Su Ruohan looked at Forsythia's body behind the screen and trembled, and then she wanted to faint, she still remembered that when she was in Jingyi Pavilion, she said that she was going to announce a big event today, but she didn't expect that she wanted to come over and take another look at Chu Yan, but this glance became a parting. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 info She couldn't help but feel a little sad for her, but she knew why Mu Changqing did this, because whenever it involved the symbol of his rights, he would clean it up, so no matter who sent the woman over, he would never ask for it again, but he would also give them enough face, after all, he would not let anyone lead the nose in the future, this is the current Mu Changqing, and he is also the emperor of Mu State, he seems to have changed a little.

Chu Yan accepted everyone's congratulations, and said that he was happy, but the smile on his face was very difficult, but in order to make her die, and in order to make himself die, he had to do this.

Forsythia finally knew what that gaze meant just now, tears were rolling in his eyes, it turned out that he had been hiding from himself, but she now had a lot of questions, whether he knew about today's marriage, or he already knew, suddenly she understood, everything was so simple, she was just a maid, and the woman who gave the marriage was a princess, a symbol of status and power, even though she was dressed very beautiful today, but in his eyes, I'm afraid I'm not in a hurry with that Princess Xu Tianjiao. At this moment, Forsythia suddenly wanted to let go of her laughter, but she was stiff and restrained, such distress, she felt 120,000 difficult to breathe.

Forsythia had been immersed in her own sad world, and suddenly looked up but couldn't see him, but there was no figure of him in the audience, where did he go? Although until now, she still didn't want to lose sight of looking at his figure, and at this moment she panicked.

Su Ruohan was beside the Queen Mother, and said lightly: "Queen Mother, you said that as long as I follow you to this banquet today, I will agree to Ruohan no matter what." ”

Xu Qiushui looked back at her and said, "What do you want?" ”

Su Ruohan pointed to the woman beside Tian Ling'er and said, "I want her to be my palace maid." ”

Xu Qiushui was stunned, is it so simple, just asking for a palace maid, but her eyes looked at Tian Ling'er, Tian Ling'er also noticed it, and then turned around, her face was very puzzled, but Xu Qiushui knew Su Ruohan's intentions, presumably she was jealous, so she wanted the maid beside her, and she didn't say anything, just nodded: "Okay." ”

The grandmother beside Xu Qiushui immediately walked to Tian Ling'er's side, and conveyed the meaning of the Queen Mother, Tian Ling'er noticed for the first time the woman standing next to the Queen Mother, and the surprise in her eyes was that she was so beautiful. Then he looked at her very vigilantly, was she declaring war like herself?

Forsythia slowly walked in the direction of Su Ruohan, but Tian Linger quietly stretched out her foot, and deliberately tripped her, just to see that Forsythia didn't notice it at all, suddenly her body was weightless, she fell to the side, and the tray in her hand was also poured, and the wine in the wine glass actually spilled her, very embarrassed, but it was not good to be rude in front of the emperor.

Tian Ling'er thought she was going to die, but Su Ruohan took the lead in walking over, helped her up, and said lightly: "Are you okay?" ”

Forsythia also pretended to meet for the first time, and then shook his head.

Su Ruohan smiled faintly and said, "Do you know where my Jingyi Pavilion is, right?" You go back first, and from now on, you will follow me. ”

Forsythia knew that she was deliberately exculpating herself, so she got up and walked out, but Mu Changqing looked in the direction of Su Ruohan, although the movement just now was very small, but he still looked over, but he also pretended not to know, and turned his head again.

Outside the Golden Palace, it was already very cold outside, but Forsythia was still looking for the familiar figure in the courtyard, she knew that he was hiding from herself, there were a lot of questions, she had to ask clearly, she had to ask them face to face.

Soon I saw him behind the rockery, and sure enough, I saw him leaning next to the big tree under the locust tree, he was dressed in a cyan robe, holding a wine jug in his hand, as if he was in a daze, like a memory, in short, his expression was very distant.

Forsythia walked over and looked at him in a daze.

