Chapter 188: The Concern That Can't Be Parted With
A flustered movement, a burst of confused thoughts, and Dacheng's swollen body and mind caused him to be in extreme excitement and anxiety. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info gradually, he felt the abnormality in his arm, under the arm, Shihui did not move, there was no writhing and murmuring in harmony with it, there was no struggle and resistance, like a walking dead to be caressed and ravaged. He suddenly came to his senses, realized the seriousness of the problem, and gradually stopped his increasingly frantic movements.
This is obviously not Shi Hui in a normal state, in his impression, when Shi Hui encounters his invasion, whether prepared or unprepared, she is not allowed to approach, she is always vigilant, stubborn, and even confrontational, and she does not compromise with his will. Now this is not the case at all, without the slightest defense, without the slightest vigilance, it seems that she has indeed encountered something unusual, and it is frustrating and even devastating, otherwise, she would definitely not have done so. If you continue to do it yourself, you will undoubtedly take advantage of the danger of others, it is a bandit act, and it is immoral.
He stared at Shihui, who was sitting motionless on the lawn, trying to discover something from her expression, but she didn't seem to have the slightest concentration or interest in him, and her expression seemed to float in the far west. He reached out to help her again, but then he shrank back like an electric shock. He was a little confused, even panicked, not knowing how to continue, how to control the time and space of the two of them. He sat down, beside her, and deliberately kept a little distance. Although this spacing has little practical significance, its symbolic meaning is very obvious, it is to reserve a space within one's own ability, to retain a good feeling. But he obviously didn't know how to communicate further, how to resolve this tense atmosphere hanging in mid-air, and finally simply fell down, handed over time and space to Shihui, and quietly accompanied her to create a sense of tranquility and tranquility.
He held his chin and consciously immersed himself in self-absorption. Looking at the starry night sky, the brightly lit night city, and the looming flow of people, listening to the sound of the river and the occasional car horn not far away, he seemed to feel that the world was quietly performing all kinds of ulterior things just like the two of them. He tried to think about how much brightness is left in this world, how much integrity and justice, and how much trust and honesty are left. The embarrassment in front of him, isn't it just manipulated by himself, not to mention despicable, at least not frank enough, knowing that people have the master in their hearts, but they just plugged in a bar. How should love be obtained, whether this field is like laws and regulations, there have been guidelines, rules and regulations, must be a turnip and a pit, and there must be no transgression, or change course. Her own intervention is her luck or a nightmare, and what can she give her. Is it really just selfishness and **, a rebel against established conventions, a scavenger of stereotypes? Or maybe not, it was Shihui's pretentious gesture, it was a female instinct, it was deliberately made him so entangled, it was she who teased his nerves, so as to achieve a state she wanted. No, absolutely not, Shihui in his impression is definitely not such a person.
"Dacheng, I know it's hard for you. All along, only you genuinely care about me and care for me, and I have always been grateful. Shihui finally spoke in a calmer tone, "But now, I don't have the heart to take care of these things, I want to go back, you can send me back, okay?" ”
"Of course you want to go back, I'll definitely send you back. But the way you look like this, you say that it reassures me, I can rest assured! What the hell is wrong with you," Shi Hui had just finished speaking, and the great achievement was answered, and he needed to figure it out so badly, "You have to tell me anyway, or I'll be restless." It was originally good, but I can't figure out how it suddenly became like this. Seeing how sad you are, I know it's not ordinary things that bother you. Could it be that Dongfang Yu has something ugly that you can't forgive, or something that you can't forgive? ”
"You still don't care about my business, I'll solve my own affairs, don't work others, I beg you?" Shihui looked a little impatient, both in tone and expression.
"Someone else? In your mind, I am someone else. Dacheng did not retreat because of this, but seemed very excited. He obviously couldn't listen to Shihui and include him in the scope of others, "What's wrong with you, why can't you say it, can I still harm you?!" ”
Shihui was not as anxious as Dacheng expected, and when she saw him angry, her expression became calm again, tepid, and sluggish. Dacheng was out of luck for a while.
"I don't know why you're like this, but I want you to be happy and always happy." In the car back, Dacheng said to Shihui, who was still dull beside him, "At the same time, I also ask for your forgiveness, forgive me for my impulsiveness just now." ”
Shihui turned her face sideways, looking at Dacheng who was staring at Dacheng with both hands on the steering wheel and staring ahead, with a smiling expression. Dacheng didn't see Shihui's squeak, and from the corner of his eyes, he noticed that Shihui seemed to have something unusual, so he turned his face sideways, and saw that her smile had not completely converged, so he immediately hit the right turn signal and leaned the car on the side of the road.
"You're smiling, you're finally happy," Dacheng tightened the handbrake, "You know, I'm so happy to see you laugh." ”
"Am I happy," Shihui said, but her expression was obviously different from before, "I hope I am really happy." ”
"Happy or not, I still hope you forgive me."
"Forgive you, have you done anything that I need to forgive," Shihui asked rhetorically, "How come I don't know?" ”
Dacheng was speechless for a while, waving his right hand for a long time, and he didn't know how to express the artistic conception at that time, how to express it felt inappropriate, and he felt that it was difficult to speak, and finally simply put his hand back on the steering wheel.
"You didn't do anything wrong, I don't feel that you did anything wrong, you don't have to blame yourself and feel sad, let alone apologize and ask me for forgiveness." Shi Hui's words were calm, as if the topic she was talking about had nothing to do with her.
Dacheng was skeptical, he didn't know the psychology of women very well, and in his opinion, making love with a woman without her cooperation was definitely unpopular, and his heart must be disgusted. The reason why Shihui said this to him was to give him face or give him steps. If this is the case, he will feel even more self-ashamed, even more pathetic, and even more mixed in his heart. This will mean that the two of them are getting farther and farther apart from each other, or more objectively, Shihui is becoming more and more distant from him. Thinking about it this way, he, a seven-foot man who was proud of his career and was full of spirit, became more and more pessimistic and even inferior.