The Buddha said that there are seven sufferings in life: birth, old age, sickness, death, resentment, love, separation, and unwantedness. When applied to Taoism www.biquge.info pen, it is a cycle of cause and effect. I know that there is a knot between me and Shi Xiaohui. If this knot can't be untied, it won't be good for either of us in the long run.

After Bu Xiaoxin left, Shi Xiaohui regained her calm and sat opposite me. I lit another cigarette, sighed and said, "Xiaohui, you shouldn't embarrass her. ”

Shi Xiaohui lowered her head and said, "I'm sorry." But I just can't help it, especially seeing her holding your hand. ”

I replied, "Bu Xiaoxin and I are just friends. ”

Shi Xiaohui nodded and said, "I know, she likes you, but you don't like her." Zhang Shiyi, you still like me, right? ”

This sentence made me speechless. I didn't even know how to answer. I had to smile and continue smoking.

Shi Xiaohui said: "During the military training that day, I found out that you were not there, and I knew that something must have happened. Later, I heard that three students had acute meningitis, and I guessed that something must have happened to you. ”

I nodded and said, "Well, there was a bit of an accident, but the matter is settled." ”

Shi Xiaohui looked at me and said, "Eleven, I know you definitely like me." Otherwise, you wouldn't have dreamed of me. ”

I frowned, resentful of the illusion of the realm, I did say a little to the big cow. I didn't let Da Niu keep it secret, so Da Niu naturally told Shen Xue. It is not surprising that Shi Xiaohui knows. I shook my head and said, "That's just an illusion." ”

Shi Xiaohui said: "I have read novels, and the protagonists in them will be confused by what they care about most. Since you see me, you must care about me, right? Can you tell me what you went through in it? ”

I lowered my head and was silent for a moment. It seemed that it might be better to tell Shi Xiaohui, so I said, "If you want to hear it, I can talk to you." Listen to me, though. ”

Shi Xiaohui nodded and said, "Well, you say." ”

Pulling the cigarette off my hand, I said, "To be precise, it wasn't a dream, it was an illusion." Time in the illusion is still relative to the outside world. Inside, I had no cultivation left, and I could only live to be forty years old. ”

When Shi Xiaohui heard me say this, she asked worriedly, "What?" ”

I said, "That's just a fantasy." Let me finish my sentence. ”

Shi Xiaohui breathed a sigh of relief and said, "Okay." ”

I continued: "In the illusion, I lost all my cultivation, and I only had a lifespan of forty years. My master tried everything to no avail. In the end, he helped me change my life so that I could be with you. Speaking of which, I saw Shi Xiaohui's eyes full of expectation. Then he smiled and said, "Later, I was really with you, I bought you buns from the cafeteria, confessed to you in public, and then we became boyfriend and girlfriend." However, once I asked you to watch a movie, I found that in the fantasy world, there has not been a drop of rain for three months, but the weather forecast is obviously rainy. So, I suspected it was just an illusion, and then I came out. ”

Shi Xiaohui was a little disappointed, and then asked, "Do you want to tell me that even if you are in a dream, you will not want to be with me?" ”

I shook my head and said, "No, if it weren't for that flaw, I would have been addicted to it, and in the end, I would have been completely addicted to the illusion until I died." ”

When Shi Xiaohui heard me say this, a smile appeared on her face again and she said, "Eleven, is the change of life you just said really allow us to be together?" ”

"It's just an illusion. I also checked the book later, and it was true that there was such a thing as a change of life. However, that is just a legend, and the conditions to be met are almost impossible. Regardless of whether or not anyone is willing to sacrifice Dao Xing and Shou Yuan for me, it is impossible for me to come across a place where my life can change. ”

Shi Xiaohui was a little lost, nodded and said, "Forget it." Even if there were, I don't want you to do that. ”

I looked at Shi Xiaohui and suddenly felt reluctant. Biting his tongue, he felt a little sober, and then said, "Xiaohui, I am telling you this today, in fact, I want to say that I don't deny that I like you." However, we really can't be together. The more you do this, the more I can't let go. In the long run, you will feel pain, and it will become a knot in my heart. ”

Shi Xiaohui looked at me and said, "Then what can I do?" At first, I thought that it would be good to get used to it after a while. But I can see you every day at school. Well, when I don't see you during the summer vacation, I'll miss you again. You say, what should I do? ”

I'm a little speechless, why shouldn't I be like that myself? However, if you don't make it clear at this time, it will be even more troublesome in the future. I nodded and said, "Why don't I transfer schools?" ”

Shi Xiaohui hurriedly shook her head and said, "I don't want to." I have a solution, as long as you can bear it. ”

I frowned and asked, "What can you do?" ”

Shi Xiaohui said: "Didn't you say that we can't have skin-to-skin kisses? Then we will be spiritually in love. Do not hold hands and do not do deviant behavior. ”

"Divine Friend?" I wondered.

Shi Xiaohui nodded and said, "Yes, isn't online dating very popular recently?" We can do the same. When we usually meet, we don't know each other. Then we can write letters and be pen pals. ”

I have to say that Shi Xiaohui's proposal really moved me. In fact, since I came out of the illusion of resentment, I have had the urge to find Shi Xiaohui more than once. It's just that I'm going to be suppressed. At this time, Shi Xiaohui's proposal seems to be feasible. The next moment, I suddenly remembered the story of Brother Jiu, with Brother Jiu's state of mind cultivation in his twenties, it must be higher than me now, Brother Jiu can't help it, can I bear it? But seeing the hot gaze in Shi Xiaohui's eyes, those eyes were full of expectation. I couldn't bear to refuse.

Shi Xiaohui saw that I hadn't spoken, so she said, "Eleven, will you promise me?" I know what you think, but, don't you think, that's good? ”

I shook my head.

Shi Xiaohui said: "It's just a pen pal, maybe, after a while, we won't feel for each other, isn't that great?" It's better than not being willing now, we will always keep it in mind. ”

Perhaps, Shi Xiaohui is right. We just like each other, but not every couple who likes each other can grow old together. More of it, just because it ended before it started and kept it in mind. I nodded and said, "Okay, we can try." ”

Shi Xiaohui said excitedly: "Okay, you promise me." Then you go back, Bu Xiaoxin is here to help you after all, after you go back, you help me and say sorry to her. ”

I chose today, right? Or is it wrong?