Chu Yan also drank a little too much, I don't know why he seemed to be talking to himself, watching her come over, he thought he was dreaming, and smiled stupidly: "General Ben just wants to get drunk, and he doesn't want to see her, why is he always drunk, why do he always see her." ”

"Why are you afraid to see me?" Forsythia asked.

Chu Yan smiled stupidly: "Because I lost my word, I couldn't do all the things I promised her, she once said that I was like a dream, an unrealistic dream, she was always afraid of waking up from the dream, I gave her this dream, but this dream was also broken by me." ”

Forsythia stood at a distance from him and said softly, "Do you want to make up for this dream?" "Now, has he finally told the truth himself? He still has his own in his heart, and she actually has a glimmer of hope to come out.

Chu Yan shook his head and said: "She is destined to be a dream, we are destined to be people in dreams, why do we always live in dreams?" He smiled and said, "I want to get drunk, I don't want to get drunk, I don't hurt when I'm drunk, why am I always not drunk, why?" ”

Forsythia walked over and took the flask and smiled, "Are you the only one who wants to get drunk?" Forsythia threw up her head and poured the spicy wine into her mouth.

Chu Yan snatched the wine bottle and said, "What are you doing here?" He leaned against the trunk of the tree and asked, "What are you doing here?" ”

"I just want to get drunk, just like you." Forsythia said indifferently.

"You can't, you're not like me." Chu Yan shook his head, at this moment he had a splitting headache, as if he was about to explode, and his eyes were a little dilated in pain.

"How is it different, General Chu's heart aches, isn't Forsythia heartache? The general wants to get drunk to relieve a thousand sorrows, isn't forsythia? Yes, the general can talk and it doesn't matter, it's just a big deal to leave, but is it so difficult for Forsythia to get an answer? ”

"What are you doing here?" Chu Yan shook his head, he wanted to get drunk but Forsythia kept dangling in front of his eyes, is it so difficult to get drunk? He still couldn't tell whether it was reality or not, until just now on the top of the Golden Palace, when he said Xie Zhu Longen, he knew that in this life, he would never be with her again, never again.

Forsythia said with a charming smile: "What is the general doing here?" Is seeing forsythia a ghost? Why are you avoiding me? ”

Chu Yan was very painful and said, "What is the difference between seeing and not seeing, it just adds to the troubles." ”

Forsythia roared: "Of course there is a difference, do you take this as a trouble?" Is Forsythia so hateful in your eyes? If the general had not given Forsythia hope, then Forsythia would not have been struggling to ask for an answer. I forsythia have been frank and unrestrained all my life, and I think I have read countless people, but in this life, I am the only one who is emotional, but you are so bad, if you don't look down on me, you don't have to be so, you can be ruthless, why do you make me so sad, why do you give me dreams one by one, and then completely break the ....... ”

His lips were numb, his waist was tight, and the thick smell of wine sprayed towards Forsythia, Forsythia looked at the handsome face close at hand, he closed his eyes, Forsythia felt his lips wandering away from his lips, tears couldn't help falling, he had feelings for himself, she opened her cicada mouth and began to respond to him, and the two kissed passionately.

Forsythia responded to him enthusiastically, making him more and more reluctant to let go of her, hugging her tightly, as if to rub her into his own blood, Forsythia slowly put his hands on his neck.

Chu Yan didn't want to hear her speak, but she hurt herself word by word, he loved Forsythia, and his heart was on Forsythia, but the tragic death of his parents made him have no way to continue to accept Forsythia, and he had promised Emperor Jing that he would marry Xu Tianjiao, he had already walked towards a point of no return, so he couldn't, and he couldn't look at her nostalgically.

Chu Yan hugged and kissed Forsythia, he found that he wanted more and more, and suddenly let go of her, Forsythia opened his eyes and looked at him with a look of remorse. "What's wrong?" Forsythia asked.

Chu Yanyao nodded and said, "What are we doing?" ”

Forsythia took his hand and said, "I love you, I love you more than anyone else, and you like me too, don't you?" If not, how could you kiss me? Don't tell me you're drunk and can't tell who I am? The first time we met, you saved me, the second time we met, you helped me, I don't care what you have in your heart, as long as you don't push me away, the ends of the earth, I will go with you. ”

"No, Forsythia, I can't." Chu Yan turned around.

