yuxiao felt that his heart was not in harmony with the environment, but he didn't know how to solve it. He didn't seem to see the road ahead, and he didn't know what kind of song could show his mood.

When Yuxiao was on duty, he felt that his heart had become quieter, and the simple mopping and sweeping that could stop was actually the greatest happiness. The simpler the pleasure, the more extravagant it is. He looked at the smiling couple in the corridor outside, Yu Xiao took a breath and lowered his eyes, that girl, Yu Xiao felt that she was robbed by that person, it was the boy who lived opposite the house. The happier the boy was, the more uncomfortable Yuxiao became, as if she had been beaten by the rain, and the more her heart curled up to the bottom of her abdomen, as if she could avoid the tears that flowed from her heart. Yuxiao really wanted to rush out and shouted at them, "What are you laughing at? You're deliberately upsetting others by being so happy, aren't you? But Yuxiao wanted to take the mop in her hand and smash her head hard. He imagined that he had snot and tears, and sat on the ground sobbing in dejection. Then the classmates were disdainful and brought hand towels to help him clean his face. He felt so incompetent. He felt that there was always an impulse in his body, and he didn't know whether it was right or wrong, for fear that if he really did what he wanted, he would make others think that this person was crazy.

Yuxiao felt that she had to be a despicable little person. That's right, why is this girl her own? There is no shortage of people who like it, why do they always come to coax you! Yuxiao mopped the floor hard in frustration, as if she wanted to wipe the floor so transparent that she could see underneath. Yuxiao thought of the girl in the class next door, with slightly yellow hair, snow-white skin, quiet eyes like a lake, and a face like a doll. I remember that two years ago, when she was doing recess exercises, she stood alone in her own position to do the exercises, just standing quietly, not messing with others, her hand with dark blue velvet gloves was always under her lips, and her index finger was erected next to her slightly upturned small nose.

She seems to have transferred from another school, and she has never been seen laughing with boys. Yuxiao was amazed that such a good girl would definitely make the boy tease her unconsciously. But Yuxiao also heard that this girl had just been transferred to the next class, and as soon as she walked into the classroom, it caused a sigh from both boys and girls, but there seemed to be a layer of unblasphemous expression on her face. As she walked into her seat, the boys began to make a noise, some even whistled. At this time, I saw her looking back at them, and all the boys immediately quieted down, and they didn't dare to make any sound.

After hearing this, Yuxiao couldn't help but sigh with emotion, and immediately became interested in this girl, and every time she saw her, she would have a little more affection and respect. I saw her at noon today, stepping on the snow with three girls, skiing on the snow, talking and laughing. I'm more cheerful than before, and I'm more smiling. I don't know what kind of school she will go to.

When the day was over, he realized that he was the only one left in the class, so he found the lock on the handle behind the door and locked the door. There weren't many people left in the school, and there were a few boys playing basketball in thin sweaters on the playground. He walked carelessly, his feet were walking towards home, his eyes closed, and his feet remembered the way. But his heart did not follow, but went to the back, and he felt that he was always not following the direction of his heart. Sometimes, he wants to leave home, leave the city, and see what it's like outside, but now it seems unlikely, and he feels that he should go out early to get a job or something, anyway, going to school is the least way he should go. Yuxiao felt that he had no way out, he often wondered why it seemed simple to others, but it was so difficult for himself, and he only understood this reason after more than ten years. Yu Xiao sometimes envied the gifts Yu Xie received, and he sometimes held the half-human-tall teddy bear, but Yu Xie was angry that his brother always took down the plastic bag with the bear on it. And my brother likes to play with the toys he receives domineeringly, but he scolds him for always asking him to return the toys inexplicably, he thinks that his brother is an unreasonable person, and he thinks that his brother is very jealous of him, so that's why it's like this. Yujie is tall and slender. Yuxiao sometimes feels like a person who has lived for a long time, as if it has been a century. Did he think he was almost out of life? But every day, as soon as I open my eyes, I can see the boring sun or the dark night. Some scenes from his childhood appear in his memory. His memory seemed to avoid a lot of things.

Yuxiao gave herself a label that was lonely and cold. He deliberately avoided a lot of interactions, he sometimes had nosebleeds, he was not in a hurry, looking at the bright red hot strands of blood, he felt amazing, how could it be so good-looking. Other classmates must have thought he was crazy when they saw him immersed in the pleasure of appreciating his own blood.

