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I immediately regretted it after saying it, how could I confess my heart so frankly? Doesn't that make you laugh all?

You can't just pursue the surface, what if you become the kind of person who is "fine and ruined"? If you want to do it, you have to do it all, not only "fine jade", but also "fine jade".

I laughed and said, "Well, I'm just laughing, I don't want to go back to being eighteen." An eighteen-year-old girl should be simple and smart, and I am twenty-seven, and I am already an old man. ”

She glanced at me, but ignored my words.

I cupped my cheeks and thought, "Then when do you think I should travel to?" After thinking about it, he looked at her and said, "Why don't I travel to the day before I die, and on the last day, I will hide in the house and not go out, so that I can get out of samsara." ”

She glanced at me and said, "It seems that you still don't understand what I said." Space-time is supported by many nodes, if there is only one node, do you think such space-time can exist? ”

I didn't say anything. She continued, "Your life is determined by the choices you make inadvertently, and while those choices may seem inconsequential at the moment, they invisibly determine your life and lead you to the final moment. ”

She sighed again and said, "Actually, I don't think I've taken a wrong step, and I didn't expect this ending now." ”

I whispered, "They say you died of depression because of an unhappy marriage." Perhaps, your mindset is too negative and sluggish, and you shouldn't be depressed. ”

She chuckled, "Yes, I told myself that I should be open-minded and positive. But,"

She suddenly smiled and said bitterly: "At that time, you have been supporting for so long, but everything around you is still constantly squeezing you, you don't know how long you will last, you don't know how long it will last, so you ...... You will think of a terrible word, but the more you fear it, the more it will chase after you, you want to escape, but there is nowhere to hide......"

She looked at me with a vacant look in her eyes and said, "Do you know what that feels like?" ”

My heart was stirred up, and after a while, I said in a deep voice: "I know, it's called depression." ”

At the age of twenty-two, wasn't he like that? The feeling of oppression and suffocation comes from the depths of my heart, and I am so eager to seek a warm light source, even if I just look at it from afar, grasping only a piece of its clothes, I will feel confident that I will not die.

But isn't that time gone? My depression has never come back. How could I do such a stupid thing on another plane?

She said sadly, "If so...... If I had had some sanity at that time, I would not have committed suicide by throwing myself into the lake. Because, because I don't know, I don't know what I'm doing. She breathed a sigh of relief, calmed her emotions, and said, "Actually, my depression is not very good, it has always been hidden, I am trying my best to avoid it, but I can't face it." ”

I comforted her, "Perhaps, you need courage; Perhaps, you take some things in your life too seriously and your heart is too heavy. Think about it, what could be more important than life? ”

She looked blank and said, "Maybe, no." ”

After a moment of silence, I said to her, "So you mean, if you were born again, you wish you didn't throw yourself into the lake, did you?" ”

She nodded, "It's just hope, I'm not sure if I would still choose the same outcome if I faced the same situation again." I'm just reminding you. ”

I thought for a while and said, "I've seen Lan Sheng, he's not a ruthless person, I don't understand, why are you and him unhappy in marriage?" Is it just because of him? ”

She recalled: "I traveled to the Southern Song Dynasty for only three days before marrying Lan Sheng. Like you, at first, I thought he was gentle and considerate, and he was a rare person. But after getting along for a long time, I found that I didn't know enough about him, and there were many disagreements between our ideologies. ”

I made the act of an emotional expert and pointed out to her: "Marriage is a matter of two people, and of course it cannot be maintained by the compromise of one party. Haven't you heard a phrase? 'A good woman is a man's school', the school is to teach the students, how can the students be led by the nose? ”

An indifferent smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, and she said, "Your words are always said so beautifully. ”

In order to prove that I don't just talk about it, I combined it with the actual situation and continued to point to her: "You married Lan Sheng too hastily, you haven't even met before." And there is no emotion when you are in love as the foundation of your marriage, so your marriage is not strong. ”

She gave me a blank look and said, "I wasn't allowed to say 'no' at the time." After a pause, he added, "Even if you know him, according to what you say, what can you do?" ”

I was stunned for a while, and after a while, I was convinced: "If you know him, you will definitely fall in love with him, know his temperament, and know how to get along in the future." ”

She looked at me, speechless, as if she was thinking about something.

I sat upright in front of the bronze mirror and said, "I know when I'm going to wear it back." He looked at her again and said, "I want to go back to the age of twenty-six, and know Lan Sheng before I marry him, so that he can fall in love with me." ”

She was silent for a moment and said, "Before you go back, I need to tell you a few more words." ”

"What?" I asked.

"First of all, you have to remember that time and space are certain, and there are some things that you can't change; Secondly, take care of your life and don't do anything suicidal. ”

"Anything else?" I pursed my lips.

She twisted her eyebrows and said: "There are many other things, I haven't been able to tell you, you have seen it just now, it's not that I don't want to say it, it's because I can't say it, so after I go back, I have to know how to adapt to anything." After a pause, he said, "I hope you can get out." ”

I said, "I remember everything, I will be more well-behaved, I will spare my life, and I will be smarter." Then he looked around and said, "You have to cherish it when you are alone here, and you can't think about those sad things anymore, I will take you out." ”

A smile tugged at her somewhat pale face.

I put my hand on the bronze mirror and meditated in my mind about how I was twenty-five. The originally dim mirror suddenly gave birth to a dazzling light, just like the time when I was in the Spirit Lake, and then, a powerful force was pulling and tearing me, I closed my eyes, waiting for all this to return to calm.

The fists in his hands were clenched, and his teeth couldn't help but clench.

Finally, that power was gone.

A crisp male voice next to his ear said, "Sister Zhu, why are you still eating?" ”

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