Forsythia hurriedly pulled him around and asked, "You're scared, aren't you?" ”

Chu Yan shook his head and said, "No." ”

Forsythia smiled and said, "Don't be afraid, okay?" Forsythia is not a far-fetched person, if the general regrets it, he will regret it, forsythia doesn't matter, since you said that you want to get drunk today, then how about Forsythia getting drunk with you? ”

Chu Yan looked at her suspiciously: "Why?" Why can't you be something else. ”

Forsythia smiled, stood on tiptoe and kissed his lips, she kissed on his lips like a dragonfly, her hands slowly changed to his neck, Chu Yan suddenly wrapped one hand around her waist, and one hand clasped her head to deepen the kiss, Forsythia's tears slipped down drop by drop, if today is the last time we meet, this heart is destined to be blocked, then let each other remember this night.

Forsythia kissed him unwillingly, Chu Yan slowly stopped looking at Forsythia's red and swollen lips and asked, "Why?" ”

Forsythia smiled: "General, don't think about asking why, because today you and I are drunk, we are just drunk, okay." ”

Chu Yan hurriedly pushed her away and said, "No, I can't." ”

Forsythia looked at him and said, "Why not, am I just disgusting you?" ”

"I'm already going to marry another woman, don't you know? Why are you pestering me? What is the comparison between your identity and hers, I will only marry the princess, not the palace maid. Chu Yan said, he was not afraid of putting nails on her heart one by one.

"I don't believe what you say, not a word." Forsythia roared, her tears kept falling, she smiled and said: "I am myself, I only want to be myself, Forsythia is destined to meet Chu Yan, the man who makes her heart move, it is fate that forcibly separates you and me, Forsythia can't be forced, but I want this man named Chu Yan to know that I will never fall in love with other people in my life, she will slowly grow old in the deep palace, because she has met the person she loves the most in this life, although fate forcibly separated them, but this night will still exist in her memory." ”

Forsythia's words made Chu Yan's heart ache as if it were cracked, but he still didn't look over, he didn't dare to look at her teary eyes at all, because he was afraid that he would be soft-hearted, and even more afraid that his heart of power would be out of control, he couldn't forget it, he couldn't forget it at all, the tragic death of his parents, Xu Qiushui's words still seemed to echo in his ears, "Don't you want to know who is behind the scenes?" They are all from Ruoxuan Pavilion, and they are meticulous works that kill people without blinking. ”

Chu Yan had no way to turn back, and he couldn't face the fact that he would fall in love with a fine work.

The night was even darker, and under the illumination of a red lamp, it was as bright as day, as if all the darkness had nothing to hide, so exposed to such a bright situation, the red lights covered the entire palace, dyeing a faint warm color for the originally bleak and cold court.

"Forget me, just ...... You've never met you. Chu Yan finally couldn't bear to say the words that hurt her again, because he hurt her a point, he hurt a lot, and his calm tone couldn't tell his real mood.

Forsythia smiled, her smile was very poignant, but she still said word by word: "Forgot? If you can really forget, why avoid me? Do you want to marry Xu Tianjiao? She is a princess, and I am a palace maid, you should be tired of such a world of differences, right? Forsythia murmured, and her whole body couldn't help twitching and trembling: "Just when you've never seen each other?" How easy it is to talk about, how can the feelings paid be recovered, and how can the person in love be forgotten! My life was originally peaceful, it was you who broke it all, and now you want to turn away in style, and let me bear these alone, I can, I can do it, but ...... Could it be that in the eyes of you men, there is only fame and fortune, only authority, and we women can really become a stone, and if you say you don't want to take it away, you can just take it away? ”

"I'm sorry." He whispered, because he didn't know what to say anything other than that: "It's me who is sorry for you." ”