Yuxiao likes the rain that falls in Xiaoxiao, he thinks about how soft Jiangnan is like jade, he feels that he seems to be the son of the long shirt and scarf on the small bridge in Jiangnan, with a soft smile on his face, and the corners of his eyes and eyebrows are full of friendship. He thinks Jia Baoyu is the same. That amorous and seemingly ruthless Jia Gongzi. Yuxiao and Yuxiao rarely come out together, they each have their own lives, just like Yuxiao will wash his rain boots on the rainy small puddle road, while Yuxiao will definitely not. As for why it won't, Yuxiao doesn't know.

In summer, sometimes there will be a sudden downpour, Yuxiao likes rain, he feels that he should live in the water, he does not feel that the water is dangerous, on the contrary, he feels that the sea seems to hide some secrets, can tell him, solve some of his mysteries. Why is there a discrepancy between his intuition and common sense, he thinks he should go to the sea, and keeps walking in, he doesn't understand what the reason is, is it because of his own psychological problems? It's still a hunch.

He often struggled with such strange questions.

The boy who lived in the front building made Yuxiao angry, and Yuxiao was in the same class. seems to have a superior family background, and his body is always clean and spotless, and when he talks, he also makes others like to talk to him. Yuxiao is often envious, but it is strange that such a high-grade boy likes to buy some chicken chops or gluten skewers from roadside stalls to eat. His brow is light, but his eyes are large but his eyelids are thicker, his skin appears pale, and he seems to be pale and weak. I study very well, I like to buy all kinds of pens, and I am also very particular about stationery. Yuxiao doesn't like to walk with this boy very much, although this boy seems to like to socialize with Yuxiao. Every time she walks with this boy, Yuxiao always feels embarrassed. Can't let Yuxiao be at ease and harmonious. The boy didn't pay attention to the school's rule that boys and girls were not allowed to socialize, and still escorted the girls home every day and then came back. Yuxiao envied him for having courage, and he was afraid of being caught by the teacher or the dean of teaching and humiliated even when he talked to the boys. So he felt more ashamed of himself than others. This complicated feeling made him secretly hateful.

This boy lives on the same floor as Yuxiao, and when he looks over from Yuxiao's side, the family shows a state of seeming to be there and nothing, as if the men and women of that family are not talkative, but it does not mean that they are silent and numb, on the contrary, it seems to show some aura.

When Yuxiao sometimes looks at the opposite side on the balcony of her humble cement embryo, the balcony is not lit nine times out of ten, and the bedroom next to it is lit with a white table lamp, and there is no figure and sound under the table lamp, and the room next to it is also dark, only the picture of the TV keeps changing, and there is no shaking of the human figure.

Maybe they are all moving in the invisible room or living room, otherwise how could they be so quiet, quiet and lonely.

Yuxiao didn't know that this was the difference between an only child and multiple children in the family. A child's home always seems a little quiet and silent.

Of course, Yuxiao was only sixteen years old, how could he know this? This is also more than ten years later, when Yuxiao also had her own troublesome children.

Thirty-year-old Yuxiao was playing on the computer, and she seemed to have no memory or feeling. Of course, this is later. Sixteen-year-old Yuxiao is still curious and moved by her life, and will be sad and sad because of some prose.

Sixteen-year-old Yuxiao is so thin, he only eats a bowl of rice, half a plate of shredded potatoes, or a bowl of tofu and cabbage soup.

He thought his table mate was funny, but he was a little too dark, but his hairy eyes, which always seemed to be rippling, were beautiful. Yuxiao sometimes deliberately gets angry with her, and Yuxiao is not very good at saying good things. The girl didn't seem to care, but sometimes she suddenly said something very prickly, which made Yuxiao's face white and red.

Yuxiao didn't think she was really angry, she was just joking! At this time, Yuxiao will also have a rare reflection on whether she really said something just now. But he really couldn't remember. At this time, Yuxiao would feel interested, no interest, and even more stupid and sat there, not knowing what to do.

Sometimes the girl sitting in the back will sing, and the girl's big eyes and fair skin are considered to be the first class flowers in the class.

Yuxiao envies this girl who is very happy every day despite her poor grades.

Yuxiao hated the sixteen incandescent tube lamps on the ceiling of the classroom, which were so bright for self-study at night, brighter than a hundred days. Yuxiao felt that the brighter the lamp, the more tired she was, this lamp was an order, hurry up and study, but Yuxiao felt like a string that was getting tighter and tighter, and the thinner and thinner it was going to break if it was not loosened.