"No, the general didn't feel sorry for Forsythia, it was Forsythia himself who didn't have this blessing, but he met you." Forsythia smiled, took out a handkerchief from the sleeve, the intricate pattern embroidered on it, but it was a pattern of auspicious clouds, just so simple, the pattern was in the corner of the handkerchief, and Xiangyun seemed to be almost finished, but she took it out now, obviously not a finished product, "this ......" Forsythia's voice choked, almost unable to speak, but she still insisted on finishing the words: "This embroidery is embroidered by my own hands, in order to embroider it for you, I chose a lot of patterns, and finally chose this cloudy, I didn't think that the relationship between you and me is really as unpredictable as a cloud, so I haven't finished the embroidery in a hurry, but I hope you will accept it, and it will be a congratulatory gift for your newlywed. ”

Chu Yan struggled in his heart, but he still accepted the handkerchief, he clutched it in the palm of his hand, his voice seemed to have recovered, and said lightly: "It's okay, I'll accept this, just as you are a congratulatory gift for my blessing." He smiled lightly: "But I won't put it on my body, because after today, I want you to completely forget about me, in your world, in your heart, and go out completely." ”

"What if I say I can't do it."

"It's up to you." After Chu Yan finished speaking, he was about to turn around and leave, his movements were so decisive, without procrastination, it was really like his current iron heart.

Luan Feng watched him turn away so resolutely, she actually looked at his back like this, since when did she find that the shadow in front of her was getting more and more blurred, but she didn't have time to reach out and wipe the tears on her face, he lost a lot of weight, suddenly she ran like crazy like crazy, running in the direction he left, but still couldn't catch up with the direction he left, suddenly, a trip under her feet, her body suddenly lost balance, suddenly she fell like a front, and finally fell heavily to the ground, but she didn't have time to think about it, so she got up and continued to run, Finally caught up with him, Chu Yan felt her presence, but suddenly couldn't take a step, how determined he was, but now he still couldn't ignore her existence.

Forsythia suddenly tightly wrapped around his waist from behind, Chu Yan was stunned, and subconsciously wanted to break free of her hand, but her hand was clutched, although she had no martial arts, but she used all her strength, just held it, and refused to let go.

Chu Yan lowered his head, under the bright light, he saw the slender hands, but at this moment, there was a blood stain, and the blood was still flowing out of her palm, she was injured? Chu Yan felt a pain in his heart, and then his hard-hearted heart softened again, he uncontrollably reached out to touch those wounds, Forsythia suddenly gasped softly, he didn't feel any pain when he ran just now, but now these hands hurt hotly, and suddenly her hands were still broken free, but Chu Yan turned his head and said with a questioning tone: "How did your hand hurt?" ”

Forsythia was very aggrieved and didn't speak, just looked at him, what dignity, she didn't want it, dignity and face in front of love, it was not worth mentioning, she knew that even if she forced it to stay, it would be useless.

"Why do you always hurt yourself!" Chu Yan still asked step by step.

"Do you care? Do you still care? How many of my wounds, what you can see and what you can't see, have you really cared about them? I watched you leave, and I couldn't control myself, so I ran after you all the way, and this relationship is also what I've been chasing you, but after all, I can't catch up with the back of your departure, and the decisive heart. Forsythia's voice was choked with a hint of choking, she was very sad, but even more sad that he could still say words that cared about her at the moment, wasn't it clear that he was so decisive? Why do you still care......

"I said it, you and I have no chance in this life, not to mention, I am not your lover, you are still not worth it after all." Chu Yan whispered.

"If I tell you that I am willing to go with you and not want anything, are you still willing to ask for me?" Forsythia's last glimmer of hope, she looked at him in a daze, there was a glimmer of hope in her heart, as long as he nodded, she didn't care about anything, as long as he nodded, she was willing to give up everything.

Chu Yan stroked the place on her body that she had touched just now, as if she was very disgusted, recovered the cold expression just now, looked down at her, and said lightly: "Do you want me to resist the decree and disrespect?" At present, the Minister of Civil and Military Affairs of the Manchu Dynasty, I have been given marriage, you ...... How to compare with Xu Tianjiao, Forsythia, stop deceiving yourself, wake up. What's more, as a courtier, I would never do such an outrageous thing, which is a great sin of disrespect. ”

Forsythia staggered, took two steps back, and finally sat on the ground, she felt her heart hurt very much, but she kept her composure: "The dignified protector of the country turned out to be scared sometimes. Forsythia asked aggressively, "What are you afraid of?" Are you afraid that your bloodthirsty life, which you have won with great difficulty, will be lost because of this incident? Or are you afraid that you will admit your feelings for me before, and now you are trying your best to get rid of it, and would rather abandon me and abandon your own sincerity, this is what you are afraid of! The so-called power and status are nothing but the sacrifice of your love, and after all, it is the price of your lifelong happiness! You ......"

"If you don't do it, General Ben is just afraid, so you should admit that you mistake me." Chu Yan interrupted her stiffly, looked at her coldly, and continued: "Even if General Ben doesn't have Xu Tianjiao, I will marry a dignitary and dignitary person to be the general's wife, and you are just a fine work in the past, and now you want to wash your name?" Don't be kidding, you are a fine work for a day, a fine work for life, do you remember the first meeting? Aren't you on a mission, your meticulous life has been destined by birth, and now you look at me pitifully, trying to escape from your life, do you think I will pity you and sympathize? General Ben is just playing with you, and now you are crying and begging me to let me take you away, why do you think that General Ben will give up his future for you, do you think you are beautiful? This big country, a beauty like you, this general can find a lot, my current status, as long as I want, as long as I want, there will be a lot of women who follow one after another, just rely on you, a meticulous work! Stop being delusional. Chu Yan must be ruthless to let her understand that they are no longer possible, but God knows that every word he says to hurt her now, it will all be on his heart, but today's overall situation has been decided, he has no way to turn back, and there is no room for reversal, he can't avenge his parents' enmity now, but he has no way to accept a person who comes out of Ruoxuan Pavilion, and Emperor Jing is a person he respects very much, the person he admires the most in his life, so as long as it involves the status of imperial power, he will do it without hesitation, the enmity of his parents, The woman he really loves, the person he respects, the relationship between the three is firmly bound to him, making him unable to breathe, which is very painful, so no matter what choice he makes, he must give up this friendship.

Forsythia was still sitting on the cold ground, looking at him coldly, and said, "Will you marry a well-connected person as the general's wife in the future?" She smiled and muttered to herself, "The door is right ......."

Chu Yan saw that her eyes were already bloodthirsty and terrifying, but he still nodded fiercely and said, "Yes! ”

Forsythia finally understood, her current wagging tail and begging for mercy is really ridiculous, is she still expecting anything? Suddenly looked up at him, laughed wildly, but her smile was very desolate, and then I heard her breathe a sigh of relief, and said: "Okay, I understand, your general Chu Yan will pay attention to the status of the court, I understand, but thank you, let me understand what it means to be unforgettable, I will look at you, I hope you will always be happy, I hope you will always be old, I will always bless you, you and ...... Xu Tianjiao. ”

Chu Yan nodded and said, "Okay, thank you for your blessings, don't leave it at that." With that, he turned and walked away without hesitation.

Forsythia still sat on the ground, this result was not what she wanted, she didn't ask any questions, what she wanted to say was not to hurt each other at all, she didn't want to bless him, she just wanted to let the current parting of ways go back to the past, but why did it become like this, who can tell her what happened? The person who swore that he would use his life to protect himself, but he had promised to marry someone else one second, and he became so strange in the next second, leaving only a sentence of "Don't say goodbye." "How could he be so cruel?

Shouldn't a fine work really deserve love? Are their lives really so tragic? She didn't believe that Chu Yan was a merciless person, but she was really injured, she gave the handkerchief out, but the next second she saw that the handkerchief was thrown on the ground by him, what a joke.

The winter night was so cold, Forsythia felt as if she was going to be frozen, she didn't wear an outer robe, so she only wore a single dress inside, and now she was outside for so long, but she felt cold and couldn't numb her wounded heart. Everything seemed to be dark, but it shrouded her in such darkness, and the darkness around her made her feel that she had nothing to love.